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Why do we tell stories? To try to make sense of a world that can be terrifying and enormous. In Exandria, I don’t know that your story will long be known. I don’t know who will remain to tell it, but it did happen — and it did matter. And though the Calamity is here, because of you, it will not be here forever.

Brennan Lee Mulligan, Exandria Unlimited: Calamity finale (via theoutcastrogue)

Is Good Good?

Humanity loves the good guy vs bad guy trope. We do it on instinct. We see a crime committed and it is a bad guy. We see ‘justice’ and it is a good guy. Even through fiction it is everywhere. The good vs the bad. Angels vs demons. Why do we see these stories so much? It is so common to find a film or a game that has a ‘bad guy’ that the protagonist must thwart. It is so rare to find something that brings into question “Are they actually bad?”. I'm not talking about a ‘misguided’ character or someone with mental health problems. Just someone who sees the other side. You fight for justice but is it justice for all or just for one? Is justice found for the whole group or just sections of it? Maybe the enemy being fought in these fictitious works is only bad because they are painted as such. Putting away the moral high ground that is the people foolish enough to claim that absolute justice can be without death. Can every villain truly be bad? Maybe you see people fighting against you, claiming they are bad is easy but what if you are the bad one? What if you think you fight for justice but in this story you are actually being painted the villain? What if there is no angel and there is no demon? Maybe there is no black fighting a white. Maybe it is simply grey vs grey. 1 vs 2. Blank vs Blank. Of course there are actual evils in the world in reality but FAR more common is the grey. Can a bad man not do good? Can a good man not do evil?

Sometimes I wonder, if I put the colours of my soul onto a canvas how would it appear? Would it be a demonic hellscape full of fear and pain, or would it be like flower petals flowing through the breeze on a late spring day?

Loss

There are so many feelings that people go through when they lose someone, whether it be in a relationship way or a death way or even a ‘moving away’ way. They can vary so much. You can get dumped and be distraught. Filled with anger that someone would do this to you after all you’ve done for them. Pure hatred for the one who scorned you. Some people just deal this way, with rage to combat other feelings or perhaps it is the only one they have to use. Others may feel intense depression and rejection. A feeling of self-blame and worthlessness, where it just hurts so much and you can’t make the pain stop without distorting your mind with drugs. A pain so malevolent it feels like you can’t feel anything but. Sometimes you feel satisfied. The relationship is over and you just feel good. Not because you are free or anything, its just nice. They were in your life, they aren’t now. And that is all right because you wouldn’t be you, for better or worse, without them. You realise that every experience is unique. Every second is a lesson. You don’t need to learn from the lesson but it will always be with you. Sometimes we cry of sadness when a loved one passes. We are sad they are gone. Sad that they are not with us for the rest of time. But they are. So long as they are remembered. Maybe grandma is gone in form but you still remember how to cook eggs like she taught you. Dad passed away, yes, but you still remember the time he taught you to mop the floor and you accidentally spilled water everywhere. Maybe Cody, your dog, died. But you still remember how he cuddled up to you at night or how he hid under your desk at your feet when the lightning boomed. Humans feel so many different emotions and they always come out strong in times of grief. That is always okay but remember not to miss the people you have lost too much. Keep them alive by living, yourself. Keep experiencing. Keep learning. Keep remembering. And then one day, become the memory in another’s heart.

#loss #grief #memory #coping

Do you ever feel like everything is going completely okay and then suddenly you want to kill yourself? Like you’re doing fine in school, you don’t have many friends but your one friend is still awesome and family is fine. Like yeah you are single and a bit lonely but you can deal with that just fine. But just out of nowhere you want an end to everything, just rest eternal?