GAYDEN

Shits and giggles

[aszzzleep]

BRO (explodes)

Facts abt me💨

I have adhd

I have social anxiety (in therapy for it)

Idk much more to put other

I love marble hornets and creepypasta

Also sally face

I read, sometimes horror, sometimes romance. Mostly romance (i haven’t read my fnaf books in AGGGEEEEES)

I like drawing cats I made up😈

[aszzzleep]

Wow so I was diagnosed with autism yesterday.. so great! I now have ADHD and Autism😦

[aszzzleep]

NO LONGER AM IN THERAPY FOR SOCIAL ANXIETY!!!!!

[meefy]

[sun-and-flames]

/ HSR 3.1 spoilers

About the Flame Reaver and his depiction in the story

What I find really interesting about the Flame Reaver's character in 3.1 is how... coherent and to a certain extent levelheaded he is. I assumed he'd be much more violent and destructive in nature and ofc course, he is, but not to the extent I expected him to be. I didn't assume he's completely insane, but at least far more lost than how he actually turned out to be.

I didn't assume conversations - almost rational ones - would be possible with him for example.

In this instance especially. The way he talks and his voice trails off at the "from me" part - distortions aside - almost sounds sorrowful.

He doesn't kill mindlessly either. He would've walked away and let Krateros live too if he hadn't opposed him like this(even going as far and say "pity" when Krateros doesn't back down). And before he says this line he also sighs.

This is the part that I didn't think we'd get from him. I didn't expect him to ask questions, to ponder why Krateros would risk (and ultimately sacrifice) his life for Trianne.

In the Grove, he gave them a chance too and only attacked when we obviously didn't back down.

Also, he is not overly brutal and violent either. He kills swiftly and is efficient. If possible, a single slash for an opponent. He mentions "a single strike" in his conversation with Krateros too. It seems, to him, using a weapon is a means to an end but he doesn't necessarily take pleasure in fighting and killing given how quickly he (attempts to) deal with opponents.

All this makes it even more tragic should the Flame Reaver really be Phainon. Like, what happened to you?? The way the Flame Reaver talks and accentuates words makes him sound like Phainon in a very distant way even and to see that - despite being born from the Black Tide as told in the story - the Flame Reaver is not just a mindless killer is actually painful to witness if this theory turns out to be true.

He's way too rational and I think in the end it's gonna make it even more devastating once the truth about his identity is revealed.

[ilove-yanli]

Re: Mydei's Library Burning Down

I have a few questions coming into mind about Khaslana / Flame Reaver burning Mydei's library down.

Did Khaslana / Flame Reaver ACTIVELY burn the library down after killing Mydei in ER#108642?

How hot are the Coreflames, exactly? Khaslana had about a million Coreflames in ER#108642. If he didn't actively burn the library down, the heat of the Coreflames may have done the job for him.

How much needless violence did Khaslana participate in? He had to kill Cyrene in every cycle to see through their promise of saving Amphoreus from Destruction. In ER#42, he became more violent and apathetic.

If the Flame Reaver actively burnt down Mydei's library, did this behavior pass on to EVERY Flame Reaver? Or the Flame Reaver lost feelings after that? Because if the Flame Reaver truly didn't care, he would've actually spared the library since it won't do him any good of collecting Coreflames anyway.

At some point along the way, the Flame Reaver lost feelings and became depraved enough to just want Coreflames. We see this in 3.1 where he directly aims for Mydei's back instead of opting for a fair duel like in ER#108642. At which point did the Flame Reaver become apathetic enough to no longer feel grief from killing Mydei?

And lastly, EVERY SIGN POINTS to the Destruction of Mydei's Library as an emotional crashout on Khaslana's part rather than a physical one. How much has this action tormented him to the point of burning down the library and destroying everything that reminds him of Mydei (and whatever they shared)?

"But, if there's a chance in the next life, you should come visit my library."

Khaslana: *breaks down as he burns the library*

Source (I forgot to place this):

[lusticiars]

the gods laugh / while history will say / your love was too high a price to pay / oh, paris

[crochoukuro]

experimenting with demiurge

[kevmeisu]

you think that when khaslana, in the 33,550,336th cycle, was at the grove, ready to take the coreflame of reason, he didn't expect anaxa to attempt to merge himself with the coreflame by force. because that has never happened in past cycles before.

because it makes me insane how anaxa in all of the past cycles we saw, despite him not believing in the flamechase journey, he was always the one who would work with khaslana without questioning or hostility. khaslana, of course, knowing this, likely expected to be able to retrieve the coreflame of reason without a hitch - because his body and soul, along with his humanity deteriorates with the more he intakes the coreflames and experiences the cycles, he's had to change his methods of obtaining the coreflames over time. because the other chrysos heirs were already hostile towards him, not believing he was telling the truth, so it would only worsen if he continued with his original methods. he never expected anaxa to do what he did.

anaxa was the one person who complied with him without much of a problem. and he still confronted him on his messiah-like plan, not wanting him to be any more sacrifical than he already was, for the sake of something he wasn't even exactly sure would come to pass. because anaxa is reason.

thinking about how much more devastated khaslana must have been to be too late in stopping something he didn't even know would happen in this cycle. when he watched anaxa unconscious sitting on the luminary throne, how angry do you think he must have been with himself? he couldn't even bring himself to kill anaxa off in that moment. he just kept on watching him until we arrived on the scene. and when khaslana saw us, do you think that's when he realized that This cycle was different? perhaps slight hope that this cycle would be the one to change things, yet still incredibly anguished because the One person who he never truly had to worry about retrieving the coreflame from in other cycles was now in front of him, unresponsive and breathing shallow because of it.

how he never chose to attack anaxa while he continued to sit unconscious. and when anaxa finally woke up, his emotions must have only heightened; relief that anaxa was okay, but distraught because now, he would Have to attack anaxa as well, so he wouldn't expose himself.

how in 3.1, when anaxa was used as bait to buy us time against him, khaslana never actually tried to kill anaxa when they were fighting, despite him knowing full well he could and was able to. and when anaxa took the time coreflame back from him, he didn't stop him.

how he never showed up in 3.2 to try to get the reason and time coreflames back because he finally knew this cycle would be different but also because he knew that if he tried, anaxa would die without the coreflame.

yet after anaxa died, he went back to his method of killing the others to take their coreflames. anaxa was his exception, in multiple ways, than one; not having to worry about trying to take the reason coreflame from him in other cycles, up to now where he chose to make the decisions he made, keeping anaxa alive by not removing the flame from him and allowing him to take back the coreflame of time, and letting him uncover the truth of amphoreus' cyclical nature.

he who has been losing his humanity but the amount of emotions anaxa made him feel as he saw him in the grove... that, too, is reason. and it may not always be at the forefront of his mind, but that reason has always kept him tethered.

[reereezee]

There’s something so fascinating about the way Phainon turns his head away from Anaxa’s death. He doesn’t flinch, he deliberately looks away, like even knowing it was Anaxa’s choice doesn’t make it any easier to witness. It’s such a small, human moment, but it speaks volumes. He can’t bear to watch someone he cares about slip away, even on their own terms.

And then there’s Khaslana. The Flame Reaver. The one who’s spent countless cycles stealing coreflames, who did it so many times he's lost hesitation. You’d think by now it would be second nature. But when it’s Anaxa, he looks down too. He doesn’t meet his eyes. He doesn’t watch the life leave. He just stabs and keeps his gaze low, like it’s the one thing he won’t let himself see.

It was so subtle that you only notice when you look closely. He only looks back at Anaxa in surprise after he realizes what Anaxa was trying to do.

It’s such a beautiful symmetry, Phainon and Khaslana, different but at the very core is the same person. Both unable to watch Anaxa’s final moment, because they care so much about him. No words are exchanged, but the way they both look away says more than any confession ever could.

[samuraseiichi]

listening to 505

[aszzzleep]

I was, coincidentally, listening to 505 a few minutes before seeing this.😭

[dimiart]

Passing on the torch

[ilove-yanli]

Re: Mydei's Library Burning Down

I have a few questions coming into mind about Khaslana / Flame Reaver burning Mydei's library down.

Did Khaslana / Flame Reaver ACTIVELY burn the library down after killing Mydei in ER#108642?

How hot are the Coreflames, exactly? Khaslana had about a million Coreflames in ER#108642. If he didn't actively burn the library down, the heat of the Coreflames may have done the job for him.

How much needless violence did Khaslana participate in? He had to kill Cyrene in every cycle to see through their promise of saving Amphoreus from Destruction. In ER#42, he became more violent and apathetic.

If the Flame Reaver actively burnt down Mydei's library, did this behavior pass on to EVERY Flame Reaver? Or the Flame Reaver lost feelings after that? Because if the Flame Reaver truly didn't care, he would've actually spared the library since it won't do him any good of collecting Coreflames anyway.

At some point along the way, the Flame Reaver lost feelings and became depraved enough to just want Coreflames. We see this in 3.1 where he directly aims for Mydei's back instead of opting for a fair duel like in ER#108642. At which point did the Flame Reaver become apathetic enough to no longer feel grief from killing Mydei?

And lastly, EVERY SIGN POINTS to the Destruction of Mydei's Library as an emotional crashout on Khaslana's part rather than a physical one. How much has this action tormented him to the point of burning down the library and destroying everything that reminds him of Mydei (and whatever they shared)?

"But, if there's a chance in the next life, you should come visit my library."

Khaslana: *breaks down as he burns the library*

Source (I forgot to place this):

[sun-and-flames]

/ HSR 3.1 spoilers

About the Flame Reaver and his depiction in the story

What I find really interesting about the Flame Reaver's character in 3.1 is how... coherent and to a certain extent levelheaded he is. I assumed he'd be much more violent and destructive in nature and ofc course, he is, but not to the extent I expected him to be. I didn't assume he's completely insane, but at least far more lost than how he actually turned out to be.

I didn't assume conversations - almost rational ones - would be possible with him for example.

In this instance especially. The way he talks and his voice trails off at the "from me" part - distortions aside - almost sounds sorrowful.

He doesn't kill mindlessly either. He would've walked away and let Krateros live too if he hadn't opposed him like this(even going as far and say "pity" when Krateros doesn't back down). And before he says this line he also sighs.

This is the part that I didn't think we'd get from him. I didn't expect him to ask questions, to ponder why Krateros would risk (and ultimately sacrifice) his life for Trianne.

In the Grove, he gave them a chance too and only attacked when we obviously didn't back down.

Also, he is not overly brutal and violent either. He kills swiftly and is efficient. If possible, a single slash for an opponent. He mentions "a single strike" in his conversation with Krateros too. It seems, to him, using a weapon is a means to an end but he doesn't necessarily take pleasure in fighting and killing given how quickly he (attempts to) deal with opponents.

All this makes it even more tragic should the Flame Reaver really be Phainon. Like, what happened to you?? The way the Flame Reaver talks and accentuates words makes him sound like Phainon in a very distant way even and to see that - despite being born from the Black Tide as told in the story - the Flame Reaver is not just a mindless killer is actually painful to witness if this theory turns out to be true.

He's way too rational and I think in the end it's gonna make it even more devastating once the truth about his identity is revealed.

[masochist-marmot]

Spoilers for HSR 3.4

Khaslana points out that Mydei hasn't meant the nickname Deliverer sincerely since the very first cycle. By this he probably means what Mydei calls him, as in the Khaslana that's gone through all the cycles, and not the Phainon who's living his first cycle. He might still call his own Phainon Deliverer and mean it. Yet I imagine that knowing where Phainon's journey leads him makes it difficult for Mydei to believe in the idea of a Deliverer at all.

But. Eventually there came a cycle where Khaslana stopped explaining his time travel deal to the Chrysos heirs and began concealing his identity. And that's the cycle where Mydei could once again call his Phainon the Deliverer and sincerely mean it (and we know from Aglaea's earlier words that he does).

I wonder which cycle it was.

[sun-and-flames]

// hsr spoilers

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How about I go cry now?

Even in his deteriorated state, even with his body burned until nothing but charred bones remain, he's still holding onto that hope... Still clinging to that glimmer of hope that one day... one day that hero will come...

[kevmeisu]

you think that when khaslana, in the 33,550,336th cycle, was at the grove, ready to take the coreflame of reason, he didn't expect anaxa to attempt to merge himself with the coreflame by force. because that has never happened in past cycles before.

because it makes me insane how anaxa in all of the past cycles we saw, despite him not believing in the flamechase journey, he was always the one who would work with khaslana without questioning or hostility. khaslana, of course, knowing this, likely expected to be able to retrieve the coreflame of reason without a hitch - because his body and soul, along with his humanity deteriorates with the more he intakes the coreflames and experiences the cycles, he's had to change his methods of obtaining the coreflames over time. because the other chrysos heirs were already hostile towards him, not believing he was telling the truth, so it would only worsen if he continued with his original methods. he never expected anaxa to do what he did.

anaxa was the one person who complied with him without much of a problem. and he still confronted him on his messiah-like plan, not wanting him to be any more sacrifical than he already was, for the sake of something he wasn't even exactly sure would come to pass. because anaxa is reason.

thinking about how much more devastated khaslana must have been to be too late in stopping something he didn't even know would happen in this cycle. when he watched anaxa unconscious sitting on the luminary throne, how angry do you think he must have been with himself? he couldn't even bring himself to kill anaxa off in that moment. he just kept on watching him until we arrived on the scene. and when khaslana saw us, do you think that's when he realized that This cycle was different? perhaps slight hope that this cycle would be the one to change things, yet still incredibly anguished because the One person who he never truly had to worry about retrieving the coreflame from in other cycles was now in front of him, unresponsive and breathing shallow because of it.

how he never chose to attack anaxa while he continued to sit unconscious. and when anaxa finally woke up, his emotions must have only heightened; relief that anaxa was okay, but distraught because now, he would Have to attack anaxa as well, so he wouldn't expose himself.

how in 3.1, when anaxa was used as bait to buy us time against him, khaslana never actually tried to kill anaxa when they were fighting, despite him knowing full well he could and was able to. and when anaxa took the time coreflame back from him, he didn't stop him.

how he never showed up in 3.2 to try to get the reason and time coreflames back because he finally knew this cycle would be different but also because he knew that if he tried, anaxa would die without the coreflame.

yet after anaxa died, he went back to his method of killing the others to take their coreflames. anaxa was his exception, in multiple ways, than one; not having to worry about trying to take the reason coreflame from him in other cycles, up to now where he chose to make the decisions he made, keeping anaxa alive by not removing the flame from him and allowing him to take back the coreflame of time, and letting him uncover the truth of amphoreus' cyclical nature.

he who has been losing his humanity but the amount of emotions anaxa made him feel as he saw him in the grove... that, too, is reason. and it may not always be at the forefront of his mind, but that reason has always kept him tethered.

[kevmeisu]

is this anything

[reereezee]

There’s something so fascinating about the way Phainon turns his head away from Anaxa’s death. He doesn’t flinch, he deliberately looks away, like even knowing it was Anaxa’s choice doesn’t make it any easier to witness. It’s such a small, human moment, but it speaks volumes. He can’t bear to watch someone he cares about slip away, even on their own terms.

And then there’s Khaslana. The Flame Reaver. The one who’s spent countless cycles stealing coreflames, who did it so many times he's lost hesitation. You’d think by now it would be second nature. But when it’s Anaxa, he looks down too. He doesn’t meet his eyes. He doesn’t watch the life leave. He just stabs and keeps his gaze low, like it’s the one thing he won’t let himself see.

It was so subtle that you only notice when you look closely. He only looks back at Anaxa in surprise after he realizes what Anaxa was trying to do.

It’s such a beautiful symmetry, Phainon and Khaslana, different but at the very core is the same person. Both unable to watch Anaxa’s final moment, because they care so much about him. No words are exchanged, but the way they both look away says more than any confession ever could.