lacuna reef

19 y.o | did system

[awkwardlyqueer]

carrd | laucna's reef sys | 19 y/o | queer + disabled age dni's on carrd are discord specific

#✧ ⨾ original = original posts #✧ ⨾ reblog = reblogged posts #✧ ⨾ asks = any asks #✧ ⨾ anon = anonymous asks #✧ ⨾ mutuals = mutual reblogs/asks #✧ ⨾ fave fics = my fave fanfics #✧ ⨾ signal boost = dono posts #✧ ⨾ mdni = any 18+ posts, minors block this

- typical dni applies - (pro) endo/tulpa/nontraumagenic systems this isnt a safe space for you, systems and plurality are caused by trauma - if you believe in "narc abuse" or any form of "disorder abuse", fuck right off - anti contradicting labels/complex queer identities, also fuck right off, mad because someone is too queer? - pro isreal/russia, im for ukraine and for palestine - (pro)radqueers, transmed and transid, cry harder honestly - if you like JKR, Harry Potter, or any of her works fuck completely off. - if you try and get shipping discourse out of me, i will just block you

divider creds to @uzmacchiato!

[awkwardlyqueer]

hi

im on art fight

[codecicle-archive]

queer people on this site really make me feel like a confused straight guy at pride. the discourse here could kill a man

[codecicle-archive]

"why polyamorous people aren't valid" "mspec lesbians AREN'T okay actually" "aroallos are freaks" "he/him dni. cis men dni" "this post is for non-men only" yessss and the one with long hair goes in the girl box, then the one with short hair goes in the boy box!!

[codecicle-archive]

maybe I'm just a boring he/him white guy but inventing about 7 trillion terms to define "man" and "woman" so you can reinforce gender essentialism isn't very "love is love" of you. maybe i just don't have a sexuality but picking and choosing what sexualities are normal and which ones are "weird and predatory" sounds like we're all a bunch of republicans on fox news. if you attend your local pride parade and look REAAALLLYYY closely, you'll notice you can't actually tell if someone's gay or not from their appearance, and there's no way to know if they're "invading queer spaces". maybe it's just me, but when i attended my local gaybar last night for the drag show, they didn't ask for my gay-card with a peer reviewed diagnosis of faggot stamped on it. they just let me in the building. i live a life of bliss and luxury in not caring about any queer discourse ever, and just going "WHATEVER MAKES YOU HAPPY :-)" while booting up the latest cod game. and it seems much more fun than whatever the fuck you people are on about

[codecicle-archive]

muting my notifs for this post but i need to acknowledge this first. My favorite tags fr 🙏

[awkwardlyqueer]

happy pride month ive been gay homo gay gay super gayly gay and gayer for 6 months now, thank you

[awkwardlyqueer]

an open letter for myself on the 18th of May, 2026. Written down on the 4th of January, 2026.

Hello! It's me,,, or you! All the way at the start of the year. Things kind of suck right now. I've been anxious lately, paranoid and having drastic mood swings, but I am alive. I'm not sure where my life is going, and you arent that far away. Only 5 months. But, you're 19. And that's really scary to me.

It's our last year to be a teenager, until 2027 when we turn 20. And I'm scared.

Really scared.

What did you get? And did you go out anywhere? Who came?

I hope you're doing well.

Kind regards, Lacuna.

04/01/2026

Please reblog this when you see it so I know it posted!

[awkwardlyqueer]

trans journey.. i got to do my first t tape ever and it seriously has flattened my chest!?!!

[brainstatic]

Psst, hey, Marilyn Monroe’s image as a freewheeling sexpot was a carefully constructed lie. The real Marilyn Monroe was a roiling tragedy and her life was an indictment of our society as a whole. She was orphaned after her mother had a schizophrenic breakdown, bounced around between foster homes where she was sexually abused, and married a 21-year-old at 16 to get out of being sent to an orphanage. Hugh Hefner published nude photos of her without her consent that were taken when she was 23 and desperate. She suffered severe anxiety and depression, which she coped with by drinking and using barbiturates, and was already a full-blown addict when she became famous in the mid-50s. Her career was one of exploitation, condescension and alienation, and she killed herself at 36. That Hugh Hefner, a man who was at best an unpleasant footnote in her life, felt entitled to be buried next to her is one more humiliation in a pop cultural landscape we should all be ashamed of.

[class-struggle-anarchism]

“Please don’t make me a joke… I don’t mind making jokes, but I don’t want to look like one… I want to be an artist, an actress with integrity..”

 - Marilyn Monroe, last taped interview, days before her death

She deserved better than this

[tikkunolamorgtfo]

Can I just also say, in addition to all this, that I’m still pissed off about the fact that Joe DiMaggio swooped in and gave Marilyn a Christian funeral before her Rabbi could return from a trip overseas? ‘Cause that shit is fucked up.

So many men who claimed to be in love with her, and not one could fucking respect her wishes, even in death.

[emily84]

“I’ve never fooled anyone. I’ve let people fool themselves. They didn’t bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn’t argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn’t.””  — Marilyn Monroe

Also:

As one of the biggest Ella Fitzgerald fans, she literally helped desegregate her performances. Ella was not allowed to play at Mocambo because of her race.

Ella Fitzgerald: “I owe Marilyn Monroe a real debt… she personally called the owner of the Mocambo, and told him she wanted me booked immediately, and if he would do it, she would take a front table every night. She told him – and it was true, due to Marilyn’s superstar status – that the press would go wild. The owner said yes, and Marilyn was there, front table, every night. The press went overboard. After that, I never had to play a small jazz club again. She was an unusual woman – a little ahead of her times. And she didn’t know it.” thisisnotmyfairytaleendingg (Source: dmvnessa)

ALSO:

In August 1956, Monroe began filming The Prince and the Showgirl, with Laurence Olivier staring and directing. The production was complicated by conflicts between him and Monroe. He angered her with the patronizing statement “All you have to do is be sexy” and his attempts to get her to replicate Vivien Leigh’s interpretation. She became pregnant and miscarried during the production, which heavily worsened her depression and increased her drug abuse.

A L S O , I will never forget watching a documentary about her once and, speaking about her marriage with Arthur Miller, the narrator said, verbatim: “America’s Brain had married America’s Body”. Like, literally, because he was a famous writer, he was entitled to personhood; she, being an actress, and a beautiful woman, was reduced to being “a body”. I have never been more enraged with her portrayal in the media. If you want to be dismissive of her,  literally come for you.

[amuseoffyre]

She was also chronically ill her whole life: she suffered from endometriosis with pain so debilitating that a clause was written into her contracts accounting for the days when she would not physically be able to work during her periods.

She was on courses of strong medication, had invasive surgery to try and limit the damage caused, and despite trying for a baby numerous times, suffered many miscarriages because of her condition. The miscarriages especially sent her into deep depression, since she desperately wanted to be a mother.

There is speculation that the condition may have been one of the triggers in her drug dependency as well, because when you have endo, you will take whatever you can to stop. it. hurting.

Marilyn Monroe was smart and strong as hell in a world that saw her as a sexy doll and nothing more.

[wiciclesatmidnight]

She deserves better

[blamebrampton]

Marilyn was a founding member of the Hollywood branch of the Committee for a Sane Nuclear Policy and had lifelong left-wing political views with a particular emphasis on racial equality. She formed her own independent production company that survived for several years and earned a credit as an executive producer on several films. Additionally, she was not only concerned for workers rights, she acted for them, using her own fame to stop staff being unfairly sacked from several of her films. She was a loyal, kind woman and her early death remains a great tragedy. Worse still, as OP notes, is the co-opting of her image by exactly the sort of people she would have loathed in life.

[awkwardlyqueer]

"oh but you can use docs!" "just use notes" "rely on pk"

MY SYSTEM IS TOO LARGE FOR THAT?? do you understand how upsetting this is for large systems?? this might be manageable if you're a smaller system, but im not

holy shit. octocon is shutting down soon, simply plural shuts down in june, ampstersand is android only and not accessible to large systems. WHAT am i meant to do?

[ryebreadgf]

it used to be 2007 you know

[ryebreadgf]

[domina-honoribila]

All the adults should put in the tags how old they were in 2007

[simply-flags]

In light of simply plurals recent announcement, which if you haven't seen is here(link), I'd like to try to compile a list of alternatives! If you know of any alternatives please lmk via reblogs/comments on this post or my inbox!

[This blog is Anti endo, Endos do not interact!]

[sangohigurashi20]

This!

[awkwardlyqueer]

i need to be bullied into working on my book atp

[sheepstiel]

got tested for the sleepytired and it came back positive

[queer-benoit-blanc]

need tumblr to know that this year is the 1069th anniversary of the assassination of julius caesar, not last year. people joked about it last year but it's this year. tumblr please

[wizardnuke]

"everyone experiences [symptom]" how many times does it have to be explained that it's often about the frequency of the symptom, not the symptom itself

[wizardnuke]

"nearly everyone has had a headache before" i agree. "most people get headaches regularly" you're starting to lose me. "it's normal to have a headache all the time" go to a doctor.

"everyone gets anxious sometimes" true! "people get anxious pretty often" um. "it's normal to be anxious all the time" go to a doctor. etc

[marius-vonraum]

Ow okay I slightly fucked up my ankle. Please pain go away fast I have work today 😁🥲

[awkwardlyqueer]

i think i have a bad mother.

i think i have a bad mother, not because she grabs, or smacks, because she's never hurt me, but she's ticking, each day, every second.

she will survey how i behave, and create my box and home, confiscate my key and demand i pay because she is my mother.

i think i have a bad mother, she doesn't hurt me, but she bites deep, infects with venom that seeps to my bones and finds home in the places i cant see.

a flaw is dangerous, a mistake is fatal. i will sit in her backseat and sniffle quietly to myself, for if she hears me, i might never escape.

i think i have a bad mother, but only because i see the discomfort in the eyes of my friends when they speak to her and she cuts them off, they see how she looks at me, and how angry she is i was born.

i am a reminder of her pain, in the fact that i do not grovel quietly, i am as loud as she is.

i think i have a bad mother, for my mother birthed herself, and i do not like me. although i look different, my teeth are the same, i gnaw away at those near me, and i inject my venom the same.

i dont think my mother is bad, she has never hurt me, there is no physical scar, or bruise on my body.

i just wish she would like me.