2019
Another year - another end of year reflective post:
Overall, I have to say the year has been positive - it’s been good. I managed to travel to a few new countries, changed my job once again to something better and slightly more paid, and there wasn’t any “exceptional” drama. No severe health issues or traumas, or anything too out of the ordinary to handle.
I traveled:
Prague (for work)
Italy (for fun!)
Lebanon (for fun!)
Paris (for work)
Egypt (for work)
Seychelles (for fun!)
My travels this year were really amazing.
The year brought together a new group of friends that I spent a lot of time with. Overall we did get close... it was positive vibes... good energy and laughs but towards the end of the year the group kind of broke up on its own. The vibe changed and there were a lot of complexities and weirdness there. Looking back I don't have regrets. I don't feel like I wasted my year, but I am disappointed that things have changed between us and it's just not the same drama free group that I once went to for a change of mood and laughter. I fell for one of the guys in our group and of all the things that happened this year, I'd say that was the waste. It would have been much better now knowing the outcome, to just be friends. I didn't need to get myself wrapped up in all that bullshit. But I only have myself to blame for that. Things started to surface that just showed me how much of a kid this guy was and I was just not feeling it. I lost complete interest.
Besides this, I ended up meeting another guy who formed another group and so far it has been positive. I fell for him as well but I'm trying to remove my feelings. It's clear that he wants nothing more than a friendship. He is an extroverted guy with a ton of friends and I'm just one of the many. I'll leave it at that and see where 2020 takes me on that front.
This year brought some proximity with family. A close cousin of mine who haven't spoken to for years came back into my life. Family and my mom particularly got involved to make a reunion happen. We lost touch since 2013 for a really silly reason and hadn't spoken. Then she got engaged end of 2018 and it was unspeakable that I wasn't invited to the ceremony. By the time of her wedding in March 2019, we were speaking again and fixed our relationship, just like that.
In 2019 I also changed my job. I left a company that made me miserable. It destroyed my confidence on a daily basis not only in my skills in the job itself but in my looks and appearance. Everyone walked around in head to toe designer clothes, bags and shoes, veneers done, botox done, fillers, full makeup and hair done daily, you get the picture. I felt so uncomfortable being there. I hated the bullying culture and the environment. So I made a decision to look elsewhere and moved onto something a little slower paced and I'm excelling at the job. My confidence is reeling back and I feel my work brings value.
I got to see Eminem in concert this year. A true rap legend. I also attended a few comedy show events. I went to the beach and beach clubs almost every weekend. I was the tannest I've ever been. I started embracing my curly hair, got a very short haircut due torl the Brazilian Blowout treatment I did that permanently straightened my hair.
One of my very best friends had a change of date this year. Things finally worked with the guy she wanted to marry for five years. This was a beautiful time and gave everyone hope. That love wins.
Alright that's it folks.
This year brought a lot of growth, as it always does. 3 months into 2020 and I'm not feeling very optimistic about what's to come. It has already been a dramatic start to the year and I really can't predict how this will all play out. Until next year, peace out.















