Maybe I’m just doubting myself and our relationship. Maybe I’m not used to being treated so well that I don’t know how to behave when it’s not toxic. Maybe I’m trying to sabotage myself because I don’t know how to behave properly in a relationship but honestly I feel something deep down that tells me that you’re not the one because I still miss him..
Things have got better but I’m sure only time will tell you. It could be another couple years before you catch up with this again. Things aren’t always what they seem. That ‘not toxic’ quickly becomes toxic and people show their true colours. Relationships aren’t easy and they take work from two of you. If it doesn’t work out just know when you read this that you did everything you could for him. If it does work out then I’m glad you’ve managed to over come together and build on something special. For now, this could go either way so I wish you the best future me ❤️
Things aren’t good at the moment, I found out that people aren’t always who they say you are. Trust is such a fragile thing that can be broken in an instance. No matter how hard you believe you have finally found the answer to things life comes and brings you down on a reality check. I still believe you have done the best you could. It seems people with addictive personalities are hard people to deal with. They are narcissists. They will have you believe in an instant you are the problem, despite relaying the situation to family and friends who tell you honestly you are not the problem. It’s gonna be hard to know where to go from here, but you are strong. You will get to where you need to be I promise. And that book you’ve been thinking of writing - I don’t care what it is just do it. You have got this, I promise. I love you future me keep going ❤️
You don’t miss him anymore, and it turns out things can turn a corner. A beautiful home with lots more adventures to come and memories to make. Sure some days are dark but there’s brighter days more than most. Hang in there because there’s going to be some good things coming so soon I can feel it. Big changes are heading our way just give it some time 💓
A little life update for future me to look on a dark day - look how far we’ve come?! Currently been married 6 months and last week I found out a little life is beginning. I so hope and pray constantly everyday they’re safe and snug and we will meet earth side, their due date is 26th December. No one knows except us but I hope time flies and we can start to celebrate and find out what you are soo soon little baby 🥹 all my dreams from being a little girl are coming true. Pray for a safe arrival, hopefully next time I update this they will be here with us 💗
















