tinysoul

& sing to me about the end of the world.  End of these hammers and needles for you

[pitangga]

[atinysunflower]

Life has been interesting to say the least. I feel like I’m in a weird head space. In this current moment, I don’t feel fulfilled mentally. I think work is the source of this. I’m thinking about changing my career path. I love what I do, but the people around me are in it for a pay check.  People work to live, but I live to work. I’ve always been like that...If I’m not working I feel useless or stagnant.  

It also seems like Matthew and I will be returning to east coast sooner than expected which is just a whole new stress because we have a 2,000 sq foot house to pack along with two animals that need to have all kinds of things set up for them. Though, I’ll be excited to move to DC; it’s so lovely there. 

I love the change of the seasons. DC has always been a special place for Matthew and I, plus we’ll be back in time to see the cherry blossoms blooms. ^-^

I miss the East Coast a lot. It feels so weird to live in Cali. Everything is so liberal and “Free” if that makes sense. My life has been easier. I can have my birth control shipped to me, my groceries delivered, I have access to tons of health care for cheap, and the job market is booming in my area. It’s so weird to have an easier life style. Florida and South Carolina are still behind the times. It’s like they’re stuck in 2007 lol. 

I don’t know. All I know is I need to feel more content in life than I am right now.

[atinysunflower]

and just like that, she realized she had to decide what is best for her; for her health, self esteem, self love, and most importantly: her soul.

[mitchellphun]

[novice-heartbreaker-deactivated]

[ms-llama-drama]

[atinysunflower]

"Did you think loving me was going to be that easy?", She said laughing as she began to walk away. "I'm like a hurricane or an erupting volcano; fascinating, yet deadly as well as unpredictable."

[babyanimalgifs]

What a good boy.

via gallowboob

[najaaozixxjsiaaiaiia]

[7mangoes]

listen this is really me 🔎

[atinysunflower]

Funny isn't it? Everything we seem to desire is some how in front of us, yet we're completely blinded by what we think we don't have.

[atinysunflower]

I don't think you understand" she said gazing at me as she confessed all that has broken her through out the years

me 

[lemon-creme]

drawing these is very relaxing

[approvers]

[atinysunflower]

Period has been wreaking havoc on me this time. I’ve had a lot of anxiety, and that’s not like me. Sorry if this post is TMI, but I feel like something is off. Usually the day before or night before I get my period, I have a migraine,however; this time I had two migraines within the first 24 hours. 

The blood itself isn’t how it normally is. Usually you can tell when it’s lining shedding or when it’s fresh blood. Fresh blood has no “gooeyness” to it while lining will. Kinda like snot lol. Anyways, I’ve been passing clots the size of golf balls and the blood is extremely fresh. Every time I clean myself up, it looks like I got shot or something... 

I’m beginning to think something deeper is going on. Could be all the working out I’m doing. I’ve been eating less and less since I’ve arrived to California. I did take note that when I do take my Vit. D, my periods are ten times worse than we I don’t take it. 

Guess I really need to see a doctor to rule out if there’s a hormone imbalance or if it could be a thyroid issue >.>  

[cercilia]

by (kero*)

[magic-spelldust]

untitled by *amanda lynn on Flickr.

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