#jim moriarty

[bens-moms-are-lesbinems]

“i suppose he’s not dead. but hey, neither am i!”

cw: grief, death, mentions of domestic violence in text

The shatter of air signaling the death of my old life still echoes in my hallways, you know. I remember the weight of the phone in my hand when I got the call three hours after he’d done it. I remember the heat in my cheeks, the burning my eyes, the swell building in my throat, the noise lost as the breath escaped my lungs.

I still blame myself. The new year has come and gone twice, and its third replacement since Jim died is halfway on its way. Yet the blame still sits heavy in my hands.

I was too late. Three hours of silence. No one said anything. I could have saved him. I could watched him through the scope, I say, and been there to stop what he was about to do.

And then what?

He might still be here, maybe. I could have done… something. I should have been there like he’d asked me to be. I should have been there even if he didn’t ask me.

To be fair, it was a nasty fight.

I’d refused on account of the blistering words and the flurry of angry blows exchanged the night before. I didn’t want to see him that day. I didn’t think he’d want to see me either.

I know I wouldn’t.

[transmoriarty]

IM CRYING YOUR BANNER

the philosophical debate of our time 🧐🧐

[yiferr]

I don't know what I'm drawing; I just drew it.👾👾

[transmoriarty]

the sacred texts

[transmoriarty]

You rewatched the show in Jan? What stood out to you this time?

the extenuating circumstances here is that i had to do my first ever prep for a colonoscopy so i bullied my long suffering partner into watching them again with me

it’s weird bc i rly alternate between tjlc brain/mormor brain for them, so for most of it. it is just me sat there vindicated that i wasn’t a delusional 12 year old and it is actually just as gay and queerbaiting (and unfortunately good) as i remember

(the tjlc pickup on rewatch is how much sherlock ESPECIALLY in the pilot can be read with SA subtext & the cabbie. not that i’m necessarily mad they got rid but i thought it made it rly interestin especially for how much younger he reads? idk my sherlock thoughts are long and complex)

it’s rly weird bc my hyperfix centres so much around @pasiphile’s universe that i found i kept pausing it to explain to my bf what “had actually just happened” to jim and seb inbetween these scenes. this was around halfway/near the end of FIF liveblogging so this became rly funny by the time u get to s3

so it rly is like. imagine me drinking 2 litres of colonoscopy prep after fasting for 24 hours. & alternating between going to the toilet and explaining “so jim’s just left baskerville and is in a ditch somewhere shaking” like it’s lion king 1 and a half

i’m running through the list of other things i remembered uhh

- how much revisiting the original is kinda like seeing an unreliable narration version of sherlock filtered through john’s audience perspective, but just How deep mycroft goes & (it’s my fave topic but) like. his relationship to the british government & state repression, & how even though it’s fun characters, it’s still sometimes sherlock working with the police in london, & not that jim is any kind of noble figure, but almost in seeing the like. copaganda naivety of sherlock being protected by his class and relationship to mycroft which gets more intense on every viewing

- u rly feel this in ASIB (which is one of the most lived in episodes for me idk how to explain but i kept pausing to explain shit like the time jim sent seb over undercover) but by the end when they send sherlock to sit in a chair alone but. it’s such a story about mycroft/jim with irene as a separate player. & sherlock who the audience experiences this through but he’s also weaponised through that

- i haven’t fact checked this & couldn’t find it quickly on youtube but im pretty sure its true. when they cut to jim in ASIB & he’s texting outside big ben because mycroft’s plan has been foiled, they play the same music when sherlock jumps from the roof. lots to unpack there

- i’ve built up what im calling a Cringe Callous to a lot of this show bc of nostalgia & i’ve rewatched it so much that a lot doesn’t phase me. or ive had to mentally rewrite in a watsonian way why this character is acting like this. but this gets ROUGH by the time u get to irene

- i forgot how much focus there is on sherlock being smart which, kind of like the last point, is rly funny to me bc his edgy cold demeanour & trying to be smart comes across so much more like masking & he’s actually a little bit stupid and kind. i like when he just hangs out.

- i forgot how badly i was fighting people in the top/bottomlock wars but. i am on the right side of history and the idea sherlock is anything but a bottom.

- i think that’s sometimes the reason sheriarty doesn’t appeal to me as much is like. i think the cold genius matching To Me is so much a part of their masking, and i rly like that they have parallel partners who see through their bullshit and help with the Noise of it all (i will still dabble though. don’t get me wrong)

- it’s charming how old the iphones look now. jim pulling up an app to hack into the prison is camp

- i always forget jim says “sebastian” when he’s talking abt bach and it jumpscares me every time

- i struggle watching the rooftop scene because it’s jim at his most manic. but i rly love the “WHAT?? WHAT DID I MISS??” line. god

- u know how people will pause LOTR to talk abt him breaking his toe. i will apparently always pause the great game to share how (canonically) molly forced jim to sit through episodes of glee & she shared this on her cat themed blog

- i always forget the line “by the way you have a surprisingly comfortable bed” & when he turns back to smirk at sherlock in TAB. all timer

- i apparently blacked out that jim appears in a dress in TAB. will kinkify that at some point.

- i can’t believe they had andrew scott sucking off a gun on tv license money i rly can’t. i forgot i wrote fic of this during the pandemic and i thought i made it up. but it’s there on the screen.

- remember when they showed molly & sherlock kissing but not sherlock & jim. im still mad abt that

- remember when mads mikkelsen’s brother was in it and peed in their fireplace. crazy work

tried going through the archive but i think most of it was this kind of thing. here’s from the scene of the crime:

i hope this is legible. we made it to about the s3 ending. the only one i haven’t rewatched with jim content is the season finale which i genuinely have blacked out & mostly dont consider canon. i wld need a Big Bribe to go back and revisit x

i finally got my inbox working so pls come ask me questions / ramble with me!

this one’s got more stamina but he’s less caring in the afterglow

[velvetring1]

this is so irrelevant and nobody gaf

but when i listen to like 2000s/2010s rock songs it really gets me thinking like John really has that type of voice that they had and then i can picture Jim chiming in with his vacillating voice

ex: Authority Song by Jimmy Eat World

[velvetring1]

moriarty omg…https://open.spotify.com/track/6UBQONiLH8kNmmB8UrV2Ef?si=OJvLSmJlR82K_yTcc67LhA&utm_source=copy-link

[transmoriarty]

u know something we don’t talk about. that bit in sherlock (bbc) when jim comes over to 221b after the trial

and he starts it with “it’s gonna start very soon sherlock. the fall” then makes a falling cartoony noise

but then they superimpose him talking over himself making the cartoon noise

then it dramatically has a Vine Boom sound effect and zooms into his forehead

contender for top 5 sherlock (bbc) editing moments