just win, baby, win.

Troian Bellisario. Or, as I like to be called, T-Bells. Sometimes even T-Dawg. mommy. actress. girlfriend. feminist. vegan. rock&roll jesus. status; in love with a wild thing. ♡ Disclaimer: Not the real Troian Bellisario, sorry!

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pls come back as troian, you were the perfect troian and i miss you on the dash bc you were so cute and sweet and you talked to everyone and i miss you comE BACK

// Thanks cutie, I really appreciated this.

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I'm going to be leaving Scandalous as Troian.

I just feel like my time here has ended. I'm only signing on for one reason lately and as great as that reason is, it's not fair to somebody who can take Troian and make her amazing. It's not fair to my ship partner, it's not fair to Troian's connections, it's not fair to the admins. I don't feel the same amount of muse for Troian anymore. There's a lot of little things piling up that keep me from enjoying playing her and honestly, there's a lot of guilt. I came into this RP for one person and after they left, I should have gone with them. A lot was planned with this person and as much as I love this group and Troian, it doesn't really feel right without them. I've been trying to deny that for a long time but myself and Troian were connected and it's been like trying to operate with a missing limb.

You don't know how grateful I am for the second chance I got. You don't know how much I love and appreciate my friends here, or how much I adored Troian/Naya. I know my decision is probably hurting a few people and I wish it wasn't but unfortunately, I'm going to have to be a big girl and take my medicine. I never like hurting anyone but I can't keep putting my needs behind everybody else's.

I'd list all of you who matter to me, but you know who you are. I'd just like to thank everybody who ever talked to me, messaged me, inspired me, plotted with me, comforted me. This is an amazing group of people. You all are so talented and kind and special, and I feel honored that I got to know you.

I love you, and I'm so sorry I let you down.

I don't want to lose touch with anybody but unfortunately, once you quit RPing, it's almost natural to. But I can't not try so if you ever want to reach me, my personal is wanderlustx0.tumblr.com and I'll always be there.

Thank you. Just...thank you, so much, from the bottom of my heart. It's been an amazing year with you guys. I hope the next Troian you get does her justice.

xoxo,

Becca

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Treegan; m o o d b o a r d;

to infinity and beyond.

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I'm just really upset right now, and sensitive, and irritated and there's so many different things I want to say to different people but I can't because there'd be no point. You know, I know it's just rp but Troian is my baby and this rp is my safety zone from a lot of crap in real life. You don't know what anybody's going through behind the computer screen and lately, I'm just not feeling like it even matters.

I don't feel respected, I feel like things I built up are being torn down, and there's only a handful of people on here I genuinely trust anymore. I'm not leaving but I think I just need a little break to collect myself and not constantly be upset every time I log in. I told myself I'd never let myself feel insignificant and unimportant after the last time and here I go, feeling that way again.

I seriously put as much effort and creativity and heart into Troian as I possibly can which I guess is why sometimes it hurts a lot. So yeah. I'll most likely be still checking the dash because I'm addicted to this place but my muse for Troian is all over the place which is probably why she's been all over the place lately. I'm hoping when I become active again, I'll have a clearer head for her because I really want to go as long as I can.

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BECCA; moodboard <3

bc this is legit me in 9 gifs

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Traya; m o o d b o a r d;

“I’ve never needed anyone the way I need you. Please just let me stay. Let me be with you. I’m sorry, for everything I didn’t have the courage to say eariler. I’m sorry for all the things I’ve said because I didn’t have the courage to tell you the truth. I’m in love with you, Troian Avery Bellisario. You’re everything to me. Please tell me I’m not too late. Please say that you’ll be my anchor.”

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↳ Karen Lucille Hale + Troian Avery Bellisario (Trucy) ➡ moodboard

"A best friend. Okay, this one is so important, choose wisely k? I got really lucky with mine. My best friend is funny, intelligent, creative, beautiful, successful, and very kind. She’s also impulsive, frustrating, um, complicated, childish, but i would not have her any other way. And the best part about Brooke Davis Troian Bellisario is that she always puts her friends first. So, if you are ever in any kind of trouble now you know who to call. I can’t think of anyone i would rather have watching over you.”

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Trucy; m o o d b o a r d

"So proud of my little Goose! I know this is your dream and baby it sounds so good to me."

"Ok NOW I'm crying. Thank you covergirl, I miss you!"