Study_Curse

🕯️ child of athena | fueled by coffee, cursed by ambition 📚 notes in the margins, mind like a blade 🎓 building an empire between ruined temples & overdue deadlines ✨ perfectionist. strategist. haunted by my own potential.

[athena-daughter-study]

Why does going against parents feel like you're wrong????

So recently got into a heated discussion with my parents and I just realized they will do whatever to have a upper hand on me. And i use to fight it so much but now I am exhausted to even speak so i sit behind my laptop and write it down till I am numb to the feeling. BUT NOW I HAVE ENOUGH and taking the control back by taking all the things they put over my head. Money, making food all that. I need to start looking for side hustle to make bits and pieces so i have my own money in making.

Just order a tablet for drawing and gonna start learning to make animations or youtube videos.

[thezenangel]

youtube videos for your 2026 rebrand

.・゜✧﹒ 𝜗𝜚 ﹒✧゜・．

🪷 general

12 healthy habits you need to exit your lazy era by mikayla mags

2026 vision board that actually works by tam kaur

change your life for 2026 by jasmine le

entering your disciplined girl era by fernanda ramirez

glow up guide 2026 by sanne vloet

how to change your life in 30 days by nadeen

how to create a personal curriculum by plant based bride

how to reinvent your identity for 2026 by mae alice suzuki

how to start over by janet ndomahina

how to use a vision board for your 2026 glow up by raianne kamiya

the 2026 glow up planning guide by brianna gomez

the 2026 reset by nika erculj

the 30 day glow up project for 2026 by mae alice suzuki

unlock your best year yet by nika erculj

your 30 day glow up plan for 2026 by tam kaur

🪷 for students

become the perfect student by sophie diloreto

how to romanticize school & become an a student by gigi mw

the ultimate guide to becoming an academic weapon by helaine zhao

🪷 beauty & health

2026 ultimate workout plans by hailey c.

how to always look put together by kelly

how to get glass skin for beginners by kelly

[thezenangel]

youtube videos for your 2026 rebrand

.・゜✧﹒ 𝜗𝜚 ﹒✧゜・．

🪷 general

12 healthy habits you need to exit your lazy era by mikayla mags

2026 vision board that actually works by tam kaur

change your life for 2026 by jasmine le

entering your disciplined girl era by fernanda ramirez

glow up guide 2026 by sanne vloet

how to change your life in 30 days by nadeen

how to create a personal curriculum by plant based bride

how to reinvent your identity for 2026 by mae alice suzuki

how to start over by janet ndomahina

how to use a vision board for your 2026 glow up by raianne kamiya

the 2026 glow up planning guide by brianna gomez

the 2026 reset by nika erculj

the 30 day glow up project for 2026 by mae alice suzuki

unlock your best year yet by nika erculj

your 30 day glow up plan for 2026 by tam kaur

🪷 for students

become the perfect student by sophie diloreto

how to romanticize school & become an a student by gigi mw

the ultimate guide to becoming an academic weapon by helaine zhao

🪷 beauty & health

2026 ultimate workout plans by hailey c.

how to always look put together by kelly

how to get glass skin for beginners by kelly

[athena-daughter-study]

I wanna start a youtube channel where I talk about things I learn but idk how to make it aesthetically pleasing (since I am gonna be faceless) so people don't click off 😭

[thezenangel]

aesthetic youtube channels you should follow

annika - lifestyle vlogs, routines, productivity

breanna quan - lifestyle & travel vlogs, productivity

clarisseintheclouds - lifestyle vlogs & productivity

cozy k - lifestyle vlogs & productivity

daisy keech - workouts & lifestyle vlogs

dakota warren - literature & film

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fernanda ramirez - productivity & lifestyle vlogs

final girl digital - video essays

gigi mw - lifestyle, productivity, wellness

hannah elise - lifestyle & productivity vlogs

hitomi mochizuki - holistic health & wellness

inayah - video essays & talks

jasmine le - lifestyle, fashion, beauty

kelly - beauty & lifestyle

lavendaire - self improvement & lifestyle

lenalifts - productivity, health, self improvement

leyla tavas - productive hobbies & diy

lilrotini - fashion

lily - self care & exercise vlogs

mae alice suzuki - self improvement

maria silva - study & productivity vlogs

meli mel - routines & productivity vlogs

michelle gia - lifestyle vlogs

mikayla mags - productivity vlogs

mina le - video essays

mira daisy - productivity & study vlogs

moya mawhinney - lifestyle vlogs

murielle sunga - beauty & lifestyle

nicole leilani - fashion

noa maria - lifestyle vlogs

olivia yang - lifestyle vlogs

rebecca jay - study & productive vlogs

sanne vloet - workouts & wellness

simonesimmo & simonesquared - self improvement

sophie diloreto - lifestyle & wellness

tam kaur - self improvement

thewizardliz - self improvement

urmomsushi - productivity & lifestyle

zhirelle - self improvement & lifestyle

[athena-daughter-study]

A Quiet Rebirth in the Wake of Failure

The exams have ended, and with them, a strange kind of freedom has returned. But it doesn’t feel like victory. Not this time.

How did they go? If I’m being honest—they didn’t go well. I didn’t study enough. And that failure sits heavy in my chest, like a letter I forgot to send. I’m disappointed in myself, truly. But rather than wallow, I’ve decided to begin again. Not with dramatic declarations, but with slow, careful steps. I’ll start planning for the new semester. I’ll try to become someone I can be proud of.

University has a way of reminding me that time is slipping by. I’m getting older (obviously—you absolute fool, Nyx). And with age comes the quiet panic: jobs, skills, the future. The truth? I don’t have the tools yet. I lack the things that matter in the real world. But I have curiosity. And I still love learning. That must count for something.

Sometimes, I wish the day held more hours. But maybe it’s not about more time—it’s about softer structure. Breaking tasks into smaller pieces. Making room for thought, for focus. So I don’t drown in the noise of everything I’m not yet.

This is the beginning of a quieter kind of ambition. A slow hunger for knowledge. And maybe, just maybe, a way back to myself.

[athena-daughter-study]

Thought of a day.

It rained today.

The kind that hushes everything —

the heat, the noise, even time.

The world feels softer now,

cooled and quiet like a breath you didn’t know you were holding.

And in that stillness,

I remembered why I ever loved to study.

Not for grades. Not for pressure.

But for the quiet hunger to understand something,

anything,

deeply.

I want these exams gone —

not because I’m tired,

but because I’m ready.

Ready to learn freely.

To read without measuring pages.

To chase questions that don’t end in marks.

Soon.

I’ll begin again,

but this time — for me."

[athena-daughter-study]

No grand excuse. Just textbooks, tired eyes, and a growing reverence for how hard it is to say simple things in new ways.

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Oh how do i desire to be good at multiple languages to able to connect with more people and read more books.

But learning grammar in language is the worst part for me

[athena-daughter-study]

Its 3AM.

Making short notes on German grammar and vocabulary.

Have a lot on to-do List of German. But small steps to success.

[athena-daughter-study]

Entry II — Of Trials, Time, and Temporary Gods

Today, I summon whatever resolve remains in me to face what must be done. But first, some context.

My exams approach with cruel precision—each only a day apart, as though rest were a luxury we did not deserve. To make matters worse, I’ll be enduring my time of the month, where even a fragile 6 hours of sleep will have to suffice in place of the 8–10 I truly need.

The truth? I haven’t studied much. Not because I was lazy, but because I couldn’t bring myself to obey systems I felt no belonging in. My heart wandered instead—into the world of Percy Jackson, into the labyrinth of Greek mythology, where curiosity, not compulsion, guided me. My university texts, sadly, held no such enchantment.

Now, I must catch up. Rapidly.

The foes I must face:

16th & 17th Century Drama

18th Century Literature

Art and Film Appreciation (Philosophy)

German A1.2

Financial Literacy (Minor)

Each subject contains 4 units, each with 4 chapters. An unforgiving gauntlet, made worse by how long I’ve put it off.

Is it going to be hard? Undoubtedly.

Do I regret the delay? Deeply.

But can I afford to dwell on lost time? Absolutely not.

Here’s what I’ve learned:

Never waste more time grieving over time already wasted. Mortals that we are, we possess only the present—and the strength to rise again , even after falling. When your mind is heavy, rest. Then return stronger. No one will carry you the way you carry yourself.

In the next entry, I’ll share my to-do list, progress (or lack thereof), and how I’m truly feeling—likely caught somewhere between despair and madness, still clawing toward becoming the academic weapon I swore I’d be.

But this time, I won’t let it slip through my fingers again.

Btw got it adorable photo i started studying and suddenly it rained a bit a few days ago. So i decided it was a sign from god to take a break. So i made some coffee and went on the journey about Evelyn hugo.

[athena-daughter-study]

Introduction to Me.

Hello this is me speaking. I am gonna freestyle this so bear with me.

My name is Nyx (its my online persona/Alterego) and i use pronouns She/Her. I am 19 years old.

My biggest goal in life is to achieve a lot in many fields. Want to be a Jack-of-all trick.

My interests are also quite vast from reading classic novels to scientific research papers , articles. Watching Kdramas,Anime, thai dramas. Reading manga,manhwa,manhua. Writing my own novel, drawing and even more but these are from top of my head.

I am in college and studying English Literature and German language. In my 1st year soon to be in 2nd.

I also want to be a polyglot and learn multiple languages. Japanese is one of my self learning one with russian.

I love to watch other students study blogs or post as they motivates me.

I am looking for people who themselves wanna do best in their favorite fields and want to be push to their limits by a friend or rival. (I am happy to be one)

My personality type is INTJ.

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That'll be all. Thanks for reading.And lets be friends if we share some interests

Tom riddle one of my crushes. (The son with mattheo AU ) His dedication to be the world number 1 is quite respectful even if he lost his common sense and logic later on.

[athena-daughter-study]

From Ennui to Endeavor: A Slytherin’s Promise to themselves

In a season past, I surrendered wholly to idleness—while there is no sin in occasional diversions of games and fanfiction, mine had grown unruly. Thus, I resolved to abandon that wayward self. Ever enamored of Harry Potter, and now newly drawn into Percy Jackson’s realms, I must confess a Slytherin spirit courses through me—if not by birth, then certainly by choice.

Pressure has never been my ally; yet, knowing these pages exist as public testimony to my daily endeavors compels me to labor under its weight. In truth, the manner in which the work is completed matters little—for as long as it is done, all else is of no consequence.

[athena-daughter-study]

Chronicle of Resolve: A Scholar’s Pledge Against Procrastination

Entry I — A Record of Resolve

Henceforth, let this space be my quiet archive — a testament to discipline, to slow and deliberate becoming. I shall document the days not merely as they pass, but as they shape me: in ink, in effort, in hours well spent.

Herein you will find:

Fragments of a scholar’s life — images, reflections, and the quiet rituals of study

Daily improvements, no matter how slight

The architecture of ambition — to-do lists stretching across the seasons, each task a stone toward the edifice I seek to build.

This is my ledger against procrastination, my reminder that forward motion, however small, is still motion.

Should I falter, I shall return here — to reread, to remember, and to rise again.

Being "Good Enough" is just another way of saying I Gave Up.