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He/they. MXTX <3 Disabled enby with nothing better to do.

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Lol found out I could have seizures guess how. gue guess how guys

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It's not okay to ignore disability accommodations. I had a full body, 45 minute muscle seizure attack because I had to go to the third floor across the building, first floor across the building, third floor across the building for speech and debate. I was supposed to be never on 3rd floor. I'm angry, tired, and can barely move. When someone says "I need this" it's not for fun. We are in danger.

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Do you know... the muffin man?

Stop baking my family into muffins. I said no, Duolingo.

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Is it considered a hyperfixation if I've researched a lot about a topic/topics that would relate to it, and (hypothetically, if the hyperfixation was a movie) have watched it nearly 35 times now...👀

i would consider it one...me when kpop demon hunters </3 But yes, if you're a neurodivergent person who does that I would call it a hyperfixation!! Thanks for asking!!

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Happy Halloween to everyone who can't go trick-or-treating!!

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Baking is a new kind of obsession. Do I have chronic pain? Yes. Do my legs hurt like hell when I walk around? Also yes. But by Mydei's left tit I'm going to house husband myself some goddamn confetti cookies.

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I happen to be baking again: New thought, Phainon tries to bake as well. He thinks it tastes good, but he apparently has no taste buds. There should be a chemical waste warning.

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I wish I had a heart.

I wish,

and wail, I trip, Over the tail, Of the cowardly lion, Who has too much heart.

I wish I had a heart. I'd do anything for a heart.

Dorothy sings, The scarecrow has wings, Of fire.

And gas.

He had a heart, Now he's only ash.

I wish I had a heart.

Then I could feel, The revulsion at the kill, I just made.

Dorothy screams and a shadow takes her place.

Dorothy screams and screams until silence fills the whole day.

I wish I had a heart.

The cowardly lion, Yells that he must, Get to the wizard, A lack of a heart he wants.

Then I see, It's so clear to me.

Why don't we exchange, Our lives why don't we?

The cowardly lion opens the blank, Empty, Dark, Place in his chest.

"Where is it, where it is?!" I shriek in distress.

I've already taken out my heart to make room.

Wait.

Am I me, Am I you? Am I we?

"I wish I had a heart," The tin man thought.

Before he realized, It wasn't him who was distraught. Because he may be sad, He may feel like he can't feel. But isn't that a feeling? His Achillies' heel,

Was the lion with heart, The one who was empty? Afraid and paranoid, But oh, so deadly.

Because he stands there as I die with a sordid smile, And I realize it was he, That wanted a heart all the while.

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What's up my name is Jeff and today I'll be talking about why "bipolar girlfriend" should not be a thing... I don't even know if this is a thing, but I've heard it used too often. Your girlfriend being toxic does not mean she's bipolar. And even if she was bipolar, why are you shaming bipolar people? HOT TAKE STOP SAYING "OMG my bipolar girlfriend was so toxic and bipolar did I mention she's bipolar?" STOP.

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I am NOT going to cry over a stupid coffee shop romance I am NOT going to cry over a book I started reading a day ago I am NOT-

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Don't go up to a paralyzed person and try to high-five them, because you think it's haha funny. We will bite you. And we will bite you hard.

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gently waters your grave with my tears so that the flies will come cherish you by nourishing themselves on your body

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Who, what, when, where? How is it fair?

I keep asking myself, Over and over, Why these doctors, Just toss me over their shoulder.

Diagnosis after diagnosis, Incorrect.

Why can't they do it right, Analyze my head?

When they finally get it correct, It's something terrible.

"Bipolar 1," They say, Voices cutting through the whispers in my walls.

Psychotic mania, Rapid cycling.

"You'll be lucky," Websites say, "If you make it to 70."

I always hated hospitals, Their walls bright and bland.

I hated hospitals, But my mind is a faraway land.

I sleep to get tired, Stay awake to rejuvinate. I'm scared to start a fire, But the voices say...

"Grab that knife, Look around. Don't you see, Someone's in your house right now?"

Pull down the window, Face under the covers. They're watching me, My oxygen is thin now.

I can't sleep, I can't see. But when I'm awake, I'm just loopy.

My wisdom teeth, I still feel, But I swear to it all, They're watching me now.

Did they use anesthetics? Drag me through a wall? Who, what, where, when? Damn it all.

If the meds don't work this time, Will I have to fall? Give up my grades, For those white walls?

Those hospital halls?

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My therapist just told me that I have bipolar 1...uh for someone who is well versed in neurology I don't know a lot about bipolar?? Send help people with bipolar

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ah yes, being off my antipsychotics right before school starts...let's hope I don't climb the school building again.

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it has come to my attention that I am disabled and cannot climb I don't know wtf I was thinking...

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ah yes, being off my antipsychotics right before school starts...let's hope I don't climb the school building again.

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Baking is a new kind of obsession. Do I have chronic pain? Yes. Do my legs hurt like hell when I walk around? Also yes. But by Mydei's left tit I'm going to house husband myself some goddamn confetti cookies.

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As someone who has psychosis I'm all for normalizing the fact that people have it and it's okay, but if someone with psychosis is yandere and planning your marriage two days in and saying they're gonna kill for you DUMP THAT SUCKER AND RUN-