feb 16-20 maaaybe 21 🤭
so yes it happened on tuesday. it's been a reeeeal weird week. i think im grieving (obviously) but i also am starting to feel the burn out of all my homework a little ? but ? idk how to discribe it, it's like im still into what im doing, but planning about what i need to do im like .... this is so boring lMFAO
it was sad. i am sad. im not going to write what happened, but i hope everything i told my mom in comfort is true. i think it is. of course, i'm going home on sunday, so it's gonna be reaaal weird. im gonna drive home listening to the view between villages and sob my eyes are probably
wednesday i got the news aya DIDNT hire me. they just HATE to see an asian win 🙄 i literally don't get it, like maybe yes i can learn spanish and slap that on my resume if that's what i HAVE to do 🙄🙄 but fuck i literally deserve that position, i'd KILL that position and i am absolutely good enough for it. it's helping unhoused youth !!!! i don't know what it feels like to be unhoused !!!!! or be in fear of being unhoused !!!! but i DO know what it feels like to feel unwanted and abandoned !!!!!! and how it's LIFE LONG !!!!!!!!!! and guess how many asians they have employed. ONE (1).
i started reading my articles for 603 and honestly i got so much validation out of it. like. one said something to the effect of Asian adoptees might experience further isolation due to lack of representation in the media and community around them. LITERALLY !!!!! REPRESENTATION MATTERS !!!!!! I DESERVE TO BE THERE !!!!!!! AND IM FULLY QUALIFIED TO DO SO !!!!!!!!!! and this is whyn i can relate when doechii said life gets dark when youre dark like me
anyways what? idk class thursday. OH neosha and i also organized a little suprise bday celebration for raymond on wednesday, was so cute he loved it that cute lil fish man
but yeah class. i went to rowsters beforehand and i got called out for being a complicated regular lmfaoooo i said i dont like people knowing that much about me idk !!!!! but the girl on the other side was also an aquarius (even tho she doesn't know i'm an aquarius too lmao) so she either got it or doesnt give af
during class i didnt realize upcoming registration for classes was for the entire school year 😭😭😭 and i also found out all of my part-time colleague friends are taking summer classes 😭😭😭😭 so now i'm just contimplating taking out student loans and full sending it idk idk !!!! i dont think it's peer pressure but idk !!!!!!!!
i set up an advising appointment on monday like im finna talk ASAP girly !! i did get a call back from the bank man FINALLY so i'm getting some funds to help me finish this semster financially AT LEAST (BECAUSE I GOT MY FUCKASS PAYCHECK TODAY FROM MY CUT ASS HOURS AND ITS LIKE 200 LESS 😭😭), but idk ?? everyone has student debt ??? idk ???? i really want a good paying STABLE job and if i have to go into debt to get it maybe !!!!!
anyways, homework wise i only have to finish my media policy presentation and the policy debate presentation/paper and then i'll just have the final two papers left to do !!!!! like !!!! idk if im ???? cheating the system somehow or like ?? idk, either im hella on top of it or im the only one who's planned out assignments this way lmfao ! but im hoping tomorrow i can finish the presentation part of the debate assignment and take notes for my Already Finished policy in media presentation 😇 then next week all i have to do is read the rest of my readings and put those notes in zoleta and i would have accomplished everything i wanted to by spring break 🤗🥳












