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🧜🏻‍♀️ ellejohara 🎨 maker of art things 🏳️‍🌈 queer 🏳️‍⚧️ trans ♠️ aroace 🥭 they/them ⏳ over level 50 🧙🏻‍♀️definitely a witch

[astridellejo]

Meet the Artist · 2026

New year, new intro thingy. I now have four of these.

[astridellejo]

Yesterday I hit a kind of saturation point with relating to all the Autism/ADHD/AuDHD jokes, memes, and anecdotes, and I finally realized just how disabled I actually am. Like moisture falling out of my eyeballs levels of realization.

I'm like, "Holy shit. This has fucked with me my entire goddamn life and I spent the overwhelming majority of that time thinking I was normal-ish." Yeah, I knew I had ADHD since middle school, but at no point in my life did I ever consider that to be disabling. All I needed to do was drink enough caffeine and I'd be mostly fine.

But caffeine couldn't tweak my other behavioral oddities such as:

the noise is too bright / the light is too loud

i'm sorry i haven't emailed you back. i forgot your email existed because it scrolled down past the bottom of the email window and wasn't visible in my inbox anymore

the face i pull / the tone of my voice :: WHAT TONE?! WHAT FACE?! WHAT DID I DO?!?!

why yes, i did listen to that album 67 times in a row

hot foods and cold foods aren't supposed to touch on my plate

could you just, like, lay on top of me and squoosh me? please?

Growing up, I was utterly baffled that everyone else seemed to be breezing through life, but I was getting snagged on every minuscule obstacle like I was walking through a field of thorny bushes. The adults in my life told me I was "very bright" and "full of potential", but I felt like I was barely treading water. I couldn't explain why things were challenging. They just were, and it was so frustrating!

So finding out at age 50 that I'm autistic/adhd as fuck was welcome news, but I really wish I had known and understood this 40 fucking years sooner.

Anyway, I've kind of accepted I've got both autism and ADHD in my headmeats like some kind of foreboding chocolate peanut butter cup melting on my mental dashboard. There's no fixing it, I'm always going to be like this. I can be sad and angry about it, or I can take the fucking mask of and just be the neurodivergent weirdo I've obviously (and obliviously) been my whole life.

Shit. How do you unmask? I've been faking being normal for so long, I code switch back to it in self-defense when I recognize myself doing one of my AuDHD behavioral oddities. Ugh. This is going to be hard, isn't it.

[astridellejo]

If I ever do fan art for a fic, I'm just gonna do the fan art and tag it appropriately. I'm not gonna try and contact the author first because that would be weird.

I mean, oh my glob! Cold calling a complete stranger? Allowing myself to be perceived by another person?!?!

No. Let me just quietly leave this art on the communal fridge and hope that they might possibly see it someday and if they don't then that's just the way the universe works today I guess.

[astridellejo]

I thoroughly enjoyed Spider-Noir, and appreciated that it is more noir than spider. Nicolas Cage is excellent at being a spider pretending to be a man. Brendan Gleeson as Silvermane is fantastic. Flint Marko is a fascinating character. Love Janet. Love Robbie. Absolutely love Robbie doing the spoilery thing in episode eight. I bet Lamorne Morris had fun with that.

I haven't seen the color version (yet), but it surprised me to see how saturated the colors are. But then I remembered that Dick Tracy is also a comic book based noir and it's full of saturated colors too.

Anyway, well done. Would watch again.

[astridellejo]

Oof. I wish I was better at pretending to be a functional person.

[astridellejo]

Whoa. Looking at ao3 as a total noob is like trying to drink the ocean.

[mollyringle]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

IT IS DONE! The 94,000-word fic I wrote during the last year (instead of working on, say, a book) is 100% posted! It's wangxian, but if you like m/m contemporary romance with some magic, it should work fine for you even without canon knowledge. Enjoy, and do share and comment. 💜 (The final chapter has karaoke as a [silly] grand romantic gesture. There's just a lot of fluffiness to the whole fic honestly. It was the mood I needed.)

[astridellejo]

My friend wrote a book* and if you're into Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji, but in a modern AU, go give it a look! (accidental rhyme)

* novel length fanfic

She has written many books, actually, which have been released in traditional paper format. Check those out as well by following her Tumblr.

[astridellejo]

Northern Air Temple

I spent all day inking one page. This is the first panel of that page.

[astridellejo]

Look at this excruciating attention to detail I'm doing to ensure my airbender OC, Anouk, blends into the canon story as smoothly as possible.

I made my own color reference image from the airbenders in the art book, and seamlessly-ish blended in Anouk at the center. [Not pictured: Tenzin, Bumi, Opal, Ryu]

I also made a spreadsheet to keep track of who is where in Book Three because I'm just that autistic.

I don't know if the background airbenders have canonical names. I couldn't find any evidence of it online, so I gave them names myself to keep them organized in my head. (Whatever. It's fanfic.) Most names are blurred out because, I don't know, spoilers or something for my airbender girlfriends comics.

Why am I doing this? This isn't my world. These aren't my characters. (Well, a couple of them are.) The answer is that I just like spending time in this world. ATLA is awesome but The Legend of Korra is my jam, and I'm really looking forward to Seven Havens.

Read part one of my comic HERE

Read part two of my comic HERE

[astridellejo]

I want to be an airbender so I can maintain a stable pocket of barometric pressure around my body at all times.

The gliding and air bison are cool, too.

[astridellejo]

Universe, please let me be an airbender instead of an airbendee.

[astridellejo]

I finally got around to watching Good Omens 3 and my response at the end was just:

... Huh.

Which is actually a better response than the one I had for that other series ending a few weeks (months?) back on a different streaming platform.

[titaniarts]

tyzula sleeping together ❤️

[astridellejo]

Tyzula - Running Late

[elleniciii]

[astridellejo]

I find it amusing that I'm finally making my first fanfic and it's not about a blorbo or a ship.

[astridellejo]

I got an F in Chat. "You mean F in the chat?" No!

[slaps down report card]

Body Language....................D Chat........................................F Eye Contact..........................C+ Facial Expression.................D+ Making Friends.....................W Reading the Room...............D

[astridellejo]

Threads from the Blue Rock Tapestry

Today is Webcomic Day and I make a webcomic! Been making it since 2014. It's alternate universe(s) urban fantasy where one world has magic and the other does not. It has an extensive and diverse cast of characters (around 30 at last count) with intertwining lives weaving together like some kind of ... I can't think of the word for it. Blanket.

It's almost 500 pages (490 and counting) and updates almost every Monday. - ellejohara.com/threads