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hey, i'm awin. 19, a full-time student, and a giant geek. i have aspirations bigger than myself and here is where i start my journey. nice to meet you!

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Of previous post and my dream

In this month of holy ramadhan, I decided to challenge myself to finish all 30 juz’ in one month. This was a huge deal for me because I am literally the least pious person I can think of. Unfortunately, very soon I realize that I'm incapable to do so because honestly, I lack the discipline lels. 

Anyway, point is, despite my string of sin and non-stop cursing, yesterday the most amazing thing happened. Now, what I will soon tell you is not about showing off, but it's just me sharing what I felt. Yesterday, for the first time ever, I cried while reciting the Al-Quran. It was 5.30 a.m. I was waiting for subuh to roll in after sahur, it was chilly and I just felt really good about myself. For once, I felt proud to be me. I'm proud to be able to read the Al-Quran. My mother is a Chinese Muallaf, she knows how hard it is to learn the Al-Quran, so she had always made sure all her children were well revised on the matter. 

In that one moment, while I was reciting it, I felt so honored. Even though I've sinned so much and said bad things with my mouth, Allah is still the All Merciful and allows me to speak and read his holy book. It's amazing when you put it that way. Allah is so forgiving and kind that He will let me, ME, recite his beautiful words. Now, I'm no saint or whatever, but this moment was the single most beautiful feeling I've felt in a while.

I do hope I’m able to feel that way a lot more from now on. Hopefully. x

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Instagram post by Vivy Yusof • Jun 15, 2017 at 11:25am UTC

68.9k Likes, 944 Comments - Vivy Yusof (@vivyyusof) on Instagram: “Today I teared after reading the last line in the Quran. I challenged myself this Ramadhan to…”

This post by Vivy Yusof is the example of one of my biggest dreams in life. To khatam Al-Quran in front of the Kaabah. I hope I’ll get to experience this one day. x

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First.

There’s a first for everything. And this, is my first ever tumblr post. 

I have decided to give this, blogging thing, another chance. The truth is, I did try it once, way back in the day, but never found it to be my cup of tea. So here I am. Hopefully, this time around, it’ll bear some fruits. 

With this blog, what I’m aiming to achieve, is a place for me to let some steam off. I’ve heard that sharing is the best way for a cleanse of the mind, so this is where I start. Other than that, it’s a good practice for writing and based on my foundation results, I desperately need it. 

What my blog is going to consist of, is solely based on what i feel at an exact moment. So I won’t say that it’s going to be a story-telling blog, or a day-to-day sort of blog. It’ll probably be a big mush of whatever comes to my mind. 

I’m hoping this time it won’t suck. Bismillah. x