So that dreaded day came.. my nan sadly passed away on the 1st January 2021 at 0100 hours.
I will never forget that night. If I close my eyes and think about where I was that night, it's like I've gone back in time and I'm in that moment again, I can feel every emotion I felt when my dad phoned me to tell me and I can remember how I sounded/reacted.
"It's your nan Steph.. she's gone."
I'm absolutely heartbroken. I feel as if a part of me has left with her. There has been so many things I wish I had said to her or asked her since she has left. When I'm in that state between consciousness and falling asleep, she is constantly on my mind. When I'm asleep I dream about her. 💔
I don't feel at the moment that the memories with and of her are enough, I'm hoping in time they will. They say it gets easier in time which I hope is true cause the pain I'm feeling now is unbearable.
I will be forever grateful that my sister got to spend her 25th birthday with her and that we got Christmas with her too. I'm also grateful that she isn't in pain and suffering anymore.
I will never forget her. I don't believe in saying goodbye to her, this is just a see you later. I know that I will feel her and hold her close within my heart every day and every time I see something to do with Tom Cruise, eat Vanilla ice cream, hear/see cinderella, look into my eyes (there blue like my nanas) and many other things I will remember/think of her.
I will always love her beyond words and miss her beyond measure. 💔🥀💗
Violet Rose Grimwood.
24th March 1935 - 1st January 2021.
