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[awrkive]

long post... again !

haiiiiiiii awrkive nation !!

wow, its been such a long time !! i'm not on tumblr much anymore but every now and then when i open this account, i still see notifications for the fics i wrote and the love they continue to get still blows my mind. i will always be so so grateful for the kind comments and replies and well wishes in my inbox despite my absence <<3

now to address the elephant in the room (and i know this has been a long time coming): i didnt and dont really want to make another long ass announcement after the one i posted months ago, esp since i havent updated anything since then. but these past few weeks this has been bugging me and i decided that it would be better to be clear than to just leave things hanging because this small community we've built together means too much for me to just dip without saying anything!

after months of being away, i decided i won't be writing as awrkive anymore. i also won't be continuing to write for bts or any of the members for the forseeable future.

while i am wayyy busier with uni now (close to final year), my interests have also shifted over time. most importantly, im not as thrilled about real person fiction (a.k.a rpf), including reading and writing (celebrity) x reader fanfictions and just x reader fics in general, anymore lol. i have more thoughts on this but let's just say this is a personal shift in what feels comfortable, freeing, and creatively fulfilling for me right now. lately i've been trying my hand at writing for a fictional ship i really love, and found myself feeling more at ease writing and reading about it. i want to follow that honestly instead of forcing myself to do or continue something i dont really feel like doing anymore.

because of that, neighbor blunder (NB) is officially discontinued, and any preview fics i've posted in the past will no longer be jk x reader works. some of those ideas may eventually be rewritten or reimagined in the fandom i'm currently writing for and the fandoms for media i will be a part of in the future. but for now, i'm letting things unfold naturally, tho i still haven't decided if i will delete my existing fics on this account or not – i am leaning more towards not deleting them but we will see.

i've written for bts for such a long time ever since high school, which still feels surreal to say out loud. a considerable part of my writing had always been inspired, influenced, and shaped by the bts writing community and that's always going to be the case, i think. my time as a writer for them is so special omg and i'll always look back on it with fondness and so much appreciation. and while im still very much a fan (and excited for their comeback and planning to go to their tour!), right now i am at a point where my creative energy just isn't in writing fics for or about them anymore.

thank you so much for all the kindness, patience, and support you all have given my work over the years. it truly means more to me than i can put into this post. again, thank you thank you and good bye <3 i hope you all have a very great new year ahead !!!

signing off,

awrkive <3

[awrkive]

Tbh idk why you would move over to ao3 when I think most of your audience is here. Also ao3 is so hard to use

im gonna assume u just proceeded to write this ask after Not Reading my announcement post but anywaysssss

i just simply dont feel like being on tumblr anymore. also, i feel like ao3 is generally just a safer and more peaceful space for fanfic writers. tumblr is nice, but i havent felt as connected here as i did before and thats ok

also,, i get you with the sentiment that ao3 is hard to use. ive also been there. but going to the website you can instantly see the search button there, u just type the fic or profile and everything is offered to u 😅 u really dont have to do anything fancy with it.. it would be new but you'd find out its pretty straightforward

lastly, u have the choice to not follow me there at all if u find the platform i chose not to your liking! its ok,, we all have our preferences

[awrkive]

will you let us know here when you update on ao3??

hi i want to clarify once again that no, i will not be posting anything here anymore. i will only be here from now on for graphic commissions on my sideblog which i can only access with this account (partially the reason why im keeping this account up instead of deactivating), but other than that, i will not be active here, meaning im not answering asks anymore and no more announcement posts when i update stuff on ao3. any story related stuff will exclusively be on ao3 only.

if you want to get notified for my ao3 updates, you can click on my profile and subscribe so you can get emails (considering u already have an ao3 acc set up). if u only want email updates for NB, you can click on the story itself alone and click subscribe

thanks for asking!

[awrkive]

you changed your pfp to gojo and now you're dead too WDYMMMM

i hate when you guys are funnier than me. 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄😑😑🫩

[awrkive]

i feel like i don't even have to say names just that it make me thought of #them and you'd understand

https://www.tumblr.com/iguessweallcrazyithinktho/791722668057624576?source=share

hell yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[awrkive]

did you see that video tae posted with jungkook posing at the gymdjdndjkdkd, HE IS HUGE

Which one of your jks do you think he is giving rn... I'm getting nb!jk (prolly cuz im a simp for nb!jk, don't come for meeee) #needthatrealbad

he is so HUGE its giving very much like nb jk

[awrkive]

reread tlp to feel something i loved almost every scene in it but my favorites gotta be the one where they talked about shit and everything in part 3 because them running through the conversation of soulmate-ism, ET stuff, then cannibalism then oc’s breakdown about yet again another failed relationship after holding it together for so many weeks asking if she was ugly and jungkook telling her “i see you and youre beautiful and smart” and comforting her was so freaking masterful……… like u literally painted such a perfect picture of their relationship in ONE SINGLE SCENE fuckk i could cry. another favorite is strangely the masturbation scene with jungkook where he went from horny to sad and depressed idk but there was something so vulnerable about him touching himself to the thought oc and then hating himself for it…… i didnt expect that scene to turn like that at all it was so unexpected but it flowed so perfectly. i notice your talent of tying together 2 different moods in such a seamless way because the latest chapter of nb also went like that when jk and oc were kissing and oc suddenly thought about jk leaving and she goes into a little spiral. good i could go on but you are so talented for real! thank YOU so much for sharing your works TRULY 😩

im gonna cry so bad!!!!!!!!!!! to break the ice with yall ive been feeling weird abt my writing for the past few weeks 💔 not bad weird, but its not good weird either. i just feel like. Meh. its prob bcs of my fuckass iron deficiency and the horrors it has brought upon me recently but let just say .. ive kinda been Down 😂😂 for no reason at all! 😂 so looking thru my inbox rn and seeing this one feels like a prize!!!!!! it reminded me my writing is #fire acshuwally 🤓☝🏼

ok but no i love tlp. she will forever be my greatest of all time😭😭😭 i wrote that with all of my heart and im so glad you love it! i love the canon conversations between those two, and i love almost every scene in it. and yes i do love writing from one mood in one second to another mood in the next 😭 i think thats like my most favorite thing to do with my fics so im kind of geeked you noticed that!!!

but sorry for this late ass teply tho. however THANK YOU SO MUCH I COULD LITERALLY KISS YOU RN ANON 😔 im sos sosoosososglad u love tlp and nb!! there are no words to describe how grateful i am when i read your guys heartfelt and appreciative messages. it always warms my heart. tyank u thank you truly ♡

[awrkive]

hii girlie I was rereading nb and she has like a sort of date with taemu friday so she dumped him off camera or are we going to see jk jealous 😭ksjsjsjs I know i’m delusional 😭 anyway lov u and your beautiful mind !!

she dumped him off cam OWBDJDJWJD prob forgot about it tbh 😭 but taemu is cool abt it so!!

[awrkive]

I keep thinking about the reasons why nb jk’s ex relationships didn’t work out and now i wonder if one of the reasons is perhaps because, as we see now, he’s always been a good and kind man and similar to real life, maybe some of those women didn’t know how to appreciate him and took him for granted or sth like that? 🤔

Now another question hehe 🤭

How many ex girlfriends does nb jk have? 🤓

hmm i see him as a guy whos pretty secure abt himself, but theres def been a time where some of his relationships (the casual ones) have been superficial and the reasoning behind it is bcs they had this whole idea abt him that is pretty different to what he actually is. i would say hes a guy who seeks a real connection, but his status in life prevents that in a way (blind dates, forced ideals from his chaebol fam and the likes) so theres a part of him that thinks "well maybe theres no point in looking for that".

anyway i think hes had like. not more than 3 serious girlfriends in his entire life

[awrkive]

I’m want to write but where do I even start 😢 I feel so sad whenever I can’t fully realize in writing what I have in mind. Hats off to you and other writers doing it

anon asked: This is going to be a little vent so ignore if you want but im so frustrated with myself for having so many ideas for a fic but when i try to write them down it literally turns to shit its like at this point chatgpt is going to do better than me

not sure if this is same anon but these (old) asks have been sent in intervals (while i was ia as hell) so maybe not. anyways.

i hate being like "just do it!" bcs it comes off super toxic positivity to me HOWEVER,, my stance on this is really just.. do it. im gen not kidding when i say just do it. writing is so so hard but when YOU write from ur HEART, when u write your truth, when you write smth you really want to write about, i think theres some force that gets instilled in you one way or another. i get having so many ideas but they turn out shit when i write it, have been there so many times. but once i accepted that that happens, i really just let it go and let another idea come to me. ive been writing fics for so long and its only really the last year that i can say im proud of the works ive done, even tho i have written more fics outside this account.

remember people: fanfic is a labor of love !! if u r mostly stressed, rather than mostly happy doing it,,, i dont think u r using the right approach at all! if that fic is taking a toll on you, i think its better if u drop it tbh. just do it with love. do it bcs u want to indulge. i write my fics WHEN i feel like it, and when im in that zone, i find myself (mostly) not really caring about the pressure of it all, about how ppl will perceive it.

lastly NEVER EVER THINK CHATG*T CAN DO BETTER THAN YOU PLS DIVA 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 NOOOOOO gen ai can never be better than you, esp at art. rmr that !!!!!!!

tldr: just do it. make those mistakes. nevermind if ur writing is not perfect for the first time or for the first few years, this is just fanfic! theres no team behind it on a paycheck. ur not expected to sell it! were all here for a good time! we write for ourselves first and for the people who like it! this is a not a real-life job where some sort of higher ups are expecting us to be competent all the time and theres no risk of unemployment or the likes when our fics flop or doesnt land.

[awrkive]

how many followers d you have?

like,,, eight people

[awrkive]

kind of didnt expect you to watch anime 😭

just fell down to my jnees at walmart idk if thats a negative or positive thing 😔 i love shonen! i love shoujo! i love manhwas! to set the record str8 im just a nerd trapped in a hot human body! so!

[awrkive]

JUJUTSU KAISEN MENTION ‼️‼️

have u watched the hi/pd movie 🙈

LOBOTOMY😭😭😭😭KAISEN 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ok but no not yet!!!!!!!! the theaters in my country are not showing it until next month but trust that i'll be seated 😭

[awrkive]

a curious question ☝🏽 does any of your ocs read fanfiction? i think nb oc does 😭 i assume the jks prob dont even know what that is

OKAY LMFAO this is the most curious ask i have ever gotten for my characters and its frying me so bad 😭😭😭😭😭😭BUT HERE WE GO

nb oc: you clocked her tea. yes. she absolutely reads fanfics. have probably written a few when she was young. however i think shes outgrown it as she grew up bcs of work and other life circumstances

cnbl oc: shes aware they exist. probably have run into an abo fanfic of charles x magneto with mpreg and went ???? and shes never looked back since idkk

tlp oc: she respects it but shes not a fan (boo!)

idol jk oc: she despises the internet but she def knows the existence of fanfics. havent read any tho!!! ALTHO! she would def stumble upon those headcanon-ish(?) videos on tiktok abt jungkook and laugh to herself bcs "???? he would not say that" 😭😭😭😭

grumpy jk oc: prob not really the type to get hyperfixated on any media to read fanfics about it so yeh, no

and about the jks you would be right!!!! i think idol jk would be aware about fanfics tho just bcs it gets mentioned sometimes when he hangs out with his other idol friends LOL ALSO i think nb jk would get his flabber GASTED when nb oc finally explains to him what ao3 is 🤯🤯🤯

[awrkive]

heyyy !! we missed youuuu. i read that ask that you were admitted in a hospital? i hope everything's okay right now on your end. take as much time as you need! we'll wait patiently of courseee 🤍🤍🫂🫂

haiii yes i did get admitted and i actually came back last week too 🫩 lmfaoo the ao3 curse was THAT bad … but im going to finish nb or die trying TRUST

[awrkive]

WDYM ITS GOJO !

its from this first year trio illustration for the hidden inventory movie(? i think??) by gege!!

[awrkive]

hi! genuinely how do you stay on track with your storylines bc I’ll start a fic abt idol jk and then somehow he’ll end up being like farmer jk or something 😭😭

hi i suffer from this disease very often. but i find consuming media related to what i want to write about really helpful! if im writing ceo jk then i go back to some stuff ive read/watched b4 for inspo. like the kdrama business proposal. like this manhwa called despite the risk. tiktok edits.. and some dynamics from smth i just saw that fits the ceo jk vibe etc etc. and tbh with u i just try really hard to just... picture him as ceo jk. when my mind slips to the thought of like,,, ohh f1 driver jungkook would look good asf the angel on my shoulder reminds me Hey girl Thats not our priority right now and that actually does wonders for me!