Audacity

Post-graduation days in Austin. Holding down my first "real" job, writing, musing, watching Netflix...

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I hope no one saw me take this. I'm seriously boooored.

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I was just given a bike! I must really be loved (Taken with instagram)

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My musical Easter toothbrush. (Taken with instagram)

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Taken with instagram

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I dreamt about cocaine last night and couldn't even enjoy it because I was terrified of getting caught.

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I like having pretty cousins. Taking pictures of good looking people is always easy.

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Favorites from my first wedding shoot ever! 

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Creepy Myspace Messages, for your enjoyment

These are the best of the creepies that I get. At least one of them is barely written in English. I've never responded to any of them, but people are really damn persistent. 

Subject: hey ms perfect!!!

you look soo beautiful girl i had to try an shoot!!! im really feeling your style if you like what you see and could maybe see your self with a man like me then what are you waiting for hurry up and get at me ;)

Subject: <No Subject>

 are you legs tired because you,ve been running through my mind all day long

Subject: a

What u doing mas

Subject: <No Subject>

can you send me your number for text you

Subject: hey =)

myspace is def for creepers lately. But i hope by me not knowing you andmessaging, i dont come off as a creeper also!! Lol. What do you think?

Subject: ADD ME!!! And Whut It Dew!?!

Yeeee Yeeee! Whut It Dizzle!?! Juss Passin Thru Like A Blunt Showin Atx Love From Tha Dove! YaFigADealMe! Checc Me Out When You Get A Chance & K.I.T

Subject: <No Subject>

your cute...you would be my gf if i was a boy

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I wish I knew what I meant 5 years ago.

From a journal: And I've been feeling hostile for days. The competition is making me green. Would I choose to be selfish because it is convenient, or find some level of content with second hand happiness. If there's something that you want from me, just ask.

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My new favorite word is "rococo." I would like to call someone rococo very soon, but I'm not sure if I want to insult or praise.

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Internship application

This is kind of hilarious. 

What's the last thing you read?

 I recently read "The Paradox of Choice: Why More is Less." It was written by Barry Schwartz, a professor of Social Theory, who believes Americans are less satisfied with their lives because there are too many options. So, apparently telling your kids "You can be anything you want to be!" is really damaging. I am, however, what Schwartz calls a "satisficer" and typically don't second guess the decisions I make. Although, I will admit lately I've been second guessing my decision to major in English, as I am broke and jobless.

Tell us about the last dream you had.

In my dream two nights ago, I discovered a house I somehow forgot I owned. It was in the middle of a downtown location which was weird because it was a suburban tract house. My mother and cousins were with me and when we went in to check it out, there was a wolf pack running around inside! They hadn't done any damage, but there were 4 of them, a mother and three pups. I remember thinking to myself, "there must be a huge hole in the house for wolfs to get in" and I started looking for it. For some reason I didn't find the wolves threatening until suddenly one of the pups jumped on me and bit my arm. This really freaked me out, not because my arm was gashed open, but because I didn't want to get a rabies shot. I've heard they give you the rabies vaccine with 7 foot long needles in the stomach and this fact was all I could think about in the dream. My mom was freaking out and drove me to the hospital, but when we got there the doctor said they were closed. I immediately felt relieved to avoid the needles, but also knew I probably needed them. I suppose the moral of that dream is: people foolishly avoid what's good for them when they know its going to hurt.

What are you hoping to gain from your internship experience

I really love to write, and I believe this internship will give me a reason to write each day which is so important for developing as a writer. I am looking to start a career as a writer and this would be a valuable experience to work on my skills.

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Sam Emerson: You're a vampire! I knew it! Michael Emerson: I am not! Sam Emerson: So what are you? The Flying Nun?

The Lost Boys

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Hello, I'm writing in regards to the Technical Audit Copy Sales Financial Team Coordination Project Writing Manager Administrative Representative position...

Woke up feeling "blah" today; I didn't sleep well last night. Partially due to an allergy-snoring boyfriend but mostly because I just couldn't stop thinking about jobs, and education, and the future.

I'm entirely way too stressed out. Even my dentist said my gums were extra bloody during my cleaning yesterday and the likely culprit is stress. There is something really refreshing about getting the plaque scraped off your teeth. My hygienist suggested I look at my 6 month cleaning as a fresh start to life as a college graduate, and I nurtured this whimsical thought, until the sharp twinge of a tiny pirate hook assaulting my gums brought me back to reality.

I have been applying to jobs since April and until recently I wasn't keeping track of my countless submissions. When you spend your time working so diligently on something and have squat to show for it, its easy to get pissed off (which I have been since April). It's also frustrating because I am a calendar/to-do list/planner addict and have nothing to record!  So, for the past 11 days I have been writing down everything I apply to in my planner and saving a copy of every cover letter I write. Being able to see a record of my efforts is encouraging and amusing. 

I actually created this list on my wall which will display everything I apply to from 09/21 until I find a job. Oh, and that one pink line? Yeah, I'm highlighting the interviews I get and so far its just the one. I'm kind of hoping this will turn into some really long piece of paper that I can use as bragging/bitching rights by the time I'm done with it. I only wish I had done this since April because it would be pretty freakin' long by now.