Bambam's World

Bambam, 20 years old. Candle Maker. Reppin NOVA ENT. Trainee Life. ( Private Trainee ) Sng - 103 / Dnc - 344 / Rap - 222 / Char - 201 / Crt - 138 / Debut - 186 [ ✿ ][ Please Read ]

[seonghwark]

heyo! i’ve made a new blog for bambam. i had plans to do it already but held because of a few things. recently tho, i still want to make the change now. i really wanted to wait but i just want something new, fresh. that’s legit the only point now haha!  also it’s a happy birthday present to myself, so we’re going bambamrk -> bamrk and i’ll be  following and etc soon! no big changes! his hair color is black now tho and a few things in his personal life. you can find some plots below and some plot ideas under the read more! see you guys at @bamrk & i’ll be putting together a public profile for him soon! 

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[bambamrk]

bamabam aesthetic 

[bambamrk]

nova trainee’s

like this to plot for the event!

[bambamrk]

nova trainee’s

like this to plot for the event!

[rkkaeun]

내가 웃는게 웃는게 아니야 ★ kaeun & bambam

[rkkaeun]

bambamrk‌:

that brought a small chuckle out of him, they said it as if it could really happen. “if i could just close my eyes and skip over it.” a small sigh left his mouth and leaned back, trying to relax his shoulders. he wanted to bang his head against the wall and he might, a little later when he could grab some alone time. 

and she made him smile again, somehow being able to see the bright side. “verse by verse.” take it slow and easy, even though they didn’t really have time for that. “if the glass is that good, we should put it too good use. at least i don’t have any crazy high notes.” that was one song he was working to avoid. 

“alright, let’s do this, even if i’m ready to run away.” singing just wasn’t for him. 

“ verse by verse. ”

it almost felt silly, like they were actually having baby steps waddling forwards inch by inch. but knowing that she wasn’t the only person struggling had her knowing that it’s alright to perhaps, have a bit more weaknesses. after all, they are just humans. smiles slipping back on again as she nodded. she took another deep breath, setting aside her lyric sheet.

perhaps later, she’d start by picking a whole different song altogether. though now, she want to help and make sure that her sunbae had enough to practice too. a soft chuckle leaving her lips, she ready the play button.

“ there’s only so many rooms to run away, so i guess we’re better of trying out that glass. after this session, let’s take a break to regroup ourselves…with food? heh. ”

and yes, just like that, she tried to be hopeful again. 

it’s what she does best, anyway.

[bambamrk]

“only so many rooms but there is the outside.” bambam chuckled, “i can’t even remember what it looks like.” a tad over dramatic but it was something to lighten the mood. at least, at the very least, his song is good enough. it wasn’t super easy but there had been on high notes or anything to strain his voice. he’d be able to push through some way.

and kaeun would be able too as well. 

“yeah, as soon as we finish, let’s eat.” although he couldn’t say he was in the mood for it. 

[bambamrk]

see you again / kaeun  & bambam

he had wanted to surprise her. even though he was happy and he made a post, he hadn’t really seen any of the girls. but that was to be expected, they’d be extremely busy from this point on. but when he spotted kaeun in the hallway, he wanted to make sure he caught up with her. it only took a looking and asking before he finally spotted her. 

slowly he walked over until he was close enough to reach out and tap her shoulder. “kaeun~” he sing-songed, his face matching his voice for once. “how are you doing and congratulations. in person.” the grin stayed on his face. “you’ve become the sunbae now. and you deserve it.” 

[bambamrk]

Nova Eval, Special Skill 

he knew what skill he would show right away and if he was feeling a bit more ambitious, he would've chosen something to stitch quickly. ( it almost seemed to shock people that he could. )

but beat boxing wouldn't require much, just the sound of his voice and that was all he needed. the day rolled around and bambam prepared himself. soon enough, he was standing in front of the other trainee's and the coach's. there was a formal introduction, even though he supposed they knew his name by now. "i'll be beatboxing." he hadn't shown off his skill so far, he was pretty sure at least. the last time he had done it in a formal setting had been when he did the auditions.

and then bambam got to it.

during his practice, he felt a little rusty but by the time he had to show it, he was comfortable again. he chose not to focus on anyone's face, keeping his eyes closed most of the time. he could pass it off as focusing and no one would pay him any mind. he wanted to his best and at the same time, he wanted to hurry and sit down. so he chose something short and simple for his beat boxing. enough to show his off his skill, that could be used to impress people on tv.

though, the piece he chose was complicated enough. he was proud of himself for getting it down before it was time to show it off. as soon as he finished, he bowed and went to take his seat.

[bambamrk]

give and take / chaeyoung and bambam

[bambamrk]

“glad i could help.” he chuckled and went silent for a moment. he hadn’t thought much about dancing himself, it was something he fell in love with outside of his other activities. and he enjoyed rapping, it wasn’t something he found himself having a problem with. not the level of trouble that chaeyoung had with dancing. “it was a good question as well.” it had been the main reason he could give a good answer. it was a good topic to think about. 

“but don’t think about that when you dance, before is fine but not during.” bambam grinned again. “remember when you dance, just be comfortable and have fun.” 

[bambamrk]

new hello’s / jeon & bambam

a yawn left his mouth as he walked in. he hadn’t slept well but when it was time to get up, he was up and ready to head to the company. he knew he wanted to swing but seoncho but his first step was nova. breakfast was skipped in favor of just wandering around until it was time to head to his first lesson. 

then he spotted a new face, one he felt like he might’ve seen before but it was hard to be sure. but now at least he had something to do. bambam made his way over, a grin on his face. “hello! and welcome to nova? you seem a bit familiar but are you a new trainee?” 

[bambamrk]

awkward silence / bambam & haknyeon

he had a preference at this point. just hang out at the seoncho building, it wasn’t as if he had a bunch of friends in other companies. it was just away but he needed to make an appearance at nova. ( which, they couldn’t be mad at. they wanted the trainee’s to work at the seoncho. ) it hadn’t taken long to get here and once again, he joined the throng of trainee’s moving around, focused on his phone. he wasn’t even really doing anything on it, just staring it and refreshing the same page over and over. 

not paying attention to anything until he realized that he nearly bumped into someone. “sorry.” there was an apologetic grin on his face as he looked up to see just who it was. “oh.” he was silent for a moment. “and congratulations ...” even if his heart wasn’t in it. it was safe to say that he had gone out of his way to avoid any of the debuting boys and so far, it hadn’t been hard at all. “and congratulations.” because there wasn’t much more to say.  

[rksxngyeol]

Left Behind ||

[bambamrk]

have fun. it was something he would have to force himself to do. even if his heart wasn’t completely in it. but he did give sungyeol a small smile of appreciation, for being one of the few to reach out to him. “a bar close by? as trainee’s?” wasn’t one this one of the moments that someone would find photos of them and waited until they debuted to show it to the world. “i guess it wouldn’t matter, i don’t see any debut in my future.” he shrugged, “i’ll pay for us.” 

spending a little money wouldn’t hurt. “there’s not much to catch up with me. you know and since i’ve been out...i haven’t really be doing anything, so it’ll be all about you.” bambam flashed a smile. “how’s your daughter doing?” 

[axizzled-deactivated20211221]

please keep bambam in your prayers.cause they tryna kill that man

[bambamrk]

foodie / bambam & dongyoon

[bambamrk]

floverrk‌:

Bambam couldn’t see it, but Dongyoon was smiling like never before as he held his arms around Bambam. A big smile planted on his lips and for some reason tears in his eyes, he didn’t know he had missed Bambam this much, he didn’t even know why he was getting teary. Luckily for him, before any tears could roll down his cheeks the hug stopped, the smile planted on his lips didn’t leave him, the smile was simply just sent in Bambam’s direction.

He held his breath as Bambam talked, he scratched his neck as he looked at Bambam. He didn’t know very much about talking about feelings, and family he knows even less about. Dongyoon still talks with his family, a lot for a fact, but he prefers not talking about them. Dongyoon knows the feeling Bambam is feeling, that you have participated in something big and then failed. In the beginning whenever Dongyoon auditioned or went to casting he would tell his family, and they would all cheer him on, but as time went by and Dongyoon continued to fail, it was hard for everybody to cheer. At some point Dongyoon completely stopped talking about what he was doing and what he was going to do, that way he couldn’t be a failure.

He knows how to deal with the problem himself, he can just play and go walks with Iri that way he becomes happy again, but it isn’t like he can just teleport Iri over to Bambam right now. “I know—” he cut himself off, he would’ve said he knew the feeling himself, but he didn’t want to turn the conversation to be about him. “That’s alright, if you don’t feel like facing or talking to anyone then you don’t need to”.

He followed Bambam quietly, and like always he had a smile on his lips as Bambam talked, he forgot to listen and instead just looked at Bambam.

“Uh—Yeah that sounds delicious, I’m really hungry”.

“but that’s a bit cowardly, no?” it was something that had bugged him since he chose to stay hidden. there was a sort of half smile on his lips as he took a seat next to dongyoon. he didn’t want to rush the other but he did want to know what he thought about it. and if they needed to order replacement food, he wanted to know before the few close places closed. it was hard to get rid of the blush, it looked like it would follow him everywhere. “i knew there was a chance but..knowing and it happening...” bambam trailed off, were two very different things. 

“i guess it’s more so the humiliation. i re-signed my contract not to long ago, if i wasn’t enough..they could’ve just told me they didn’t want me. i’m embarrassed because i spent years of my life i’ll never get back in the company...only to be tossed aside over people who joined not even a year ago.” all in all, it just made him feel..pathetic. but he moved as he spoke, putting food onto both their places, his voice breaking every now and then. “if they would’ve told me i wasn’t what they wanted at the start..i wouldn’t have gone on the show and embarrassed myself and my family.” he had felt proud publicly supporting his cousins before this, and now he couldn’t bring himself to talk to them. 

and it was with that thought, that he felt like he might really cry. a change of subject was needed, nova was the last thing he wanted to talk about at this point. “so what did you during those two months? what happened here seoul?” they had little to no contact with the outside world. “did anything fun happen?” 

[mochabam-deactivated20191009]

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[rkkaeun]

내가 웃는게 웃는게 아니야 ★ kaeun & bambam

[bambamrk]

that brought a small chuckle out of him, they said it as if it could really happen. “if i could just close my eyes and skip over it.” a small sigh left his mouth and leaned back, trying to relax his shoulders. he wanted to bang his head against the wall and he might, a little later when he could grab some alone time. 

and she made him smile again, somehow being able to see the bright side. “verse by verse.” take it slow and easy, even though they didn’t really have time for that. “if the glass is that good, we should put it too good use. at least i don’t have any crazy high notes.” that was one song he was working to avoid. 

“alright, let’s do this, even if i’m ready to run away.” singing just wasn’t for him. 

[rksxngyeol]

Left Behind ||

@bambamrk

Sungyeol felt really sad for Bambam. He had deserved a spot in the final lineup and Sungyeol felt really sad for his friend. He’d watched the episode when he had been eliminated and simply shook his head. Why debut Sunmi and Hui and not Bambam? He deserved it as much as everyone else. Decding that he was going to invite Bambam out drinking with him, since he was probably feeling extremely down about the outcomes of the sn project. 

He approached his friend after the day of training was over. “Hey Bam, you busy for the rest of the evening?” he asked, “I was thinking we could hit up a bar and drink since we ought to hang more, after the sn project finished,” he stated. 

[bambamrk]

it still wasn’t easy being able to adjust to reality. now that people knew, sure, he didn’t run and hide but it wasn’t like he wanted to be seen. honestly, he would prefer not being seen. but he had still had a to train, even if that was the only he could bring himself to do. just more of the same. day in and day out. at least now, when it was time he leave he couldn’t wait. before, he made his mission to stay the company, and now? he couldn’t wait to get out. 

so it was by pure luck that sungyeol had been able to get to him before he left. “yeah.” he was free, but he wasn’t sure if he was in a going out mood. or maybe he should, and just pull himself out of it. “yeah, i have time to hang out.” 

[bambamrk]

another plot call on this muse now that i’ve updated everything points and everything. i do need plots on bambam ( normal non trainee ones ) but i also need trainee threads. once again, i’ve been asking constantly for nova thread so please like this and i’ll come to you or write a starter. seriously, i’m asking for nova threads.