Just A Bleeding Heart

BHC🖤

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ive always fantasized about what it felt like to be loved- by anyone, even my parents and family. i honestly thought i knew- but i now know that i didnt know- but he tought me different tonight…. yk they say greek lovers are the best, and i agree with that.

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seeing someone make you smile after i fail to, thats the shit that rips my heart up

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i need to tell you i love you. its an itch i can’t reach

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i hope he turns his life around. because i want him to be mine, i just cant watch someone i love die again. i cant do it twice.

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I’m disappointed

And sad

What have you become?

You are not the person I fell in love with

// I don’t even know who you are anymore

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Starting tomorrow I’m gonna have a new life. A life where I’m happy, and satisfied. A life where I can stop thinking about that one person, and just let them go. Starting tomorrow, no matter how much it hurts me, I will open my eyes to see what’s actually going on.

// you lost my friendship, come back when you feel better

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“You’re the only one fighting for a relationship that they gave up on a long time ago, they manipulated you, they bullied you. And now your scared to even be close to ME, your own Fucking friend. They don’t deserve you, or your heart”

- my dear friend you have never been more right

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You’ve turned into nothing but a stranger with my secrets yet you have a way of gaining more than I ever intended to give.

You almost know all of my secrets, all except one.

— please don’t push down that boundary

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Sleep ? Haha

Nice one,

We’re gonna do that two minutes before you’re alarm, but for now let’s burn your fp in our head till they respond!

- lmao you know the man, bpd

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My chest hurts

But I can’t cry

I want to die

But I can’t

Why can’t I go

You

My familiar, I don’t think you can ever seal the deal

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When will it stop?

When will it all just stop

// are you even alive?

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I’ve lost all motivation

I cant eat

I cant sleep

I cant focus

It’s getting bad again

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I cant stand this heartache

I cant go forward

I cant do this

// I cant stay

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I miss you

I miss you a lot

I miss you so much that just the very thought of you makes my heart ache

// but I can’t go back now

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You’ve broken so many promises that you once held back in September,

And I’ve never broken one of mine until today,

I said I would stay but I think it’s my time to leave.

You go, I go,

And you walked right out..

// lo siento ola muchacho (I’m sorry wave boy)

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Thanks.

Thanks for everything and I truly mean it. Thanks for the late nights, thanks for the giggles, for the laugher, for the forehead kisses, and for your friendship, and your love.

I’m sorry

That I pushed you away, and pissed you off, and made myself less than a friend to you, I don’t know what changed. But all I wanted was to talk.

Back and fourth

But instead I ramble to you......

And now? I do it alone in my room

// I’ll try to stay away, but I’ve caved in

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I’m fine

I truly am

I’m laying in a puddle of my own tears realizing you never loved me in the first place

Don’t get me wrong, I’m over you

But the fact that you have the pride to say “I love you” to me still disgusts me, but thanks bb,,, I love me too ❤️

// I’ve figured the past out sweetheart, but please continue to lead me on, I’ll always be your fuck in between relationships