Only love can hurt like this (Aaron Hotchner x reader)
Authors note: Hello lovelies and happy holiday! <3 Since it is the season of giving I'm finally releasing the first chapter to my series Only Love Can Hurt Like This! I hope you guys enjoy, I had so much fun writing this chapter and can't wait to release the next few chapters. Thank you so much for your patience and thank you to every single one of my followers and to everyone who participated in the voting. I appreciate every single one of you guys<;3
ps: y/f/b = your favorite breakfast food.
Warnings: None, just some cuteness.
Story plot:
Y/N L/N is an up and coming popstar. One day while trying to avoid the paparazzi she bumps into a rather handsome man by the name of Aaron Hotchner. To apologize for bumping into him she invites out for a few drinks.
Walking into your favorite diner you made sure that no one was in your favorite booth before grabbing a menu and sitting down. It wasn't often where you could go back to a somewhat normal life but somehow you could always find it in Betty's diner. Not long after you had sat down Betty her self came over to take your order.
"Long time since you've been in here sweetie, gonna get your usual order?" Betty said with that infamous sweet smile of hers.
Smiling back at her you nodded your head and Betty walked away to ring in your order. A few moments later she brings over a steaming cup of coffe which you thank her for.
As you are waiting a man walks in with his son who cant be much older then 6. You watch the two of them but your eyes are mainly focused on the boys father. He's wearing dark blue jeans and a brownish sweater and underneath the sweater you notice a grey t-shirt is poking out. You can't help but notice how handsome he is.
You don't realize you've been staring till your eyes meet his. You immidieatly shift your focus to the cup of coffee that's sitting in front of you as you feel your cheeks heat up a little.
You don't dare to look up until Betty walks over with a plate of y/f/b. You take it with a smile and give her another thanks and Betty leaves you too it. As you are finishing your food you notice a familiar man outside the diner. That damn man just wonÂŽt leave you alone. Everywhere you go he follows you with that stupid camera.
You quickly run over what you can do to avoid the man. You could run into the bathroom and hope he'll go away or maybe you could stand up and talk to the mysterious handsome man and his son. For some reason you decide to go with the latter.
You pull your cap a little down to hide your face and walk over to the two of them.
"Hi, Im so sorry to intrude on you guys. But there's a paparazzi outside who has been harassing me for weeks and I was wondering if I could hideout with you guys til he leaves?" You ask the man who nods his head and moves a little so you could sit next to him.
You quietly whisper a small thank you to the man who gives you a small half smile. As you sit down your hand grazes his thigh and you feel your cheeks heat up. Shaking it off you introduce yourself.
"I'm Y/N" You say with a small smile on your face
Before the man can speak, his son replies for him.
"I'm Jack and that's my dad" He says reaching out his hand for you too shake.
"Lovely to meet you Jack" You say shaking is hand. You let go of Jacks hand and turn a little towards the man.
You can see him a lot better now then from your booth earlier. And my god he looks even better up close.
"And lovely to meet you dad" You say sticking your hand out a little for him to shake.
âAaronâ he replies with a small smile while shaking your hand.
You sit with them for roughly an hour talking to them. Jack tells you about how his dad is a real superhero and how he fights bad guys everyday. You listen to the boy marvel about his dad for pretty much the entire time. You watch Aaron the entire time from the corner of your eye. The way his eyes light up when Jack talks is without a doubt the cutest thing youâve ever seen. Jack then starts talking about how his dad is the only dad in his class who doesnât have a girlfriend or a pet which causes Aaronâs cheeks to become a bit more rosy colored then they were.
After roughly two hours of speaking with them you notice that the paparazzi man has left and you feel a little sad since you know you have to leave. Which is a bit weird since you just met them yet you feel like you could be here with them for ages. But despite not wanting to you turn towards Aaron.
âWell looks like heâs finally left so I should probably head homeâ you say trying to hide the disappointment in your voice.
âWe should head home too Jack. You donât want to be late too your aunt.â Aaron says.
âDo we really have to go? I wanna talk more with Y/Nâ Jack whines to Aaron.
You smile a little. Happy to know that the young boy liked talking to you.
âMe too buddy but she has to go home tooâ he says trying to convince Jack to leave.
Your brain short circuits for a moment at his words. Did he really mean it or was he just trying to get his son home? As you get a bit caught up in your thinking Jack stands up from the booth and starts walking towards the entrance of the diner. You get torn out of your thoughts when Aaron gently touches your arm sending goosebumps all over your body. You now notice Jack is no longer in front of you and quickly stand up.
You walk with Aaron and Jack to their car, trying to spend a little more time with them. Aaron opens the car and helps Jack get in his seat. You say bye to Jack before Aaron finishes buckling him up and wait for a moment for him to close the door. When he does he finally turns to you.
âOnce again, thank you for letting me intrude on your time with Jack.â You say to him with a small chuckle.
âDonât worry, you werenât intruding. In fact we had a great time today.â He replies with a smile on his face.
You can feel that your heart does a tiny flip at his words.
You both just look at each other for a moment and you start feeling a tiny bit sad that this might be your last time ever seeing them, and seeing Aaron. And before you even realize it you words just spill from your mouth.
âWell anyway I want to thank you probably for helping me out. Even if you don't think I was intruding on you guys. Maybe we could grab a dinner sometime or maybe a couple of drinks?â You stutter out. Rather nervous whether or not heâs going to take you up on your offer or not. It feels like ages before you finally hear him answer you.
âHow about tonight? Jacks going to be staying with his aunt so my evening is freeâ He replies
You let out a breath you didn't even realize you were holding in.
âYeah, that sounds good!â You reply turning your head away slightly trying to hide that fact that you are exploding from happiness and that you have a gigantic smile on your face.
âGreat, I can pick you up at 8 if thatâs ok with youâ he says and you notice he has a grin on his face that matches yours.
âYeah thatâs more than ok with me.â You say and take out your phone. Handing it to him so he can put in his number. Which he does.
âIâll text you my addressâ you say to him still grinning grime ear to ear.
Hi everyone! So sorry for the late update but here are the results of the voting! You guys seem to be in the mood of getting hurt and I get that. The first part of Only Love Can Hurt Like This will be out as soon as possible. And after that you guys will get a very lovely angsty fic where you can realise youâre in love with your boss!
Hi guys! Thank you so much for all the love on my latest post. I have a few fics Iâm working on but I wanted to ask you guys what you wanted to see first.
âą Somebody To Love (smut) - Aaron Hotchner listens to exactly how you want to be touched.
âą itâs 3 in the morning (fluff) - Aaron and you confess your feelings while watching a movie in the middle of the night.
âą Only love can hurt like this (SERIES)(fluff,angst,smut) - Y/N is a popstar who falls in love with a hot single father who just so happens to be an FBI agent.
âą Somebody else (angst) - Y/N realises sheâs in love with her boss when he introduces to the team his girlfriend Beth.
Let me know what you want to see first and if you have any request send them in and Iâll do my best with them. <3
Here is also a link if you want to vote on there insteadđ„°
More then friends - Aaron Hotchner x reader (NSFW)
Authors note: hi guys, long time since Iâve been on here. But anyway here is a little bit of a long fix about the incredibly hot Aaron Hotchner. Please donât judge me too much as this is my first smut everđ± But anyways I hope you guys enjoy. <3
âïžDO NOT READ IF YOU ARE UNDER 18. IF YOU DO I WILL BLOCK YOU!!âïž
Y/N and Hotch have always had a bit of a weird realationship. They flirt way too much with each other but nothing ever happens. Then Aaron met Beth and Y/N gave up. Thatâs until she finds out that he and Beth have broken up. One night while out with the team Y/N finally builds up the courage to ask what happened and maybe just maybe she has another chance with Aaron.
WARNINGS: Badly written smut, tiny bit of dom Hotch, hint of a sir kink, Hotch being hot in suits and shirts, a small age gap, boss/subordinate relationship, sex in a restroom and alcohol.
Music is playing from speakers all over the bar as you are crammed into a booth with your teammates. Morgan is currently teasing Emily about who her sexual awakening was. When the laughter dies down Emily turns to you.
âY/N, truth or dare?â
You let the question sit with you for a moment before saying truth.
âOut of everyone on the team who are you most attracted to?â Emily says with a mischievous grin in her eyes.
Emily has known about your not so little crush on Hotch for quite some time. Emily has told you countless times that he most certainly has the same feelings towards you. But there was always something going on that prevented it. Most recently it was Beth. You didnât have anything against her. You just were kind of in love with her boyfriend.
You take a sip of your drink as you look around the table. Your eyes stop for a moment on your boss and you can feel your cheeks heat up a little.
âMy answer has to be Hotchâ you finally reply.
Penelope letâs put a small shriek, while Derek seems to be a little hurt heâs not your favourite. You look over table again trying to find who you should ask. Once again your eyes land on your boss and you ask him truth or dare. To no oneâs surprise he chooses truth. Even though you arenât drunk you still feel that the alcohol is giving you a tiny bit more confidence then you normally have. You lean on to the table still looking straight into Aaronâs eyes and ask him a question.
âWhy did you break up with Beth?â
Aaronâs eyes widen a little at your question.
âThere was someone else I liked so I broke it offâ Aaronâs eyes never leave yours as he answers the question and you arenât quite sure if heâs talking about you or not.
As the night goes on the team starts drinking more, including you and Aaron. As the drinks keep coming you start to feel more relaxed. But at the back of your mind you canât get rid of the question of who he was talking about. Youâre so deep in thought that you donât realise that everyone has gone on the dance floor except you and Hotch. Taking a sip of your drink you turn towards Hotch who is now sitting so close to you that your thighs are touching.
âWho was it that âbrokeâ you and Beth up?â You finally ask since not knowing if it was you or not was absolutely killing you.
Aaron looks deep into your eyes before he leans closer to you and whispers in your ear.
âWho do you think it was sweetheart?â
He leans back watching your face. Before either of you say anything you grab his hand and drag him towards the bathrooms. You open one of the bathrooms and practically throw Aaron inside. When youâve entered you close the door and lock it.
You both just stand and stare at each other. You can see the lust in his eyes and you donât doubt he can see the same in yours. Finally you speak up.
âIâm just a tiny bit drunk right now which is the only reason Iâm gonna say this. Aaron I want to be more then friends. But i donât want this to just be a one time thing cause I really, really like you. And I know that this is inappropriate since your my boss and all that but I really donât care.â
As you are rambling you donât notice that Aaron is moving closer to you.
âBut I mean can you blame me for finding you attractive? Youâre always wearing those god damn suits and whenever we go out with the team or at a dinner to Rossiâs. You lose the tie and the jacket and roll up those sleeves and my god the things I imagine those hands could do.â
Aaron suddenly puts a hand over your mouth and you let out a small gasp.
âI donât want to be just friends either and I most certainly donât want this to be a one time thing. And I also need you to know that you didnât break me and Beth up. Beth and I were never together. She was just a friend who was trying to help me get over a crush. Over you. Luckily it didnât work.â
Aaron moves his hand and the two of you stare at each other. After what feels like ages he finally moves toward you and your lips meet in fiery kiss.
Your teeth clash just a little as you fight for dominance in the kiss. You lose the battle when Aaron pushes you up against the door and you let out a moan into his mouth.
You feel Aaron grin into the kiss when you moan and he shifts his focus trying to elicit another moan from you.
Aaron starts kissing down your neck and when he finds your sweet spot you let out a rather load moan. Aaron stops his kisses to listen to you. You decide to use this to your advantage and switch your positions. You push Aaron against the door and start inviting his shirt. He goes to take it off but you stop him.
âDonât you dare take it off Aaronâ you say as you admire his torso.
You lean towards him and kiss him again as you work on removing his belt. You start kissing down his neck and down his torso. When you reach just above the waist band of his pants you feel him suck in a deep breath. You unzip his pants and pull them down along with his underwear.
His member was starting to harden so you spit in your hand and start pumping him gently. Aaron lets out his breath and looks down at you with lustful eyes. Heâs completely erect now so you situate your self a bit better and take his member into your mouth.
Aaron letâs out a small groan when you start bobbing your head creating a nice and slow rhythm.
When you feel like your ready you take him deeper, trying your best not to gag on his member.
Aaron moves his hands towards your hair and pulls it into a makeshift ponytail. He makes sure though to not push on your head, letting you have the control.
You start to bob your head a little faster making Aaron grip your hair a little tighter. You moan around his member when you feel the burn on your scalp.
With each movement of your head you can tell that Aaronâs trying his best not to thrust into your mouth. When you feel his member start to twitch you know heâs about cum but before he can finish he pulls you away from him.
âI need to feel you Y/Nâ he says in deep voice.
He helps you stand up and guides you towards the sink. He pushes you against it much like he did a few minutes earlier. He practically rips your shirt off and lifts your skirt up to your hips.
Once again your lips meet but this time he snakes his hand towards the growing wet spot between your legs. He gently touches the outside of your panties to feel how wet you are for him.
âIs this all for me darling?â He asks you.
âAll for you Aaronâ
âI donât think thatâs any way to address your superior is it Y/N?â He asks you raising his eyebrows a little.
If he Aaron wasnât trapping your body between him and the sink youâre pretty sure your legs would have melted to the ground at his dominance.
âItâs all for you sirâ you say and Aaron nods his head and gently moves your panties to the side.
âNow be a good girl and be quiet for me. Canât have anyone know your boss is fucking you in the bathroom?â
âIâll be quiet sir, just please touch me.â You plead to him.
Aaron just nods his head and slides a finger into your wetness. You have to use every single cell in your to prevent yourself from screaming his name as he slides another finger into you and starts hitting the perfect spot.
You start to feel a familiar knot in your stomach and you reach your hands towards him and drag him closer.
âSir im closeâ you quietly say as your nails start digging into his back.
âCum on my fingers darlingâ he replies and you immediately start seeing white spots.
When you come down from your high you pull him closer to you and reach for his member. You pump him a few times before guiding him towards you. He takes his member and runs it down your slit gathering wetness.
You both stop for a minute panting and savouring the intimate moment between you. You open your mouth to ask him to move but before you can let out any words he slides into you. You let out a moan and Aaron puts his hand on your mouth to stop the noice.
After letting you adjust to his size for a moment he start slamming into you. You moan into his hand before moving it away.
âOh god sir donât stopâ you half whisper to him, trying not to make any noises.
âYouâre taking me so well darling, feels so good to be in youâ
Aaron thirsts start to get a little sloppier and you know that neither of you can hold out for much longer. You move your hand between the two of you and start rubbing your clit.
âIâm close sirâ
âSo am I darling, where do you want me?â He asks.
âCum inside of me sir. Please.â
Aaron letâs out a moan at your words and shortly after the two of you reach your climax together.
You both are still trying to catch your breaths.
âThat was amazing Aaronâ you finally say breaking the silence.
He chuckles a little at your words and nods.
âItâs a bit different than I imagined it would be thoughâ you say.
Aaron gently slides him self out of you and grabs a few paper towels to clean you up.
âHow did you imagine it would be?â He asks smiling as he cleans you up.
âHonestly, I thought I would one day break while we were on a case and end up giving you road head. But I donât think I wouldâve changed this even if I had a chanceâ you say smiling.
âMe either sweetheartâ he replies and gives you a soft kiss.
You both get dressed again but before you open the door you turn towards Aaron.
âWould you be free sometime this week to go on a proper date?â You ask him.
âHow about tomorrow night?â He replies.
âI would really like thatâ you say beaming.
As you both exit the bathroom you notice that your coworkers were getting ready to go. Emily spots you and asks where youâve been. You and Aaron share a small look before you reply.
Just a little update on me. Iâm not dead. Iâve just been super busy with school since Iâm graduating and Iâve been working like a madman. But Iâm almost at the finish line so hopefully I will be able to have a couple of new fics out in the next 2-3 weeks.
Ps. If anyone wants any small fics of any of the characters that are listed on my masterpost I can definitely do that. And asks are of course welcome.
If James Moriarty were still alive, I am a 100% sure that he would have a secret TikTok account and would constantly be making references and doing stupid TikTok dances.
I have been listening to the unofficial Bridgerton musical nonstop for a few days now and I cannot stop thinking about Sirius Black and Remus Lupin in a Bridgerton world. Please tell me someone else wants this because Iâm gonna write something and Iâm going to need someone to read it.
Songs of The Heart - Chapter 8 (Sirius Black X reader)
Authors note: Hi guys, chapter 8 is finally here. I am so sorry for making you all wait so long but I am so happy to finally be able to share this chapter with you. Please dont judge it to badly since this is the first time I'm writing a semi steamy chapter. But beside that enjoy this chapter and let me know what you think.
Summary: The party starts and things start to get a little steamy between Y/N and Sirius.
Warnings: Talk of drugs and alcohol, and a lot of sexual tension.
Chapter 8 - Baby, I Love Your Way
After a short while you and the girls had finished getting dressed and you all had different colored glitter on you. Marlene had green glitter, Mary had blue, Lily had gold, and you had red glitter. You all went downstairs where the boys were waiting.
âI think this party needs a little more sparkle; donât you girls think.â Marlene said as she looked at the boys who werenât wearing any glitter. You all looked at each other smiling and nodded. âHow about we all pair up with our cooking partner and add a little sparkle to them?â Marlene said and gave Lily a look that meant she should go for it with James. âYeah, I think thatâs a good ideaâ Mary chimed and immediately grabbed Remus and went to get her glitter.
The rest of the girls all went ahead and went to go get glitter with their partner and left you and Sirius all alone. The two of you were having a hard time trying to say anything as the silence grew louder.
âSo, Iâm guessing you will be putting red glitter on me?â Sirius asked you to try and make the awkward silence go away.
You just nodded and looked down at your feet. After a few moments had passed you spoke up.
âSo, should we go to my room and finish putting the glitter on you?â
âYeah, letâs go and get it over with.â Sirius said with a small laugh.
You go up to your room and instruct Sirius to sit down on your bed while you get the glitter. You sit down and get closer to him so itâs easier for you to put the glitter on. You leaned closer and you could feel his breath on your face. You put the glitter on his cheekbones to highlight them and you had to admit, he looked quite good. Once it was all finished you gently blew onto the glitter so it would dry faster. You moved a bit back and softly said âAll doneâ.
Sirius didnât say anything he just looked at you with a warm look in his eyes. He reached his hand up and cupped your cheek, making sure to not disturb the glitter that was on your cheekbone. Your eyes glanced down at his lips and his eyes did the same on you. His face moved a bit closer, asking you for permission, you nod your head and lean closer to him. Just as your lips were about to touch Lily busted into the room with James and you and Sirius hurry to move away from each other. They both look at the two of you and Lily holds up a small jar of glitter.
âJust came to return this, but donât let me interrupt you two.â She says shooting you a look and you know you must talk to her later about what she saw.
âWe should probably go downstairs, right?â You say to Sirius, and he nods his head, and you go meet up with everyone in the living room. Everyone was set in a circle in the room, and they seemed to be playing Never Have I Ever. The group move a little to let you and Sirius sit down. Currently it was MarleneÂŽs turn. âNever have I ever, had a sex dream about someone in this roomâ. The first one to admit was Remus who had turned red as soon as Marlene had finished her sentence. Then Everyone except Peter took a sip from their drink. Marlene looked at you a bit shocked, not believing that you had ever had a sex dream about someone in the friend group. You could see that she was about to speak to you, but Remus beat her to speaking. âNever have I ever, done the walk of shame.â Marlene then picked up her drink shooting Sirius a look as she took a sip. Something inside of you stirred and you felt angry, but you didnât really know why. But you didnât have time to think about this feeling since it was Lilyâs turn. âNever have I ever, used drugsâ You saw Remus look at you as he picked up his drink and took a sip, as did you. Everyone in the group could barely contain how surprised they were that two of the star students had taken drugs.
âIs that what you two do when you go study herbolegy?â Mary asks the two of you and you just nod as you laugh a little.
âIn all fairness we do study, we just take some relaxing breaks as wellâ You say, as you look at Remus whos trying not to laugh.
After everyone had gotten taken their jaws up from the floor, you continued playing. After a while you all had become relatively tipsy and had turned on the radio. You were all currently singin DonÂŽt go breaking my heart at the top of your longs and dancing along to the music. You and Lily had started coreographing a dance to the song midway through. When the song was over you sat down laughing as you watched James and Sirius bicker about who was a better singer. You looked around at your friends with a warm feeling in your chest. You didnt understand what you did to deserve these people but you were so grateful for them. As your looking around the room you lock eyes with Sirius and he starts walking over to you.
âI think that my glitter is starting to fall a bit off Y/N. Would you mind touching it up a bit?â Sirius asked when he had reached you. You looked at him a bit confused since his glitter hadnât moved at all through the night. You nodded and upstairs you went. When you were about to enter your room Sirius took your hand and led you to his room instead, locking the door behind him. You looked at him not understanding why he had led you to his room and he must have noticed it.
âItâs less likely that the guys will feel the need to go up to get somethingâ. He spoke.
âAhh, okâŠ. So, what is it that you really want from me Sirius? Cus your glitter is still very stuck on you.â You asked him, not sure if this was about your almost kiss or if he just wanted to talk.
âI think you know why we are here Y/Nâ he said as he walked towards you trapping you up against the door with his body.
The butterflies in your stomach went wild at his words and you could feel the heat rise in your body. You tuned your head up to be able to look at him better as you try to decide whether this is a good idea.
âYou know Iâm not so sure Sirius, I think Iâm going to have to hear it from you why we are hereâ you say.
Sirius gives you that infamous grin of his and you just know that he is going to make it hard for you to try and say no. He tilts his head and leans closer to you.
âEver since I met you youâve made me crazy Y/N. An after what almost happened before Evans busted into the room, I canât stop thinking about you and how it would feel too able to call you mine. So, if itâs alright with you I would very much like to kiss you right now.â He says softly and itâs a miracle you hear him with how fast your heart is beating.
Your head fills with a thousand reasons as to why you shouldnât kiss him but as you look at him and see that he honestly means what he said you decide to throw caution to the wind. You put your hand on the back of his neck and finally connect your lips with his. After waiting for years for this moment you couldnât believe it was happening. It was everything you dreamed of and more. You could taste the fire whisky he had been drinking on his tongue and that mixed with the smell of his cologne was driving you wild. The kiss started to get more heated as he slowly traces his hands down your body stopping at your thighs. He then slides his hands onto the back of your thighs and lifts you up. You wrap your legs around his waist, and he carries you over to his bed. You only break the kiss when he throws you down on the bed. You look at him just admiring him. The glitter that used to rest on his cheekbones was now all over his cheek. You could hear the radio downstairs softly playing âBaby, I Love Your Wayâ and along with it your friends all singing along with it very out of tune. Sirius slowly makes his way towards you on the bed. He gets on the bed once again trapping your body with his as he starts kissing you with the most passion you have ever felt. He lifts himself up a little and you take the chance to slide your hand into his hair softly pulling on it. As soon as you do that, he lets out a small groan and softly bites your lip. He moves away from your lips and starts kissing your neck. He finds your sweet spot in no time making you grab onto him as you try to not make any loud noises. Just as his hand starts to move down your body, someone tries to open the door with no luck. Sirius goes to continue but the person starts knocking on the door. The two of you look at each other wondering what to do.
âSirius, we have to go downstairs, they are probably wondering where we are.â You whisper.
âOh, come on Y/N, well just tell them that we had to help twins or somethingâ He replies.
You open your mouth to start protesting but he starts kissing your neck making you forget everything you were thinking. Then the knocking starts again.
âY/N are you in there? Iâve been looking for you everywhere. I really need to talk to youâ You hear Lily yell through the door.
You look at Sirius and say "Im really sorry Sirius, I have to help herâ. He smiles at you and says. âIts ok Y/N, go help her.â You smile at him and give him one final kiss before heading to the door.
Hi guys a little life update on me. I got COVID and have been dealing with a lot of complications from that which is why I havenât been posting. Iâm hoping to be able to start posting more now though since I am getting better. Hopefully the next chapters of Songs of the heart will be up in about a week and maybe another chapter of The wanted criminal.
Songs of The Heart - Chapter 7 (Sirius Black x reader)
Authors note: This chapter is a bit of a build up to the next chapter but I promise itâs all going to be worth the wait.
Summary: The boys and girls arrive and there is a lot of sexual tension in the air.
Warnings: Just reader being confused about her feelings.
Chapter 7 â The Name of The Game
After saying goodbye to your dad and Dee you start getting everything ready for the evening knowing that there was going to be a lot to talk about when they would all arrive. And if you know them all correctly there was going to be a lot of tension between some of the people. You clean the entire house and decide to take a bath to try and clear your head for the evening. you start filling the tub with water and put some soap in it and the soap smell fills the room. You slowly start getting in letting your body adjust to heat of the water. When you get comfortable you try to just not think, but your mind floods with thoughts about the raven-haired boy. Ever since that night itâs like he has been trying to piece back together your broken heart. But what do these nights mean to him? Its obvious he has some feelings for you, but you donât know if heâs just attracted to you or if he likes you and wants something more. But you donât know how to start that talk with him. Youâre not even sure if you want to have that talk with him. Heâs hurt you before so whatâs stopping him from doing it again? But the weekend was bound to eventful since Marlene was going to be here and her and Sirius have a somewhat complicated past. He used tp switch between liking you and Marlene, but he only ever went âofficialâ with Marlene. You never held any resentment towards her though. She along with the rest of your friend group didnât know what had happened between you and Sirius.
The water had started to turn cold, so you get out. You put the towel around and open the door only to find Sirius standing outside. You notice that Siriusâs eyes donât immediately meet yours, they went up and down your body which was only covered with a towel. He was checking you out. When his eyes finally meet yours, you notice that his face is a bit redder then normally. Was he blushing? âDid you need something Sirius?â you ask as you are starting to become a bit cold as you are almost naked. He doesnât say anything he just keeps looking at you. You say his name and he clears his throat. âUhm yeah, I was just wondering why everything is so clean, and why there are ten bags of chips in the kitchen.â He says and you can hear in his voice that heâs a bit flustered. You smile a little at him and wonder if you should lie to try and keep everything a surprise or if you should just tell him. âWell, I needed to clean and then I was just checking to see if we had enough food for us this weekend. I must have forgotten to put everything backâ you say, and you can see that he doesnât really believe you, but he doesnât question you. He just nods and gives you small ok. âSo, I kind of need to get dressed but Iâll talk to you later?â you say since you were close to starting shivering at this point. âYeah, yeah of course. Talk to later.â He says and starts walking away. You go to your room, close the door, and start getting dressed. Since everyone should be arriving in a less than an hour you decide to put on a somewhat flattering outfit. You want Sirius to notice you. You open the closet and start looking for something to wear, and your eyes land on a burgundy red dress. The dress had a sweetheart neckline, flowy sleeves and the back was covered in lace. This was a perfect outfit for the night. You put it on and decide to pair it with black knee-high socks, and some simple black slippers so your feet wouldnât get tired. You decide that simple makeup would do, so you put on light foundation, bit of mascara, bronzer, and blush. You are putting in your earrings when you hear noise downstairs. You stand at the top of the stairs when you notice that everyone has arrived. Your eyes fall on Sirius whoâs currently hugging James and you canât help but smile. He looks so happy when heâs with the boys and that also makes you happy. The girls are all talking to Remus who looks up and notices you. âHi Y/N, thank you for inviting usâ he says with a smile to you and all the eyes in the room fall on you. âOf course, Remus, you canât stay in a summer house and not have your friends over.â You say back to him as you are walking down the stairs. Once you are downstairs you are immediately crushed in a bear hug from your friends. âBoys you will be staying in Siriusâs room, and girls you will be in my room.â You say as you lead the girls to your room. âSo Y/N, why are you all dressed up?â Mary asks when you enter the room. âYeah Y/N, are you trying to impress someone?â Lily says as she sits down on the bed. âNo, I just thought with the boys coming as well as you guys, that this night might end up with a few games and maybe some drinks, so I just wanted to be ready. And you know it seams Evans Iâm not the only dressed for the occasion.â You say pointing to Lily. âWhat I just wanted to be presentableâ. She says turning her head away to try to hide the blush that had surfaced on her cheeks. âWell I think that Potter appreciated it, cause he was definitely checking you outâ. Marlene said as she sat down next to Lily. âYou really think so?â Lily replied. âIâm sure of itâ Marlene replied, and you and Mary both agreed. After catching up you decided to get the boys and the twins and headed downstairs to make dinner. After a few minutes of arguing about what to eat you decided to make pasta. You all divided up into pairs of two and everyone went to certain station. Remus and Mary oversaw the sauce, Marlene and Peter in charge of boiling the pasta, Lily and James were chopping vegetables, you and Sirius were making some garlic bread and the twins were in
the game room. âY/N, how Much garlic do you want to use?â Sirius asks you as he walks over to you holding 4 whole garlics. âWe wonât be needing that much garlic, just bring me one and were good.â You say laughing at the thought that he thought you needed four whole garlics to make garlic bread. He returned three of the garlics and brought over the one he didnât leave behind. You instruct him to sit down and start teaching him what to do. An hour later everyone had finished eating and you were sitting in the living room chatting. The current topic was pranks that everyone had done. âSirius do you remember when Y/N did that hair color prank on you last year, she did some charm that changed your hair from black to green for a week?â James asked Sirius while laughing so hard that he was barely breathing. Sirius simply laughed and said yeah. âWhy did you do that though Y/N, was it just a prank or was there another reason for it?â Remus asked you. You did that prank on Sirius a few days after he stood you up. You were just so hurt by what he did and you wanted him to feel just a little
bit how you felt, so you decided to mess with his precious hair. âIt was just a prank, nothing moreâ you say with a sigh as you look at Sirius. He just looks down and fiddles with his hands. Lily notices this so she changes the subject. âyou know what we should do tonight? We should have a small party.â She says. âYes, we should do that, play some games and such.â Mary says. âOh, we have to have a theme, I vote for a glitter themeâ Marlene chimes in. Everyone agrees on the party and the theme so you all head up to get ready. Before you can head upstairs Sirius grabs ahold of your arm and stops you. âIâm really sorry for hurting you Y/N.â he says to. You donât know what to say so you just nod and leave. Once you get up to your room the girls were pulling out their makeup and alcohol. This night would most certainly be interesting.
Songs of The Heart - chapter 6 (Sirius Black x reader)
Summary: After Y/N comforted Sirus their realationship grows and Y/N starts to like Sirius a bit more then she wants.
Warnings: none, just a bit of fluff.
Chapter 6 - Love of my life
Itâs been a couple weeks since you and Sirius had fallen asleep in your room and the relationship between you and Sirius had grown. He still hadnât stopped trying to woo you, but you had stopped threating him every time he said something mildly inappropriate. You hadnât stopped completely though, you only threatened him when your sisters were nearby. Sirius had spent more nights in your room when he needed comfort and you couldnât say no. Which has led to many nights were you two have fallen asleep in each otherâs arms. But as your relationship grew so did your feelings. You felt like your heart was set on forgiving him, but your brain wasnât really on board with that plan.
You wake up when the sun is starting to peek in through your window. You turn your head a bit down to be able to look better at Sirius who is sleeping peacefully in your arms. The sun shines perfectly on his face and he looks beautiful. You turn your head away and look at the alarm clock on your bed side table. âOh shitâ you quietly say. Its almost seven, which means your father is going to be waking everyone up in a few minutes. You gently nudge Sirius trying to wake him up. âSirius you have to get up, my dad is gonna be here any minute nowâ Sirius just grumbles and holds onto you tighter. You laugh a little at his response. Sirius has never liked the mornings and it seems that when he is in a deep slumber with you he never wants get up. âSirius you canât be here when my dad gets here. Heâs a kind man but this might be his breaking pointâ Sirius opens his eyes and moves back a little so he can look at your face a little better. âHave I ever told you that you look cute with your hair all messed up?â Sirius suddenly asks, trying to hide his smile. You roll your eyes and tell him to get dressed. Sirius eventually starts to get up but as soon as his foot meets the floor you hear a knock on your door. You look at Sirius and you see that his eyes reflect the panic that has flooded your body. âWhat do we do?â Sirius whispers. You look around your room and your eyes fall on the window. Sirius sees that you are looking at the window and he simply shakes his head and quietly says no. Then there is another knock at the door followed by the voice of your father asking if he can come in. âin a minute dad, Iâm just putting on some clothes.â You yell to your dad and turn to Sirius. âSirius you have to go out the windowâ you say to him as you hand him his clothes and push him towards the window. âCanât I just hide under the bed Y/N?â he asks as you are opening the window. âNo, heâll see you if youâre under the bed. You have to go now.â You whisper shout and point towards the window.. Sirius looks between you and the window and eventually he starts climbing through it hiding next to the window. You hurry to close the window and quickly jump into some sweatpants and open your door. âHey dad, whatâs up?â you ask as soon as you open the door. Your dad looks at you a little suspicious of your behavior but brushes it off.
âGood morning too you to sweetheart.â He says and enters your room and stands by your bed. You walk to your bed and sit down. âAs you know I have to leave today since there was a mix up at the office. So, I was wondering if you and Sirius could keep an eye on the twins if I took Dee with me to the city?â He asks you. You know that he isnât really asking heâs kind of telling you, you must do this. But you love your sisters so of course you say yes. âBrilliant sweetheart, you can of course invite a few of your friends over but donât throw a partyâ he says sternly. You go to respond but hear a loud thud outside. Your eyes go wide, and you look at your dad âDid you hear something Y/N?â your dad asks. âNo, I didnât hear anythingâ you say trying to get him to not think about the sound. âBut yes, I think I might invite the girls over, is it okay if Sirius invites the boys? I will of course make sure that they donât do anything and there will be no party.â You ask him, praying that heâll say yes. Sirius has been missing his friends a lot and you know that meeting the boys would help him. âSure, but they all stay in separate rooms, and they can only stay till Sunday.â You nod and he leaves. As soon as heâs gone you rush to open the window and peak your head outside. You notice that Sirius isnât next to the window, so you look down and there he was lying on the ground. You panic when you see that his eyes are closed, and he seems to be not moving. âSiriusâ you quietly call to himâ He doesnât open his eyes, so you whisper yell his name again. When he doesnât respond the second time you run out of your room and rush to get to him. Once you reached him you kneeled beside him and put your ear next to his mouth to check if he was breathing. Thatâs when he finally decided to speak.
âI knew you cared about me Y/Nâ he whispers in your ear. You immediately sit up and swat his head and he letâs out a quiet cry. âI thought you were hurt you idiot, donât ever do that againâ you say and push him with every word you say. He sits up with a small smile on his face. âIâm sorry Y/N, I just wanted to see if you would come rushing to help meâ he says trying to laugh this off. You just stand up and star going back inside muttering to yourself what an idiot he is. You go back to your room and send a letter to your friends and Sirius friends that they could come stay with you for the weekend. A few hours later you get a response from them all that they would be arriving around eight this evening. This was going to be one hell of a weekend.
Summary: After finding Sirius crying in the kitchen in the middle of the night. Y/N tries to find a way to comfort Sirius.
âSirius, is everything alrightâ you ask him, worried something might be wrong. He turns his head away from you trying to wipe his tears away. âYeah, yeah everythingâs just peachy Y/Nâ he tells you, and you can see that heâs hoping youâll just leave him alone. You tell him to follow you so he stands up and together you two walk to your room. You sit down in the reading nook, gesturing him to sit down with you. He sits down, and starts fidgeting his hands. You know itâs a way for him to keep calm when he doesnât feel good. âWhat happened?â You ask softly, trying to find a way to help him. You know he has treated you like you didnât mean anything to him. But for some reason there is a part of you that wants to help him. âItâs nothing reallyâ he says looking up at you smiling. âYou know you can tell me anything Sirius, Iâm just here to listenâ you say offering him some help. He doesnât say anything and you can see heâs trying to decide whether he has the strength to talk about what was going on. Eventually he just looks at you and gives you a small nod. You took it as a sign that he didnât want to talk about it right now. So instead you take his hand and lead him to the bed. You both lay down and you guide Sirius to lay on your chest. You stroke his hair trying to comfort him. You used to do this when the two of you were still close and it always helped him. After a little while Sirius takes your hand and gives it a little kiss as a token of appreciation. You donât get offended that he doesnât say thank you. Heâs always found it difficult to say those two words whenever he actually needed help. You stay silent and just keep stroking his hair. It doesnât take long for him to fall asleep and as you look at him you canât help but feel those old familiar feelings try to climb to the surface. You donât know what to do. Most of the time he tries to tug on every single string you have but looking at him now. You canât help but wonder what would have happened if he had shown up that night. Would this have been a normal night? You decide to not think about this since it doesnât do well to dwell on the past. It doesnât take you long to drift off into a deep slumber.
Authors note: So Iâm finally back and giving you guys 2 chapters since itâs Christmas. This one kind of sucks but chapter 5 is a lot better.
Summary: Y/N wanders around the summer house and thinks about what Sirius had done.
Warnings: None
The rest of the drive to the summer house was a lot more quiet. Sirius didnât do anything to annoy you which confirmed that he had heard what you said to Dee. But why was he so hurt about it? It wasnât like he was the one who got stood up.
The car finally stops after what feels like eternity and you immediately run inside so you can find a bedroom before the twins run inside. Once you get inside you are blown away by how big the house is. The floor is covered in beautiful dark wood and all sorts of pictures hang on the walls. You look to your right to see the entertainment room. There is a ms Pac-Man arcade game, pool table, ping pong table and a foosball table. You also see that there are quite a few speakers there. You look up the stairs and figure that must be where the bedrooms are so you go up and start looking for a bedroom. You walk up to the first door and open it. The house is very old and you can hear it by the loud noise the dirt makes when opened. You look inside and are captivated. There is a king sized bed with a duvet covered in satin. There are a ton of shelfâs filled with all kinds of books. The window sill had been turned into a little reading nook. You had most certainly found your room. You put your stuff down and go out the door and walk straight into Sirius and lose your balance. Before you can hit the floor he catches you, pulling you close to him so he wonât lose his balance as well. âStarting to fall for me already Y/N?â He says to you. You push him back while moving away from him, muttering a shut up while you leave. Once you are downstairs you find your sisters and tell them which room is off limits. When they agreed to leave your room alone you decide to check the place out. You went from room to room admiring how big everything was. After a while you decide to go back to your room and read a bit. You decide to take the first book you see. It just so happens to be Persuasion by Jane Eyre. You sit down in your nook and start reading. Time flew by while you read so you hadnât noticed it was the middle of the night by now. And although you hadnât noticed how time had passed your stomach was very aware of it. You stand up and carefully open your door, hoping it wonât creak too loud. You walk as quickly and quietly as possible to the kitchen while the old floor complains about the weight being put on it. You enter the kitchen and see Sirius sitting at the table with tears in his eyes. You were going to turn around and leave but your heart was telling you had to stay. âSirius is everything alright?â
Hey guys, life has been really trying me in the past few weeks so Songs of The Heart will be put on pause for a couple of weeks. Hope you guys are doing ok and happy holidays.â€ïž
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