The piratess scowled at his words about her papa. “Yer wrong, my pa is the pirate name. When they hear pirates, they think Hook.” She swallowed, she would always defend her pa, even though she hadn’t seen him since before CJ died, considering in twenty-eight years and a couple of months, she’d spoken to her pa once.
No one knew about the Lost Boys - not really. Everyone here believed that the Lost Boys were a bunch of tiny children who defeated the big bad pirates - Captain Hook. The look in his eyes told Harriet he’d seen the very nature of many of her nightmares. Neverland was not the pretty place this land without magic seemed to think. His mom. Of course. She knew exactly who his mother was. Her entire existence had been focused around her father’s need for revenge against his father. She’d spent the entire of her existence chasing crocodiles. Except, for a brief period, where a tall lanky boy was on the ship, and he wanted to play with her. He wanted her to be a kid.
“Ye cannae say that. It’s easy to say that crap in hindsight. I couldnae prove it to be true one way or another Bae. I woke up and ye were gone. No explanation. Ye were just gone. And pa was in a foul mood.” And why would he take her? No even her pa really wanted her. No even Harry. Ant would tire or her, CJ would grow up and leave her.
By all accounts she hadn’t seen Baelfire in over forty years if you took her age when he left and the curse into consideration. She put the coin back in the wallet, and handed it back over, complete with all the money inside. Harriet might be a villainous pirate Captain, but as the saying went, there was honour among thieves. She still remembered sitting in Bael’s lap after she had gained the scar on her forearm, the lecture the teenager boy was giving her, because he had been so happy to find a family, just for a snot-nosed little brat to go and scare him like that. “I missed ye too Baelfire.”
“I… I’ve been alone too. My little sister CJ - Calista Jane, she’s fifteen; she was born a year or so after ye left - she got hurt, and she died. Harry too, and Anthony - my… boyfriend. They all died. I went to the underworlds too find them. But I was alone for weeks - I couldn’t find pa. Or he didn’t want to find me, ye know?”
“Not in this realm,” Neal corrected, almost gleefully. “They think Jack Sparrow, Captain Pugwash. Maybe even Blackbeard.” There was an almost unholy sense of delight in saying the last one. Neal remembered quite clearly some of the awful things spoken about the rival pirate. “Captain Hook’s a joke. The kids of this realm aren’t scared of him; they mock him.” Okay, so it wasn’t accurate in any sense, but perhaps the Peter Pan story in this realm at least had something worthwhile about it.
“I know.” The despair in his tone had to tell anyone listening how upset he was by the fact he couldn’t prove that he hadn’t wanted to leave her, but he hadn’t; his nightmares for months were of Harriet and little baby Harry being caught by the Shadow, being caught in a wreck, being unsafe all because he’d left. Once he’d been with Pan for a while, however, he had new nightmares; ones where the pirate’s children were stuck with Pan too. That, it turned out, probably would have been worse. “I can’t prove it to you, Ettie, but I mean it. I’ve only ever been so sorry once in my life.” And that? That was when he let Emma take the fall for his crimes, like August had asked him to.
He took the wallet back gratefully, pleased to have his little treasures back in his possession, but now that he knew who had taken his wallet, it wasn’t quite so important. Because one of the memories of his treasures, Ettie, had come back to him and that meant the world. She’d been like the little sister he’d always wanted, and he could feel the instincts screaming at him again already. But she wasn’t five and he wasn’t a teenager - somehow the age gap seemed to have increased, and he felt awkward.
The news that she’d been alone - that he had another little sister, and CJ was officially his little sister simply by her relation to Harriet - struck him to the core and before he knew what he was doing, he’d wrapped both his arms around the young woman to pull her into a hug. “I get that you don’t wanna hear it, but your pa is shit,” Neal muttered, holding her tightly against him. “I’m sorry, Ettie. You’re not alone now.”