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Sorry not sorry for the cliché

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gr8ful

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Anne Carson, Eros The Bittersweet

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dreaming this writing table since I left it, Vienna is the most beautiful european city honestly

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this song literally explains my friends and I... sad but true, shouldn't ve to be like that

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music and food are the main topic on our chats with my bf or my permit of stay problems, its been 10 years, this didnt change lol

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i miss petting my cats... deeply feeling the urge of a furry love near me but here my house is not for them, its small... gotta buy ticket soon to istanbul really but that's also expensive, we return back to the beginning. I miss them hard😭

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l had a discussion with my boss today and honestly now on I get so angry that I can just cry cause the problem is that he doesn't accept reality.

This is exactly the main problem of the world basically, he lives so much in his upper middle class taboo and complex. Like dude why can't you just trust....

He thinks his employees are embezzling him meanwhile his employees are working in a part time freelance contract but actually working full time for him. Like what the fuck? I just bursted out crying

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Weekend was lots of laugh with beautiful ppl! My friend organizes this home gatherings with readings & sound related performances. It was just so easy and welcoming even though art ppl can easily feel poshy and intimidating.

On the train going back I m thinking about my archetype. I m listening to Liz Tran podcast occasionally, its very liberal and corporate style coach but feels like she is just a good researcher on well being. I think it helps me simplify and understand certain things in a thoughtful way.

I want thoughtfullness to ground and cover my world really. Any practice without thought is just a show with no value.

Anyway i like (returning back to the archetype talk..) being a firefighter and chaotic but also want to enter to the world of novelist, at least plan better. Now i should focus on finishing master applications and work! i m grateful though for this weekend.

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I feel so clumsy while I m learning a new language (french..) like when I m focusing on the way how to say it, i forgot what to say it and vice versa.

I finally speak italian but it took me long time to communicate what i wanna say. I'm afraid that it ll be same for french. I don't want that!

I m learning french from italian, I thought it would be easier. Turns out italians are fast learners (btwn i m turkish) and the teacher doesn't understand most of the mumble I make... Definitely teacher is not helping neither five police classmates.

I was late for enrolling to the course near my house, ahhhhr

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Sappho: A Garland

Jim Powell & Farrar Straus Giroux

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When I dont spend time with friends I expect a lot from them and when I meet them, lightness of their presence gives me all. Its just so smooth, let me pin this here.

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kind of a winter sleep

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everything we touch gets gentrified; radical ideas threaten institutions then become institutions in turn reject radical ideas which threaten institutions...

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Pages 1 to 8 (of 16) of “Angel Fusion” by Keisuke Goto and Hiroyuki Kato, as published in Cheval Noir #1 (August 1989), pp. 41 to 56. Post 1 of 2. Post 2: https://www.tumblr.com/transistoradio/763343904034684928/pages-9-to-16-of-16-of-angel-fusion-by-keisuke

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exquisite!

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last days of summer feels like teen spirit

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I m in panic these days, it's a burning excitement. I do think it is about info overload, not speaking about url, it happens mostly when I need to go somewhere and need to do some tasks in the same time. Sometimes I really urge to ve one purpose like carrying food to nest and not even acknowledging that it's my purpose..