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how can I combine daily life with the magic i sometimes feel by being me? leben ist so schnell, manchmal lass ich mich dabei einfach sitzen. ich komme nicht hinterher. aber ich darf full blown dabei sein. ich darf sitzen, minuten vergehen vielleicht nicht ich bin da.

avoidingshit

i have a crush at someone at the mental hospital, heeeeeelp

avoidingshit

were almost 6 months together now btw

avoidingshit

we're living together now

anancientheart

A prayer for the new year:

To loosen my grip on what might not be for me. To cherish the life that is. To remain open. To be a soft garden with a beautiful fence and a swinging gate. To love deeply - myself at the top of the list.

sandmandaddy69

ich kann einfach nicht mehr

#thoughts

knowing you changes the perspective i have on myself.

#thoughts #j

just had the realization i can choose what to think. instead of going into detail who could abandon me i could also imagine a future with all of the people i love and we’re cozily drinking hot chocolate, dancing in the fall air and puzzle afterwards. those are the thoughts i wanna have!!1 i feel warm inside

#thoughts

omar-little

employers will try to convince you that you need a "career" and that you need to "network" and make "professional contacts" and this is false. you need to eat treats with your friends and have a silly niche blog on an unprofitable web platform

kosmogrl

it's so cute how knowing someone can change your whole perspective on the world and make you see them in little things that used to be so mundane before

fucking hell this day is the worst. i'm alone, i feel lost lonely and empty, my period just started and i'm sick. I hate this i hate this i hate this. it's so hard right now to see what's good in life. Today is a day when i cannot see anything positive about being alive. or at least in my own life. i hate this. this whole year i've been so instable. my mood is changing so much and today it kinda makes me anxious. this sucks. there's no reason for me to be anxious. it's okay to live through all these insecurities and emotions. this is me. this IS me- all these emotions. i don't need to get rid of them. yes, i wish life was easier but also i don't wanna deny that part of myself anymore. jesus fucking christ. it's so exhausting.

i am beating myself up because i am so sensitive, i am so insecure. and because it's everchanging. "duh, in july you were so much more confident". YEAH MAYBE I WAS. Healing is fluid, healing isn't linear. Just because I am emotional and life sometimes feels empty doesn't mean I cannot get out of there. Yes, it's exhaustive but damn girl you're healing. This phase of life is fucking scary, i get it. It's like you're 20 again. its like i am at the same point i was when i moved to hamburg. i felt lost here. when i really do get sick, i kinda wanna visit my parents. i cannot take this 7 days alone here. i cant. UND DAS IST OKAY. das ist so in ordnung. "Ja aber ich will nicht mehr psychisch krank sein, ich will das alles können!!!11" Ich verstehe das, aber so wird es leider nicht funktionieren. Es ist gut auf uns zu hören und nicht länger über uns hinwegzugehen.

#thoughts

glowcowboy

we’re gonna be ok btw

glowcowboy

it’s ok if you’re scared. or tired. or unsure. or one million billion other complicated emotions at once. but i’ve decided things are going to be ok anyway. and i will hold that belief close to my heart no matter how scared or tired or lonely or depressed or one million billion other things i am. i will hold onto that. and if you’re scared, you can hold onto me. we can carry each other through