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No.1

I think to deeply to breathe,

Lightly,

It's like the world's crashing and I hate,

Everything inside me,

I'm tormented by an array of thoughts,

And all I want is some,

Sleep,

I breathe deeply,

Exhale lightly,

I can't see,

All the colors around me,

I'm stuck in this hell,

This prison I call,

My mind,

I can't love myself,

For I only ever loved you,

I'm stuck in a hell,

That is my mind,

I hate myself,

I wish I could hate you,

But I can't because,

I love you.

-Banishable-Poet8

Mi Amor

I miss you horribly,

Whenever I think of you It’s always poor me,

Your eyes light my life,

You cure me of strife,

Your smile is like the sun,

Bright and glorious for everyone,

I love you,

You don’t love me,

I guess I’ll have to wait for you,

That is something I can surely do.

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On The Spot

There is nothing righteous,

In this self destruction,

I call my existence,

I hate being alive,

With an ever growing persistence,

My mind feels stuck in a cage,

I'm disgusting,

And cruel,

A loser for my age,

I feel a fool,

Does life truly end,

Will consciousness fade,

My heart I wish I could mend,

My soul feels in an eternal raid,

Will I hide my time,

Survive,

Day by day,

I try to fade.

No.2

There's this self conscious consciousness,

That I hate inside,

Of me,

I live in a dark room,

Slowly pushing everyone away,

From me,

And I have this manipulative self hatred,

I hold my tears inside,

In hopes that my weakness,

Won't show,

I have this incurable depression,

In my brain,

I try,

And fight,

But I am not stronger,

Than this imbalance,

This imbalance,

Dictates me,

It tears apart my eyes,

And,

My soul.

strangercore

" kiss me like you love me "

Why do I always lie to myself

I miss you so much... I miss being a big part of your life and now I'm just a annoying side character there for comedic relief. I wish I could've been a better human being and a better friend to you

Please help me

I suppose I've never been enough. I never will be. No matter how hard I try how much I change how much I better myself. I'm never going to be good enough for anybody

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1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

6. What are you excited for?

7. What happened tonight?

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

9. Is confidence cute?

10. What is the last beverage you had?

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

14. What are you going to spend money on next?

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

18. The last time you felt broken?

19. Have you had sex today?

20. Are you starting to realize anything?

21. Are you in a good mood?

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

24. What do you want right this second?

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

34. Listening to?

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

38. Who did you last call?

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

44. Do you tan in the nude?

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

47. Who was the last person to call you?

48. Do you sing in the shower?

49. Do you dance in the car?

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

53. Is Christmas stressful?

54. Ever eat a pierogi?

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

57. Do you believe in ghosts?

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

59. Take a vitamin daily?

60. Wear slippers?

61. Wear a bath robe?

62. What do you wear to bed?

63. First concert?

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

65. Nike or Adidas?

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

69. Ever take dance lessons?

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

71. Can you curl your tongue?

72. Ever won a spelling bee?

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

74. What is your favorite book?

75. Do you study better with or without music?

76. Regularly burn incense?

77. Ever been in love?

78. Who would you like to see in concert?

79. What was the last concert you saw?

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

81. Tea or coffee?

82. Favorite type of cookie?

83. Can you swim well?

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

85. Are you patient?

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

87. Ever won a contest?

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

89. Which are better black or green olives?

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?

91. Best room for a fireplace?

92. Do you want to get married?

PLEASE IM BORED AF

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I'm down

“what do you want?” i want a life that’s worth living without a need to turn around just to say, well damn, i could’ve treated you better if i held you that night would it have made a difference probably, a life without regrets– “don’t regret anything you do” she tells me with a kiss goodbye and it’s just another one of those nights when you used to be 15 and you look back the sun hits you right in the eye you’re 24 now you get it, i understand now “what do you want?” i want a lover that’ll tell me no so that i can respect it no means no means no means no i want a lover that doesn’t force hearts to beat where they shouldn’t i want a lover that counts the stars backwards by the thousands every night just to say “shit, i almost guessed it right this time” kiss me slow, kiss me slow let’s save this moment like old nintendo video games and we were too broke to afford a memory card so we played it every morning just to beat it in one try you grow up too quick you used to be 7 and now you’re 24 and you’re still worrying about if you said something wrong or if it was offensive or if you are liked or if you are loved “what do you want?” i want to be like the greats that came before, as a matter of fact i want to be greater than the greats– they’d want an honest fan i want to be the best version of myself by following your inspiration into the sea where i can see into hearts where i’ll make art into the soul where i shall sow into emotions where oceans dry into teardrops the shape of your eyes “what do you want?” i want poetry to be written for me when i don’t ask, leave it everywhere inside of my back pockets when i grab my cigarettes and find you there– read every word, save you into this moment love me when, love me then love me back, love me now love me forever, love me always keep us inside your ink bleeding deep into your pores regrets as tattoos, a love made for two a love like this, unconditionally sweet kiss us slowly, let me feel it until next week leave the words that you can’t say in person leave the words under your tongue leave the words trapped in your throat pandora’s box, my melody hope finally finds an escape hope finally makes it home hope is finally seen, fairy dust, stardust moon dust, phoenix ash dragon fire, wildfire– we burn the same “what do you want?” i want an alarm for every flower that’s dying right now so that i at least have a reason for why i can’t sleep when i think about your soft lips “what do you want?” i want to know why we look for each other when we’re away i want to know why we look for each other when we’re together i want to know why we look for reasons to blame each other i want to know why we look for reasons as to why we hate each other i want to know so much about you even though we are just strangers dear lover, oh lover, my lover we are no longer the same and it’s this thing called love that makes life feel insane “what do you want?” i want to teach my sons that a woman’s body is hers and hers alone, so respect it i want to teach my daughters that if a man ever lays a hand on you tell them that daddy put me through karate class and this belt is only white because i bleached it just for this day, i’m about to kick your butt “what do you want?” i want my mother to gain more weight she’s losing much, we’re running out of time– do you think angels give us signs? what about god? is this a sign? or is it just time? do we all end up sad and alone? i hope not, she’ll always have us “what do you want?” slowly, with less poetry more eye contact, less texting more voice recognition talk to me like i’m deaf sign language your screams how come you never listen to me? i hate you. i hate you. love her like she’s blind, show up everyday with flowers even if she hates them, she will love them. even if she hates you, she used to love you. “what do you want?” “go on many adventures without me, okay?” sometimes i want that exact sentence to not be your last words. “what do you want?” sometimes i wish i didn’t have to write so much, the thing about being in love with you is– for every sentence, i remember the passionate fibers you put into each letter, if the word love has four letters, you made it meaningful each one had meaning l stands for lasting, we didn’t last o stands for one, one mistake can make you apologize for years v stands for very, very much in my mind like sands that fall in an hourglass– drop by drop, hold you until we’re faded but like all stories, the book has a last page a kiss is like that page, we just read it too much loved into it too much, should’ve left but we stayed, should’ve ended it but we wanted to make it work– the youth remembers e e for ecstasy e for euphoria e for evenly empty e for everything e for etchings e for eternity we remember the ways to count backwards for every star there’s a dark passage that we can’t return to and we won’t “what do you want?” i want to write it all out i want to write it all down i want my first thoughts to be how can i be a better person? by being a better person “what do you want?” i just want this to make sense to someone am i making any sense? jumbled earphone poetry, no rhythm no rhymes no schemes no iambic pentameter no lyrics no style no structure just everywhere like the sound of a heart removed from a chest that has been poisoned because being love sick makes a broken person feel like an indention inside of a paragraph like a doggy eared page because love makes us feel this chaos that’s light enough to drown out the sun because love makes us crazy my dark room is its own brand of an asylum because love makes us better even if soulmates split and we’re two strangers all over again back to the start again because love makes us contemplate the stars and how the universe made us into this because love makes us angry while simultaneously forcing us into constant laughter such a stupid naive kid who thought that he could contain love love isn’t meant to be forever it’s meant to be freedom you do something wrong learn how to do it right and in truth, there’s never black and white when it comes to love no who wears the pants it’s about compromise and we always learn things a little too late, when you can’t fix things you can only dwell on it, so i’ve been dwelling “what do you want?” i want happiness i want to be poetry like a link that ties my past to a red kite fly it real high, maybe i’m high electrocute my lies into soft butterfly truths turn the ocean into a huge glass of wine baby, i’ll have two one for my apologies and another for not loving you right so when i can’t sleep at night and i find out new ways to treat you right when i fall in love again i’ll do it better, i won’t make her cry and if she does i’ll hold her until the clouds get jealous the only tears running down those eyes should only ever be rain, let’s kiss in the rain to the person i haven’t met and this is a little long and this may hurt to read but if you’re reading this and i’m asleep right next to you some day and you realize that i have a strange philosophy on love, love to me? every person that i’ve felt full and empty for, the people that i have fallen for, i still love them, all of them every bit of who i am shaped by who i should’ve been every bit of after all this time? always a thousand time, i will be enough to love you, even if i get sad from time to time– and one day, on that day, when i wake up and you’re reading this and i’m less sad and we might even be happy if i do read this later when i’m in my early 40s with some kids who fall in and out of love just to live a little and they need advice about love poems and sad songs i’ll tell them to learn the art of letting go, but also to save precious moments– savor them. dear person i will love some day, what do i want? i want to love you, in the right way. “what do you want?” yes. you. the person on this app. reading this shit poetry. you’ve made it this far. don’t stop now. “what do you want?” whatever “it” is. i believe in you. i am proud of you. you are great. you are amazing. you still have purity. you are still flawed, but that only makes you unusually human. i love you. a teacher of mine said that if a human doesn’t have human connection at least once per day, insanity will sink in. this is my contact. i am the first astronaut to ever land on your moon. my feet is on your moon dust. i will plant no flags, i will sow an idea. you are beautiful, remember that.

“what do you want?” (via everylittlepieceofyou)

She’s so everything and I’m so nothing.

#in love #help me #romance #this will end badly

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