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JOJO Stardust Crusaders Part1

Ok WOAH i finally understood that silly joke abt ''Anyone can be a stand user'' and i'm pretty happy abt it.

I've seen some people prefering the Hamon fights over Stands but i actually loved it. The designs were so unique and the whole thing which each stand representing a tarot cart was really interesting to me, I've never saw that concept before and i think it's genius, really. My favorite stands were probably the Ebony doll, that one stand that could replicate people and the cupid one were all great concepts.

Seeing granda Joseph was amazing!!! I really liked him and since he didn't have that a whole 26 eps to himself, I thought it was fair to put him here again. He remains as funny and empathetic as ever, him screaming 'OH MY GOD' and 'OH NO' will always get me on a chokehold, it'll never not be funny to me. His interactions with Jotaro were pretty neat as well!

Kakyoin was nice too, i had a feeling i knew him bc of that meme where he's ferousciously licking a cherry and that scene also cracked me up. He was also a very inteligent character who fits really well with the rest of the crew and i'm still kinda mad that the others wont remember the encounter with the baby stand </3. Polnareff was okay, i didn't hate him but he was the least favorite within the crew. He surely suffered from trauma, his sister getting raped and killed and him not being able to do anything on the moment was truly frustrating and sad to him. He loved her so much to the point to dedicating his life to find her abuser and killer. He is a fun character, obviously very impulsive and irational most times but always sympathetic and willing to help. Like he's a good character but i prefered the others.

Oh my DEAR AVDOL or Abdul, i've seen both versions but i'll call him Avdol. I'll never shut up abt good representation in anime bc this man is FIRE (pun may be intended.). Like what do you mean we have an egypsian guy with a marvelous and interesting design. Clearly likeable, knowledgeable AND strong?? He also is empathetic and usuful to the plot, he is the only one of the crew to meet with DIO and know most abt the tarot cards. It was just so refreshing seeing him, i was truly AND STILL AM happy. Plus, i've cried to many anime characters deaths but i was just MAD when he died. I truly appreciated his character and knowing he had such a small time on this show made me mad as hell. I CRIED WHEN HE CAME BACK, i missed him as if he were my own son and even if his 'death' was fake. It was beautiful seeing how everyone cared and his 'death' truly meant something to them. He's an unforgetable member.

I once saw a comment in the start of the season of someone saying that Jotaro was just trying to be cool and i've starting looking at him like that and it makes so much sense. He surely cares for those around him, he's an observant person and whenever he helps someone he usually tries to act nonchalant or say a cool phrase afterwards which emphasizes that want to be seen as cool. I really liked his interactions with Anne and kids on this season, he was pretty nice to the little girl, he never really called her names and was always the first one to help her. He seems to like kids, just like when he asked a kid for his ice cream and promised to later buy them another one. That's pretty cute, a dude that big getting soft with kids. OH YEAH, THOSE ARE TALL ASF 17YO...

I also just wished that Jotaro spoke apppeared a little more? His personality is really interesting and I want to know more about it but like...in the last few episodes he didn't talk as much. He already doesn't talk all that much but the show focused more on Kakyoin and Polnareff at some point. I mean, they're interesting but i'd like to know more abt the Joestars too...the stand episode baby i was always like ''jotaro, are u gonna say anything abt kakyoin at all....?? no witty remark no insight..? ok..............''

I just really want to understand Jotaro's relationship with his mother. She is surely sweet and cares for her son but why the fuck does your son call you a bitch on a daily basis?? What, did you do something to him...? He's just like that...? What did his father do...? Cuz that ain't really normal considering she's pretty nice. OFC, she can be weird, that joke abt telling Joseph to help her change her underwear was NOTTT it and she seems a little obsessed with her kid? Like ma'am i assure you your kid ISNT thinking of you at school. Plus..where is her husband/Jotaro's father? Maybe that's a reason why he's also like that? Idk.

Well, part2 incoming and omfg just let DIO DIEEEEEEEEEE, i'm so tired of his ass </3 but at least know we know everyone who's Joestar has a star tattoo on the back of their neck and that is sick asf idc.

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JOJO Part 1 & 2

The first part for me was really bad. I didn't like Jonathan nor Dio, their relationship just didn't make any sense to me and it just pissed me off. Dio was a monster to EVERYONE despite me getting somewhat why he messed with Jonathan (till it got too mcuh) and Jonathan getting all friendly with Dio after he harrassed his girlfriend, humilliated him and such like?? what's up with yall.

The plot for me was not that interesting as well and the characters were OK didn't care that much for any of them...but a friend of mine who's obsessed with the show said it was normal for some people to dislike the beggining.

I enjoyed a bit more the second part, Joseph was WAY better than Jonathan, he's really fun, he's very expontaneous, he truly cares about others and is a sincere guy plus he's really smart in a very interesting way! I was never bored watching him.

The other characters were good too!! I personally liked those 'gods' they were pretty interesting, Wamuu was a personal favorite, he was sensitive in his own way. Cesar's death was pretty sad, i truly wasn't expecting him to die so it caught me off guard HARD and he was so cool too!! The conflicts and challanges were more engaging and interesting too so this part was way better.

Woah, Kars death was RUTHLESS, getting sent to space to freeze in a state where you aren't exactly dead or alive (Schroddinger appears again lmfao) where your mind eventually just stops working and you can't escape? WOAH OKAY TERRIFYING MUCH??

Plus, it's not that i deslike Speedwagon or anything but DAMN that man took TOO long to die. He outlived Jonathan's dad, Jonathan, his kid and HE EVEN OUTLIVED OLD IRINA, that man was STUBBORN geez. RIP anyway to both him and my queen Irina.

I truly can't comment much bc it took me a MONTH to end a 26 ep season, im usually faster than that bc part 1 BORED me to death so i was slow with it and prolly forgot some good chunks of opinion but meh. I'm sure it'll get more interesting from now on!

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Hakuoki: Edo Blossoms

It's basically been a year since I've started playing Hakuoki and WOW, I never thought it would be so sad to say goodbye to these characters :( I've spent 59h with the last game and combined with the first 135h playing. Despite the Hakuoki franchise not being my favorite otome game, their characters certainly were (looking at u, Yamazaki, Heisuke and Nagakura.).

I have to admit that I liked the first game a little more since it was new to me and I got to discover which characters I liked and which i didn't. In this one I already knew who i liked and who i didn't so some routes were painful to go through...but i had some pleasant surprises anyways!

So here I'll be rating these routes from best to horrible (my humble opinion) on bullet points, along with my fave CG! I won't rate Yukimura's route since it's just a small recap of all that happened lol.

AND ALSO STOP FUCKING CUTTING THEIR HAIR. NOW.

Sanan (ACTUALLY REALLY GOOD)

Sen + Kimigiku + Heisuke, love them all

Kaoru backstory (wasn't aware his clan abused him)

Kind of a murder mystery vibe in the beggining when we thought Sanan was killing people

Mystery and a BUNCH of juicy plot twists like Heisuke not actually dying and Sanan not betraying anyone

BEAUTIFUL ending, we going to Europe and finding more abt the water of life and all that

Kind of a slowburn? More romance in the end but juicy plot so idc

He's pretty kind, not wanting to let down the men he coerced to drink the water of life so he was determined to do everything to get the cure

But the unrequited ending was HARSH

Heisuke (really good)

Most emotional route. I cried like 3 times and laughed a whole lot. Kazama and Heisuke's banter was something

Sanan is a maniac in this route...which made the plot interesting: kidnapping, mysteries,...

His confessions?? Simple but heartwarming AND had the BEST KISS CG

Reflection of his life. How he's the youngest there and also the one with less time to live

I love him more even more everyday bruv. He's so selfless, so that when he saw his old friend but didn't want to recall his friend's trauma, he just stayed quiet

Always thinks of Yukimira's (well mine, the player WTV) opinion and tags us along with him

The romance was subtle but there, i liked it it became more present was the chapters came by

A bit bitter and insecure abt me loving him but excusable

Cute and cozy ending<3

Souji (really good)

i thought he was WAY nicer in this one, i didn't like him at ALL in the last game but WOAH he had an amazing development

Mc's writing here was REALLY GOOD and her personality was at her peak

Backstories were good, family reunion and more into Kaoru, the 'antidote' was discovered

The ending was beautiful and both the MC and Souji being affected by the water of life?? INSANE

And insane Okita was lowkey fire.

(yamazaki was alive so that already makes it already good.)

he just has to stop calling me 'kid'.

Yamazaki (really good/good)

MY HUSBAND I LOVE HIM

kinda stayed away from the main group which i don't mind

His personality even better than b4

met ibuki

fight against Amagiri/Kodo

Kodo dead + Yamazaki CARES abt our goals (family)

COMFORTS ME AND WANTS TO LISTEN TO MY STRUGGLES

Beautiful ending, married away from war and YAMAZAKI DOC <3

Saito (good/really good)

He finally stops being a bot and shows EMOTION

He appreciates nature, rainbows, stars,...

Finally started to live to his own accord!!

BACKSTORY!! Nobody in martial arts took him seriously because he's left handed and it was considered 'wrong'

Focus on him being sad cuz the Shinsengumi is 'falling apart' and everyone is heading their own way...WHICH I CAN RELATE IM SAD 2

cute ending

we fight alongside harada, Nagakura and Heisuke?? SICK AS FUCK

Romance was pretty alright!

Amagiri is a BOSS here and Hijikata is pretty nice here too!

Saito and Heisuke's underrated friendship??

All 3 demons appear

Nice thought provoking questions

Nakagura (mid/good)

Romance only on chapter 4...i was robbed

He's depressive for 3 chapters..

BEAUTIFUL CGS

Nothing really interesting plotwise, we just lose fights over and over

AT LEAST WE'RE MARRIED BY THE END OF IT <3

Very empathetic towards furies

EVERYONE DIES </3

Mehh ending...i love him but our ending is mid, at least we're safe and far from war

struggle to accept his fury form

Amagiri worried abt me for...?

Kazama (OK.)

A giant quest/journey

EVERYONE FUCKING DIES

Kazama is okey/meh and kinda babylike...

Grief, interesting topic

Only romance starts at chapter 4...

SHIRANUI!!!!!!!!

We knew more abt demons and the Yukimura Clan which was good

the wife jokes were 0/10.

he was truly nice sometimes

yukimura looks so fucking emotionless on some CGS it cracks me up.

ending...okey. The ''I'VE COME TO CLAIM YOU'' was BEYOND unnecessary bffr

pretty nice that this route values the shinsengumi a lot and Kodo's old profession as if she was a guardian of memories

(id still prefer shiranui as a demon love interest...ig he was too queer coded for him to be an option...)

Harada (mid)

how come he gets TWO kiss scenes and a 'sex' scene??? + can we stop kissing people when they're crying

still w/ his ''ladies are fragile'' bullshit like he's the BIGGEST PROTECTOR

all the 'right' choices w/ him are the ones where Yukimura just lets him take over...WHERE'S MY INDIVIDUALITY

i love yukimura but this was NOT a good route for her.

Sanan is lwk a villain..??

Shiranui is the GOAT i love him

He's too traditional 4 me.

WE HAD A KID. NO THANK YOU, HORRIFYING ENDING

Met Ibuki...okey, they get along pretty well

Plotwise? lwk boring cuz he's not a fury + romance was mediocre and PISSING ME OFF

Sakamoto (mid? ig?)

lol uhh i stopped his route and returned after a month and I had done more than halfway by then so idk how good it was on the fullest but it must've been a lil boring if i stopped.

loved how shiranui was always sneaking his way into this route, the unrequited ending where he invites me to his village, like BRING ME THERE. he's one of my faves

the death scenes were so impactful? both Nakaoka's and Kaoru's

BEAUTIFUL KISS CGS!

Ending was also pretty cute!

Hijikata (bad./ehhhh)

honestly he is worse in this route, always pissed at me and scolding me, hated his personality

fight against Kazama

All events firsthand

Longest so pretty boring

WE LOST EVERYONE

not that romantic

weak end.

doesn't really care abt my relationship w/ my family

Souma (bad)

OMG SO BORING. Always counting the time for it to be over..

romance was EHHH but their last scene was good

Their lovey dovey rumours were funny + matchmaker Hijikata PEAK

EVERYONE DIES

Idc abt Miki in the SLIGHTEST and he was boring 2.

Nice seeing more of Nomura tho

Mid ending

SORRY THIS WAS JUST CRIMINALLY BORING

Iba (BAD.)

it's just so rape-y...his route i mean, the whole thing with the demon arm wanting offsprings is nasty

his CGS made me uncomfortable (this one is the best one). specially when he's being ''controlled''...

Takeda is also rape-y coded, nasty

the romance felt so...forced? Like i owed him my body and all

Iba just feels SO performative, it hurts

His story was boring....couldn't care less 4 the events...

the ending was....weird. was he walking around w/ yukimura's body unconscious till she woke up? Like OK but still mad weird

well, those are my thoughts on it, hakuoki and it's boys will be missed </3 overall, i give it a 8/10, really nice experience and would totally recommend it! maybe i'll watch the anime..

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Eyeshield21 rants cuz I'm 1/4 in

I've been having so much fun watching it!!! Rn, I just finished ep 36 and I couldn't be more excited! I wasn't even planning on watching this anime but after All Out!! i was reading some character wiki's and it said that Ebumi (one of my faves) was pretty similar to Hiruma from Eyeshield 21 and after seeing his design and if they were similar, I was sure I'd like him (i did not.) PLUS sports anime which is my fave genre (right after shonen) so i wanted to give it a try!

SELF INSERT TIME: Iiiiiif i could pick a position, I'd probably want to be a kicker since my sports IQ ain't that high, I hate running and I have butter hands. Also, using legs is really cool so yeah!

The anime is about american football which is pretty similar to rugby so it wasn't that hard to understand (rugby better.) and the little breaks have Mamori doing trivia so i feel im learning more abt the sport which is really cool! The pacing at first was pretty MEH but after getting to know more of this guys, i started liking this team even more. So abt the characters!

Sena

He is really sweet and poor dude was bullied almost his whole life so he can really understand other people's pain and motivate them which makes him very likable to begin with. I really don't have much to say abt him bc he's not my favorite but i enjoy him as a main character. Plus, his whole ordeal with being Eyeshield 21 is pretty exciting though is so fucking obvious that when Jumonji revelead to the team who he was and some were shocked is highkey pathetic</3 anime logic what to say abt that.

He's always striving to be better and to improve his running skills, oh yeah that's his whole thing, running fast. And i LOVE that ability bc id love to run faster so anyone with that skill WILL impress me so seeing his progress has been a good experience.

Mamori

From what i've seen some people find her annoying but i really don't. I like her character, she's a phenomenal friend, always standing up to Sena since they've known each other since childhood but she is still learning to let go of him. Since he was bullied basically for maybe 9/8 years and she was always there to help, she doesn't want to see him hurt again which is hard for Sena since he's Eyeshield and she doesn't know. Plus, why tf don't they tell her? Hiruma said Sena couldn't reveal to anyone who he was since ''people from other teams might steal those legs from us'' but...she's from the student counsil....and i'm sure Sena does NOT fit there, besides she'd never exploit her friend sooo why not tell her? At this point EVERYONE FROM THE TEAM KNOWS...i mean, people think she's also annoying bc there was a scene which was really obvious that Sena was Eyeshield and she missed it but, cmon. She's always seen him as fragile and a victim so she wouldn't really believe her ''baby brother'' to be an american football phenomenon so i'll always defend my girl, idc.

Plus, she's an amazing manager, organized, cares abt anyone in the club, IS smart and knows the game rules and i liked her from the start.

Hiruma

As I said, i was pretty upset when i saw him and already knew i didn't like him LOL. He's unnecessarily rude, unnecessarily violent and cruel, and like, i like characters who might seem like asshole and even act like it but at the end of the day you know they're good. THIS IS NOT THE CASE WITH HIM WHATSOEVER. Dude is just COLD, he might have some sort of feelings but he's such an asshole that I can barely figure out to WHAT extent and what EXACT positive feelings he can harbour in that heart, if it can do anything else than pump blood.

He threatens people just to go into his club, flat out lies to people in sensitive instances (what happened to Suzuna, which ended up being true but in the moment was just cruel), the episode he pissed me off HARD was ep 7 in which he just behaves like a loser (note to myself, check MAL) and highkey tortures his members?? AND identity theft, saying shit as Eyeshield which Sena DIDNT APPROVE. Plus, they don't have a coach (they did now for what 5 eps and he's gone) and he yells and expects his teammates to be good at the game...WITHOUT TEACHING THEM THE BASIS?? TF U WANT THEM TO DO, he's not obligated to teach anyone but if he wants results, he might just have to. But that was a little more in the beggining of the eps, it still made me dislike him. OH and where the FUCK does he get his info?? Why are his ears so pointy, did he make a deal w the devil? How does a 17 yo have guns and a LOT of them, dude this is japan get out </3

Unfortunately, i have been despising him a little less in this past episodes. They've been doing a death march to Vegas and then they're going straight to Japan to participate in the Christmas bowl (basically why they're training so hard for) and he has been pretty harsh abt it which i understand. Their coach said that 2nd years only have this year to play and Hiruma, Kurita and their other friend made a deal to win the Christmas Bowl so it's their final chance. Though Hiruma is grossely rude, he IS a determinated captain and has been doing all he can to go there, his soccer IQ is the highest and he and Kurita finally have a complete team. He can't afford to lose everything now and he HAS to win. That's why he couldn't stop the march for the haha brothers or for Yukimitsu. Even if they failed, neither him or Kurita could since they don't have any other chances, so him being cold there didn't bother me.

His relationships are something that really confuse me. IDK what he feels for his teammates. Kurita I'd say it's his best friend? They've been through a lot together though he does not TREAT him as one....that's kinda settled. Idk what he feels for Komusubi, the HAHA brothers at all, totally unredable. For Sena? Uhh he was satisfied to have him as a member and as a way for victory so i think he tolerates him? Uh Mamori and him have a little banter or whatver (u deserve better girl) and I think he respects Yukimitsu bc...he seemed happy when he didn't give up the march PLUS that episode where the makes a challenge to know who would make the team and who wouldn't, Yukimitsu didn't pass the test but Hiruma, made up and excuse, contradicted himself just to put him in cuz he valued his efforts even though he's not atheletic so...do u have a heart or no.

Now, i might be totally out of it but i genuinely believe Hiruma likes Monta. Hiruma is a lineback? quarterback WHO CARES and he never had anyone who could always recieve his crazy passes--that's until Monta arrived which ALWAYS catches the ball (if not blocked) and the JOY in those mischevious and cold eyes were NOTICEABLE when Monta caught his pass in an official game. Even Kurita said it and the slapp he gave Monta was MORE enthusiastic than the one he gave to Sena. And in this arc, they have been spending more time together bc Hiruma is always behind Monta in the front making sure he doesn't stop running and i'm sure he's forcing him a little more bc he depends on him to recieve his passes. So i lowkey like whatever they have going on.

ups that's a lot for a character ion even like fuck

Kurita

He's just a huge ball of sunshine and rainbows LMAO, makes u wonder how he handled being with Hiruma for so long. He's a really sweet dude and very welcoming and respectful who enjoys his sport. It always warms my heart to see how grateful he is for the team he's surrounded by now. Kurita always wears his heart on his sleeve so I really believe he sees EVERYONE in that team as a personal friend of him just for being there (and of course, he must have an even SPECIAL place for his linemen/lineback? teammates) AND THE WAY HE TREATS KOMUSUBI AS HIS OWN CHILD IS BEYOND ADORBS BAHAHAHA

Monta

If the text comes out short it's just bc I can't put everything i like abt this character in plausible words. Monta is just an amazing character, right of the bat when he was introduced i already felt myself being pulled to this guy. I haven't even figured out what i fell for this guy, if i love him, if i want to be his friend or if i just admire him to SUCH a huge level. Anyway, I love the way he's so exaggerated and funny, how he is always saying some shit and adding ''TO THE MAX!!!!!!!'' at the end of a sentence and how supportive and determinated he is! He is just so unapologetically himself which makes it impossible for me to not like him. Plus, his ability to just be a monster at catching ANYTHING and barely missing (unless he's being blocked then oh well) comes in handy and just makes him a more memorable character to me <3

He is also a terrific friend (i believe him and sena to be besties?) he's just there if he needs something and is also ready to support and give someone a pep talk if they need to.

To him being unnapreciated in baseball and be so warmly welcomed to american football was so amazing, I was so happy for him <3 And i genuinely get upset when people give him bullshit, cuz wdym that's my dude stop now </3 Plus, ik this is the bare minimun but it's so refreshing that he's not a total creep around Mamori....usually anime has that annoying trope in which if a guy likes a girl they'll become complete pervs and what not and he's just chill around her...which i couldn't expect less from my GOAT. He has a tiny crush on her and of course, my boy doesn't thrive off neglect, he loves some attention and hers especifically but is never being weird to her or making my girl uncomfortable.

He's my fave character (obvious much.) so if Monta has no fans, im certainly dead.

Komusubi

He's so CUTE HAAABAABAA. He's basicallly Kurita's child and i love their relationship and how he always wants to make him proud. It's so sad when charaters pick like a cold mentor which hardly acknowledges them but Komusubi has Kurita which is SO happy to have him and praise him that warms my heart to crazy degrees. Plus it's so fun that he barely talks. He only talks when necessary but he's always ''''saying''' or rather reaction with the sound ''ngo'' or 'nho''..? i dont really know exactly what type of sound it is but is really cute <3 and his design as well

The HA-HA Brothers

They're all assholes but are having a sort of development. Jumonji is the more developed one (note to self, check MAL: 24, 32) he went from one of the guys who hated the most being there (within his group) from the one who most wants to stay. He can sort of admit past mistakes and really seems to admire Eyeshield21. It was kinda cute of him to motivate his friends since they don't exactly act affectionate towards each other but he DOES care and is willing to grow stronger alongside them. I hate the saying ''there's always a duo in a trio'' but it IS true in this case lmao. Togano and...Kurano? Kuroki? (the fact that he's my fave ha-ha brother...) whatever HA-HA Brother n (5)2 sure are closer but for some reason is Jumonji that sort of leads them. They're both sort of lazy and n2 makes me laugh cuz he ALWAYS says ''HUH??'' the loudest. I mean, they're there....idk that much but they're fun-

Yukimitsu

I'm just waiting for him to have a position!! Like, he made the team but...he hasn't even participated in a official match...like he's smart and hope he also focus on that so that he can make cool strategies with Hiruma. I was wishing he could be a tight end (what a fucking name) but he's not that good at sports..and still he got that role stolen so wtv...anyway, poor dude almost DIED at the march, HELP. But im happy he's dead set on it, despite being physically more weak than all of them. Im proud of him, making his own memories, and doing what he wants and challenging himself. Also id love to see more interactions of him and Mamori since they're in the bench together!!

Suzuna and Taki

I just hate when i think a cast is set and they come with new characters. Atp idk anymore abt any of yall...Suzuna is okay to me but she just pissed me off in the last episode, talking abt some ''Oh why are they practsing so hard??'' ''Oh im just so worried abt all of you!'' GIRL u dont know any of them for more than a DAY. Only Sena is closest to you and yall officially spend a day and a half together...ask the ha-ha brothers who she is and only togano will care. Like...WHY do u care so much?? U dont KNOW these people, u and your bum brother are already tagging along just shut up..plus i get a feeling she's just there to be Sena's love interest and if that comes to be true, i'll be pissed.

Taki if that even is his name, how the FUCK is ur tall unshaven face ass 15. Plus, wasn't Suzuna on abt him being her OLDER brother?? YOURE OLDER THAN HIM BY A MONTH TF YALL ON ABT. And how the fuck did a 14 yo escape JAPAN to the USA ALONE, Taki AINT THAT SMART EITHER. He is just straight bullshit. Plus, i BEGGING that he wouldnt go to their school,,,I DONT WANT HIM THERE, I LIKE THE TEAM AS IT ISSSSUHHH. idk plus, he keeps trying to one up my boy Monta GET TF OUT. someone slime him

Panther

Its always refreshing to see a GOATED black character....he's not any sort of a stereotype and his design is really good too, he doesn't have donut lips (thank goodness...) and his hairstyle is DOPE <3, plus, i've seen more than 8 black characters which im already surprised...it's good that the author recognizes that the USA doesn't have just white people.

He's a sweet guy, very atheletic and friendly who enjoys playing football and loves his grandma and wishes for her to have a good life. PLUS HE HAS MY NUMBER (20) so i couldn't be more honored...the only bad thing that came with his character was his RACIST FUCKING COACH (accurate...). Bro just hates him bc when coach was a player he was replaced by a black man called Morgan and just bc they're BOTH skilled he just projected his frustrations on him. Are we deadass. THE WORST IS THAT PANTHER FORGAVE HIM LIKE NOOOOOOOOOOOOO LEAVE THAT RACIST ASS TEAM AND GO TO A BETTER ONEEE YOU CAN GO ANYWHERE YOU'RE A BADASS NOOOO. Whenever Panther was cordial and polite to him my heart just shattered....and it's not even Panther's fault, nobody likes feeding in the aggressive black man stereotype, and he's just cool like that...ily panther i still hope u find a better team...

Shin and Sakuraba

I really like Shin, typical stoic character who gives it all and everyone likes since he's respectful. Idk what else to say abt him, he's just cool like that and Sakuraba all i have to say is that i hope he achieves his goals. (note to self, MAL 10)

Kid and Tetsuma

Starting off I hate the name ''KID'' as a nickname, grown ass man named Kid btw. Besides that, his school theme is pretty cool and his connection with Tetsuma is really nice too. I really want Tetsuma to appear more bc i really like him!! I just wish people were more specific to him. Tetsuma really reminds me of Maud from MLP which is has a popular headcanon which is her being autistic..and i also think he might be. He has the same expression all the time, he takes everything they tell him to a T, he seems to like american football (i wonder how he started) and i don't recall him talking? Yeah, i guess he never talks or rarely does. Anyways, he's really cool and...Kid is alright.

(unfortunately he has some killer comebacks.)

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All Out!! rants bc I finished the manga

I can't believe it's already finished...for some reason MAL says that the manga has 123 chapters when it only has 119 but whatever, BEST 10h30min of readind I've had in a while.

It was such an amazing experience watching and reading this series, the characters are all so fleshed out and complex, that they feel very human to me and made me attached to them on a very personal level. The way the author navigated how relationships and struggles affect the way you interact with your sport were also done very beautifully. Seeing Keta come back to see his ex teams match made me cry, I really hoped he continued playing but seeing how he made the effort to show up despite not being able to completely share that experience of winning with his friends was commendable. Sekizan also being the one who invinted him shows how much of a great captain he is, still thinking of Keta as a teammate.

The whole thing with Kamakura, I have to say I didn't really care. I don't like Yuri or his team (plus I was always unable to differentiate who 2 guys were) but it was an interesting moment seeing that captain of his being compassionate towards his team now that it's all over, i think.

I just feel that I wanted to see more. I wanted to see the other matches, Ryoin's team is really interesting and I wanted to see how their games went, but I was more upset when we didn't get to see the game that got Kanagawa eliminated. I wanted to see how everyone reacted, what Komori had to say and what the messages the upperclassman had to tell their younger peers. Well, I can't get everything I want, but i have to admit i was (am) sad abt it.

The end itself? Much to cry about, Sekizan cutting his hair? Lord, i KNEW it was him but I didn't WANT it to be him, his iconic hair means everything to me..but I still love him so we cool. Just all of the 3rd years graduating and leabing the others behind..MADE ME SO SAD WHATTT COME BACKKKK...Then when Kibe got selected as team captain I got so happy, I didn't really give much thought to who could be team captain but he's a nice fit! In a way, he does resemble Sekizan, he's a determinated guy that would do wonders to win and also motivates others to try their best too! Plus, he looks a tad more friendly than Sekki, lmao. I just wasn't expecting dear Ebumi to be VICE CAPTAIN HELPPPP, I love him but I just started crying out of surprise. He's also a good dude, and he also knows how to motivate their peers (in his own very niche way) and is quick to defend them (like he did w/ Iwashi); him and Kibe would be an interesting duo! Kibe would be there to calm and tone down Ebumi and he would be sure that Kibe isn't being too nice to the team.

I miss them all already, seeing these guys grow and seeing actual HEALTHY guy friendships (some VERY OBVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS...) was refreshing to see, but that's the sports anime special i'd say. I just need a whole lot of content regarding them, I'll probably rewatch the anime but dub bc from what I've listened is pretty good and I'm even considering picking up writing bc I just need more of each one of them.

9/10 just because i still want more. EVERYONE GET INTO ALL OUT NOW!!!!

[ayooitsmeh]

How heavy are the dumbbells you lift?

Finished watching that anime and one of only bad things I have to say abt it is that is basically is gooner bait..<|3. The plot revolves abt highschoolers going to the gym and all, so the anime has an ''excuse'' to have them wear certain types of clothing and angles unfortunately. Idk what's the animes problem with wanting to sexualise people SPECIALLY teens but the plot wouldn't have changed if they were of age. It would still be bad but a little less worse. The sexualization is something i dont like that much but at least goes both ways..? Like Matchio is basically in thong the whole anime and most guys that appear in it too so...

I watched it dub and genuinely it was SO funny, some animes have a very forced sense of humor but i was effortesly giggling with this one. I think what contribuited to it was the characters voices, whoever voiced each character was having FUN, the lines were so well delivered. NOT TO MENTION THE NARRATOR, he truly did an amazing work, really dynamic. Also, since it was all abt gym and sorts, they had some pretty good tips regarding exercise which were actually informative and helpful! So I felt like i was learning things as well and it made me a little more motivated to keep training ngl lmao.

The characters were really good as well!! The MC is Hibiki and she's lowkey my fave, she's on her journey to lose weight, well this part is pretty unnecesary she weights perfectly normal for a girl her age but ok, japanese standarts ig...? She's really funny and dramatic, she loves eating and she was some CRAZY arm strenght which is lowkey admirable. Her friendship which Akemi is also really good, Akemi at first seemed like a boring character but she's just OVERLY freaked out which is surprising, alongside the fact that her goal isn't being skinny but building muscle which isn't something many girls want so that was nice!! I just wish we got to see buff Akemi, but it shows us her strengh especially in the final ep. Gina and Ayaka were also nice and interesting friends, tho they have less screentime, same with teacher Tachibana. Matchio was funny as HELL here too, dude is a sweetheart muscle head who loves flexing and THANK GOODNESS isnt creepy towards any of the girls.

It's overall just nice seeing girls being friends with no jealousy or hate between them. There has like Gina and Hibiki's rivalry but it's nothing harmful and it's actually healthy. Everyone is just trying to get better, meet their goals and have fun training together. Akemi specially being so proud of Hibiki's progress in the end and wishing for their friendship to continue is just beautifull, I love them so muchhh...it's like the second girls anime sport i've watched and it's sooo refreshing and funny. The plot doesn't take itself too seriously and there are some really good moments there. Overall 8/10

Ps: Remembered all of the eps names are questions and that made me giggle.

[ayooitsmeh]

Codename: Project Dolphin

I didn't know exactly where to FOCUS, the music was seriously good, I had to stop some moments just to jam to it for a while; the art was DELICIOUS be it the scenarios or the characters and the whole game aesthetic was just too pleasing to look at <3 what a pleasant experience.

The love interests go so hard I could barely choose between the two of them....like Rudy is a sweetheart AND CORNY but that's part of his charm, just trying to please the MC but he's truly very interesting?? Being into technology is another level of cool and him being to dedicated to it is amazing, it's not just anyone that messes around with wires for fun and it's genuinely good at it. Excluding Del-fin, my favorite gadget of his is that dog that has weird legs and plays sick music, memorable.

And Del-fin there's a lotttt to uncover, really anxious for the rest of the game. Wonder who created him, like, he's half human but....was he human and then replaced with mechanical parts or the other way around? Is his creator his sort of dad.....and why did he give him shiny pants and cool-looking ear pieces....good choice nonetheless. Really gave me a scare when he just started bleeding and lwk dying on us? Wonder what truly happened to him....despite that, he's also really cute and just says whatever comes to mind, the thing with the tamagotchi was so cute lol. Another thing I really like abt this game is the flashback scenes???? Love the design.

I'm just really curious abt this world in general, likeee what does the food that makes the synth-fish glow besides...making them glow? Is it dangerous or something....? Will the dude that we spilled our drink on really fuck us at work or leave us alone..? Our boss will just be an asshole forever or he has another side to him? Plus, is Mellow an online friend, did we already meet him? Need a face reveal!!!!!!!

Anyway, 10/10 amazing game, happily and patiently waiting for more.

[ayooitsmeh]

All Out!! rants bc I love Ebumi

Still strong with the manga and gotta talk abt chapter 86 bc it got me thinking. Like, Noka and Ebumi interaction? Wasn't expecting it to be this good, they make a really interesting duo. At first, I was pretty shocked when Noka mentioned wanting to leave the club bc I CANNOT HANDLE PEOPLE THREATENING TO LEAVE, STOP I LOVE EVERYONE THERE, and then I was like ''I love Ebumi but out of EVERYONE in this club you're choosing him to talk abt a sensitive topic..?'' then I came to the conclusion that since Ebumi is pretty harsh, especially to people he isn't acquainted to, he'd be the most straight-forward option and I turned out to be right.

I got pretty upset when Ebumi told Noka he hated him but then I thought it over a bit. Ebumi is an independent guy since a young age, his parents were never truly around, basically only has Ise as a close friend, he's considered (kinda is) a delinquent so people at school were scared or just didnt like him; so his only option was to make things by himself and think by himself as well. Just as he said regarding rugby, prolly due to his looks and reputation, members didn't pay much attention to him but he was determined to play the game so he did all he could to make them acknowledge him, he had to make his own path, making it impossible for the other members to ignore him as a player. Meanwhile, Noka was ''coddled'' by the upperclassmen in rugby, seems to have a stable family, has a big friend group and fits in pretty well. So he had it easier basically, since he always had people by his side, he depended on them as he did with his rugby teammates, say as your told and wait for them to choose you. So he didn't NEED to think by himself, since he was always surrounded by people.

Obviously Ebumi doesn't hate the guy, it's noticeable when Ebumi shares his whole progress of how he became stronger and better at rugby. He just wanted to give Noka a wake up call and it really worked, with sharing his progress, he wants Noka to adapt it to his own needs and the way he likes it and this whole interaction just reminded me why i love Ebumi so much<3 and he having to learn how to cook since his mother was basically never around broke me </3

And as always the author never fails to make characters relatable, not thinking for ourself is a HUGE problem in todays society ESPECIALLY with the whole AI debate. People just go with the majority thinks in order to receive aproval or just stop thinking at all. Clearly, we have to grow a spine and formulate our own thoughts, but it's ''okay'' if you follow what other people think, like, not GOOD but it's something you CAN change if you put your mind to it and you can FIX it, just as Noka intends to. The first step is always acknowledging your problem and decide to change, now I have more reasons to like Noka :D

plus, i never realized Ebumi has earrings?? looks good tho

[asafepumpkin]

Hakuoki as text posts ig

[ayooitsmeh]

More All Out!! rants bc I love my boys

I was reading chap 73/74 last night and i was SO SCARED bc Matsuo was finally admitting to Sekizan the truth about why he wasn't trying so hard at practise and why he couldn't go to college.

It was so upsetting seeing Matsuo cry, specially when he has that ''older brother'' vibe when he seems to care a lot about those around him and just be really trustworthy, so it was sad seeing him cry. But despite being sad I love how the mangaka is not afraid to make this guys cry bc; first off, they're teens and hormones are skyrocketing so who tf doesn't cry and second, no one is made of steel and life gets hard so just seeing him cry, makes him human which i love.

Him admitting that he won't be able to play bc he will take over his father business out of his own will is commendable, really. I get that he wouldn't be able to focus on college, having fun with his friends and fighting for his passion, while he's aware that his father is really sick and could get worse at any moment would be upsetting. I feel like him taking over his father job is the only way he feels like he can help him bc I'm sure he feels guilty, even if it's not his fault. Like, having a whole speech prepared bc you were expecting to fail alongside your friends and then suddenly you all get better, that frustrates you bc you know that you won't be able to pursue that, is another kind of pain.

The way Matsuo was so scared to open up to his best friend just shows how selfless he can be. His plan was to just keep being closed off, hope that his teammates would just ignore him and hate him, just so it'd be easier to let go off all of them, since he wouldn't even be able to go to college and have more memorable memories with them. It also shows how he can (not intentionally) dismiss and forget how special he is to his friends and how the team truly CARES for him, everyone was worried about him.

That is another probably relatable scenario for people who play sports, not being able to keep playing bc of someone you care about. It was amazing also seeing Matsuo being jealous of the first years and somewhat irrational while he was crying bc that's normal when you're upset. It really shows how strong and beautiful Sekizan and Matuo's friendship is, being able to cry in front of someone, laughing it all off,...is nice seeing healthy male friendships. I really hope they win and that Matsuo plays in the line up in their first game </3

got a little upset when police officer came to ruin the moment...but fr they are too big 4 HS students

[ohangeleyes]

alright, i'll be the one to say it. ao3 and tumblr becoming "mainstream" did so much damage to the community and the writers. i have seen loads of videos and posts about:

1. people hating on writers and fics. writing is something we do for free and for fun. if you stumble upon a fanfic that isn't necessarily your cup of tea or you just don't like, scroll. dont read it. literally leave their page. you don't know if this could be the author's first work that they're so excited about, you dont know if the language they're writing in isn't their first language, you dont know that the writer could be a literal teen and loads of other reasons. fanfictions don't HAVE to be perfect. you write what you want to write because we do it for fun and enjoyment and we want to share that to the world. seriously, what is the wrong with that?..

2. x reader consumers getting WAY too entitled. the number of tiktoks i've seen that say "i run a strict program when it comes to reading fanfics." girl you aint running shit. this is FAN FICTION you're reading. F A N F I C T I O N. there is no denying that most fanfiction writes are beyond talented but just because you read one fanfic that exceeds your expectations doesn't give you the right to talk down on others that don't. people have their own personal writing style, their way of doing things and you talking shit on that isn't right.

at the end of the day, we are all humans, reading and writing is what we do and what we're meant to do. and for you to talk shit about a person WRITING is so insane. we are humans. not some robots that you can tell what to do so you can consume it.

i've seen so so many authors take down their fanfics and losing all motivation to write because of a hate comment. DONT LIKE DONT READ‼️

and to every author reading this, this community values your work and your contribution. we love u and, please, never let anyone's negative words have an effect on you.

[ayooitsmeh]

(old) all out rants bc i finished the anime

OH EBUMI IS JUST A LOVING BASTARD DUDE'S GIVING HIS FRIEND MORE THAN THE MINIMUM SALATY JUST SO THAT HE CAN KEEP PLAYING WITH HIM

This ep (15) just shows how sometimes will and hard work isn't enough to play a sport, there's a lot of other things present like money. We can't forget that we live in a capitalist society and how we need money for everything. I really can't recall another sports anime where a character could've literally stopped playing bc of money related issues and it's done so well in All Out.

If Ebumi's parents weren't such bums to just leave him to his own devices as a kid and probably till now, he wouldn't be able to give money to Ise who would've just stopped playing. It really shows how their both connected by not present parents, in Ebumi's case due to some sort of neglect and Ise bc his parents really are dead.

Ise's whole situation is just sad like, ok, your brother has to take care of you and it's something that can't be blamed upon any of them bc it's not anyone's fault that their parents died but...why is he mistreating Ise NOW, it's not like he causes much trouble at school or is a bad kid or anything. His brother could be overwhelmed with work and yadayadayada but that is no reason to verbally abuse your brother AND his friend bc of an offer?? He could've just said that Ise wasn't able to go, no need to be so aggressive.

In the beggining of the ep, I was wondering why Ebumi was being so harsh to Ise if they were friends cuz despite the anime not showing their interactions, in Ebumi's previous flashbacks Ise was always with him. But now I can see that he knows what Ise is capable of and he didn't want him slacking off. It could also be his way of just calling out to him to see what he was thinking abt bc that man is a brute, lol, despite being so kind. Anyway, Ebumi in the end of it all, he cares abt Ise and he wants them both to do their best bc they won't be going to college to continue playing; Ebumi bc he DEF doesn't want to go and Ise probably bc of the money, he will start working after school ends.

It was also nice seeing how Ebumi despite his facade he appreciates Gion and notices that he has been trying hard to be a flanker. He probably is harsh to some teammates abt practise bc he hates seeing people waste the opportunity to play rugby now not giving it their all where there's people like him and Ise who this is the only opportunity they got to play the sport and they can't just slack off. Well,I'm happy how this anime keeps showing us different realities and despite they having like 20 guys on a team, they try to show us some part of their life. I really liked knowing more of Ise's character.

[ayooitsmeh]

All Out rants cuz the fandom dead

Just watched ep 22 and my favorite part is the last minutes where there's the talk between Oharano and Suwa.

Suwa has the classic anime trope where the guy has closed eyes, as all anime, I thought he was just for style, but NO, his eyes actually are very bad that's why despite having his eyes closed most the time, he wears glasses from time to time. I LOVE when ALL OUT focuses on ''random'' players struggles, in Suwa's case he struggles with his body bc it's too skinny even when he tries to gain muscle. This becomes specially annoying when he plays rugby and he isn't very tall either, he clearly has self esteem issues because he sees all his teammates train and achieve his goals, while he puts a lot of effort and gains nothing, which creates some animosity towards them.

Oharano isn't my fave character tho I think he's pretty interesting and funny. He usually doesn't really try to fit in with his peers and doesn't care all that much for them, he's just doing what is asked of him. I'm sure he can tie Gion's determined personality to his brother he cares so much for and that's why he ''picks on'' a little more on Gion, but I'm sure deep down he likes him.

So watching him sit down and actually act more sensible with Suwa after his ''breakdown'' was really surprising, specially when he honestly isn't much interested in whatever is going on with his teammates. While he links Gion to his brother positively, he linked Suwa's self deprecation to his brother since they behave the same in that manner. So watching him CARE for someone, even if it was coming from a bad nostalgia he felt bc his brother was the same, was refreshing. Seeing this new side from Oharano and knowing more about Suwa was great and I'd love to see more interactions between the two, they would make an amazing duo, plus Suwa was the first person who Oharano showed his brother to so... they're lowkey friends now....

[ayooitsmeh]

Mushroom Oasis

Que he jugado en espanol porqué és una forma de estudiar, no? Entonces que va así mismo, seguramente, lleno de errores y todo pero que no pasa nada.

Que el juego tiene 5 finales y este final que he hecho no me pareció malo, volví a casa, Mycheal no me axfició son sus abrazos fuertos, QUE HE VISTO LAIKA QUE ÉS UN PERRO MUY TIERNO Y BONITO y que nada de muy peligroso ocurrió entonces que deve ser el final neutro, me assusto por los otros finales.

Mycheal realmente es muy tierno, mucho autodepreciativo pero que nadie es perfecto. Cocina que es una belleza, tiene un sentido de humor y que me dió TANTA risa cúando decia palabras mal y LLENO DE CONFIANZA que no puedo </3 como así ''tuque'', que és touché hombre </3. Y también es claro que nunca tuvo una relación cercana/buena con alguién pela manera que no quiere que el personaje principal (que me voy a llamar de MC de cualquier manera..) se va y lo deje solo.

Yo estava reflejando sobre lo que pienso que Mycheal siente por MC, pensé que quizás sus sentimientos no fuisen romanticos, pero platónicos, porqué la proximidad que él quiere tener con MC se parece más con amistad que cualquier cosa. Siempre estuvo solo y todo más entonces, antes que un novi@, quiere compania y un/a amig@. Sin embargo esta forma de pensar que lo infantilizo un poco, no? Que él es una criatura mayor y mismo que no sepa lo que exatamente es familia o el amor, que él realmente puede ter sentido algo romantico por MC. No lo sé, voy a seguir pensando en eso...aunque, para mí, es más tierno que ni vea el MC exatamente como pareja y si como un@ amig@ o família, como nos había preguntado.

Quiero saber MUCHO más, cual es la relación que Mycheal tiene con los hongos? Porqué reacciona tan mal, QUIERO BACKSTORY PARA AYER, y su charla con MC que los hongos q tiene como cuernos so son verdaderos y todo más...que es sospechoso a lo mejor. Mycheal puede manipular mentes y borrar memórias (lo texto rosado) y lo texto morado sería o la naturaleza o mi miente intentando luchar contra Mycheal. También quiero saber porqué se queda tan solo...si que és verde y todo eso pero no existen otras creaturas iguales a él? Que és el único? Donde sus padres (que el no sape se tiene o no) lo dejaron? Y claro, sus poderes también quiero saber más de ellos claro. Nasció con ellos? Le dieron? Y DONDE ESTA MI GATITOOOOOO LO QUE HICIERON C/ ÉL

Pero que él juego es muy tierno y muy acogedor, el estilo de arte es MUYY BONITO y me encantó la música también, OH Y LOS PLATOS DE COMIDA QUE NOS OFRECÍA QUE PARECÍAN TAN RICOS. Y bueno, el final que me cayó fatal fue el 2, creo, en el que Mycheal utiliza sus poderes para que quedemos en su casa pero no tenemos autonomía ninguna, me quedé triste </3. Además, otra cosa que me encanta, que es la norma en visual novels pero que sea, que Mycheal se ve muy tierno y el juego también pero que el guarda mucha cosas mientras habla mal de si mismo y nos dá buena comida. Pero que MC está en una casita sin nadie para perturbar, una creatura graciosa y buena comida? Que no se está muy mal. 8/10 :D

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[ayooitsmeh]

The false sun

I love just how the community is still being built (the english community) so there's not a lot of content abt it still. But as always I'm here to give my 10 cents of review and opinion. PLUS IM SUPER HAPPY THAT I GOT THE CAST ENDING WITHOUT TRYING, so i can sleep good tonight. I just don't have all the CG's for some reason, maybe they're paid? Idk. 10/10 to the VN. I got to into it I couldn't even focus on doing my shit before ending it.

Ok so on the more ''shallow'' stuff, this game is MADLY beautifull like, the characters are more in a realistic style so it makes the emersion even deeper. Plus, Silas expressions were phenomenal, the way he has that crazy expression just so to feign inocence GETS ME ALLLLWAYS AND I'LL KEEP FALLING FOR IT. The animal art is also sooo cute!! Besides, the soundtrack is so RELAXING!! I'm listening to it while writing this and I dont even like that much listening to stuff while I'm writing but THIS IS THE EXCEPTION. On the mini games part, it could just be slightly inconvinient when trying to replay the game to get more endings but they added to the story in such a nice way that I cant even complain. The worst mini game was the egg catching tho.

Oh and we can ALL agree that Silas had something to do with the Grandpa accident, right? Where he got food poisoning. WAY to convinient that Gramps ate a pear in the day he got food poisoning, too obvious perhaps but like I have no one to discuss this with.

Oh Silas what the FUCK will I do with you. That guy is just WRONG but at the same time he's so NOT WRONG and I can't decide myself. It's beyond obvious that the guy is not mentally healthy by any means and it does not excuse his actions but he's just so INCONSISTENT that it truly hurts my head, and not in a bad sense, it just shows that he's complex. He can be just so loving and at the same time so damn patronizing? I'm still searching for the word I want but I'll leave it at that. And there's also that fact that he is willing to hurt others, the Mc or even himself, there's just no predicting this man. The tiniest choice does matter in this game.

It's just that, he's so intense and pushing, like when the MC is afraid of swimming and doesn't want to, he gets upset at them and starts insisting that they go do something they don't want to. Like, ofc the MC has to get over it someday but that was NOT the way to go on about it, since everyone has their own time. He's a master manipulator and loves some guilt-tripping too, MC even says it something between the lines of ''Why do I feel guilty when I said nothing wrong?''.

But THEN he's also so caring, he would do anything for the MC but now that I'm rethinking abt this...him being caring is more selfish than anything. When MC comes back, he just SHOWERS them with affection without letting MC have anytime to let all those feelings sink in, obviously that's what he wants. He doesn't want the MC to think, they have to blindly trust him so that he can erase his mistakes and be with them. All that ''care'' that he forcelly gives to MC is just to make up all those years he's been away from them. Ok he really sounds more wicked now that I'm reading this.

AND AGAIN, but all these mistakes we're talking abt happened when he was a kid, a very disturbed kid that is, I'm still wondering if he has some specific type of mental illness or if he's just like that cuz killing animals as a kid is not what I'd label ''normal''. Oh, that and locking up, strangling and almost killing another kid. I know that MC was the only person/kid that he could trust and being abandoned by your favorite person while being yourseld and being labelled ''too much'' by them, hurt him deeply. What adds to that is when Kyle says that Silas got upset when people called him a hero for him ''saving'' the MC. It really shows that he's behaviour is really hard to predict and control.

My favorite ending was the ending 16? The one where Silas gets help, and he acknowledges that what he was doing was not right, I'm pretty sure he's aware of that but in this ending he comes to terms with it and admits it. The ending shows that he really regrets what he did and that he really loves MC and didn't want to hurt them, which made me happy. BUT THEN THERE'S THE OTHER 19 ENDINGS. Which makes me think, does he truly love MC? Is that just obsession? Is it both? Maybe neither? Ig that's kinda the appeal of this sort of games.

In the end, I think that Silas is too much of a dilemma to decide if I love him or not, but what I know is that i love his WRITING, that I could ever deny. Plus, it was 'nice' seeing a Vn where the MC and the love interest don't get a happy ending together. Oh, it was also nice that Kyle didnt take ''advantage'' of MC's feeling, they were clearly shaken up abt all that happened in the summer and I belive they didn't honestly like Kyle when they lean in to kiss him. Self aware king!