[aswangs]

'DI AKO MASAMANG TAO, PUMAPATAY LANG AKO ( i'm not a bad person, i just kill ) [ ... ] NANG KALUNGKUTAN KO. PATI NG SA 'YO ( my sadness, even yours ) — PAG IBIG AY KANIBALISMO II ( love is cannibalism, ii ), fitterkarma

an independent original character set in the horror genre, based on filipino mythology but utilizes original lore. heavily inspired by karen kusama and diablo cody's jennifer's body (2009). a study of when your worship becomes what demonizes you. please be at least 21+ to interact.

temporary biography in the cut below. to be updated as the muse is developed. temporary rules can be found here.

trigger warning for mentions of pregnancy, pregnancy loss, religion, devil worship and sacrifice, etc. please continue at your discretion.

NAME. sofia ysabel magbanua bautista NICKNAMES. commonly referred to as pia by friends and former family AGE. immortalized at 25 years of age GENDER / PRONOUNS. cis woman, she/her ETHNICITY. filipino NATIONALITY. naturalized u.s. citizen LOCATION. anywhere, usa. FACECLAIM. nadine lustre / kathryn bernardo depending on how i'm feeling that day SEXUALITY. bisexual, due to her traumas she leans heavily toward women

pia was born and raised in a very catholic household. she grew up attending church and her family was even part of a program where young people gathered to study the bible and pray together / for each other. they gathered weekly, and it's become an important part of pia's routine, so much so that she chose to study at a college nearby so she can still participate in the community's events. pia kept a lot of catholic values as she grew up, including abstaining from premarital sex.

in this community, she met a boy. mark ocampo. a family friend turned lover, high school sweethearts who continued their relationship throughout time. after having been together long enough, when she was 24, she caved to her desire ( and mark's attempts at convincing her ), and had sex with him. unfortunately, given the inadequate sex education she received, pia fell pregnant. but it was all okay because she had someone who loved her, right? wrong.

mark fled, afraid of taking accountability for his actions, stating he was too young to be a father and he still had his dreams of being a professional nba player ahead of him. and pia was consequently disowned by her parents.

grief stricken, pia resorted to getting help from friends to get by. one day, she met carter strickland. a tech mogul wannabe who spent too much time absorbing youtube conspiracy videos. he came across a theory that the 1% all got to where they were by sacrificing something to the devil. and when he met poor, devout catholic pia, he decided on making her the sacrifice, assuming she was a virgin.

pia was still early on in her pregnancy, and her frame didn't show a bump. she hung out with carter, who promised her a couch to crash on in his one bedroom apartment, and she woke up in the middle of a ritual. to carter's surprise, the ritual worked, and the devil appeared, but it did not make him rich. instead, pia was the one punished.

the baby was taken from her, and her body split in half. the devil gave her wings to allow her to fly, but half of her body would always detach from her when the hunger striked. she would become a demon now, one she'd only heard from the stories told by her parents. a manananggal, a creature known for devouring human flesh, a type of shapeshifter known as an aswang. as part of the curse, she killed carter from her hunger, and now, she has to live with the consequences of someone else's actions.

traditionally, manananggals feed on fetuses, and often target pregnant women who were sleeping. however, pia makes the conscious decision to not take someone's child the way hers was ripped from her. instead, she lures men by means of seduction, and devours their internal organs.

[aratsaka]

if it didn't catch him so off guard, it might have been funny. he's in the middle of eating his cheeseburger when she says it, and mack just stares at her as she says it. what's your deal? “ god, where should i even start? ” he says back, eyebrow raised before he takes another bite. a glob of ketchup falls onto the tray, which he doesn't register.

“ um... i'm bipolar, to start. that's a bitch to deal with. ” he says after he chews, then sets his burger down and wipes his hands off with a napkin. “ that's mostly uh... my deal. ” mack pauses, reaching for his drink — a disgusting concoction of every soda in the fountain that he loves. “ is that what you meant? ”

[aswangs]

she watches him intently,   absorbing every detail from the way he’s eating the cheeseburger to the droplets of ketchup that falls onto the tray.   she grimaces,   only half listening to whatever it is he’s actually saying to her,   though she must say she’s surprised he’s not offended.   people often are if one were to ask what was wrong with them.   including her.

“  i guess,  ”   she responds,   her shoulders lifting   &   falling into a shrug.   now,   the real question :   “  do you take something for it?  ”     a beat as her mind races to find something to rationalize such a question.     “  i feel like everyone these days is on something.  ”     at least,   from what she can smell from her    current options   of a food source.     “  it’s okay if you are.   i’m not judgy.  ”     nowadays,   that is.

[widelyroyalfury]

Oh... I forgot this Sexiest Female Vampire in Philippines Mythology

[aratsaka]

she's odd. he watches her with his head tilted slightly before he says it, eyes narrowing slightly but not enough to be noticed. “ you know, they say that the people we least expect could be. they're our friends and sisters and fathers, or whatever. ” at least, he thought he heard that quote one time. mack pauses, turning to look at her. “ i'd hope you're not a killer. at least you don't seem like one. do i? ”

[aswangs]

a soft laugh stumbles clumsily out of her mouth   at his response,   speaking of statistics that everyone’s seen a countless number of times.   if he adds   victims of bullying   to that list,   he’d be correct.   the victim is a friend of her ex’s,   who made fun of her for being disowned in the aftermath of it all. less waste to dispose of, if anyone were to ask her.     “  no,   i’m not a killer.  ”     she tears her gaze away from the television   &   looks up at him.     “  hmm,   i don’t know.   you certainly seem edgy.   your aesthetic,   anyway.  ”     a shrug.    “  but you’re right,  you know.   killers could be anyone.   i mean,   how often have you heard about how wonderful people are in those documentaries?  ”

[aswangs]

I KNOW HIM,   she’d uttered quietly as the photograph of the murder victim appeared on the television screen.    Right before she’d blushed   &   corrected herself.   Not in the I was the last person he saw that night way.   @aratsaka’s response had caught her off guard.   “Sorry,  it looks like you’re involved.”   It takes a moment to register that he might be joking.   Or that he could be,  as long as she doesn’t act suspicious.     “  You’re funny.  ”     A nervous laugh comes out of her mouth.     “  Do I look like I could be a killer?  ”

[bbaebii]

hello love goodbye [2019]

↳ ethan x joy moments pt. ii

[mistfallenmemes]

𝙷𝙾𝚆𝙻’𝚂 𝙼𝙾𝚅𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙲𝙰𝚂𝚃𝙻𝙴 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁𝚂

“Sorry I’m late, I was looking everywhere for you.”

“I’ve had enough of running away.”

“Don't be alarmed, but I'm being followed. Act normal.”

“A heart’s a heavy burden.”

“Now I’m repulsive. I can’t live like this.”

“He's calling the spirits of darkness... I saw him do this once before when a girl dumped him!”

“Now I’ve got something I want to protect. It’s you.”

“She likes my spark!”

“Sorry, it looks like you're involved.”

“Find me in the future!”

“Knowing you'd be there gave me the courage to show up.”

“I'm such a big coward, all I do is hide.”

“I just organized things. Nothing’s ruined.”

“May all your bacon burn.”

“I see no point in living if I can’t be beautiful.”

“Your hair looks just like starlight.”

“I seem to have become quite cunning in my old age.”

“I’m trying to hurry but I can’t seem to stop crying.”

“I feel terrible. Like there’s a weight on my chest.”

“What difference does it make?”

“So what do you have in your pocket?”

“That boy is extremely dangerous.”

“It looks like your true love is in love with someone else!”

“I’d appreciate it if you wouldn’t torment my friend.”

“It’s all in flames now.”

“You are by far the tackiest thing here.”

“Wait! You can't come up here!”

“My own kind attacked me today.”

“Let’s get cooking.”

“I don’t cook!”

“I have this weird feeling you're going to leave.”

“Tell me what's going on! Please.”

“I don't care if you're a monster.”

“She almost smothered me!”

“You're being so obedient.”

“So that did happen, it wasn't a dream.”

“I’m a scary and powerful fire demon!”

“You sabotaged me!”

“What possessed you to let them in my house?”

“Looks like we have another addition to the family.”

“Look! Look at what you’ve done to my hair! Look!”

“The nice thing about being old is you’ve got nothing much to lose.”

“It's all so familiar yet I know I've never been here before. I feel so at home.”

“I’ve never felt so peaceful before.”

“They say that the best blaze burns brightest when circumstances are at their worst.”

“Yeah, but no one really believes that. Come on, let's be honest.”

“You sound ghastly, like some 90-year-old woman.”

“It was a pleasure meeting you, even if you are my least favorite vegetable!”

“Take care, Turniphead!”

“You didn’t have to come back.”

[aswangs]

pia finds herself at some sort of food establishment. a strange appearance considering she isn't really eating anything, and more so lazily nursing a mug of hot cocoa that's turned cold. she takes a deep breath in, as if to scan the area for any perspective nutrient supply. the human kind, the type that makes her a monster. instead, all she finds are people whose bodies involve all sorts of chemicals.

she stares at the man beside her, blank and empty. “ so, what's your deal? ” it's almost like she also forgot how to be a human being and socialize when she became the creature she is. she should probably apologize, let out a soft laugh to indicate she is joking, but she isn't, and she simply waits for his response, should he give her one.

@aratsaka / starter call.

[aswangs]

“ nice place. ” it's a compliment that doesn't seem like a compliment. pia doesn't exactly smile, but she's not frowning either. it's strange to be around people considering the horrors of it all, but well —— she has to be employed. she has things to pay, like rent, and as much as she would love to devour her landlord, she's certain that kind of gruesome crime will immediately lead to her being caught then having a true crime documentary made about her. motivation and all of that. except, no one will know the real story because monsters like her don't exist, right?

she doesn't feel the need to force a smile here. but she does consider it. “ are you guys hiring? i can wash dishes, or something. or do more custodial work. nursing school bills aren't cheap. ” she lets out a breath, an almost laugh, a bitter sound considering all things that happened.

@bundledmisery / starter call.

[aswangs]

like for a starter. kthxbye.

[goodvibesandmemes]

BOOK MEMES: Random book quotes IV ↳ Please feel free to tweak them etc.

“Desire makes idiots of all of us.” “Let them hate, so long as they fear.” “The dead know everything, but don't give a damn.” “Of all the riches he possesses, the right to complain is his most treasured.” “Am I walking toward something I should be running away from?” “I won't be okay, but I will be better” “The very shapes of the trees were like frozen screams.” “They tried to kill me, [ name ], that means I get to try to kill them.” “Anything is better than lies and deceit!” “You were the centre of my universe and everything else spun around you.” “I’m hopelessly in love with him.” “Perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone.” “Don’t let anyone in on how much you know. That upper hand will be the one that saves you.” “It’s violent work that sustains the fantasy.” “To learn what we fear is to learn who we are. Horror defies our boundaries and illuminates our souls.” “We're here to make magic with words” “It's an ancient technique known as lying, [ name ].” “Change isn't always comfortable, but it is a fact of life.” “I am the only one who gets to decide what is in my best interest. Not you, [ name ].” “Name one hero who was happy.” “No mourners. No funerals.” “I want to survive this world that keeps trying to destroy me.” “Fear and guilt are sisters.” “Books are meant to be touched, otherwise they’re useless.” “Didn’t someone say love is a shared delusion?” “I am made of memories.” “Be glad of your human heart, [ name ]. Pity those who don’t feel anything at all.” “Wherever we are, we want to be somewhere else.” “They are not terrible. They are just the truth.” “I didn’t hurt her. I loved her.” “You never know what you are going to want until you see it clearly.” “I've spent the last fortnight fearing you would destroy me. You may still.” “No live organism can continue for long to exist sanely under conditions of absolute reality.” “If you ever loved me, it was because I was a soft thing you threw down into the bottom of a pit to break your fall.” “We are all someone's monster.” “Always look on the bright side. And if there is no bright side? Look away.” “Are you now so deluded you think you exist outside the category of everything?” “Not all those who wander are lost.” “Men mock the gods until they need them.” “They tell you revenge isn't worth it. I say there's nothing finer.” “Be selfish, be brave.” “A bad memory shared between two people carries with it only half the pain.” “I am a kind of stray cat, aren’t I?” “The heart is an arrow. It demands aim to land true.” “People do not know what to make of me, and this pleases me. I don't want to be scrutable.” “It’s hard to accept what you don’t want to see.” “He is half of my soul, as the poets say.” “Despite logical input from a conscious mind, a body fears what it fears.” “I feel like I could eat the world raw.” “Mors irrumat omnia. Death fucks us all.” “…there is no such thing as humane colonization.” “I have done at least one good thing: become a person my father would hate.” “I'm a business man, no more, no less.” “Clever folk aren’t popular, by and large. They arouse suspicion. They don’t fit in.”