the only berry on my family tree

rachel berry. eighteen. most days i feel like im drowning, others im afloat, but just barely. in a world that's turned to complete chaos, it's difficult to keep a tight grip on sanity. it's the hardest now to keep a tight grip on myself. i'm doing things i never thought i would, and my morals have shifted and changed, drifted away. im left with close to nothing. not my bow or my arrow, not my fathers or an inkling of certainty that i will ever find my mother. having myself, just myself, is only an idea. give me a moment and i might trip, could die, and it would only be peace after that. but when, when have i ever turned down a challenge?

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[pvt-clarington-deactivated20140]

… Well, when you put it that way.. I - hm. Are you a virgin? A tight schedule, huh? Has anyone told you you can be high maintenance? But it’s okay, ‘cause so am I. Hmmmmmm, no, save the best for last, that way we can just pass out and not have to worry about getting up later for food.

[barelyaliverachel]

I am. And yes, I've been told a million or so times that I can be very high maintenance. I'd say that's just fine, my organizational skills will allow me to keep up. And best for last sounds just as perfect as I'd planned. 

My virginity isn't a problem, is it? I mean, I've proven that I'm not exactly a saint, but you know. I want you to be comfortable, and that's a big block I'm no ready to let go of so don't get your hopes up or anything. That sounds mean, but I'm just trying to let you know that it won't go any further than the kissing and blind handiness we've got right now. So, yeah. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[pvt-clarington-deactivated20140]

Uh, nothing. It’s nothing. There’s more room on a bed, that’s for sure, though the van gives it more of a, uh - rebellious feel. I think it’s just us that are good at kissing. Okay, then you flustered is cute.

[barelyaliverachel]

Well, if you're not going to ask, I guess you're just going to have to wonder forever. So first the pie, second the kiss, third the sleeping. I've got a tight schedule to uphold here, Hunter, so get your butt out of bed. Unless you'd like to rearrange the order and get to some of the better parts first.. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[pvt-clarington-deactivated20140]

Actually sleeping, of course. That’s what I meant. You’re not actually sure? So, are you.. Okay. Kissing, right, kissing on a bed is good. Why? It’s cute.

[barelyaliverachel]

Yes, okay good. I'm--er, am I ... what? Kissing on a bed, is better than kissing in the back of that minivan, though that can be argued, I'm sure, because that kind of kissing was good, too. Oh, no, this is not cute. This is flustered. You make me flustered.

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[pvt-clarington-deactivated20140]

It’s okay, no harm done. 

I - well, yeah. But if you’re not tired, that’s fine, too. It’s going to be so good.. 

[barelyaliverachel]

Oh. Well, yes, I'm tired, and I'd love to sleep with you. Innocently, of course. Actually sleeping. Not that other.. stuff. Not that it's not good, because it's great, I'm sure. I'm not actually sure. Kissing is good though. Kissing on a bed, Hunter. That's probably going to be the best. But yes, sleep. Sleep is good. For god's sake, Hunter, please stop me.

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[coopedup-anderson-deactivated20]

I heard him talking to Blaine about trying to trade me something for it.

Yeah, fine, you’re right. But if she’s missing when I do get out, you’re in trouble, kiddo.

[barelyaliverachel]

If it makes you feel better, I'll stand outside and watch, until you're free to do so yourself. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[thelastanderson]

No kidding, I’m sure it was a glorious symphony of snoring last night in this house. I’m surprised the Evans’s haven’t mentioned it yet though they’re probably just too polite to say anything. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I'm sure if the noise causes a disturbance it will. But it was our first, completely calm night in a new territory and we're okay. I'm sure we'll get settled in, if we're allowed, and the snores can't be too loud through closed doors can they?

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[pvt-clarington-deactivated20140]

Okay, good.

Darling, huh? Did they say what kind of pie? Maybe, and then after we can go to sleep. It’ll be good, nonetheless.

[barelyaliverachel]

Um, it slipped? I've been calling everyone names lately. The atmosphere just makes it so easy to feel comfortable. 

We? Like together? I mean, yes the pie will be great of course. It's been forever since we've had anything homemade.

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[dieanotherfabray]

My name is Quinn and the only terms of endearment I’ll accept is ‘your majesty’ or otherwise. Preferably without sarcasm but I’ll take either or.

I’m just fine, thanks. There is pie, I haven’t lost it yet.

[barelyaliverachel]

Of course, Quinn. I completely apologize. 

And I know there's pie. I wasn't implying that you're delusional. I was just genuinely curious. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[pvt-clarington-deactivated20140]

I don’t know about that, but thanks.

You got your rest, right?

[barelyaliverachel]

Mhm, and plenty of it.

Don't worry so much, darling. Everything is alright for now. I'm hearing a whole lot of talk about some pie. Why don't we go down for a piece? I'm sure I can ignore that it's not completely vegan. Or kosher, but that's long since flown out the window. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[thelastanderson]

Unfortunate for them, perhaps, but we can’t all be travel-sized individuals.

I noticed. I think that’s the first unbroken sleep I’ve had in a very long time, Barbie was working her magic last night, that’s for sure. 

[barelyaliverachel]

Some of us are just lucky. 

She's amazing. All jokes aside, I'm glad you've gotten some rest. I can bet the only thing you could hear last night were content snores. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[coopedup-anderson-deactivated20]

I was making sure the guy with the hair wasn’t about to take off with my Ella baby. 

I’m going to head in now if it’s free, actually. I can’t wait any longer.

[barelyaliverachel]

Your baby will be fine. Just relax, okay? Ella will be right outside when you're finished. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[pvt-clarington-deactivated20140]

I’m not much more of an asset than the rest of you.

[barelyaliverachel]

Oh, hush. You're amazing and you know it. In a couple days we'll all be as good as new. 

Including you. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[thelastanderson]

It’s just not practical in these times. I suppose they can’t help it.

I slept remarkably well, probably the best I have for months. I think it might have been the Barbie Princess sheets that did it, or maybe just the fact that I finally had an actual bed to sleep on.

[barelyaliverachel]

Well, they can't help it anymore than we can. It is genetics. We'll have to blame their parents. 

Barbie Princess works wonders, Blaine. My childhood can attest to that. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[coopedup-anderson-deactivated20]

Lots of pillows. I hear that there might be actual hot water as well as breakfast, and I nearly died. I’m pretty sure if I did, Heaven would look just like this.

[barelyaliverachel]

Wouldn't it just? most of us are gearing up for shower number two, Cooper. You're slacking. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[pvt-clarington-deactivated20140]

You’re welcome..

Exactly. I’m sure if I lay down on the bed again I’ll just pass out.

[barelyaliverachel]

Not a bad thing, Hunter. You do need your rest just as much, if not more, than the rest of us. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[coopedup-anderson-deactivated20]

I feel you. I’m planning on reading until I fall asleep tonight - oh god, falling asleep without the fear that a walker is going to come up behind me and eat me for once… Jeeze.

[barelyaliverachel]

Yes, Cooper. Just sleep. With blankets and pillows and beds and the promise of breakfast in the morning, without a walker in sight. Heaven, just about. 

[barelyaliverachel]

I hope no one is bothered that I slept for eighteen hours.

[thelastanderson]

You could even say we’re travel sized. Excellent when it comes to optimal storage space and non-intrusive in your day to day life. It’s the people with all the unnecessarily long limbs that should be worrying about their usefulness.

[barelyaliverachel]

I couldn't have said it better myself. Those tall people. Always getting in the way. 

Did you sleep well, Blaine? You seem to be in a good mood.