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[basedblastoise]

hi. i’m proud of you.

[basedblastoise]

finally downloaded this app again. it’s wild how much life changes, but how little I seem to have control over it at every single interchange. i don’t know what i’m doing, i don’t know how long i’ll be here, and i don’t know what i want anymore. this is the first time in my life that i’m actually at a loss.

i love my partner and i love living with her. i love the life we’re building, so at least i have that. everything else in my life is dissolving.

i’ve been calling it for YEARS that this country is unraveling, which anybody could fact check me on. alongside this, i feel as if everything is going bad. not being able to afford anything or even think about my future is scary.

i’m not so suicidal now-a-days, but still am in a different way. my end of days will be painful and unfun if i can’t help it.

nothing makes sense anymore and i honestly don’t know what im doing. i’m about to leave for 2 weeks to a different country and am hoping it helps to semi-reset me.

anyway, i’m hoping you’re all doing well. if you know me, I miss you. If you don’t know me, I also miss you. stay safe y’all.

[mapsontheweb]

US state borders but they are based off rivers and mountains

[dessa-banks]

[supreme-leader-stoat]

@blinded-by-love

[medicinemane]

I think we should do this but leave Colorado alone so there’s just an extremely jarring rectangle in one part of this

[supreme-leader-stoat]

I like how you think.

[cannibalcaprine-deactivated2024]

[notajerusalemcricketd-deactivat]

enough. to the Box with you

[basedblastoise]

ahhh hahahahahaaaaaaa !!!! life is so fucking weird.

[basedblastoise]

hahaha hi

[basedblastoise]

if i live to see old age I'm definitely going to cry at everything that happens. As much as I hate living day-to-day, people make me so happy and that's the only reason I want to be around. I love everyone and everything they do and I just want to cuddle my friends and make them smile. If you're reading this, I absolutely fucking love you, and thank you for having stuck around with me this long. I know I can be annoying but this is the "void" that I shout into when I have something on my mind. Thanks for subscribing to my diary and I hope to be here for content for a long long time folks <3

[basedblastoise]

i wonder what it's like to not be miserable in your own body

[basedblastoise]

this is my only void where I can vent and people won't get me into non-slip socks wanted to say that climate change is gonna kick off the worlds largest suicide event because we're gonna lose the sight of the sun and its gonna make everyone sad and mfs are gonna off themselves

[basedblastoise]

never thought that watching shrek 1 and 2 while sitting next to my ex of a week and a half would make me wanna kill myself so bad

[basedblastoise]

we broke up, gg

[basedblastoise]

:-/

[basedblastoise]

dreamt about you last night. Nothing special other than the fact that you had facial hair and wouldn’t let me shave it. love that this is what it’s boiled down to

[basedblastoise]

why are you a BITCH?????

hehehehehe

[basedblastoise]

officially dating someone for the first time in years. it's already been over a month. really revealing all of the problems with me, and how distant and uneager I am to let anyone in. Don't know where this stems from but it's so apparent now and I don't know how to handle it. I love her, but Idk how to just relax. I feel like I can't relax anymore

[basedblastoise]

anybody else lowkey dating their boss??

[basedblastoise]

weight off of my shoulders, now just to back up my words. New mf era for me.

[sleepy-bebby]