I'm an emotional abuse survivor, and Ragatha's story in Digital Circus hits me like a train and genuinely, I have no idea how no one else is talking about it
I knew FROM THIS MOMENT exactly why Ragatha is the way she is. The way she pulls herself short because you DO NOT TALK about what you go through, you do not tell anyone what your parent does to you or says to you. No one gets it. It's embarrassing. It's too much.
But her torture scene in the new episode just cemented it for me.
It's always at the dinner table. You can't get away at dinner. You have to sit with your abuser, who has probably already hit their limit for the day and is looking for someone to unleash their stress at. And you have to take it, because it gets SO much worse if you get up from the table before you're finished.
All the mannequins make me wonder if Ragatha has a big family. That's an awful lot of people who have already been beaten down and aren't speaking up to defend her.
Ragatha is a rag doll because Caine can see in her mind files that she's been used that way all her life. Thats how she sees herself. She's a soft thing to be thrown about. She can stand up to rough treatment. You can fling as many knives at her as you like and it doesn't matter, because she's made of stuffing, it doesn't hurt. You can just patch her up and keep going.
But if course it hurts. Look at her.
(and obviously her mother didn't *actually stab her in the eye*, come on guys.)
But I have to go back to how Ragatha's mother is shown here, because it speaks volumes to Ragatha's entire character. It's so screamingly obvious to me, probably because I mould my own life exactly how Ragatha does, for better or for worse.
The mother looks like Ragatha. She has the same hair, the same body type.
And the whole time she's abusing Ragatha, she's *smiling.* She's enjoying it. She's exactly the type of vile bully that comes up with her most hurtful thing to say, and smiles in your face while she says it, because it makes her feel good.
THAT is why Ragatha is so accommodating. THAT'S why she doesn't tell Jax to fuck off until she's given "permission" by Pomni at the softball game (who immediately gets freaked out by her big feelings and tells her she's being irrational).
THAT is why she tries to keep the peace and not upset people. THAT is why, almost to the very last, she tries to placate Caine.
Because she thinks that if she hurts someone's feelings, *SHE IS EXACTLY LIKE HER MOTHER.* And in Ragatha's mind, there is nothing worse in the whole world than finding out you're just like your abuser. Cosmically, you might even think that's why they hurt you in the first place. Because you're bad. You deserve it.
So you make nice. You stay quiet. You give compliments. You make sure everyone is happy.
You pick yourself up and keep going, despite constantly being knocked down, dismissed, laughed at. You try your best not to set them off, not set *anyone* off, because if they freak out, you end up being the villain. And there's always that tiny part of your brain that is terrified, deep down, that you are going to hurt people in the same way you were hurt.
My friends and I came together to celebrate someone who means a lot to us. I asked everyone to draw their favorite characters from your many roles and Ragatha, being the biggest Star amongst them all, was of course their favorite!
For my piece, I too chose Ragatha, Rebel from Date Everything, and Hannah from Hannapocalypse.
These characters mean a lot to me, and they’re just a small glimpse of the creativity and heart you put into your Characters~
@justtheclippy , I’m incredibly grateful to call you my friend. Thank you for all the love, encouragement, and support you’ve given me over the years—it’s meant more than I can say.
Here’s to celebrating you and all the joy you bring to so many people. Happy Birthday! 💛🎂
Ever since the trailer dropped I can't stop thinking about the 6 items on pedestals in Caine's office. I swear each one is a reference to a circus member! Especially since we all know that The Amazing Digital Circus is inspired by I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream and the game version contains this iconic scene.
Fortuneteller, turning over the Death card: Don't worry. It isn't literal. It simply refers to some form of change.
Me: Phew
Fortuneteller; turning over the Gets Eaten by the Fortuneteller While Trying to Leave card: That can also mean many things
The way the fandom has been acting as of late has seriously pissed me off. All the people throwing fits online and harassing Gooseworx on Reddit are insufferable little shits. I know every fandom has it's bad side but this is outrageous. Y'all need to get off Reddit and touch some damn grass
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