Point at Infinity

Rolling through the Universe

[austin-r-blog]

I’m tearing myself to shreds rn

I’m thinking of taking a break from social media. Maybe just delete the apps, or even just delete everything so when I come back, if I come back, I’ll have to start over from scratch. Call me stupid, but social media, to me, has this weight that I just don’t feel like carrying anymore.

I’m thinking of taking a break from people too. Or, at least, from reaching out to people. I can only keep track of like 3 people at a time anyway, one and a half of those being myself. I’ll exclusively dedicate my time to those I have actual business with and those who reach out to me first. I can’t keep using my mental capabilities to worry about who likes me and who doesn’t, I’ve been doing too much of that lately and that usually ends with me reassuring myself that everyone fucking hates me and that I’m a volatile piece of shit. And I don’t really get the opportunity to prove myself otherwise to other people, so I’m thinking of just taking that whole “other people” factor out of the equation until I can, once again, prove to myself and ONLY myself that I’m not a volatile piece of shit. Even if I find that I am, which I have found on numerous occasions, I’ll work on them by myself for no one else but myself because fuck everyone else. Where are you when I need you? No one needs me, I’ll learn to not need anyone. I already know I don’t need anyone.

I’m in physical pain every waking moment of my consciousness. From back pains to head-, arm, and leg aches, I’m never physically comfortable, not even when I’m high. And fuck my mental pain. I can’t prove to anyone the varying degrees of intensity of anxiety/depression/disassociation/suicidal thoughts I can feel at any given moment without sounding fucking stupid, and I think that’s fucking stupid. I don’t want people to feel bad for me, but jesus fucking christ I’d love if someone held my fist back preventing me from beating myself up so god damn much.

Too often do I hope to find death by the end of my cigarette. I’ll quit smoking if that meant you’d be here. I don’t find answers at the end of a spliff, only a myriad of questions I wish we would tackle together. Believe me or not, but I don’t need weed either. Fuck me if I start needing cocaine, I don’t see the point if I get 4 hours of crazy, manic confidence followed by a lifetime of dullness (but on god I love drugs consumed through insufflation). I don’t care too much for ecstasy since I’m not at a European rave, and psychedelics have become more distracting than eye-opening (I haven’t exactly come down from my trip before my most recent trip... besides, my weed is enough to send me back out into space).

I don’t know... if you love me, let me know. If you hate me, let me know (who in their god damn mind, if they hated me, would let me know they hate me, and let me know why they hate me? If they really hated me, they would let me sit here in my unknowing since they know how much it would bother me and they’d be happy since they hate me and can use me as a platform to advance themselves by convincing others of how fucking stupid I am. That’s how it works, right?) I’m leaving tumblr now. I’m leaving facebook now. I’m leaving snapchat now. I’m leaving twitter, instagram, I’ll even leave tinder too for good measure (I haven’t used tinder since that one time in London anyway). I’ll probably only delete the apps, but if this goes well I might just delete everything entirely.

If you love me, get a hold of me and hang out with me. I can’t really get rid of my phone, so call me or text me with some sort of follow up, digital communication doesn’t cut it anymore (however, due to the nature of life and circumstance, I have exceptions to this for two people in my life). Or email me, whatever, let’s get the ball rolling on this life thing. Otherwise, if you don’t love me, then get the fuck out of my dreams, get the fuck out of my head, and get the fuck out of my life.

[terriamon]

[colin-vian]

   René Magritte - A la rencontre du plaisir (1950)

[rafibomb]

[pussylipgloss]

babies are so cute aww they have only like 3 skills its adorable 

[woodmeat]

talking, breathing, archery (lv26)

[atheistnextdoor]

The fabulous Target Troll strikes again!

[pre-med-timelord]

The last one was great!

[blue-flamingoo]

FRITO-LAY COMING FOR BLOOD OMH

[temporarilyeuropean]

But Craig, the Gay Agenda is just too powerful and valuable not to use”

This counts as transparency in advertising, right?

[officialunitedstates]

Why are you anti Hilary Clinton? I'm genuinely curious.. I'm able to vote this year but I'm extremely confused on who to vote for.

When I was in elementary school, Hillary came to our school and did an assembly on early childhood education or something and I remember it being really long and boring sitting there on the concrete floor watching this lady ramble on.  When she was done they took the kids in the first couple of rows and had them stand up so they could shake Hillary’s hand for some reason, and I was in the second row so I had to do it.  She hugged some of the kids and teachers and shook some hands and stuff but when she got to me I was just kinda standing there and then she looked right in my eyes as she let out one of the loudest sneezes my first grade ears had ever heard.  When it was over she wiped her mouth with her hand and then patted me with that hand on my right shoulder.  I’ll never forget the feeling I had deep inside me in that moment.  It was some strange combination of rage, confusion, and disgust and I couldn’t do anything about it because she had already moved down the line.  She never apologized to me and she probably thought I’d forget about it or even didn’t see her wipe her hand on me, but I still vividly remember that sneeze and wipe to this day.

[crimsonbehelit-deactivated20151]

[residentgoodgirl]

[aphony-cree]

this is why I love this joke:

Jesus was fond of telling his followers not to worry about how they’d afford food tomorrow because God would provide. But Jesus told them this while handing out free bread and encouraging them to help people who were in need, making them the outlet through which God would provide for others

My mother was a waitress, we live in an area that has a lot of Christians and people would often stiff her on tips. Instead they’d leave a pamphlet with quotes from Jesus saying not to worry because God would provide

Jesus’ message was never that God would magically put food on people’s tables. God would provide opportunities to help each other, like the boat captains offering to help the dying man. That only works if people actually help each other

When I first heard this joke as a teenager I laughed at the guy who didn’t take the help that was offered to him. As an adult, I think of all the Christian politicians who vote against food stamps and I want to tell them “You were the boat captain but you steered away from the man in need instead of offering him help. Is that really what God wanted you to do?”

[stagecoachjessi]

[sluttydilf-deactivated20160731]

[quadoy-deactivated20171018]

Not one African.

[queen-mzbigabootie]

Not one black person in sight.

[sluttydilf-deactivated20160731]

At all

[blackfemmejeanvaljean]

hmm and only 1500 notes

interesting

[chi-dan]

Facts

[kingharlevigilante-deactivated2]

White folks makin fun of us but would you look at this.

[alwaysbewoke]

#BlackLivesMatter (Here’s the Data That Shows Cops Kill Black People at a Higher Rate Than White People)

[vasunarchive]

This is a resource post for all the Good White Person™s out there. You know, the ones who say things like “It’s not my fault I’m white! Don’t generalize white people!”, or “I’m appreciating your culture! You should be proud!”, or “Why do you hate all white people, look I’m a special snowflake who’s not racist give me an award for meeting the minimum requirements for being a decent human being”. Well, if you are actually interested in understanding racism and how it ties into cultural appropriation, please read instead of endlessly badgering PoCs on tumblr with your cliched, unoriginal arguments and repeating the same questions over and over.

On White Privilege aka don’t blame me just because I’m white:

It’s Not My Fault I Was Born White: Basics of White Privilege x

Racial Divide x

Endless Examples of White Privilege x

You Cannot Know What It’s Like To Be A Racial Minority x

Intersectional Feminism x

White Privilege Does Not Mean White People Have Perfect Lives x

White Privilege and White Supremacy: A Presentation x

You Will Never Experience Racism x

Understanding White Privilege x

White Privilege and Double Standards x

Systematic White Ignorance x

The Invisibility of White Privilege x

The Luxury of White Privilege x

White Privilege: The Harry Potter Analogy x

Privilege Denial Bingo x

Privilege and Cost x

Check Your Privilege 101 x

Whiteness x

Whiteness is Not A Culture x

White Privilege and Racism x

Deeply Embarrassed White People Talk About Race x

When White Anti Racists Talk About ~Their Struggle~ x

White Privilege As A System x

On Reverse Racism aka you are being racist against white people:

Are White People Racially Oppressed x

White People, the new Racial Minority x

People Don’t Value Pale Skin!! x

There Is No Such Thing As Reverse Racism x

Racism vs. Not Racism x

But White People Are Discriminated Against In Foreign Countries x

The Myth of Reverse Racism: Why Cracker is Not N**** x

Satire: A Step Wise Guide on Being Reverse Racist x

Racism Against White People vs. Racism Against POCs x

On Cultural Appropriation aka I’m just appreciating your culture:

The Basics x

Identifying Appropriation x

But When We Wear It … x

Why Can’t I Wear It (Hipster Headdresses) x

Not Yours x

If You Take The Bindi x

White People Do It Better x

Multiculturalism and Appropriation x

Cultural Appropriation and Portrayals In Print Media x

Diminishing the Cultural Significance of the Bindi x

The Cultural Appropriation Bingo x

Why We’re Fed Up of Your Responses x

Identities Are Not Costumes x

Hinduism And Appropriation x

Religion and Privilege x

Bindis Are Cool x

Exotic India x

What’s Wrong With Cultural Appropriation x

Racism, Bindis and Ganesh Tattoos x

BUT YOU’RE SPEAKING ENGLISH! x

Cultural Appropriation Trolls x

Guide to Being An Appropriating Douchefuck x

New Age ~Culture Mixing~ x

In case you’re tired of the prose, here’s poetry x

Why You Shouldn’t Wear A Bindi x

Appropriating and Sharing x

Our Culture is A Punchline Until It’s a Trend x

Homage Or Insult x

Tattoos and Appropriation x

Bollywood is Not Synonymous With Indian x

College Party Costumes and Stereotypes x

Dotheads x

Bindis and Racist Humour x

Hindu Iconography x 

Misuse of Hindu Iconography x

Your Appreciation Doesn’t Help Us x

Assorted Vials of White Tears and Miscellaneous Antidotes aka I can’t change that I’m white/not all whites are racist/we are all humans:

Unoriginal Arguments Refuted x

Quick Checklist: You Might Be Racist If x

Your Opinion Isn’t Necessary x

I’m Not Responsible For My Ancestors x

The Kumbayah Myth x

Proud to Be White x

Good White Person x

We Don’t Hate White People x

Brutality of Colonialism And Why You Can’t Tell Us To Forget the Past x

People Who Claim Not To See Race Are More Likely to Be Racist x

All Races are Beautiful Said the White Girl x 

Race Blindness Is A Luxury x

Well, You’re Racist For Calling Me Racist x

I’ve Read About Its Significance, I Know What It Means

Angry Because Someone Called You Racist x

We’re Not All Like That x

People Only Care About This Trivial Shit On The Internet x

I Can’t Apologize for Being Born White, It’s Not My Fault x

Why Can’t You Tell Me What I’m Doing Wrong x

It’s Easy to Be Color Blind When You’re White x

A Diagrammatic Guide To White Tears x

Conversations I’m Sick Of Having With White People x

Why Do You Hate White People x

I’m Trying To Be Cultured x

Sisyphean Conundrum x

What is Your Problem x

We Are All Human, We All Bleed Red x

It’s Just A Bindi x

How Not To Respond To Accusations of Racism x

I’m Italian And 0.009% Native American x

What White People Think Racism Means: A Venn Diagram x

White Guilt x

White Pride!!!111!!! x

I Like *Insert Foreign Country* I Want To Live There x

You Have So Much Hate, Fighting Fire With Fire Won’t Help x

BooHoo, Don’t Call Me Racist x

Not Everything Ended With Your Ancestors x

The Racist Reaction x

I Don’t See Why That Is Racist x

Crummy Apologies x

Okay. I agree. I’ve been socially conditioned not to notice racism and recognize my privilege. What can I do?

Listen x

A Step Wise Guide x

I don’t care about this bullshit; you’re making a big deal out of nothing, go home and delete your blog:

The Clueless White Person Bus x

[dynastylnoire]

for new followers

[paigemist]

the greatest plan in history

[aolight-deactivated20151117]

“Forget about controlling my anger. Let’s RIOT!”

[formorrow-sur]

[fuckyeahcomicsbaby]

Cassie the Reaper from abgcomics

[purplebuddhaproject]

[hrafnagaldr]

My lawyer gives the same speech to everyone who wants to do business with me now. ‘Nicki is not one of those artists who allow her representatives to make decisions for her.’ I’m on conference calls all day with lawyers, accountants, and executives—people of power—and they treat me with respect. Because I command respect. I’m not cocky, but I deserve to know what’s going on. It’s my brand and my life. That’s my advice to women in general: Even if you’re doing a nine-to-five job, treat yourself like a boss. Not arrogant, but be sure of what you want—and don’t allow people to run anything for you without your knowledge. You want everyone to know, Okay, I can’t play games with her. I have to do right by this woman. That’s what it’s all about.

Nicki Minaj, Elle, April 2013

Adding partial source. (via andyhutchins)