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female | 5'5 | 23 | sw: 214lbs cw: 163lbs | next gw1🔒: 150lbs gw2🔒: 140lbs gw3🔒: 135lbs

[babyth1n]

Back on my bullshit. Aiming for becoming normal and recovering but i need to lose at least 25 pounds first

[babyth1n]

haha just kidding, i lost some on the scale this morning, idk what was going on with me yesterday just a bad day i guess. today i ate some ice cream though so i could only eat half a sandwich and then i guess that's it for the day since i cant fucking count calories in this goddamn place. calorie counting was the only thing keeping me together for the last year and its all fallen apart (mostly by my own doing but like, facilitated or at the very least enabled by the fucking cafeteria food and i cant even justify buying my own food to count because i could just get it for free - is that financial trauma?)

[babyth1n]

what the fuck is wrong with me i feel so fat how could i possibly be gaining weight when im not eating much

[sedonaissick]

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[babyth1n]

i gotta lock tf in...

[babyth1n]

back to 160 because i binged for 3 days this weekend

[babyth1n]

how did i lose 3 pounds in one day... 154 now

[babyth1n]

ok 157 today

[babyth1n]

i miss being skinny so much oh my god... my pants being too tight is actually making my skin crawl i cant believe i let myself go after hitting 136... im so ashamed

[babyth1n]

OK BACK TO 160

[babyth1n]

ok back to 147 after eating and drinking today

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[babyth1n]

also apparently everyone was telling my mom how beautiful and pretty i am and how proud she should be of me... lowkey crazy

[babyth1n]

at my aunt's birthday party last weekend, one of my distant relatives (who hasn't seen me in a long time, so i don't think she knew i used to be obese) told me when we were in line for food that i am too skinny and need to put some meat on my bones HEHEHE absolutely untrue because im still big and gross BUT i cant believe someone said that about me

[babyth1n]

food diary - oct 1 2024

breakfast: coffee with cashew milk and a banana

lunch: 2 hard boiled eggs, plain chicken breast, seasoned pork, white rice, steamed veggies

dinner: steamed veggies, plain burger patty, 2 grilled chicken legs, roasted brussel sprouts

snack: can of sweet peas

just ate small portions of everything

[babyth1n]

okay so for october i have decided to stop counting cals and just eat like a normal person (or try to) by using the cafeteria at my work... so i dont gorge myself in front of others and then whatever i take home i eat and have no more left after im done