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Jessi: [Jessi's fingers curl into Azura's hair, smile stretching, eyes half-lidded when she blinks them open, a low, lazy hum at the base of her throat, posture quietly easing to morph into the form below her] I wasn't sure you were in the apartment until I walked around the corner. I wouldn't have bothered if I'd known. [Her hands lower, neck craning, nails raking as she drags Azura's shirt upwards] I hope you didn't let him win. [Her hands smooth around Azura's side making their way pointedly up her back to between her shoulderblades, fingers hooking] Did you two enjoy shooting at each other and rolling around on the ground?

Az: Who would I have been? [Azura's words string together, a bit, contented and sliding gracefully into a lower,quieter octave as she speaks.] This is why I hate the key out there. [The athlete does nothing to indicate her opposition, however. Her shoulders relax, and her torso automatically shifting into Jessi's hands. She smiles, teeth grazing lightly over the pulse at Jessi's throat] I can't believe you even have to ask. Of course I didn't let him win. [Az shifts upward,onto her elbows before she rolls and switches their positions, shedding the flimsy t-shirt in question before she returns to her ministrations.] I lost fair and square. [her hands dance along Jessi's sides, now, luxuriating in the expanse of soft skin. She sits up, pulling away, more admiration than tease.] What about you? Have you ever played?

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Jessi: That [the sentence is punctuated through a series of surprisingly lazy kisses per word] would obviously be me. [She pushes them both onto the bed with a low laugh] And how much I bench is something for me to know and something for you [She gently pokes Azura's side, hands running upwards] to constantly wonder about.

Az: [As if on cue, Azura becomes too distracted to respond immediately to her girlfriend's statements, making an effort to keep from smiling into their kiss. Her hands come up, as though magnetized, to meet bare thighs on either side of her, pulling the dancer closer] You're going to drive me crazy one day. [Azura pulls away from her lips, after a bit, instead kissing a line down her jaw and to her throat] I'd say you aren't exactly dressed for sulking. You actively *put on* shorts. [after another moment, in which her attention is elsewhere] oh. Where was I. My day... Zion and I played laser tag. Right.

Ok Now They're Just Talking and IDK what to tag it || Jadams

Jessi: What you meant was exactly how it sounded. And exactly what I dressed for. [She doesn't gesture down towards her state of undress because it isn't entirely necessary.] I'd hate to waste a perfectly good outfit. [In a rare opportunity and display, Jessi drops her hands and curls them underneath Azura's waist, picking her up off of the counter and placing her down on the kitchen floor, hands squeezing the muscles in her hands for good, smiling measure. She kisses Az swiftly once and then again with much more intent] I don't plan on moving the key, just yet. [Her smile stretches] Let's go to bed. Either you can tell me about the good part of your day, or we can...sulk. [She twists Az around, lips pressing a kiss to her shoulder]

Az: [Azura grins,covering the arms around her waist with her hands and turning her head so that she can just barely see a portion of Jessi's face.] How- I think I underestimate you sometimes, St. James. What do you bench? [Azura laughs at her own joke, rolling her eyes at herself as she walks them, or rather waddles them, tottering behind furniture on a straight path to a bedroom she's come to know well. The grin remains on her face, natural and a little impish, if she's honest. The athlete turns in the smaller girl's embrace and lifts a hand to properly kiss her, with no less intent, lingering] I don't see why we can't do both. At least one of us is an accomplished multitasker....

Ok Now They're Just Talking and IDK what to tag it || Jadams

Jessi: [Her hands come up to curl around the nape of Azura's neck at the feeling of her lips, fingers turning to lose themselves in the thin, smooth strands, holding her in the embrace for a long moment] I don't blame you for anything but trying to wear basketball shorts into a restaurant. [A small chuckle, shaking her shoulders, loosening them a tad] That's your own fault. [Her hands pull up and back, cupping Azura's cheeks in her palms] I'll be fine. [Her heartbeat kicks in her chest, rhythm of her thumbs brushing along Azura's jaw matching the subtle beat. It's the same beat that would gently ring off her walls every third or so week and the same sort of inevitably that she's sure Michael, too, will eventually become. But Azura's tone seems to calm her and Jessi closes her eyes, leaning forward to rest her forehead against Azura's] I'm glad you're here. [A long pause before she pulls back, smiling] We shouldn't spend the rest of our night 'sulking' [The air quotes are still necessary] in the kitchen.

Az: We were ordering take-out...let it go...[the smiling, almost petulant complaint is murmured against her girlfriend's jaw before Jessi pulls back. Her expression falls, somber now, but not entirely unhappy. There's a tension curling around her extremities,a nervous tick that makes Azura want to bolt. But she doesn't move, at all, only lets her eyes fall shut when Jessi's do, hands coming up to cover Jessi's] I'm glad you haven't moved they key, yet. [Azura smirks, leaning in to kiss her girlfriend,sweeter than anyone can picture Azura being] So you admit it, you sulk. [another kiss] if you want, we can go sulk in your bed. Or on your couch. [smirks, realizing how that sounds ] What I meant was...

Ok Now They're Just Talking and IDK what to tag it || Jadams

Jessi: No. [Jessi's voice comes out solid and almost harsh in the surety, the rough sound catching along her conflicted jaw, muscles unsure whether to clench or ease. Right now, they clench, and when she repeats herself she meets Azura head-on] No. I'm not going through this, again. I won't. [Almost shamed to admit it] I can't. It's not the first time this has happened and it's not the first time he's ransacked my apartment. [A small amount of anger seeps into her perfected even tone] He took everything I had. And he would have kept taking everything I had. There's nothing else I can do for him. There's nothing else I should. I made a decision and I don't back down on decisions. [She looks away, eyes sliding along the edge of the counter, skin pale but tone sure, regardless of the small sheen in her eyes that seems to be a natural accompaniment some days, not falling] He's not my problem, anymore. [She takes in a sharp breath and her gaze is sure when she meets Azura's eyes again] If this isn't the last reality check he needs, he's hopeless, anyways. He was hopeless in the first place.

Az: [Azura's eyes narrow, hearing some of the things that Jessi's saying, really, for the first time. Some of that wide-eyed sympathy and certainty dissolves into frustration and an obvious protective film slips over her gaze. She takes a deep breath, almost at a loss, in the moments when Jessi looks away from her. But when the gaze returns, Azura's present, even if she's not entirely unaffected and even if she's pretty unsure about the whole thing, now. The words are slow, tiptoeing ] I don't like what he does to you, that's all. [a pause, in which she leans in to kiss the apple of Jessi's cheek] like you said, my primary concern is you. You're doing an excellent job of pretending [that part is reassuring, just in case there was any doubt] But...you can't blame me for wishing it was more than pretending.

Ok Now They're Just Talking and IDK what to tag it || Jadams

Jessi: [A rare look crosses her features and Jessi's mouth opens, jaw working before it eventually closes] What you're trying to do is change the subject from you to me. [Her face, for a moment, is tight, but the moment seems to pass, a flicker of a heartbeat, before Jessi leans forward, forehead falling to rest against her girlfriend's shoulder, a quiet moment before she admits] I know you're here. [She allows herself to rest, for a moment, shoulders sagging until she eventually straightens both her back and her posture] Michael's missing. It's nothing new. And it's definitely nothing surprising. [Her mouth, once more, opens and then closes, shoulders raising and falling in a useless, rare shrug] He's obviously wound up in some sort of...Donny Brasco remake. It's not surprising. And there was no reason for Kelsey to show up here in the first place.

Az: We've always talked about me. [ She retorts with as much plainly, arms draping lovingly around the Jessi as she comes closer. Azura's hands hang there at her hips when Jessi straightens to speak again. ] I know it's not your job to take care of him. You have your own life and you..do a lot for people already. [ Azura shrugs, voice soft in a way that it only is for Jessi] But if you wanted to find him..you know we could look,right? There are ways...

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Jessi: [A sigh] Of course it's still on my mind. [Her smile thins] It's always on my mind. But since there's nothing I can do about it, I don't see the point in focusing on it. [She meets Azura's eyes, not one to shy away from the gaze, tone naturally matching Azura's] I know what you were doing. [The hand tangled in the other girl's skims up her wrist, soothing over the muscle] You don't have to let it go. You can bring it up all you want. But it doesn't mean anything's going to change.

Az: I don't want to bring it up all the time if it's going to hurt you. It's not like you'll admit it if it does. [ She states it as a fact, but Azura's head tilts to the side,quizzically, as though she's relying on luck that the message will get through loud and clear. The taller girl nudges Jessi forward, gently, brushing their lips together] I just want to know what's going on. Or what's happened. Throw me a bone here, St. James [she smiles weakly here,one side of her mouth upturning, as if trying to be encouraging] I'm here for you.

Ok Now They're Just Talking and IDK what to tag it || Jadams

Jessi: [Evidently a little annoyed at being misunderstood, reaffirming, mindlessly moving the arm that Azura pulls back to twine her fingers with the ones near her forearm, squeezing, before she lets go, one arm still crossed over her chest] Because I know it's important. I don't know whether or not you think it's worth it. [She drops the other arm] You're making it more complicated than it has to be. I'm not telling you anything other than the fact that you should let yourself do what you want. [She smiles, small and tired but genuine] I'm getting a little tired of repeating myself. [She leans forward, resting her free hand against Azura's stomach, surprisingly gentle] Stop being difficult.

Az: [Azura opens her mouth to speak again immediately, stepping straight into the hand pressing against her abdomen. She's cowed by the gesture and the softness of her girlfriend's tone, and her jaw snaps shut to show as much. When she speaks, it's the voice of someone who's effectively had all of the fight knocked out of them.] I understood everything you were saying. I don't disagree with you. [Azura reaches up with her right hand to tuck a stray tress behind her girlfriend's ear. She ducks her head under a bit to catch Jessi's eyes] I was just looking for an excuse. I can't let that go, you know. I care about you too much. I can tell it's still on your mind.

Ok Now They're Just Talking and IDK what to tag it || Jadams

Jessi: [Her fingernails curl into her forearms as she crosses them over her chest, more habit than her voice reflecting a defensive position] I never said it wasn't important. I said it was a waste of time. [Her jaw sets, eyebrows raising in silent challenge] It's two completely different situations, Az. I don't waste my time on lost causes. And unlike you, I'm not going to stand here and choose which kind of cause Teresa is for you. [She lets out a small sigh of a breath through her nose ] I don't know why it's important to you, but it is, so you should at least give yourself a choice.

Az: [Azura meets her challenge head on, doing her best impression of an "unimpressed Jessi" face. She reaches, before she speaks, across the distance to uncross the other woman's arms] Sounds a lot like you're telling me it's important to me. I guess we're working on the assumption that you know me better than I know you.

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Jessi: Well it's definitely not consequential. [Jessi shakes her head, pressing closer between the fissure of space between them before she pulls back entirely. It's oddly reminiscent of a physical representation of someone tentative to make a running leap, though Jessi's body language is everything *but* tentative] Kelsey staying in my apartment and my [A fraction of a pause. This, though subtle, is hesitant] My brother [She shakes her head, much more casual] Have nothing to do with going after something you want. If you want to sit down and talk with God Mother Teresa, go ahead. Either take the advice or don't.

Az: [Exhales roughly through her nose, breaking eye contact with the other girl for only a second, and moving automatically, as if magnetized, off the counter to stand in front of it when Jessi pulls away from her] I made the clarification. You know which part I meant. You can't make this without me without me making it about you. That's how this works. [A pause, in which she reaches out, a manual offering of piece, but doesn't quite pull her back into her arms, because that'd be unlike them. Azura meets her eyes steadily, even if Jessi tries to dodge her] Why's it so important that you act like it's not important to you? I can tell that it is.

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Jessi: [Jessi pulls away just enough so that she can fully take in Azura's, and make sure that the taller girl can fully take in hers. Her voice is barely flat, like she hasn't quite met the pitch of normal conversation. ] I do follow my own advice. If I want something, I go for it. And if it's a waste of time, I don't.

Az: [Azura remains unconvinced, locking her jaw in order to keep steady eye contact with the other girl. She attempts to affect Jessi's tone] And when something's importnt, you let it be important? [a small pause, in which she has to a to decide to speak again, knowing that Jessi hates it when she dances around her point] I'm talking about your brother. And Kelsey being here. This whole thing. You're acting like it's inconsequential.

Ok Now They're Just Talking and IDK what to tag it || Jadams

Jessi: No it's not. [Unfortunately for Azura, Jessi isn't nearly as joking, but it isn't gravely serious, hands pulling Azura's tighter around her waist, settling in between the other girl's legs] You form relationships just like everyone else. You just hate someone noticing. Or just don't want the consequences for it. [Jessi re-arranges some of the messy strands of Azura's hair from the trek here, eyes keeping her gaze] I don't blame you for that, or this. If it isn't worth it, it isn't worth it. But if it's important to you, then let it be important. There's nothing wrong to admitting you want something, there's only something wrong if you don't demand you have it. [She brushes their lips together] Either way.

Az: [failing the joke, Azura bites down on her thoughts and lets her girlfriend speak, without any protest at first other than the skeptical look on her face. It's an obvious effort not to be so completely argumentative. After the kiss, when Jessi's certainly stopped speaking, Azura gazes at the dancer for a moment before pulling her into something a little more substantial, leaving her hand to rest where it's slipped beneath her top on the small of Jessi's back. It's done in lieu of speaking, but the next words tumble off of Azura's lips anyhow] You can't really say that without my questioning why you don't take your own advice...

Le Phone Call Now || Jadams

Jessi: We don't disturb the neighbors. We're making their boring lives more interesting. If you want to find out what she has to offer you, too, go ahead. It's your choice. She might not be worth the time. [Jessi quietly drops the phone altogether, leaning against the door frame, eyes searching Azura's face, voice gentler] Sometimes people aren't worth it. But if a part of you thinks there's an opportunity there, you should take it. [She crosses the distance and presses the End button on her phone, setting it next to Azura's knees, hands falling to rest on her thighs] I really don't care as long as you do what you want. But if you miss out on an opportunity just because it's a little awkward, you'll never get anywhere.

Az: [Azura cracks a smile and closes her eyes, shaking her head at her girlfriend even after that smile falls and she can hear Jessi more out of her right ear than the left that's pressed up against her phone. When she feels Jessi come over to where she is, Azura continues to talk to the phone, for a moment. ] Everything is awkward for me. [And with that, she hangs it up, eyes dropping down to meet her girlfriend's and hands following, automatically, sitting her phone next to Jessi's and pulling the smaller girl close.] It's a way of life. You may have noticed I don't exactly form relationships easily. Maybe you missed it. [ she shrugs, clearly joking, and clearly at least a little brighter now that Jessi's in the room] I dunno.Maybe you haven't gotten to know me well enough yet. But it's true.

Le Phone Call Now || Jadams

Jessi: You're probably just hearing my neighbors have sex. I have no idea what you're talking about. It's not like I punch my pillow. [Jessi shakes her head and opens the bedroom door, shimmying up a pair of shorts as she moves, shoulder raising to crook the phone between her ear and the rise of her bone] Since you haven't talked to her, I doubt you know what she /is/ giving him. [More factual than condescending or knowing] It sounds more like you're talking about yourself than Zion.

Az: [matter-of-factly] My brother was four when it happened. I was sixteen. I think I've got the objective voice here, Jessi. [Azura takes a long drink, eyes finding the ceiling and maintaining their gaze there, for a while] I'm just saying that him being with runaway-godmom over there is a lot better than 1) him being at home and 2) anything that our dead mother could be giving him from beyond the grave. That's all. [a pause] and we're the only people on this floor that disturb the neighbors from the bedroom. I'm pretty sure.

Le Phone Call Now || Jadams

Jessi: [Pauses] That makes absolutely no sense. I don't--[She pauses again, eyebrows knitting, pulling the phone away and leaning her head out of the door, stopping before she pulls the phone back, shaking her head] I don't hit anything. Since you're his sister, pretty sure you're not supposed to be his mother anyways. But I happen to think you're a surprisingly phenomenal sister. He's lucky to have you. [A creak.] I don't know about Teresa, but it sounds like he's lucky to have her couch. I don't know anything other than that.

Az: What /part/ of that doesn't make sense, Jess?[Azura scowls, as she is prone to doing,pushing herself up onto her counter instead of making her way down the hall. ] You've never properly explained what that thumping noise is, and it happens every night I'm not in your room. [ a pause] He's got a bed. And his mom went off and died on him, so that's more than she's giving him right now. [Azura says this a little bitterly, moreso than most nights, before she tries to drown the sentiment with her glass of water]

Le Phone Call Now || Jadams

Jessi: Az [The name is a huff of breath from her lips, tone even] If this is about to turn into a fight for no reason , just punch that perv of a door attendant on your way up. We both know what I meant. I care about you, that's the extent of my interest. [A faint thump] Whatever distant quasi catholic relations talk about with one another. Whatever you would talk about. Guilt, the weather, second season of American Idol. [Gentler] More than likely all those things you don't ask your dad. [Another thump] Girl talk.

Az: I've already passed him, but remind me to hit him in the morning, has he been bothering you? [ Azura's tone is obviously distracted, as she rummages through Jessi's fridge for no reason -- she organized it herself, after all, there's nothing to look for. There's a pause. the fridge door shuts. Azura sighs.] It's too damn late for that kind of thing. Zion's there. If she wants to be useful at parenting she can parent him. It's obvious I was never cut out for it. [ The sound of a couple of cabinets opening and shutting, just as aimless, as she makes a point of thinking in silence] I'm sorry I snapped at you. Don't take it out on your pillow, or whatever you're always hitting this time of evening.

Le Phone Call Now || Jadams

Jessi: [Somehow, Jessi's eyebrows manage to raise through her tone, practically unimpressed] Whatever you say, Az. Needing someone and it mattering are two completely different things. [There's a shuffle as Jessi moves, the sound of fabric rustling] If you don't want to talk to her, then don't. It really doesn't matter to me either way as long as you actually wind up doing what you want. [Admittedly] My scope of interest really only sits on your shoulders.

Az: Fine then, it doesn't matter to you. I'm glad we settled that. [the sound of a door opening and closing, one which can faintly be heard by Jessi, if she's listening hard enough. Azura heads straight for the kitchen] I don't even understand what you think I ought to be talking to her about, to be honest.

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