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old blog that's getting repurposed to vent 21// he/it // minors dni

[barkbitebarkback]

I'm not evil for letting my best friend cry it put in the living room after trying to be here for her and she said she didn't live me. I'm not evil for

[barkbitebarkback]

hey, how do you help out your friend going through an npd crash. /gen

like she's trying to get negitive attention from me and I know that, and I it's not that I don't want to give her attention I just don't want to feed into the negitivity of it? idk any advice would be great.

[flareboi]

firm reminder that if you’re saying shit completely indistinguishable from bigots like “we gotta start killing trans women” “trans men should just take some dick and they’ll be normal” “[slur for intersex people] are such a small minority and they always make it about themselves” (all real opinions i have seen Multiple times) then you can fuck right off

[isuggestcompassion]

I have a suggestion!

[barkbitebarkback]

I'm just fucking like him she doesn't like me anymore. she's just here she doesn't love me anymore she doesn't like me there's nothing to like no matter what I dod I'm falling I can't be there for her I'm fucking swful swful swful swgul swgul

[barkbitebarkback]

I can't be like him. why am I like this. why. I can't do anything. I can't make myself do anything I. fuvking nothing. I'm spineless I am nothing I am NOTHING.

[barkbitebarkback]

I'm just like nick.

[barkbitebarkback]

I am such an asshole

[barkbitebarkback]

I am unlovable actually. because why would anyone think that I am worthy of time and attention

[barkbitebarkback]

what is wrong with me

[barkbitebarkback]

:?

[barkbitebarkback]

you're swining to anxious in attachment that it's pushing my avoidancey

[barkbitebarkback]

xlod clod clod clod clod clod clod clod clod. lod clod clod clod clod clod clod clod clod clod clod clod clod clod clod clod

[barkbitebarkback]

I should detransition to self harm

[barkbitebarkback]

I'm so stupid I'm so stupid she'd be happier without me why why why why why why why why

I should break up with her to spare her from being unhappy. I'm making her unhappy whynwould she be happy with me I don't give anything I will never be someone who makes her happy

[barkbitebarkback]

I'm worried... every time we plan an event or a thing to do she has a breakdown before. I want to comfort her and be there but with everything else recently I don't think I'll be able to. I just want to go get tattoos togther I put the money aside and took work off and everything and if she has a full breakdown before idk how I'm going to cope.

even yesterday after we spent some time with me getting personal attention before she left she almost got pissy with me. I don't expect it from her often I love love love giving her attention, love, and care. I really really do. I just need some sometimes... and she won't accept that I don't need or want THAT much. If this goes baldy idk what it'll mean but this is gonna fucking suck

[barkbitebarkback]

all of this because what. because my body wants to bleed???????????? are you kidding

[barkbitebarkback]

I'm vile and unlovable