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The Monster Left Behind
CHAPTER TWO - Up Close
part one
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SYNOPSIS: Free from the Mind-Flayer's control, Henry Creel is left a hollow, helpless shell of a man, resigning himself to a lifetime of self-abandonment and grief over a life so cruelly denied from him - until a new arrival into Hawkins takes a chance on him, the man everyone else has already given up on.
(alternative universe following on from st5 where henry survives the death of the mindflayer)
FANDOM: Stranger Things
CONTAINS: henry creel x f!reader, use of Y/N, slow burn, eventual romance, age gap (45 + 25), mental health/illness/dark themes, murder, lowkey making this up as i go along so ill add as i continue LOL
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NOTES: ty for all the love on chapter one :) im still kinda learning as i go so any feedback/suggestions would be appreciated!
SONG: Someone Was Listening - dodie
âOpen the door, how do I know? Stillness means end or is danger just slow? I do not trust you, donât trust myself. But someone was listening when I called for help.â
â-
Chapter Two - Up Close
The days unfolded one by one, time seemed to move slower in Hawkins like the whole town was permanently programmed on slow-mo. It was heavier there, lazier. The mountain of boxes that had once cluttered the already snug space slowly dwindled down, the cardboard neatly folded up and tucked nearly in the corner, while the contents had been meticulously placed with a mix of quiet, deliberate care. Trinkets cluttered the mantle, family photos hung as a reminder of a life well lived. Plants sitting lazily in the glow of the morning Hawkins light, spilling out the corner of the curtains - freshly watered and gently sparkling in the sun. The place was finally starting to look like hers. Starting to feel like hers.
Y/N pottered about the house, clutching her mug of tea and absorbing the slow morning on Morehead Street. She drifted towards the front window, further nudging the curtains open - squinting slightly as the sunbeams burst into the living room. She shuffled closer to the window to take in her surroundings once again. Helenâs garden came into view first, tangling with an array of bright cheerful colours. Y/N found herself pondering about how she could even upkeep something like that, something so beautiful. Y/N could barely keep the handful of house plants she owned alive, let alone a whole flower garden bursting at the seams.
Her gaze slid over to the house next door, a similarly built home with grey panelling and the same classic white trim. Out on the front porch, two young boys buzzed about playing some chaotic version of their own ball game. One blonde, and the other with a burst of fiery orange hair. They couldn't have been older than 8 and 10, brothers, she assumed â although she hadn't really had a chance to get to know the rest of the neighbours yet.
Her attention then directed itself back to the Creel house.
The hairs on the back of her neck rose, her grip on the mug tightening until her knuckles glowed with a strained white tint as the memory of her previous conversation with Helen echoed in her mind. They say it wasnât Victor who did it. They say it was Henry...
Y/N sighed, taking an unsure sip of her tea. The warmth doing little to comfort her. Her mind weighed heavy with the knowledge of what had happened in that house. The last few days of mindless unpacking had left far too much space in her brain for thinking, she caught her mind racing about the mysterious Henry Creel on several occasions â desperate to crack the mystery of the Creel murders. Every time, she scolded herself and made a feeble attempt to shrug it off, but she was struggling to fight her deeply rooted intrigue.
She paused, feeling the cogs in her mind churning as a decision clicked into place.
Fuck it.
She was going over there.
What was the worst that could happen?
Y/N recalled what Helen had mentioned to her a few days ago, about they âdonât often get new neighbours.ââ If she was going to live next door to the infamous murder house, she might as well get on his good side at least.
She couldn't just turn up, though. Empty-handed and bombarding him with questions? No. That would seem too... threatening. Too bold. She didnât want to press too hard and scare him off. Sheâd seen him staring at her yesterday from afar, a warning, maybe. Or maybe he just doesn't like new people, either way it sat heavy on her chest.
Y/N shifted her weight, still stood at the window fixated on the Creel house. Her mind scrambling to find an excuse to turn up there.
... a peace offering, maybe?
What would a stereotypical neighbour do?
...
Cookies?
I mean, thatâs what they do in TV shows, right? Turn up with a plate of cookies and an artificially sweet smile?
Not that she was the best baker by any means, in fact, she was the kind of person who could set fire to her kitchen just by boiling a pot of water. But it was the thought that counted, she thought. It was decided.
Y/N pushed herself away from the window, setting her now almost cold tea-filled mug down on the table, making her way into the kitchen. She rifled through the newly filled cupboards with groceries she had bought the day before.
Butter...
Chocolate chips...
Flour...
She paused, frowning.
... Shit. I donât have sugar.
She stood back, with a defeated sigh.
âWell there goes that idea.â she muttered under her breath, shoulders shrugging in defeat. She lingered for a moment, face twitching as she tried to come up with a new plan, when her eyes landed on a crinkled plastic bag on the far end of the worktop. The cookies sheâd bought from the store yesterday.
Y/N crossed the small kitchen in a few quick steps and grabbed the bag, turning the packet over in her hands
â...is it cheating to pass them off as my own?â she pondered out loud.
She stared at them for a moment, before shrugging.
âEh, fuck it. A little white lie never hurt anybody.â
She tore the bag open and started neatly arranging the cookies onto a round, white plate. Attempting to sell the facade of homemade goods.
Perfect.
Now she just had to actually give them to him...
A tight ball of anxiety grew in her chest as she reached for her beaten-up sneakers in the hallway, shoving them on and grabbing the first jacket she could find. Trailing back to the kitchen, eyes locked on the plate of cookies waiting for her on the counter. A simple act of kindness. Unassuming. Yet heavy with expectation. She slid her hands under the cool ceramic, gripping on with a slight tremor as she lifted it.
âOkay...â she breathed, more exhale than an actual word. âHere goes nothing.â *** Y/N blinked, and found herself standing at the front door of Henry Creelâs house, plate balanced in one hand, and the other suspended in the air as she attempted to muster up the courage to knock. The large wooden door towered over her, almost like it was a threat. The door held a mesmerising pane of frosted stained glass, revoking any clear sight into the house. Intentional, maybe?
Was she seriously about to do this? Knock on the door of a man who had potentially murdered his entire family and gotten away with it?
No.
Shut up.
Y/N pushed the thoughts out, a burning sensation of shame overcoming her. This was a man who had already been through the unimaginable, and then had terrible rumours stapled to his name on top of it.
Y/N forced her hand to move, and gently knocked three times.
Knock... Knock... ...Knock The echo of the last knock rung in her ears, she couldn't go back now.
She waited for Henry to come to the door, but nothing happened. The space behind the door remained empty. Maybe he didnt hear her?
Reluctantly, she knocked again.. A little more erratic than the previous, giving two quick raps.
She waited again, the pit in her stomach growing heavier, almost swallowing her whole.
Then - movement.
A faint shuffling from somewhere deep within the house, slowly making its way towards the door.
Step...
Step...
Step...
The familiar silhouette came into view from behind the stained glass, his shape muffled. The details of his face were again difficult to make out as they blurred into each other in accordance with the colourful stained glass.
The man did not open the door, he just stood there. A still and watchful presence, like a ghost.
âH-hello?â Y/n stumbled, the singular word catching in her throat. She hadnât expected a glowing welcome, exactly. But she was taken aback by the lack of interaction.
The blurred figure remained motionless, but she could again feel the burning sensation of his stare. A heavy, unblinking weight.
Y/N pushed on anyway.
âMy name is Y/N, I uh... just moved in across the street. I-â still stumbling, forcing an awkward chuckle attempting to sound friendly, âI brought you cookies... homemade!â
Silence.
âI thought Iâd, you know... be a decent neighbour and introduce myself with style, I guess...â she finished lamely, the end of the sentence trailing off and melting into the thick silence between them.
Seconds ticked in the stillness, air thick with anticipation. Just as Y/N started to wonder if he was ever going to answer at all, a deep voice cut through door.
âYou shouldnât have come here.â
The sudden response caught her off guard, her body tensing up. Her mouth opened on instinct to respond, but was interrupted by a sharp click from the other side of the door as the latch released and the heavy wood swung inward.
There he was.
He was taller up close, more commanding, His presence looming over her, making the house behind him feel even darker. Honey blonde hair sat proudly in place, his soft waves feeling slightly contradictory to his intimidating nature. Round brown glasses rested on the bridge of his nose, drawing attention to his mesmerisingly blue eyes. He wore a beige. buttoned up shirt, tucked crisply into his warm brown trousers, with a matching waistcoat buttoned all the way; pocket watch proudly hanging from his left pocket, and a deep red tie knotted with pride. It was... controlled. Perfect. Surprising for a man who was the local hermit.
Y/N took him in, gaze flickering from his face, to his clothes, and back again to his stone-cold stare. There was something unreadable in his presentation, like he was studying her.
âYou donât have to pretend to be polite.â Henry said, his voice quiet but with an edge of undeniable coldness.
âI-Iâm not pretending to be anythingâ Y/N said in reply, her words tumbling out as she gave a slight defensive shake of her head.
Henryâs posture stiffened, his jaw tightening and a shadow of irritation flashing across his face.
âI donât do visitors.â He said finally.
âYeah, I gathered that fairly quickly...â Y/N blurted before she could catch herself
An instant look of regret flashed across her face.
Henry didnât take that lightly.
The door slammed in her face, the sudden bang making her entire body flinch.
Shit.
âWait!â She frantically knocked on the door, âIâm sorry, I didnât mean to offend you... I-â
She drew in a sharp breath, mustering up the courage to admit the reason why she was really there.
âLook, I know what they all say about youâ she admitted, voice dropping a little, âAnd I still came over...â
For a moment, all she could hear was the dull, frantic thud of her own heartbeat as her words hung in the air. Her stomach jolting with anticipation.
The door creaked open once again, a fraction, just enough for Henryâs face to be visible through the narrow crack.
âWhy?â
A single word, soft, but somehow holding so much power.
Y/N swallowed.
âMaybe I just want you to know Iâm not scared of you.â she said feebly, blinking rapidly as she looked up at him with wide, uncertain eyes.
Something in Henryâs face shifted, the first twinge of emotion Y/N had seen; his stone set features loosened by a fraction of a twitch at the corner of his eye, An emotion slipping through a crack that he hadnt meant to leave open, he probably didn't even realise it was there.
âYou should be.â His voice still soft, but blunt. âThat would be the smart thing to do.â
Y/N tilted her head, âMaybe whatâs smart isnât always whatâs best.â
Henry remained silent, still looking at her through the crack, studying her. Heat crept up Y/Ns neck the longer he burned into her soul, but under the weight of his stare came a sense of... loneliness in his eyes. Instead of just being afraid of him, she found herself feeling... sorry for him.
âI donât think youâre a monster.â Her voice gentle, âThatâs all I wanted to say.â
She looked down at the plate of cookies, suddenly aware of how ridiculous she must look just standing there, she forced herself to look back up at him.
âAt least take these,â an awkward, but thin laugh escaped her. âDonât make me do the walk of shame back to mine...â
Henry stood, considering for a moment. Then, the door widened, the gap opening up just enough for Henry to emerge over the threshold - steps heavy and with caution.
He reached out for the plate, his fingers brushing against Y/Nâs for a brief moment in the exchange as his hands wrapped around the ceramic. It was barely a touch, but sent a jolt through Y/N all the same. A stark reminder that he was real, he was human.
Henry stood back once again, and stepped back into the shadow of the hallway. He gave out a small nod, a small curve forming in the corner of his mouth, before something inside him decided to shut it down, smoothing his face back into the same stone-cold stare.
Then, without another word, the door closed again. The muffled sounds of footsteps moving away from the door as he sunk back into the house.
Y/N was again met with the now too familiar grain of the wooden door. She released a long breath that she didnt realise she had been holding, as a soft ache settled in her stomach. The brief crack in his armour lingered in her mind, a glimmer of humanity breaking through his closely guarded shield. She felt⌠satisfied. Sure, it didnât go nearly as she had expected it to, in fact she had even more questions than before.
What even happened that night? Where did Henry go? How could someone just vanish off the face of the earth for 28 years?
It didnât make sense. Any of it. But still, she broke through, albeit slightly. For a man who supposedly never spoke to anybody, it was a win.
Y/N forced herself to move from the spot she had been frozen to, turning her back on the door and making her way down Creelâs porch steps and back out onto the cobbled street, walking back to her own home. She shoved her hands into the warmth of her jacket pocket, the cold air now prickling at her skin as she forgot how chilled she was, until now. Henry had made her forget about the weather entirely.
By the time she reached the front of her house, her curiosity continued to tug at her. It was small at first, a little twinge in her mind. But it grew larger. Louder. Harder to resist. Until she couldnât anymore.
She shouldn't look back.
She looked.
The house stood solemn. Still. Towering over the tiny street, with its windows seeming to drink every last ounce of light and convert it into endless darkness. The place almost felt... alive. She could almost hear it breathing.
Then, she saw him.
His figure was dark and out of focus, but still undeniably him. Henry. Looming in one of the upstairs windows, staring down at her on the street.
Y/Nâs breath caught in her throat, how long had he been watching?
For a few moments they stared back at each other, like some stupid silent western standoff youâd only see in the movies.
He wasnât going to be the one to break the contact, she could feel it. She had to.
She offered a small nod, a slight dip of her chin. More of an acknowledgement than anything.
Then she forced herself to turn back around and walk the last few steps to her front door, feeling Henryâs burning glance on the back of her neck. Suddenly desperate to get inside - her fingers, trembling and clumsy, fumbled in her pocket for her keys, battling to slot the cold metal into the hole.
The key finally slotted in, releasing the lock with a small click.
She couldn't help herself, she glanced back one last time.
He was gone.
She pushed her door open, and stepped into her house. The familiar scent of soil and leaves mingled with the lingering aroma of the sweet vanilla candle she was burning the night before, it did little to smooth the touch left by Henry. On the kitchen counter, laid a scattering of cookie crumbs she had neglected to clean before leaving the house. Proof she hasnât imagined any of it.
A plate of store-bought cookies dressed up in a white lie wasnât much, but it was something to remind Henry that there was humanity still out there she hoped. An offering for the man everybody has already judged.
Y/N made her way towards the sofa, sinking down into the plush cushions, heartbeat finally beginning to slow, mind starting to clear â but the thought of him came creeping back.
Sheâd seen the monster up close.
But he didnât look like one at all.
***
Behind Closed Doors
TAGS:
Fandom: Stranger Things
Rating: Explicit (eventually)
Relationships: Henry Creel x Female Reader
Additional Tags: Mental Health, Therapy, Paranoia, Therapist x Patient, Explicit Sex (in future chapters), SLOW BURN
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Session Two
The emails had been short and efficient. Y/N mainly felt defeated, irritated by her guard being let down. By wanting to go back.
Thursday at 4pm again. Iâll be there.
That was really all she said to him in the email exchange, nothing in the message really hinting anything more than something small tugging at her to revisit.
Now she found herself in the waiting room again, pulse steady but heightened - like she was getting stage fright. Y/N heard his door click open - not loud, but sharp enough to slice through the quiet that was the awkwardness between patients in the room. That clean metallic snap of a door latch releasing somewhere down the hall was followed by measured footsteps. The steady press of soles against the carpet grew from muffled to clearer as he got closer, his presence only being announced by the halt of rhythm on the floor.
Henry stood in the end of the hallway that lead into the waiting room, scanning the space with that same dull and quiet expression, ready to call her name.
Y/N had looked up and seen him before he saw her. The heat bloomed across her cheeks again, she hated this part. Having attention drawn to her in front of everyone else. Even though she was clearly aware everyone was there for the same purpose, her paranoia ate at her and couldnât help but have her thoughts reeling.
Look at me. I need help. Somethingâs wrong with me. Iâm fragile.
It was a silent announcement that she was a broken person. She imagined everyone lifting their heads when her name was called, imagining their fleeting curiosity made her stomach turn. Just like it did last time.
Before Henry could say a word, Y/N stood up abruptly. The movement startled even her - it was too quick. Too sharp. She may as well have just called her own name out to the room. She crossed the room in small, hurried steps, closing the space between them.
âIâm here.â She spoke in a half whisper, voice tight with shaky breath. Not quite a greeting, keeping her eyes fixed on the floor and their feet facing each other.
Henry paused, his eyebrow twitching to rise a little above the rim of his glasses, looking down at her. He adjusted his expression quickly, softening his face into the same one he wore in their last session - there was no surprise there, just understanding.
âOf course.â He replied in a gentle tone. And just like that, without her name ever echoing in the room, he turned around leaving the waiting room undisturbed - and her dignity still intact, just about.
Making their way down the short hallway, he opened the door for her. No words, his posture relaxed but deliberate, eyes staying on her. She walked past him into the office, aware of the quiet click of the door shutting behind her. Keeping his hands behind his back, Henry kept his gaze on her just over the rim of his glasses subtly watching as he moved over to his usual chair. But he didnât sit immediately, he waited for his patient to find her place first.
âYou look more at ease, this week.â He observed.
âI donât feel it.â Y/N spoke back almost immediately, eyes still focused on the grainy carpet and her feet taking her over to the chair she sat in at their last session.
A faint curve touched the corner of his mouth.
âNo. You feel repressed.â She chose not to respond to him, and let the words linger between them as she took a seat. He wasnât wrong.
He sat slowly, folding one leg over the other - but no notebook yet.
âLast week,â His tone lower than she remembered, like he was treading carefully with her, âwe talked about control. About how you.. shrink yourself. Because you donât want to overwhelm others.â He paused mid sentence, like he was trying to find a word that wasnât too harsh but not too dismissive.
âYes.â Her throat bobbed subtly, an attempt to swallow but her mouth was dry.
âIâd like to try something different today.â
Her fingers dug into her thigh, she could already feel her lungs getting shallow again.
âI can tell youâre anxious again, Y/N. Thereâs no need to be-â
âNo shit.â She hissed back, chest rising and falling, she dropped her gaze back down his shoes again. Her mind pricked at her conscience immediately, before her brain had time to catch up with her mouth. It was like it was a reflex more than an intention. An apology hovered over her tongue, but her pride stitched her lips shut before it could escape.
But, Henry wasnât fazed by it. In fact, itâs like he dismissed it entirely. There was a pause where he blinked a few times, keeping his eyes on her - and then spoke again.
âItâs an exercise in oneâs self of ownership.â He continued smoothly. âI noticed in our last session, you struggled to say certain things out loud. So weâll say them together.â
Y/N exhaled cautiously.
This is cheesy.
âWhat things?â Her head tilted almost in frustration, as she pushed herself to look back up at him - biting the inside of her cheek.
âAffirmations.â His gaze didnât waver.
Great.
âRepeat after me.â He said. He let the silence between them sit for a few seconds, waiting for her to agree.
âAlright..â She shifted in her chair, quietly clearing her throat and letting her arms rest on the cushioned sides.
He leaned forward, untangling his legs and let his hands hold each other with his elbows resting on his knees. And as he began to speak, his eyebrows raised, like he was comforting her.
âI deserve to be seen.â
She hesitated, her throat still stuck dry.
âSay it.â He said with a slightly harsher edge to his voice.
âI deserve to be.. seen.â Y/N was extremely uncomfortable, her stomach felt tight and this was all very useless in her mind.
âAgain. But slower, this time.â Almost a command.
âI.. deserve to be seen.â Her tone was lowered, mumbling and embarrassed.
âGood,â he murmered, âand when you say that, what do you notice?â
Confronted with questions like this, Y/Nâs mind truly goes blank. Is there a right or wrong answer here? Will she look stupid if she just guesses what he wants to hear? Henry could see she wasnât quite sure what to say.
âYour breathing changed, Y/N.â He said quietly but with a hint of pride laced in with his tone - like he was uncovering something heâd been searching for. âYou hold tension when you assert your presence. Listen to what your body is telling you, and close off your mind.â He tapped the side of his temple with one gentle touch of his index finger, leaning forward ever so slightly.
âLetâs do another.. I am allowed to take up attention.â
Her lips parted with hesitation.
âThat feels..â
âUncomfortable?â He supplied the word, finishing her sentence. âIt shouldnât.â He held her gaze deliberately. âSay it.â
Goosebumps started making a trail up her thighs, scratching tight against her tights stretched across her legs.
What was that?
âI am allowed to take up attention.â She forced herself to meet his eyes. The air shifted, but he never broke eye contact. He just leaned back into his chair, expression relaxing, almost seeing a glint of satisfaction.
âAnd how does that feel now?â He asked.
Y/N could feel her heart beat creeping up to play in her ears again.
âIntense.â
âYes.â His voice dropped half a notch. âBut, intensity isnât something to be afraid of. You can embrace it.â
The pause stretched, always waiting to see if she had something to say between his sentences.
âRight,â he left his posture relax a little more, arms going back onto the armrests as his fingers curled over the edges. âLast one.â
âOkay.â She responded blankly, itching to get it over and done with.
He paused, anticipating a reaction out of her from what he was about to say. Henry knew what he was doing.
âI am allowed to enjoy the way someone looks at me.â
Her pulse quickened at the softness in his tone, the way he was unbothered. Heat rising up her neck, and bleeding into her cheeks again.
âI am allowed..-â She started, and then faltered. A humiliated scoff of refusal came from her mouth, a small and subtle head shake as she broke eye contact. âI canât.â
âLook at me.â He almost snapped at her, jaw clenching. âYou can. Say it.â
Her breath caught and her eyes flickered back to it, feeling like she was being disciplined.
âI am allowed to enjoy the way someone looks at me.â She almost rushed to speak.
âAnd how do I look at you, Y/N?â He asked quietly, his voice rough at the edges. His eyes held hers for a second longer than necessary - deliberate and a little dangerous in how attentive they were.
She inhaled through her nose, head pulling to turn away and look somewhere else, but she didnât. What was his motive here?
âLike I.. matter?â She guessed, not sure in herself and not sure what answer he was expecting.
He nodded once, with one blink matched to the rhythm of it. He leant forward to pick his trusty black notebook back up off of the table, pulling the pen out of the spine and taking the lid off - flicking through the pages to find her notes.
âLike youâre hard to ignore.â He mumbled to himself, just a notch under his usual quiet tone, hidden under his breath.
What did he just say?
Her eyebrows furrowed, she heard him mutter something but didnât quite catch it.
âWhat was that?â She asked lightly, as he was jotting something brief down.
Henry paused midway through writing and looked back up at his patient with a blink, the slightest hesitation before he recovered.
âI said.. keep your eyes off the door.â His tone had shifted seamlessly back into its professional register. Measured and neutral, bringing his attention back down to his notepad.
Her gaze instinctively of course, flickered back over to the door. She didnât even look over there.. did she? Well, of course thatâs what he wouldâve said - he knows she has a habit of glancing over to the door occasionally.
Pen balancing between his fingers, Henry took a sharp breath in - chin lifting again.
âTell me what happens when you walk into a room and feel like everyone is watching.â
Y/N hesitated. âI donât think theyâre watching me.â
âBut it feels like they are.â
â..Yes.â
âAnd what does that feel like?â His pen started to fiddle in his fingers, eyes squinting just a little.
She kept her eyes fixed on him, not wanting to feel defeat or shame - but it bled through anyway. âExposed.â She said through gritted teeth.
Henry didnât write anything down, he just let the words settle in the silence. But, the air was thicker than before. Not awkward, just.. charged. She became aware of the way he was looking at her - something small and ever so subtle had changed. It wasnât a clinical stare like their first session, not exactly anyway. He stayed steady and focused on her, as if she were the only thing in the room worth observing.
Y/N adjusted herself in the seat, crossing her legs.
âYou hold eye contact longer than most people.â He muttered quietly, as if he were making a mental note.
âIs that a bad thing?â
âNo.â His mouth twitched faintly again, tugging at the corner for a brief second. âItâs.. disarming.â
Her pulse skipped. She wasnât sure why that word felt like it carried weight. Did he mean she was disarming him? Letting his guard down?
He leaned forward slightly now, his notebook balancing on his thigh, pen in between his fingers in his right hand - while simultaneously folding his hands over his knee that lay on top of his other leg. The distance between them hadnât really changed, but it felt like it had narrowed. She had caught a faint hint of his scent as he moved closer, it was subtle and clean, nothing too strong. Not something she had noticed before.
âYouâre very aware of how you affect people, arenât you?â He continued.
âI try not to be.â
âThat doesnât mean it isnât happening.â
Y/Nâs eye twitched, vision going hazy momentarily. Frustrated? Angry? She wasnât too sure what she felt in that moment. She told herself this was projection, transference. Those words he mentioned in the last session they had together. Thatâs what this was.
They had eventually moved on. She spoke about work. About a dinner she had cancelled because she didnât want to be âlooked atâ and she didnât trust him. She saw something subtle glint in his eyes when she mentioned the date but she dismissed it.
Henry continued to ask measured questions, each one careful and deliberate. The conversation had found its rhythm again - safe territory. Cognitive patterns were brought up. Avoidance. Coping mechanisms.
But something small had shifted in him. He didnât interrupt her as often. When she paused, he let it stretch longer than usual. Waiting for her to continue.
At one point, she had glanced up mid sentence and caught him watching her. Watching her lips move. Was that a normal thing therapists did? His pen rested idle against his thumb. But he looked away that first time, clearing his throat softly before asking another question that almost felt rehearsed.
Y/N found herself relaxing in her speech, not being so careful as to what words to use - slowly but surely getting more comfortable. She was still very aware of her posture, her hand placement, her voice - but she felt okay.
He mirrored her movements without seeming to realise it, leaning back when she did and tilting his head when she tilted hers.
The clock ticked on. And eventually, he glanced over to it. Just a flicker of his eyes, then back to hers. That chime again, just on time. The professional mask slid back into place with practiced ease.
âWeâll stop there for today.â She gave a disappointed nod, lips pursing as she chewed the inside of her cheek - shutting up.
She stood, and felt the same hint of embarrassment she did last time when the session ended. Like all she did was yap for an hour.
Thatâs the whole point of being here, you idiot. She tried to reassure herself.
Henry stood as well, and they both made the few steps together that took them to the pine door. For a second as they stood together, about to watch Y/N leave, they were closer than theyâd ever been. No table between them, no chairs. Just shared air.
They both reached for the door handle at the same time. Their fingers didnât touch, but it was close enough to feel the heat of him brush over her hand.
She pulled back her hand first.
He grabbed the handle and twisted it, patiently opening it for her and taking a small step back to make way. âSame time next week.â It wasnât a question, and he didnât bait her to bring it up like he did last time. He wanted her to come back.
Her fingers curled over her sleeves tightly in awkwardness as she could hear the receptionist at the other end of the hall, not wanting to be perceived. She gave her therapist a simple nod and a short hum of approval. And then-
His hand found the small of her back. Light. Just enough to guide. It was professional, but his palm lingered for a beat longer than it should have. Not long enough to be obvious. But enough to be undeniable.
Her breath faltered. A barely-there hitch she hoped he didnât hear, or feel in her back. And for a fraction of a second, his thumb shifted - almost imperceptibly - like he was grounding her.
Then his hand withdrew.
âTake care.â He said, his voice steady.
She nodded once more with a brief and quick swallow, not looking back and treading back down the hallway. Painfully aware of the placement of where his hand had been.
The door clicked shut behind her once more.
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Thank you for reading!! Hope you like chapter two! Chapter three is where it gets interesting đŤŚđź Let me know if thereâs any specific things youâd like to see from Dr Creel! <3
The Monster Left BehindÂ
CHAPTER ONE - The Man In The Window
part two
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SYNOPSIS: Free from the Mind-Flayer's control, Henry Creel is left a hollow, helpless shell of a man, resigning himself to a lifetime of self-abandonment and grief over a life so cruelly denied from him - until a new arrival into Hawkins takes a chance on him, the man everyone else has already given up on.Â
(alternative universe following on from st5 where henry survives the death of the mindflayer)Â
FANDOM: Stranger Things
CONTAINS: henry creel x f!reader, use of Y/N, slow burn, eventual romance, age gap (45 + 25), mental health/illness/dark themes, murder, lowkey making this up as i go along so ill add as i continue LOLÂ
WC: 2.3kÂ
NOTES: this is my first time properly writing and posting a fic so pls bare with me if thereâs any errors! im lowkey working this out as i go along hahaha so constructive feedback is very welcome <3Â
SONG:Â Freak â Seb LoweÂ
âHeâs a freak, his hairâs a mess and he only wears a nightdress, and heâll sharpen his teeth. Run around on Halloween, strangest lad youâve ever seen.âÂ
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Chapter One â The Man in the WindowÂ
Hawkins in the fall was picture-perfect, a scene of rich, fallen leaves, crunching underfoot while the slightly cold, pine scented air filled your soul. A perfect scene, almost too predictable, too suspicious. The kind of beauty that almost felt rehearsed. It was a perfect juxtaposition to Hawkinâs deeply rooted mystery, a small town previously plagued by torment and grief. Â
On Morehead Street, the air laid heavy and unmoving, as if the town itself was holding its breath. The calm was abruptly torn apart by the sudden, growing hum of a small but packed moving van, followed closely by a beaten-up Volkswagen spluttering out a concerning amount of fumes; engine struggling as it crawled down the cobbled road. A car that was well loved, made obvious by the peppering of scratches and bumps collected throughout the years, but realistically shouldâve been sent to the scrap yard at least 5 years ago.Â
Y/N scanned the street as she gently pressed the brake, letting the car come to an excruciatingly slow stop as she pulled up towards what was supposed to be the beginning of her new life. The rusted streetlights illuminated in the thinning daylight, the old houses stood proudly alongside the amber-touched trees whilst the cold, crisp autumn air caressed the leaves, coaxing a few of them free as they fluttered down to the ground to rest, resigned to wither away.Â
A quarter-life crisis - she had told herself - lead her to uproot her entire life and start over; but realistically this wasnt a brave, new reinvention. She needed to escape, from the pressure and expectations that came with the big-city living of her previous life in Chicago - where her every move felt like a performance to conform with the idea of âsuccessâ. She needed a fresh slate to find herself again, and there was no place more perfect for that than a small town like Hawkins, where the air felt softer. Safer. Whilst also shrouded in mystery. Comfortability, but also something to sink her teeth into.Â
The car came to a halt, behind the van that held all of her belongings, her memories. Little fragments of a life she was trying to reassemble. She paused for a moment, her anxious, shaking breath suspended in the cold air of the car. This was it. She forced herself to release her hands from the steering wheel, her white knuckles regaining their colour back to a soft pink as they recovered from her previously tight grip. She pulled the handbrake up, its old mechanisms groaning until it gave a sharp click, she nudged the gear stick into neutral, and released her seatbelt with a thud. Drawing in one more unsteady breath, she reached for the doorhandle. Her hand shaking slightly with nerves, but also excitement for her new beginning, she came into contact with the cold metal and pushed the door open, taking a confident stride out onto the street that would be her new home.Â
âY/N?âÂ
Her ears pricked at the sudden voice, turning around to seek it out.Â
â1847 Morehead Street? This the right place?â The deep voice called again. Before her was a tall, stocky, bearded man in a tight-fitting khaki polo and black chinos, branded with the moving companyâs logo. Clutching a clipboard with a slightly crumpled piece of paper hastily clipped onto it, and one hand gesturing towards the porch in front of them.Â
âYeah, this is it.â She replied, lifting her gaze to take in what would be her new home.Â
There stood a small, but cozy bungalow. Its faded yellow panelling framed by a chipped white trim, paint worn off by the slow passage of time. The front steps sagged slightly under the weight of the ghosts of its past inhabitants, clinging onto the memory of all the feet that had crossed them. It looked straight out of the 1800s, stubborn and out of place. Standing its ground as if the world around it moved and changed whilst leaving it behind. The house sat on the end of a small cul-de-sac with no more than 4 other houses on the street, it was the kind of neighbourhood where everybody knew each other. Typical sickly-sweet suburbia. Perfect for that quiet life she wanted.Â
The man accepted her confirmation with a small, slightly uninterested nod. She was sure this was probably his fifth job of the day and was eager to get it all over with. He got to work without requiring much direction, hauling boxes off the van and up the front porch steps. Y/N followed behind him with a smaller box hugged to her chest. She fumbled with the metal front door key, missing the hole a few times as she battled to see over the box she was holding. The key finally slipped in, and with a twist the door swung open with a creek. The first whiff of the air smelt like old wood and dust, a scent she thought typical for such an old house. Â
The pair worked together to unload the boxes into the house, when they finally finished she waved the man off at the door, watching as he climbed into the now empty van and sped off into the wash of the late afternoon light. She let out a long tired sigh, preparing to start the gruelling job of unpacking her belongings. Her hand met the cold metal of the doorknob and she begun to swing the wooden door closed, then a flicker of movement caught her eye â a woman making her way towards the house.Â
âYoo-hoo!â She called, her sweet voice floating across the cul-de-sac, catching Y/N by surprise. She blinked and stepped towards the doorway again, opening the door fully to see where the voice had come from.Â
A short, frail woman, with brunette hair that was visibly greying, scraped back into a sensible low bun made her way carefully up the porch stairs. She wore a floral blouse neatly tucked into a black pencil skirt that stopped just below her knees. She looked like sheâd stepped straight out of an old family photograph, a sweet, almost grandmotherly figure.Â
âYou must be the new neighbour!â she chimed, her voice bright whilst the corners of her mouth widened with a gummy smile.Â
âOh- Hi! Yeah, Iâm Y/N.â Y/N replied, stumbling over her words as her tone betrayed to cover her surprise. âSorry! I just, uh... wasn't expecting a welcome committeeâ she continued, rubbing her neck and giving a small nervous chuckle, leaning her hip against the wooden door frame.Â
âItâs good to meet you, Y/Nâ The woman said warmly. âIâm Helena, but you can call me Helenâ she ended with a playful wink.Â
âItâs great to meet you, Helenâ Y/N smiled, now warming up to her new acquaintance.Â
âWe live just across the wayâ Helen gestured behind her to the house directly opposite, a similarly timeworn house just slightly bigger than Y/Nâs, front garden proudly covered with bright flowers and a large, slightly overgrown rosebush. Â
âIâm sorry for the sudden visitâ her voice dipped into a softer, slightly more serious register. âItâs just... we donât often get neighbours. Hawkins can be...â her voice lingered on the last word, dragging the syllables like she was trying to figure out what to say next.Â
 âWell, not a lot of people choose to live here if they can help it, itâs always nice to see new faces around here.â Her smile brightened again, but the earlier uncertainty hung in the air as she was holding something back.Â
âWell, thatâs reassuringâ Y/N said with a soft, nervous chuckle. âYou make it sound like thereâs something I should know.âÂ
Helenâs seriousness returned, her smile shrinking, dimming like a fading lightbulb.Â
âItâs nothing really, there's just people- well...â She stuttered, fumbling over her words. âSomeone... you should probably be wary of.âÂ
Y/N furrowed her brows, giving out an inquisitive âHm?â as Helen diverted Y/Ns attention to the house in the middle of the street.Â
âHenry Creel.âÂ
The teal, almost mansion-like house towered over the quiet of the street, an interruption in the quiet rhythm of Morehead Streetâs suburban nature. Almost like a warning. It was by far the largest house on the street, practically dripping in grandiosity. Compared to the rest of the old, worn houses on the street â Creel's house looked too perfect, like it was frozen in a moment of perfection, and it refused to let time tarnish it. The pristine white trim proudly framed the large, spotless windows, where underneath every blind was drawn. Out on the porch laid a perfectly green lawn and well-manicured bushes enveloping the bottom of the house, a strange sight for the time of year where most greenery was scarce, touched by the orange glow of Hawkins autumn. Â
âHenry Creel?â Y/N repeated, probing for more information. âWhatâs up with him?âÂ
âHeâs... strange...â Helen replied, the words leaving her mouth with caution, still with a slight hesitation.Â
âStrange...how?âÂ
Helenâs gaze remained fixed on Creelâs house. âHe just... doesnât interact much. With anybody. At all.âÂ
âHow come?âÂ
Helen drew in a slow, deep breath, before releasing it through a defeated sigh as if she were bracing herself. She tore her eyes away from the house and back at Y/N with a tight, pained expression.Â
âIn â59,â she began quietly, âhis mother and little sister were found murdered in that very house, killed by his own father. Victor Creel.â Helen muttered, swallowing hard.Â
âHenry was nowhere to be found, and was presumed dead too.â she continued, voice dropping lower. Â
âThey searched for days. Weeks. Everyone thought he was dead too, body discarded somewhere nobody could ever find. Then five years ago... he just. Turned up again. Walked into that house like heâd never left, like he hadn't been presumed dead for 28 damn years.â Helen scoffed slightly in disbelief at what she was saying.Â
âHe refuses to speak to anybody, he hasn't really left that house since. I donât blame him, really. Poor soulâs probably traumatised. But...â her head turned back towards the house. âThereâs a certain air about him, something that just doesn'tseem right. You know what itâs like in a small town, people talk.âÂ
Her gaze turned once again back to Y/N with a guilty expression, mouth twisting slightly as if she didn't quite approve of what she was about to say.Â
âThey say... it wasnât Victor who did it. They say it was Henry, but of course thatâs just stupid small-town gossipâ she added quickly. âBut still, if I were you... Iâd steer clear. Just in case.âÂ
Y/N turned her attention back to Henryâs house, Helenâs words lingering in the air.Â
As her eyes met the upper windows, she saw movement. Only slight, but there was something there. Someone in the window. There stood a tall, dark silhouette standing behind the glass. The figure stood perfectly still, watching. She was too far away to make out the manâs features, the light within the house was dim and swallowed any detail she was so desperately seeking â but Y/N still felt the weight of his stare. Strong. Sharp. Measured. Burning into her like a laser.Â
âIs he looking at us?â Y/Nâs voice came out thinner than she intended, the words catching in her throat.Â
âYeah... he does thatâ, Helen said calmly, also looking over at the man in the window. âHeâs harmless, really. But he watches.âÂ
They stood there for what felt like an eternity, then, just as quickly as he appeared â he withdrew back into the shadows. Â
âBut donât let him put you offâ, Helen chimed, clearing her throat and attempting to lighten the conversation again. Y/N snapped her gaze from the window back to Helen, seeing the return of her smile, warm and welcoming. âI promise weâre a lovely bunch around here. Youâll love it, Iâm sure.â Â
Y/N gave a small nod, still slightly shaken from what had just happened but attempting to allow Helenâs enthusiastic tone smooth the edge off her nerves. âYeah, Iâm sure I willâ, Y/N mustered, fingers tightening around the doorframe. âThanks for stopping by Helen. Really.âÂ
âItâs no problem at all, I best get back before Bill sends out a search party for me!â She chuckled, âYou know where I am if you need anything, dear.â Â
Helen reached for Y/Nâs shoulder, giving it a gentle reassuring squeeze before making her way down the porch, across the street and back toward her too-bright garden. Y/N watched her go for a moment, then eased the door shut. She spun around and leaned her back into the wood, as the weight of everything she had just been told washed over her, and the memory of Henry in the window lingering in her mind.Â
She felt her mind exploding, what really happened to Henry? To his family? Were the small-town rumours true, or was everyone circling a poor, traumatised man because it fit their own gossip-fuelled narrative? She held onto those thoughts for a while, a battle within her mind as she picked apart her own half-baked theories â until reality snapped back into focus and her gaze caught the mountains of boxes cluttering her new home. She didnt have time to ponder about something that, quite frankly, was none of her business. With a long, drawn out sigh, she pushed her now aching body off the door and took a step further into the house, ready to make a start on unpacking her belongings. Still, Henry Creel burned in her mind, stubbornly pricking away at the corners of her brain, still feeling the lingering burn of his stare. But for now, she told herself, she had shit to do.Â
Maybe tomorrow sheâll try to solve the mystery of the elusive Henry Creel.Â
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thank you for reading! again im open to constructive feedback! <3 (sorry if the formatting is weird i copy and pasted from word and it messed up lol)
Behind Closed Doors
TAGS:
Fandom: Stranger Things
Rating: Explicit (eventually)
Relationships: Henry Creel x Female Reader
Additional Tags: Mental Health, Therapy, Paranoia, Therapist x Patient, Explicit Sex (in future chapters), SLOW BURN
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Session One
The waiting room was too quiet. So profoundly quiet that the faint thumping of Y/Nâs own blood became audible in her ears.
Her pen hovered over the question for too long.
Do you experience intrusive thoughts?
âYes..â She quietly hissed to herself under her breath, almost embarrassed to tick the box as she brought pen to paper.
âMs Y/N?â The voice wasnât warm, but it wasnât cold either. It was.. measured. Y/N looked up. He looked younger than she expected he would. Her first mistake, she thought to herself.
She gave a cold smile regardless, a slow blink and stood, too awkward to even utter a simple âHelloâ or âYesâ for now. Hopefully that would fade away soon, although she had a small feeling it wouldnât. A faint pinkness crept up her neck, staining her cheeks. Her stomach tightened a little and the room suddenly felt too open.
Standing slowly, she smoothed her skirt even though she didnât need to. She was aware of everything. The ticking clock, the faint hum of the air conditioning, the other patients glancing over to watch her walk out and lay her raw feelings out on the table for the next hour. Were they watching her? Expecting something from her?
Y/N approached the man, not taking much notice of him as her paranoia swallowed her, she tended not to make eye contact when she was nervous. As he turned on his heels, she followed close behind back down the hall he came from, each step making her stomach drop a little more. The carpet swallowed the noise of their strides, but she still felt exposed as if she had eyes on her back.
The man opened the door to his office.
It was ordinary. A soft lamp light. An intriguing bookcase filling the whole of the back wall. Two cushioned sofa chairs angled towards each other, and a low, small table between them. It had box of tissues placed too deliberately in the middle, with a small black book perched on the edge. A large window at the back too that was half protected by blinds that let in a thin strip of light.
It was all too ordinary. Like he was trying too hard to be a typical therapist, which somehow made her feel worse.
She stepped inside with hesitation, head ducked a little like she was entering a trap. Y/N didnât sit right away. Her eyes scanned the room, corners first, then bookcase, and the smoke detector. Was there a camera? A recorder? Her gaze flicked briefly to his desk.
Stop being so dramatic. This is exactly what youâre here for. She scolded herself, trying to let the paranoia wash over her.
The man, who she didnât even dare to point her gaze toward yet, shut the door with a soft controlled click, taking slow and paced steps over to his desk. He crossed his arms over his chest and leant against the front of his desk on the back of his thighs, then resting one ankle over the other - watching her.
âPlease, sit wherever youâre comfortable.â He said with a gentle tone. Living in the chaos that is London, she heard the British tone every day; yet his was.. more polished, it had a comfort about it, a grainy texture to it.
Comfortability was closest to the door, in Y/Nâs mind. When she finally allowed herself to sit, she stayed perched on the edge, back painfully straight and her hands knotted tightly in her lap. She could already feel that heat spreading across her chest again, cheeks burning. It was obvious she didnât want to be there. Instinctively, her knee began to bounce.
âI donât want to be here-â She blurted out, a complete burst of built up anxiety that made her eyes squeeze shut out of embarrassed for a split second. Biting her lip hard, staring at the floor, she tried again.
âIâm not.. crazy.â She spoke too quickly. Heart thumping. âIâve just been.. noticing things recently.â Her breathing was shaky, but not emotional. Her eyes glanced over to the window, no one could possibly be out there. They were four floors up and itâs not like there was even a balcony. Eyes flickered back to the door opposite the window now, just for a fleeting moment. It was still shut, but not soundproof.
He said nothing. He just watched intently, trying to read her, head tilting just a little and eyebrows furrowing a bit with slightly squinted eyes behind those glasses. The man noticed the way her eyes would erratically scan the place, she probably thought she was being discreet about it.
The therapist didnât answer immediately. In fact, he let her words hang in the warm lamplight - she wasnât as closed off as she came off to be, but then again maybe he could see that because that was his job. He could see her shame and defensiveness, her fears of being perceived.
His silence scared her. Y/N pushed herself to look at the man, lifting her head. She couldnât bear to keep sitting in a painful silence. She confirmed from earlier that he was younger than she expected, his hair a blend of ashy and golden brown colour, side parted with a soft wave. Classic, round glasses sit on his nose and a rusty brown waistcoat fitted neatly over a shirt with matching trousers - and a red tie. There was no softness there, no room for error. This was a man who did his job properly.
He gave himself momentum and pushed himself off the desk, untangling his legs and arms, taking a sharp breath in through his teeth. He moved past her without hesitation and took the seat opposite, allowing himself to lean back in the chair, arms on armrests keeping eye contact with his patient. Only then did he speak.
âDo you believe Iâm recording you?â He said evenly and calm, no reassurance layered into it. Just what he saw.
The words struck her in the chest, she felt waves of anxiety pulse through her body. Biting the inside of her cheek, her lips pursed a little. That voice again, it scraped slightly at the edges like it was dry but controlled. Just as Y/N went to speak, lips parting - he interrupted her thought, a small but rushed breath in to speak could be heard.
âIf I wereâ he continued, voice still carefully measured, âyou would have been informed.â
Her lips closed shut again, not really sure of what to say. Not really sure whether to trust him.
He reached for the small black notebook that was sat on the edge of the table between them. He didnât rush to grab it, leaning back into the chair and lifted it beside his head.
âI do take notes. Brief ones.â Setting it back down onto his lap, he gently rested one leg over the other, taking the pen out of the spine of the notebook. His eyes flickered back up to meet her gaze. There was something analytical and detached about the way he looked at her, as if he were observing specimen and not a human, as if he wanted to categorise her.
âYou said youâve been noticing things.â He took the cap off his pen and clicked it back onto the top of it, hovering above the paper, waiting.
Her breath was taken from her lungs, eyes that couldnât leave his and an empty head. Y/N really had no plan of what to say, teeth clenching and her knuckles getting whiter while her fingers entangled tighter in her lap. Her hesitance was observed, and the man realised he may have been too quick to jump into it. He broke eye contact, and rested his pen to lay on the book in front of him.
âWhat about we start with introductions before we get into it, hm? My name is Henry.â He finished his sentence with just a blank stare back, waiting for an answer.
Y/N wasnât quite sure what he was waiting for and didnât see a point to introductions. They had maybe had three or four emails exchanged over the last week before she pushed herself to come here. She was sure he knew all he needed to as far as introductions went.
âYou already know my name.â Y/N pushed back, getting impatient already. He didnât answer immediately. In fact, he picked his pen back up with slightly pursed lips and wrote a quick note.
What did he write?
âYes.â Nothing in his tone suggested amusement, irritation, or an apology. Just agreement. The silence from Y/N wasnât empty, it was pressed. She shifted uncomfortably - barely.
âBut Iâd still like to hear you say it.â He added. Not quite a question, his hands linked and folded over his book. âBecause thereâs a difference between information and consent.â
That was new. She wasnât all too familiar with that word, she didnât hear it often. His expression remained calm, not giving anything away, but she still felt she was being analysed.
âYouâve read the file. Youâve seen our emails.â She spoke hesitantly but with force, not enjoying the feeling of this power dynamic she may have imagined in her head. âYou know why Iâm here.â
Another pause.
âI know what was written.â Henry gently corrected her. His tone set the atmosphere of patience, not dominance. The kind that felt like he could see right through her - and she didnât like that.
âAnd what are you suggesting wasnât written?â She challenged.
There it was. An invitation. She was opening up for discussion, in his eyes anyway. He didnât smile, but something in his posture eased, as if his patient had shifted into alignment with him.
âThat,â Henry paused, just so subtly lifting an eyebrow, âis entirely up to you.â Henry let his words settle in the air, no follow up question. No prompt. He purposely wasnât filling the silence.. he was giving it to her. Which somehow made this feel worse.
Y/N hated that he said it like that.
Entirely up to you.
As if the choice to answer that was so clean and simple. As if she hadnât spent the last ten minutes hoping the clock on the wall would malfunction. Each movement of that second hand landed like a quiet accusation. She shifted in her chair again, breaking eye contact and clearing her throat a little, but nothing followed. Under pressure.
Her fingers dug ever so slightly into the armrests, as his presence just.. stayed there. Henry wasnât staring her down, he was waiting without demanding. Her gaze flickered back to him once, then twice in uncertainty - not sure what to say.
He wasnât writing anything. Was that for better or for worse? It irritated her.
âI donât really know what youâre expecting me to say.â Y/N muttered finally, eyes fixed somewhere past his shoulder and on the window behind him, focussing on the door in her peripheral vision.
âI donât expect anything from you.â
Of course he didnât. That was the whole point. Her jaw tightened. She had walked in the building today a nervous wreck, but determined to push through it. Tick the box, tell whoever insisted she go that sheâd tried. She would not âunpackâ anything, and she absolutely would not come back.
âYou keep looking at the door.â He says softly.
Her head snapped back up. âNo, I donât.â
A small lift of that same eyebrow. Not challenging, just observing. She bit her lip just a little in frustration, her own eyebrows edging closer in a frown of annoyance. Henryâs eyes flicked down to her mouth for a fraction of a second and back up to meet her eyes. What was that? But she dismissed it - she was only thinking if he could read her thoughts, he would know the real reason she kept glancing at the door is because she was measuring the distance. Calculating how ridiculous she would look if she had just stood up and left.
âLook, I just donât want to waste your time.â She said.
âYouâre not.â He was trying to be gentle with his words, but she knew that was unnatural for him. Y/N chose Henry Creel for this session because if she was going to do therapy, it would be with someone who was emotionally detached. That was what he was known for, online anyway. She did her research before emailing him. Henry Creel was a highly respected therapist known for his work, his âwaysâ.. of getting through to patients that other therapists couldnât. Sheâd read somewhere that he was best known for his structured and straightforward dynamic.
Y/N paused before speaking up again. A sharp and brittle laugh pushed past her lips.
âYou donât even know what Iâm truly here for, according to you.â
âThatâs what Iâm waiting for you to tell me.â There it was again, an invitation just waiting for her. He was giving her so many opportunities to speak up, yet she was too afraid. She held herself back, she didnât want to come back again.
âI just-â Her breath hitched a little, looking down at her hands - bringing them from the armrests and clasping them together. âI really donât see the point in talking about things that have already happened.â
âBut, they happened to you.â The words landed quietly on her chest. No drama, but there was a weight added to them. Settling there.
âIâm fine.â She insisted, blinking hard.
He didnât contradict her, but he didnât agree either. The silence had now felt different. It wasnât suffocating anymore, it was just present. The clock ticked on, and her breathing evened out as time moved by. The tension in her shoulders loosened, and words began forming, not extremely coherent - but just pieces, fragments that she remembered but didnât want to.
She told herself she wouldnât say anything, but she heard herself speaking anyway. Just little pieces, the safe edge of a story, surface level. Y/Nâs voice stayed detached as she spoke, as if she spoke about it like a bystander rather than the person who experienced it, she couldnât feel it. And it couldnât hurt her.
Henry never interrupted, he just listened, picking his pen back up again. Jotting small notes every few minutes. Time stopped behaving properly after that. Her sentences came in uneven bursts, some halting and some rushed. She kept waiting for him to push back or ask the wrong question, give her an excuse to get up and leave. He didnât.
He only asked little things in between her breaths.
How old were you? How did that make you feel? Are you still close to that person?
Somewhere between her sentences, the ticking clock faded into the background. The space between them didnât feel like a battleground anymore and more like the slow construction of a bridge, a trust being built. She never got emotional, but her voice lost its edge. Her body naturally shifted forward without her noticing, leaning in a little with her arms folded over her crossed legs.
She forgot to check the time, but then a soft chime brought her back to surface. A gentle sound designed not to startle.
Henry glanced at the clock. âThatâs our hour.â
An hour. Y/N suddenly felt a little embarrassed. She usually doesnât open up so fast like that, she suddenly wished she never even said anything. She also became aware of how her hands were so relaxed in her lap, and how comfortable she made herself to be in the seat.
âThat went quickly.â She spoke without thinking first.
âIt often does.â A flicker of something in his eyes, maybe not smugness or triumph - but quiet acknowledgement.
She stood, irritated a little by the fact that her legs felt steadier from how they did when she had walked in. Henry didnât mention booking another session or dates next to visit. It almost felt like he was baiting her to say something first. He stood too, settling his notebook back down onto the table, steady steps taking him over to his desk.
Y/N walked back over to the door that she had been thinking about so much for the first twenty minutes of their session, fingers hovering over the handle. She had spent the beginning of this conversation itching to walk back out, but now she felt something extremely inconvenient. Not relief, or a resolution. More like an unsettling awareness that there was more to say than she thought. At that maybe - she wasnât done saying what she needed to.
âIâll email you about our next session.â Her eyes stayed fixed on the door handle as she turned it, swinging it open in defeat - a hint of irritation.
Henryâs back straightened stood by his desk, hands holding eachother politely behind his back as he watched her start to leave.
âYou donât have to decide now,â He said gently, a hint of warmth threading through, âBut I think we both know youâll be thinking about this room long before our next hour begins.â
She paused in her stride, one foot out the door. Y/N didnât look up to him, just stared at the floor with furrowed brows, questioning what that meant. She gave a simple nod with no eye contact, and shut the door behind her.
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Thanks for reading! This is my first time writing and posting a fic!! I know itâs a slow burn but trust itâs gonna get better soon đź Stick around for Therapist Creel Session Two đ¤