Afraid? No, I am terrified.
But fear or courage or reason cannot change the charge I've been given.
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This TavQOTD asked about what makes the OC freeze in fear.
Ila is deadly afraid of fire.
Every flame larger than a candle can quickly turn into a major problem for her.
Sunlight still scares her sometimes, too. She tends to forget that it won't harm her anymore.
Both of these fears stem from her background as a vampire in the VtM system. Vampires are scared of fire by default there. Sunlight would be even worse, but she had at least some time to get used to that again.
She's mostly fine with sunlight. It's just that on bad days, she forgets that it's safe for her now.
She manages to hide each of those pretty well.
It's straining though.
"A body out of balance," he murmured, stepping closer. "Overwhelmed. Untethered. Pain can focus it. Restrain it. Shape it."
Halsin breathed out slowly, tension finally bleeding out of his shoulders.
"Thank you," he whispered.
Abdirak pressed a kiss to the side of his head—barely there, but soft enough to make Halsin's chest tighten.
"You’re welcome, Halsin."
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I contributed VP to part 14 of Enjoying Nature's Gifts: The Great Janu-beary Collaboration.
Read the full 14th part by @melhyan here.
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Abdirak on this VP blog?!
(Find my other VP with him on @baelthi-in-the-dark)
Yes. Feels weird, but "I live for pain and its intricacies, you see."
This was my main contribution to the Janu-beary project.
I did one for the part with Haarlep, too, because it had no assigned artist and I love Haarlep and @tavyliasin, who wrote that part.
Fun fact! The rope on the first photo- I did not edit that in there. It's the actual Rope item from the game and it took me way longer than I want to even think about to put it there like this.
I'm happy I did so, though~
Thanks again to the mod team, @bg3collabs, all the other collaborators, and @tavyliasin for this project!
Dead man?
You haven't been paying attention, have you?
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He's been haunting me for days..
It feels strange to put this here on the VP blog.
When I started sharing VP, everything was bright and lighthearted, Hazel, my starry eyed nature girl, sunshine and love~
I wanted to keep it that way here.
That's why I even have another VP blog. It was meant for things like this. But as y'all might know- that one got taken over by Abdirak and He Who Was, and (at the moment at least) it would feel even weirder to put this there, than here.
So here we are~
I know we hate him. But consider leaving some love for the photo and/or me, yes? ✩°｡⋆
"Oh, I like you~" Haarlep purred, shifting back to their more masculine form. "And I assure you, pleasure is my speciality."
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I contributed VP to part 1 of Enjoying Nature's Gifts: The Great Janu-beary Collaboration.
"Haarlep is hungry, and they have a certain druid in mind to sate their appetite. Surely this can only end well for our beloved Archdruid-"
Read the full first part by @tavyliasin here.
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Just today I thought of how on this day, one year ago, I did not even know how to take a screenshot on PC. No joke- I had no clue.
But here we are now. Not only did I learn how to take a screenshot~ I also contributed VP to my first ever collaboration like this. For two parts at that~ ✩°｡⋆
Back when I applied for this, I was still so very insecure. I remember writing something like "I'm happy I even dared to apply, even if you don't want me" in there, and I meant it. I was so proud of myself for even thinking about applying- truly feels like a completely different time now. I'll make a sappy recap post on my main blog in a few days and yap about this a little more then. But for now~
My biggest thanks to the mod team, @bg3collabs, all the other collaborators, and @tavyliasin for organising this beautiful project and trusting me with making VP for her writing part!
Hazel tried figure skating today. ˙⋆˚｡⁺⋆ I think she really enjoyed it.
Inspired by this #TavQOTD over at Bluesky~ this would be how she'd probably look like during a figure skating performance.
Hazel
Bloodguzzler Top 1A & Redish Cloth Footwear from Basket Full Of Equipment
Secrua Top from Secrua Armour
Bhaal Skirt from Modular Skirts
Bandages Of Hedonistic Desire from Kascayde's Wardrobe of Hedonistic Debauchery
Fishnet Corset Underwear from Kascayde's Lingerie
Mereth
Choker A from Ellian's trinkets
Astral Leather Armour from Lilith's Armours
Stellar Boots from Harness Remixes
Githyanki Mesh Underwear from Kascayde's Lingerie
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Yes, as with the 'Spring' prompt, AuDHD brain found it's own path for interpreting thing.
So instead of spring as a season it were hot springs. And today, instead of a little vacation~ they succeeded their getaway and wait (im)patiently for their client.
But notice the little mannerism they have in common~
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Could easily be the center of attention all evening- busy stargazing instead.
Agrippina's Dress from Agrippina's Armour
Ataraxia Arm Fishnets from Ataraxia Dress
Simple Pearl Necklace from Lynia's 3k Members Celebration
Hazel's signature custom dye on all of the above.
There’s a spark of wicked amusement in his gaze as he watches his assassin ply her trade with clinical elegance.
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Read the full story by @aerin67 on AO3.
Sadly, I did not manage to take the same type of cinematic VP for this day in time. But please enjoy @aerin67's profile picture in full size~ and this shot of Gortash, y'all had not seen so far. ✩°｡⋆
And with that, Durgetash Week 2025 ends for me.
As always, it feels weird, strangely melancholic, to say goodbye for now to the characters, I spent countless hours with for this project. But also as always~ I am glad to have spent time with them in the way I did. ♥
I have a few more shots I'll share in the near future, and as y'all might know by now, there's always more Durgetash over at @aerin67's blog.
I will make a sappy post about how much I loved working with Aerin on this project.
How they brought my dear Mereth, who I dragged from the metaphorical attic, where he sat for a few good months, waiting for his time to shine (again), to life and got me utterly attached to him as my OC. And of course to the other Durges we worked with, too~ and in a strange way, even to Gortash.
And also about the sweetest internet friends who kept hyping me, and what I do here. How they got me through the 'I hate what I made' phases with both kind and thirsty comments, and how I would not even have asked Aerin about collaborating on this project, without the constant reassurance I receive from them.
And of course about how I am eternally grateful.
To have found y'all, my lovely moots and passers-by in this corner of the internet, and this strange hobby that made me find 'my people' where I had least expected them. ♥
Yes. I'll make that post as soon as I had some more rest~
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No matter how much I loved working on this- I got pretty exhausted over the last two weeks. That's why I went so silent on my main blog and did not respond to basically anything.
I'll get back to the usual Tumblr-business next week and catch up with everything.
