**WARNING**

Azreal Johnston; 23; Psychopath + Sadist; Glendale Institution

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blxxdybenji:

“Then why are you acting like a jealous asshole?” Ben spat back, “I care about him and want him to be happy too but that doesn’t mean you get to be angry at me for not fucking leading him on. I was honest with him about David and I’m sorry that hurt him but there’s more to why he tried to hurt himself than just that.”

“I’m not. I’m a concerned friend. Charles really likes you, Benjamin and you hurt him. I just want him to be okay.” He sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose lightly. “Just..leave Charles alone, Ben.”

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Azreal shook his head disbelievingly and sighed. He didn't think Ben should be around Charles, but that was just his own feeling. "Whatever. If you hurt him him I'll kill you."

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blxxdybenji:

“Then why are you acting like a jealous asshole?” Ben spat back, “I care about him and want him to be happy too but that doesn’t mean you get to be angry at me for not fucking leading him on. I was honest with him about David and I’m sorry that hurt him but there’s more to why he tried to hurt himself than just that.”

“I’m not. I’m a concerned friend. Charles really likes you, Benjamin and you hurt him. I just want him to be okay.” He sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose lightly. “Just..leave Charles alone, Ben.”

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blxxdybenji:

“He said it was okay. He said we were still friends.” Ben’s aid quietly. “I never said he didn’t…I never even said I wanted to be with him. I did, but I knew I couldn’t be. So stop being pissed at me because I’m with someone that makes me happy. I know I don’t deserve CJ and that’s why I didn’t try to be more than friends or anything. I already know I’m horrible and terrible and shit so stop saying it just because you’re mad I’m with David.” It was probably more than that, since he and Cj were friends, but it felt like Azreal was just being mean because he was dating David.

“Yes, you could have been. I bet it would have helped him be a little more cheery too. But no, you decided to fuck yourself over and you fucked Charles over. You’re the worst.” He grumbled, balling his hands into fists.” Azreal raised his voice “I don’t give a fuck about David, Benjamin! Be with who you want, I’m getting over it, but you hurt Charles and it’s not okay!”

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"Because Charles is my friend and I care about him. His wellbeing is important to me." Azreal paused "No. I just want him to be happy." He grumbled to himself. "This isn't about me, it's about our friend. I'm not jealous, I stopped being jealous a little while ago."

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blxxdybenji:

“He said it was okay. He said we were still friends.” Ben’s aid quietly. “I never said he didn’t…I never even said I wanted to be with him. I did, but I knew I couldn’t be. So stop being pissed at me because I’m with someone that makes me happy. I know I don’t deserve CJ and that’s why I didn’t try to be more than friends or anything. I already know I’m horrible and terrible and shit so stop saying it just because you’re mad I’m with David.” It was probably more than that, since he and Cj were friends, but it felt like Azreal was just being mean because he was dating David.

“Yes, you could have been. I bet it would have helped him be a little more cheery too. But no, you decided to fuck yourself over and you fucked Charles over. You’re the worst.” He grumbled, balling his hands into fists.” Azreal raised his voice “I don’t give a fuck about David, Benjamin! Be with who you want, I’m getting over it, but you hurt Charles and it’s not okay!”

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"He was obviously willing to take that risk. But whatever, whatever you tell yourself to justify hurting him." He wished he could make Ben hurt for possibly contributing to Charles' list of reasons. He would wait. "Well you did."

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blxxdybenji:

“He said it was okay. He said we were still friends.” Ben’s aid quietly. “I never said he didn’t…I never even said I wanted to be with him. I did, but I knew I couldn’t be. So stop being pissed at me because I’m with someone that makes me happy. I know I don’t deserve CJ and that’s why I didn’t try to be more than friends or anything. I already know I’m horrible and terrible and shit so stop saying it just because you’re mad I’m with David.” It was probably more than that, since he and Cj were friends, but it felt like Azreal was just being mean because he was dating David.

“Yes, you could have been. I bet it would have helped him be a little more cheery too. But no, you decided to fuck yourself over and you fucked Charles over. You’re the worst.” He grumbled, balling his hands into fists.” Azreal raised his voice “I don’t give a fuck about David, Benjamin! Be with who you want, I’m getting over it, but you hurt Charles and it’s not okay!”

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blxxdybenji:

“I didn’t lead him on I told him I didn’t want to be more than friends before…I wasn’t leading him on.” Ben hugged himself tightly. “I know…that’s why I couldn’t let myself be with him. I know I’m horrible I know I’m not good enough for him. But I’m happy with David, he makes me happy…I just hope Cj can understand that and knows I wasn’t trying to hurt him. I didn’t lead him on…”

“Well, you obviously did something if you upset him like that.” He sighed. He just wanted this to be over and he wanted to sit with Cj and talk to him. “You are horrible. Not that I’m not, but yes, you’re terrible and he deserves so much more.”

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blxxdybenji:

“Is it really that bad that I’m with someone who makes me happy?” He asked sharply, knowing that’s really why Azreal was upset. “CJ wasn’t even that upset he said we were still friends and shit I dunno if I’m the reason why he…I just wanted him to know. He wanted to be more than friends and I didn’t want to lie and say I didn’t want to be with him…”

“It’s bad that you lead him on.” He shrugged, crossing his arms over his chest. “Cj deserves much better than you anyway. He’s too sweet and precious for you. You’d just break him.” Azreal scoffed. He hated the idea of Cj and Ben. Ben was too much, he had too much anger. At least Azreal thought so.

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blxxdybenji:

“I don’t know if I had something to do with it.” Ben said with a sigh, rubbing his hands over his face. “I didn’t want to hurt him Azreal. I didn’t know he’d do something like this because I’m with someone I care about.”

“Yes, I heard you the first time, Ben.” Azreal rolled his eyes. “Well, you fucking did. What you want and what happened aren’t the same so it doesn’t fucking matter.”

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blxxdybenji:

“I don’t know if it was! He was really upset about his families too and about the family visits and he didn’t have anyone to come see him and everyone else did…he’s been really upset all month I don’t know if it was me that made him…”

“I know Ben, but that doesn’t mean that you didn’t have anything to do with it. But we’ll see what Charles has to say.” He growled, still glaring at him angrily. “Yeah, well you’re fucking shitty so I wouldn’t be surprised if it was.”

[blxxdybenji]

“I don’t know if it was…he was upset about it but he didn’t seem like he would kill himself over it. He said he wanted to stay friends…” he mumbled out, pulling his feet up into his chair and wanting to hide. He really was going to be alone now. David wouldn’t understand why he was upset, he wouldn’t want to comfort him. He’d be happy CJ was out the way, no one to get between him and Ben anymore. “If that’s what pushed it Im going to kill myself.”

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"It better not have been your fault, Ben." Azreal was seeing red. He was upset for Charles and with Charles. But if Ben was the main reason.."No. You don't get to do that."

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Az was just scared now. Charles was his friend, he wanted him to be okay. Maybe he’d be able to see him soon. It didn’t matter how quick he saw him, as long as he was okay. “I know, he has a hard time around this time. He talked to me, I tried to help him feel better. You told him what, Benjamin!?”

[blxxdybenji]

“I told him I was dating David again…” Ben said softly, chewing on his inner cheek roughly, knowing Azreal wouldn’t react well to that. “He was pretty upset about it but then we talked and it was kinda okay..he always wanted to be more than just friends but I couldn’t and I just…I don’t know if that’s what did it. What if it was? What if it’s my fault?”

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That was a shock as well. "Oh..T-That could definitely stress someone." Azreal didn't really like that Ben was with David. But there wasn't time to get mad about that for himself. "Well...if that's what pushed it, then I'm gonna fucking kill you." He growled, glaring at him.

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Az was just scared now. Charles was his friend, he wanted him to be okay. Maybe he'd be able to see him soon. It didn't matter how quick he saw him, as long as he was okay. "I know, he has a hard time around this time. He talked to me, I tried to help him feel better. You told him what, Benjamin!?"

[blxxdybenji]

Ben’s chest ached as he even thought about what happened to Cj. He chewed on his lip and turned his face away. “He tried to kill himself Az…he’s in the hospital.” He choked out, feeling his voice waiver.

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Azreal's eyes went wide right away. Cj had tried to kill himself? "What? You're lying. C-Charles wouldn't do that." Yes he would. "Why? What did you do, Benjamin!?"

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Azreal hesitated “I enjoy talking to you. Even if you’re a selfish little boy.” He sighed. Azreal knew that he was the one that was selfish, but he didn’t want to say that. “You always seem to ‘have a reason’, Benjamin.”

[blxxdybenji]

“I’m not selfish.” Ben said defensively. “I actually have one this time…if you payed any attention to what happens around here you would know. You even claimed that CJ was your friend but you don’t even seem affected.”

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"Everyone is selfish." He countered quickly, deciding to include everyone instead of just Ben and himself. "Charles is my friend. But I haven't spoken with him since I drew him. But do tell, if it's about Charles I would love to be in the know."

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Azreal hesitated "I enjoy talking to you. Even if you're a selfish little boy." He sighed. Azreal knew that he was the one that was selfish, but he didn't want to say that. "You always seem to 'have a reason', Benjamin."

[blxxdybenji]

“Listen I don’t really think I’m in the mood to talk about what happened right now so if you could just drop it that would be great…”

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“You’re always so god damn grumpy, it’s impossible to fucking talk to you.”

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What did you do to Nick?

“I’ve done a lot of things to Nicholas. I had sex with him.”