&quot;Glory be to God, I&#x27;m tired.&quot;

Even if I didn’t have a solid plan, in the back of my head, I always assumed I’d kill myself.

Now I’m an adult and people my age have their lives in order and I’m stuck here, confused, because I never planned to be alive and I’m so far behind.

I feel like I’ll never catch up.

Hey all.

I want to make an addition to this. I made this post a long time ago.

I’m currently back in university, and I’ve made so much progress with my trauma. I’m in a loving relationship.

Things can and will get better. It’s not too late.

Nothing is perfect by any means. But I’m happy I’m still here and didn’t kill myself. I hope you get to that point, too 💕

The addition is important! I see the original post circulating a lot, but the addition is important!

New addition two years later. I’m still going strong!

I’m getting married. I’m still in that loving relationship.

I’ve learned that there’s no real timeline. It’s okay. And while it sucks that I lost time, there’s still so much for me to experience and enjoy.

Newest addition. 7 years after the original post!

I got married last month! My dog is laying on me snoring. I’ve learned to have healthy friendships and relationships. I’ve learned that I’m not alone and that even when things are hard, I’m going to be okay.

evilscum-deactivated20160223

This showed up in my notes again. And here we are. 2026.

I’ve been married a little over two years. I just got home from friendships that feel like home and family. My husband and I have our own place. I have a full ass book ready to be published.

I don’t know. I’m still in a good place and I can’t believe how far I’ve come from my original post.

paranormal-taters

One of my favorite things about humanity is how many of us engaged in creating fanfiction before we even understood it as a wider concept that existed outside of our own brains, something that bajillions of other people were also doing, especially those of us who didn't grow up in fandom spaces/weren't on the internet in general at a super young age. I was filling a physical notebook with TMNT fanfiction at age 13 before I even knew the word "fanfiction", and I hear the same kind of thing from countless other fic writers from their own childhoods.

I just love that it seems to be an innate part of humanity to love a piece of fiction *so much* that even as a child you're so inspired to contribute your own thoughts and stories to it with probably no intention to do anything with those contributions besides have and enjoy them, having no concept of sharing them with millions of people on the internet for comments and kudos. Just creating because you love it. We as people just do that innately. That moves me.

kevytmaitohorsma

Reblog this photo of a käpylehmä to have a käpylehmä in your blog

It's a trick! If you reblog you get TWO käpylehmäs in your blog!

kevytmaitohorsma

They're traditional Finnish toys, little cows made out of spruce cones, on their way to see the world from one tumblr blog to another

rinaca-loon

I felt inspired to do some myself… ok it’s more a „dog“ and a „tripod“ but i love them 🥰

damnprecious

I have left a cluster of käpylehmät in the woods

toroidalearthtruther

"less is more" is a lie perpetuated by big small to sell more less

officialunitedstates

it’s quick, it’s easy and it’s free: pouring river water in your socks

why would i do that lmao

officialunitedstates

it’s quick, it’s easy and it’s free

smol-fangirl-bean

Actually I did that. Yesterday!

These pictures did very well on discord

I have been trying for several days to make a post about how, while I love the 2017 DuckTales reboot, having explored some related media I've come to the conclusion that they downplayed quite a lot of Scrooge's negative and weird personality traits, and yeah yeah yeah I understand that in today's media landscape it's very difficult to have a character who objectively sucks in a lot of ways and never really grows out of them or gets better because the ways in which he sucks are a cornerstone of who he is as a person.

The post never materializes though, because I always come back to a certain sticking point, which is that the show tries really, really hard to convince me that stealing cocktail weenies at a party is, like, weird, and I'm like, okay. Except everyone does that. That is so normal. Yeah, if you're a trillionaire doing it to save money, that's kinda funny. And of course it's over-exaggerated, because it's a cartoon, but like, the thing itself? One of the most normal things he does in the whole show. It's almost too normal.

But the thing is, the scene seems so completely and unwaveringly committed to the core joke being that this is weird behavior that I have started to wonder if I'm having a pelican-fucking moment. Does everyone do that? Or am I the weird one here? Now I realize I'm asking Tumblr to judge the weirdness of my behavior here but I'm a little bit afraid of having this conversation in real life now. Yes I'm aware you can buy cocktail weenies from the grocery store and they're not that expensive but they taste better if you steal them okay. To be clear the level of stealing I'm talking about is I bring ziplock baggies but never more than 2 because there are other people there who also want cocktail weenies, I'm not an animal, and because I know someone's going to ask no I do not have plastic lined pockets that I fill with dip, that's the cartoonish exaggeration I was talking about.

Is it normal to steal cocktail weenies at parties?

Yes

No

Remaining time: 6 days 10 hours

You get no nuance option this is an easy question

These results are... illuminating. Not sure of what, but definitely something

Well to be honest I guess this goes full circle and loops back around to my original point. If you water down a negative character trait too much, eventually you hit a point where people start to disagree about whether or not the trait is actually negative. In these cases, watering the trait down can be a bigger risk than sticking to it, and with less reward.

The weenies thing is whatever, can we go back to the bit where "pelican-fucking moment" is apparently part of your standard vocabulary?

It's a standard Tumblrism! Although I couldn't find the original post, it might have been a stork. It's for when you think something is super obvious but it turns out you're the weird one. And based on the poll results so far this does not qualify

I think "pelican-fucking moment" may be a kind of pelican-fucking moment.

Do you know what I'm talking about when I say "pelican-fucking moment"?

Yes

No

Remaining time: 6 days 18 hours

I have been trying for several days to make a post about how, while I love the 2017 DuckTales reboot, having explored some related media I've come to the conclusion that they downplayed quite a lot of Scrooge's negative and weird personality traits, and yeah yeah yeah I understand that in today's media landscape it's very difficult to have a character who objectively sucks in a lot of ways and never really grows out of them or gets better because the ways in which he sucks are a cornerstone of who he is as a person.

The post never materializes though, because I always come back to a certain sticking point, which is that the show tries really, really hard to convince me that stealing cocktail weenies at a party is, like, weird, and I'm like, okay. Except everyone does that. That is so normal. Yeah, if you're a trillionaire doing it to save money, that's kinda funny. And of course it's over-exaggerated, because it's a cartoon, but like, the thing itself? One of the most normal things he does in the whole show. It's almost too normal.

But the thing is, the scene seems so completely and unwaveringly committed to the core joke being that this is weird behavior that I have started to wonder if I'm having a pelican-fucking moment. Does everyone do that? Or am I the weird one here? Now I realize I'm asking Tumblr to judge the weirdness of my behavior here but I'm a little bit afraid of having this conversation in real life now. Yes I'm aware you can buy cocktail weenies from the grocery store and they're not that expensive but they taste better if you steal them okay. To be clear the level of stealing I'm talking about is I bring ziplock baggies but never more than 2 because there are other people there who also want cocktail weenies, I'm not an animal, and because I know someone's going to ask no I do not have plastic lined pockets that I fill with dip, that's the cartoonish exaggeration I was talking about.

Is it normal to steal cocktail weenies at parties?

Yes

No

Remaining time: 6 days 10 hours

You get no nuance option this is an easy question

These results are... illuminating. Not sure of what, but definitely something

Well to be honest I guess this goes full circle and loops back around to my original point. If you water down a negative character trait too much, eventually you hit a point where people start to disagree about whether or not the trait is actually negative. In these cases, watering the trait down can be a bigger risk than sticking to it, and with less reward.

The weenies thing is whatever, can we go back to the bit where "pelican-fucking moment" is apparently part of your standard vocabulary?

It's a standard Tumblrism! Although I couldn't find the original post, it might have been a stork. It's for when you think something is super obvious but it turns out you're the weird one. And based on the poll results so far this does not qualify

I think "pelican-fucking moment" may be a kind of pelican-fucking moment.

sailforvalinor

Alternate universe where the standard blue flavor is blueberry but the standard red flavor is called red banana

I have been trying for several days to make a post about how, while I love the 2017 DuckTales reboot, having explored some related media I've come to the conclusion that they downplayed quite a lot of Scrooge's negative and weird personality traits, and yeah yeah yeah I understand that in today's media landscape it's very difficult to have a character who objectively sucks in a lot of ways and never really grows out of them or gets better because the ways in which he sucks are a cornerstone of who he is as a person.

The post never materializes though, because I always come back to a certain sticking point, which is that the show tries really, really hard to convince me that stealing cocktail weenies at a party is, like, weird, and I'm like, okay. Except everyone does that. That is so normal. Yeah, if you're a trillionaire doing it to save money, that's kinda funny. And of course it's over-exaggerated, because it's a cartoon, but like, the thing itself? One of the most normal things he does in the whole show. It's almost too normal.

But the thing is, the scene seems so completely and unwaveringly committed to the core joke being that this is weird behavior that I have started to wonder if I'm having a pelican-fucking moment. Does everyone do that? Or am I the weird one here? Now I realize I'm asking Tumblr to judge the weirdness of my behavior here but I'm a little bit afraid of having this conversation in real life now. Yes I'm aware you can buy cocktail weenies from the grocery store and they're not that expensive but they taste better if you steal them okay. To be clear the level of stealing I'm talking about is I bring ziplock baggies but never more than 2 because there are other people there who also want cocktail weenies, I'm not an animal, and because I know someone's going to ask no I do not have plastic lined pockets that I fill with dip, that's the cartoonish exaggeration I was talking about.

Is it normal to steal cocktail weenies at parties?

Yes

No

Remaining time: 6 days 10 hours

You get no nuance option this is an easy question

These results are... illuminating. Not sure of what, but definitely something

Well to be honest I guess this goes full circle and loops back around to my original point. If you water down a negative character trait too much, eventually you hit a point where people start to disagree about whether or not the trait is actually negative. In these cases, watering the trait down can be a bigger risk than sticking to it, and with less reward.