He’s a good guy, generous, kind, sincere, practical. But he could get insecure at times and this results to outbursts or sudden fits of randomly dropping by. I thought I made it clear months ago, but I have seen him as a good friend with his actions. Apparently he and I have have different perspectives on this situationship/pseudo-partnership/i-don’t-even-know-anymore. I’d like to believe he loved me, but recalling his words, perhaps he did love me, and he did objectify me. I was, to him, someone to be spoilt, someone to lavish with gifts, someone to be seen as frail, perhaps. He and I had talked months back and despite the tears, I knew then where I stood in his life. A friend, yes, not a priority. He made it clear he couldn’t commit to me, which I understood, and took in. I couldn’t force him. I didn’t see lately how insecure/jealous he could get when he found out that I began seeing another person. I can still remember how he blindly entered the room, how strong he was (he’s a big guy, and i realised he could’ve thrown me given his size and the adrenaline). I sincerely don’t want to lose a good guy like him in my life, but if I would be causing him destructive habits, then perhaps he and I are better off away from each other.
I have to get my life back on track. Meet people, yes, but the dating fatigue has set in. I need to rest and focus on who and what’s in my life right now.
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