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[humansofnewyork]

“My entire childhood was geared toward college.  My father worked at IBM for thirty years, and he expected me to get a degree.  It was never toxic.  He didn’t push me toward a particular career.  He just always wanted me to work toward a goal.  I made good grades in high school.  I studied chemistry in college because that was my favorite subject.  I planned on being a teacher.  Freshman year went great.  But soon the classes got more specialized and difficult.  I tried working harder, but that didn’t seem to help.  I began to feel like a failure.  My behavior changed.  I started skipping classes.  I overslept my alarm.  Some days I wouldn’t even get out of bed to eat.  If I did get out of bed, it was usually just to play video games.  My grades began to drop.  But I remained in denial for the longest time.  I didn’t think I deserved to be depressed.  I had a great childhood.  A great family.  I did well in school.  But the denial caused the depression to snowball.  Because over and over again I’d ask myself why, and I could never pinpoint the answer, which made me even sadder.  My best friend suggested that I leave school and get a job.  He thought it would force me to get into a routine.  And he was right.  I started working at a silicone plant in Albany.  Some days I wanted to die, but it got me out of bed every day.  And that had always been the most difficult thing.  Soon I was going to the gym.  And hanging out with friends again.  It’s been six years since I left school.  I’m feeling pretty good.  I manage a liquor store now.  I work hard.  I make decent money.  Maybe going back to college is the next step, but I’m not in a hurry to find out.  Right now I’m fine with not progressing, because I feel content where I am.  If I’m stuck, it’s definitely not a bad stuck.”

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its friday im am smashed this is the most relatable thing I’ve ever read dad worked for nasa almost finished his PhD college destroyed my self esteem  i work in production printing wine labels now i feel better here making 17 an hour than I would if I stayed depressed at college i regret a lot of my choices but i regret nothing as much as going straight to a 4 year. i’ve moved out. i’m completely financially independent. im still  making mistakes but im doing okay

hope anyone still on tumblr is doin okay as well, if u wanna chat i always answer thanks for readin

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Plant

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Visit Original Link

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New Stuff

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Your Help

[humansofnewyork]

“I’ve wanted to go into construction since high school. I used to help my dad out all the time. Everything in our house we built ourselves. But my teachers tried to steer me down a different path. They’d encourage me to ‘figure things out.’ They’d say: ‘Why don’t you do this?’ or ‘Why don’t you do that?’ But I chose construction because it’s what I like to do. I got my union card at eighteen. The pay isn’t bad. I get benefits. It feels good to be young and working every day. But I see all these advertisements on the subway, and they basically say: ‘If you want to be successful, you have to go to college.’ All my friends went to college. Some of them have liberal arts degrees that I didn’t even know existed. A couple more dropped out. The ones who graduated can’t find jobs and have a lot of student debt. But they still look at me like I’m on the wrong path. When I tell them I can help them get a job in construction, they always say the same thing: ‘Why would we want to do that?’”

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Scares

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[humansofnewyork]

“Too many people are faking the funk.  I was at the club the other night.  And I’m scrolling through my Instagram and I see a post from a girl I know.  And she’s at the same club.  And in this photo she’s holding up a bottle, acting crazy, looking like she doesn’t have a care in the world.  But the club wasn’t even rocking like that.  It was a Thursday.  So I look across the room and there she is: sitting down, looking bored, scrolling through her phone, and clearly faking the funk.”

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How Are You

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City Tree

[humansofnewyork]

“I haven’t worked with an American for three years.  I’m a union drywall finisher, and my job has completely been taken over by Central and South Americans.  All of them have union cards now.  Can you imagine being the only one on your crew who doesn’t speak Spanish?  There’s nobody to talk to.  You have no clue what people are saying.  It’s isolating.  And all of them stick together too.  My last three foremen were from El Salvador, Paraguay, and Peru.  And whenever work dries up, I’m the first one trimmed from the crew.  Always.  No matter how hard I work.  I used to get angry about it.  It felt like I’d been sold out by the mayor and the union bosses.  I even started having racist thoughts.  But that’s not me, man.  I know they aren’t bad people.  They’re just sticking together like any of us would.  How can you blame them?  My parents were immigrants.  I grew up in New York.  I’ve got friends from all over the world.  So I’m not going to start thinking like that.  I’m not going there.  That’s not who I am.”

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Do it, Turtle

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Dwell

[humansofnewyork]

“My superpower is fire. It’s inside my hands but I only use it on bullies. My dad is a superhero too. His power is minding his own business.”

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Mouse in the Ocean

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It’s Been Nice