hey. it’s been over a year since i last posted on this blog. the last time i was here, i was scared and anxious and low-grade angry all the time and flinching from my roommate. i was very deeply unhappy and i felt unsafe even in spaces that i had carved out for myself.
it’s the end of november 2018 now. i am no longer in contact with the person who hurt me. i’m scared and anxious for different reasons, but i don’t feel angry or unsafe anymore. i don’t have trauma responses daily or weekly or even monthly anymore. i have two friends who love me and support me. i reconnected with my ex-qp, and we’re in a relationship again, and this time we know what we mean when we say that.
i hope that all of you are in better places, too, and that if you aren’t, you will be soon.
