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꒰ ⋆ something blue ⋆ ꒱

The thing about Bucky Barnes was that he had absolutely no business being that charming and he fully knew it.

“You’ve got something,” he said one morning, reaching over without warning and brushing a crumb from the corner of your mouth with his thumb, casual as anything, “right there.”

You stared at the wall for approximately four seconds.

“Thanks,” you said, to the wall.

He was already pouring his coffee.

This was the problem. He did it constantly. Little things, easy things, things that probably meant nothing and yet had somehow colonized your entire nervous system.

It had started small. Little comments thrown over his shoulder while walking past you in the hallway.

“Morning, doll. That sweater’s real dangerous.”

Or while you were sitting at the kitchen counter typing on your tablet.

“Careful, sweetheart. If you keep biting your lip like that someone’s gonna get the wrong idea.”

Your response was always the same.

Your cheeks turned red.

You stared at literally anything except him.

Which only made it worse.

Because Bucky didn’t flirt with everyone like that. Not really.

He teased Sam.

He bickered with Natasha.

But with you? It was softer. Warmer. Like he genuinely enjoyed watching you get flustered.

Sam thought this was the funniest thing he’d ever witnessed in his life, which was saying something given that he’d once watched Steve try to use a self-checkout machine.

He’d hand you things before you asked. He’d remember offhand comments you’d made two weeks ago. Last Tuesday he’d walked past you in the hall, glanced down, and said “new shoes?” and you’d had to go sit in a supply closet for five minutes.

“He does it on purpose,” Sam told you.

“He doesn’t.”

“He absolutely does.”

“Drop it.”

“Dropping it,” he said, and then: “He remembered your coffee order in January. It’s October.”

You pointed at him. “I said drop it.”

The gala invitation arrived on a Tuesday, which already felt like a trap.

“Stark Foundation Benefit,” he said, pulling up a holographic invite that was frankly more detailed than most mission briefings. “Saturday. 8pm. Non-negotiable attendance. Black tie. Yes, Barnes, this means you, put the henley away.”

You watched Bucky’s jaw muscle twitch. Watched him take the slow breath of a man exercising profound restraint.

Then he looked at you and caught you already grinning and said, with great feeling, “don’t.”

Which made it worse, obviously. You laughed so hard you had to hold the counter, and he stood there pointing at you, trying not to smile, losing badly.

“It’s funny,” you managed.

“It’s not funny.”

“It’s very funny-”

“I own other shirts.”

“Do you, though?”

He opened his mouth. Closed it. “I own several other shirts,” he said, “that looks exactly like this one!”

“Go buy something nice.” Tony said, with a very pointed look around the room.

You went alone, which in retrospect was either brave or stupid.

Natasha had offered to come but she had that mission debrief and you’d told her not to worry about it, you were a grown adult who had purchased clothing before, which was true but slightly overselling your confidence in formal wear specifically.

The boutique the Stark assistant had recommended was the kind of place where everything was arranged with too much space between items, like the dresses needed room to breathe and think. A woman with a sleek bun and excellent posture materialized at your side within seconds.

“Do you have something in mind?”

“Something appropriate for a black tie benefit,” you said. “I’m not really a-” you gestured vaguely at a sequined column gown “I don’t know. Something that fits.”

She looked at you with the practiced eye of someone who had been doing this for a long time. “I have something,” she said. “Come with me.”

It was dark blue. Satin, so it moved when you moved, catching the light differently depending on the angle. Fitted through the bodice and hips, not tight, just present. Like it was making an argument. The back dipped low, not scandalously, but enough. The fabric had a weight to it that felt serious.

You stood in front of the dressing room mirror for a long moment.

Oh.

The woman with the sleek bun appeared in the doorway and her expression said everything before she did.

“That’s the one,” she said simply.

“It’s-”you turned slightly, watching the satin shift “it’s a lot.”

“It’s exactly right.”

You looked at yourself again. There was a version of you that lived in your head, the comfortable version, the cute-not-striking version with her boots and her easy smile and her function in the group. This dress didn’t seem to have gotten that memo. This dress was doing something else entirely.

You’re a grown woman, you told your reflection firmly. Get the dress.

The heels were her idea too. Deep blue, ankle strap, high enough that you felt taller and slightly dangerous, which was not how you usually felt.

“I could get used to this,” you told your reflection.

Your reflection seemed to agree.

The night of the gala arrived the way these things always did: faster than expected.

Natasha, predictably, looked extraordinary. She’d chosen burgundy, something sleek and simple that required absolutely no effort to be devastating. She’d looked at your dress when you’d shown her and said “good choice” in a tone that actually meant it, which helped.

The cars were already waiting downstairs.

You grabbed your small clutch, took a breath, and went.

The ballroom was everything Tony had promised: chandelier light, soft music, the particular golden glow of a room where a great deal of money had been spent to look effortless.

You were looking down at your clutch, adjusting the clasp, when you heard Sam say “damn” in a very specific register.

You looked up. He was looking at you.

“What?” you said.

“Nothing,” Sam said, and then immediately “no, not nothing. You look great.”

“Thanks,” you said, a little startled.

“Like, really great.”

“Okay, thank you, Sam-”

“I’m just saying-”

“I heard you the first time.” But you were smiling despite yourself.

“Bucky’s going to actually combust, by the way, just so you’re prepared.”

Steve appeared at Sam’s shoulder, did a visible double take, and then composed himself with the effort of a man who had been raised with very firm ideas about manners. “You look wonderful,” he said, with a warmth that was completely genuine and made your chest feel soft.

“You’re all being weird,” you said. “Stop it.”

The first hour passed in the way these events did: circulating, small talk, accepting a glass of wine from a passing tray and using it as a prop. You were good at these things, actually. Easier to be charming when you weren’t worried about being scrutinized.

Except people kept looking at you.

Not everyone. But enough. A man from the WSC who you’d met twice before did a small but visible recalibration when he saw you. A Stark Industries board member held your handshake a moment longer than necessary. One of the string quartet musicians made eye contact with you from across the room twice in a way that was probably not about the music.

You kept waiting to feel like yourself again. Like the version that fit the wallpaper.

The dress was apparently not interested in that.

You were doing fine. Genuinely. You’d talked to Pepper, laughed at Tony’s speech, held a twenty-minute conversation with a man in sustainable architecture whose name you’d already forgotten, and you’d only looked for Bucky across the room four times, which felt like personal growth.

Then Wanda materialized at your elbow.

“He’s been staring at you,” she said pleasantly, “since approximately eight minutes after you arrived.”

“Hi Wanda, lovely to see you, beautiful event-”

“He stopped talking to Rhodey mid-sentence.” She sipped her champagne. “Rhodey looked personally offended.”

“Rhodey’s fine.”

“Rhodey is not fine. Rhodey was talking about the F-35 program and Bucky just-” she made a gesture that indicated a man going completely offline “and Rhodey had to finish telling the story to me, which took another twelve minutes.”

You didn’t look. You were a professional. You were a trained agent with genuine combat experience and emotional fortitude.

You looked.

Bucky was across the room in a suit that Tony had clearly strong-armed him into and it was deeply, profoundly unfair. Dark fabric, properly fitted, his hair pushed back from his face. He was holding a drink and not drinking from it and he was looking at you. Not in the quick, redirectable way of someone whose gaze had accidentally landed somewhere. Looking. Direct. Like he’d made a decision.

You turned back to Wanda. “I need more champagne.”

“You have champagne.”

“More champagne.”

You made it another forty minutes. Honestly, a personal record.

Then he was just there, at your shoulder, appearing from nowhere the way only very large men who had been trained as assassins could appear from nowhere, and before you’d even turned he said, low and easy, “hey.”

You turned.

He was close. Close enough that the noise of the party receded slightly, close enough that you could see the specific way his eyes were doing the thing, warm and certain and focused entirely on you, like you were the only interesting thing in a room full of interesting things.

“Hey,” you said. Impressive. Very composed.

He looked at you for a moment. Something shifted in his expression, quieter than his usual easy grin, more considered.

“I’ve been trying to say something to you,” he said, “and every time I try, you go red and find a reason to be somewhere else.”

“I don’t-”

“Three weeks ago you suddenly needed to refill a stapler.” He tilted his head slightly. “We don’t use a stapler. We’ve never used a stapler.”

“It was empty,” you said weakly.

“It was decorative.” He was almost smiling now but his eyes were serious. “I found it. In your desk. It doesn’t even open.”

The silence had a quality you couldn’t quite name.

“Okay,” you said. “Fair.”

“So I need you to stay put for like two minutes,” he said, “and actually hear what I’m saying. Think you can do that?”

Your heart was loud and you were probably going red right now in real time, which was humiliating, and you said “yes” because apparently you had no other words.

Bucky looked at you, properly, unhurried, the kind of looking that had nowhere else to be, and then said, “You are genuinely the most beautiful person in this room.”

You opened your mouth.

“Nope,” he said, “we said two minutes.”

You closed your mouth.

“And I don’t just mean right now, though that dress is-” he exhaled briefly “yeah, we’ll get to that. I mean all the time. I mean the way you laugh before you can make it polite. I mean the way you went completely red when I handed you coffee in January and I thought, there she is. That’s the person.” He paused. “I’ve thought it every day since January.”

The party was very far away.

“That’s nine months,” you said.

“I know how long it’s been.”

“You’ve been- for nine months…”

“Waiting for you to stop inventing reasons to be in another room, yeah.” His mouth tugged at the corner. “I’m patient. It’s a whole thing I’ve developed.”

A laugh came out of you, genuine, surprised, the kind that arrived before you could make it polite. His whole face changed when he heard it, something lighting up in it that made your chest do something complicated.

“There it is,” he said softly.

“You’re so-” you started.

“Charming? Handsome? Worth the nine months?”

“I was going to say a lot.”

“Also those things though.”

“Bucky-”

He reached up and touched your jaw, tilted your face up, and kissed you, and it was warm and easy and a little bit like laughing and nothing like you’d expected and exactly right, and when he pulled back you were holding his lapel in your fist and he was looking at you like he’d just been proved right about something.

“Still want to go refill the stapler?” he asked.

“It’s a decorative stapler,” you said, “and I hate you.”

“Sure you do.” He was grinning now, properly, the real one. “Come on. There’s a hallway with significantly fewer people in it.”

“That’s your pitch?”

“Less Rhodey. More us.” He offered his hand. “Objectively better.”

You took his hand, because he was right, and because you’d been wanting to for nine months, and because the stapler thing was never going to stop being embarrassing and you might as well lean into it.

“You’re going to tell Sam about the stapler,” you said, as he led you toward the door.

“Sam already knows about the stapler.”

“What?!”

“He found it before I did. He showed me.” Bucky glanced back at you, delighted. “He has a photo.”

“I’m going to kill him-”

“You can kill him tomorrow,” Bucky said pleasantly. “Tonight you’re busy.”

Later, much later, significantly fewer clothes involved, you were lying in the quiet of his room with the city doing its city thing outside, and you said, staring at the ceiling, “The stapler thing is genuinely mortifying.”

“It’s genuinely adorable.”

“That’s worse.”

“It’s really not.”

You turned your head to look at him. He was already looking at you, expression open and easy, no performance in it.

“Nine months,” you said.

“Nine months,” he confirmed, unrepentant.

“You could have said something-”

“I said things constantly. You filed them in the ‘it doesn’t mean anything’ folder.” He raised an eyebrow. “I could see you doing it in real time.”

“I-” you stopped. “Okay. That’s fair.”

“I know.”

“You’re very smug for someone who also waited nine months.”

“I was patient,” he said, with great dignity, “which is different from smug.”

“It really isn’t.”

“I’m choosing to believe it is.” He pulled you slightly closer, warm and easy. “Go to sleep.”

“I’m just saying, for future reference, if you have something to say-”

“I know.”

“-you can just say it. You don’t have to wait-”

“I know.”

“Nine months is a long time-”

“I know.” He pressed a kiss to your lips. “Go to sleep. The stapler will still be embarrassing in the morning.”

“The stapler is always going to be embarrassing.”

“Yeah,” he said, and you could hear the smile in it, “but it worked out.”

You thought about arguing. Decided against it.

He was, insufferably, right.

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꒰ ⋆ i’m not sick ⋆ ꒱

You weren’t sick.

No matter what Bucky Barnes said, no matter how smugly he leaned against the kitchen counter with his arms crossed and a knowing look in his stupidly handsome face, you were not sick.

You cleared your throat (quietly, strategically), rolled your shoulders, and tightened the sleeves of your hoodie. “I’m fine.”

“You sound like a broken air conditioner,” he said, biting back a smirk. “One of those ones in a cheap motel.”

“I don’t even know what that means.”

“It means,” Bucky said, pushing off the counter and walking toward you with that annoyingly smooth super soldier stride, “you’re wheezing. And sniffling. And doing that thing where your eyes look too shiny, like a cartoon character about to cry.”

You narrowed your eyes. “I’m not wheezing.”

“You are wheezing.”

You turned your back on him and made your way to the living room, grabbing the stack of mission reports Fury wanted reviewed and flopping onto the couch. You were fine. You could do this. You weren’t going to let a stupid cold defeat you in front of Bucky freaking Barnes.

Especially when he never, never, got sick.

Not once since you’d known him. Not a sneeze, not a sniffle, not even a yawn from exhaustion. Super soldier serum, enhanced immune system, annoyingly superior biology, he was basically a walking health commercial.

So no, you refused to show weakness. Even as your head pounded, your throat scratched like sandpaper, and your body screamed for a blanket and twelve hours of sleep.

You were fine.

You were not fine.

You were in fact, so not fine, that the moment you tried to sit up too fast from the couch, the world tipped sideways.

And Bucky caught you. Instinctively. Like he always did.

“Whoa, whoa- hey.” His hands settled on your shoulders, steadying you. “Alright, that’s it.”

“I’m-” You paused to cough into your elbow. “I’m fine.”

His eyebrows lifted in disbelief. “Sweetheart, you just blacked out for a second while holding a paperclip. You looked at it like it insulted your family.”

“Okay,” you croaked. “Maybe I’m a little sick.”

He didn’t say I told you so.

But he did smile like he wanted to.

Bucky didn’t leave your side after that.

He tucked you into bed (and you were too tired to argue, which he clearly took as a victory). He brought you every cold remedy known to man and a few you suspected were just old Brooklyn traditions, like warm ginger ale and saltines.

He came in with soup, twice.

“Second one has real chicken in it,” he said, placing the bowl beside you. “Not the weird freeze-dried cubes from the first one. I upgraded.”

“Fancy,” you whispered, voice wrecked and scratchy.

He returned with orange juice and a whole bottle of vitamin C gummies.

“You’re supposed to take two a day,” you warned weakly.

“I’m not letting you die from a cold,” he said seriously. “I’ll overdose you on vitamins if I have to.”

He even brought flowers.

“You bought me flowers?”

He shrugged, like it was nothing. “Don’t get too excited. They were next to the NyQuil.”

And chocolate.

“You’re bribing me.”

“Yes. So stop looking like you’re going to cry and eat the damn truffle.”

But what really got you, what really made your heart ache, were the kisses.

Soft kisses to your temple when he brought in tea. A gentle brush of lips over your hair when you fell asleep mid-sentence. Little pecks at your forehead while he adjusted your blanket. Sometimes, even kisses on your warm, slightly runny nose, just to make you laugh.

“Bucky,” you croaked once, laughing despite how awful you felt, “you’re gonna catch this.”

He just smirked, leaned in, and kissed you anyway, square on the mouth. “I don’t get sick.”

You blinked at him. “You just kissed me while I have a fever.”

He kissed you again. “Worth it.”

Over the next few days, you faded in and out of sleep while Bucky floated in and out of your room. You felt him brush your hair back, hold your hand, rub your back when you couldn’t stop coughing. Once, you woke up with your head on his chest, his hand gently stroking your arm, slow and steady. You didn’t move. You just melted into it.

There were more kisses. Lazy ones. Sleepy ones. Fevered ones, mostly on your cheek or temple, until you felt a little better and pulled him in for a proper one.

“See?” he whispered against your lips. “Told you I’m indestructible.”

You snorted. “Arrogant.”

“You like it.”

You kinda did.

The quiet, careful Bucky.

Something about the way he stayed, about the way he looked at you like you weren’t a burden, made your chest ache in a way that had nothing to do with your cold.

Once, you woke to find him dozing at your side, head tilted back against your headboard, his hand still holding yours where it rested on the blanket.

You didn’t let go.

By day five, you were better. Not perfect, but walking upright, able to speak without croaking, and your skin had lost that lovely shade of “slightly dead.”

You found him in the kitchen that morning, making coffee.

“Morning, sunshine,” he said, handing you a mug.

You blinked down at it, then up at him. “Guess I lived.”

He leaned against the counter, arms crossed, watching you sip. “Barely. You gave that tissue box a run for its money.”

You rolled your eyes but smiled. “Thanks for taking care of me.”

He tilted his head, voice softer. “Always.”

Maybe it was the warmth in his voice. Maybe it was the way he said always like he meant it, like he’d already decided that looking after you was just part of his life now.

Or maybe it was the fact that his hand found the curve of your waist without thinking, that he pulled you just a little closer, his fingers brushing under the hem of your hoodie to touch skin as if checking for fever.

Whatever it was, it made you rise up on your toes.

And kiss him.

Just a soft one, a quiet brush of lips, no pressure behind it. But when you pulled back, Bucky’s eyes were half-lidded, like he was the one feverish now.

Later that day, you were curled up on the couch under a blanket, finally reading through the reports you’d abandoned mid-fever, when you heard it:

A sneeze.

From the kitchen.

You froze.

Then slowly turned your head.

Bucky stood there, staring at the counter. His nose scrunched, eyes wide like he was trying to process the betrayal of his own immune system.

“…did you just sneeze?” you asked, trying to keep your voice neutral.

He blinked. “No.”

“Oh my God.” You sat up slowly, eyes gleaming. “You did.”

He scowled. “It was probably dust.”

You stood, walking toward him with a grin that threatened to split your face in two. “You’re getting sick.”

“I’m not!”

“You caught my cold.” You gasped, delighted. “The super soldier has fallen.”

“I don’t get sick.”

“You do now.” You poked his arm. “This is the best day of my life.”

Bucky opened his mouth to protest and sneezed again.

You nearly fell off the couch laughing. “Bucky.”

He groaned, rubbing his temple. “I should’ve listened to you. Should’ve stopped kissing you.”

You grinned and walked up to him, arms slipping around his waist. “You couldn’t help yourself.”

“Apparently not.”

You stood on your toes, kissed his cheek. “Don’t worry. I’ll take excellent care of you.”

He eyed you warily. “You’re going to make me soup, aren’t you?”

“With real chicken,” you said proudly, hugging him tighter and pressing another kiss to his jaw. “And I’ll even bring you flowers. But only if you admit I’m your favorite nurse.”

He sighed dramatically. “You’re not even certified.”

“You didn’t care when you were kissing me all over my fevered face.”

He leaned in, nose bumping yours. “Touché.”

And when he sneezed again, a big, dramatic one, you laughed so hard you nearly dropped the tissues you were about to hand him.

But you caught him this time.

Wrapped him up in a blanket.

And whispered against his hair, “Told you I was contagious.”