Friends to Lovers headcanons
Aight so I won’t be able to knock out a chapter today so how about some headcanons instead!!!
They’re the pining “He doesn’t really like me like that” sort of couple
Both of them think they’re slick with their crushes but it’s super obvious to everyone
They act like a couple even though they swear they’re not
There’s a bet going around the base about when they’d actually get their act together and become a couple
Baze wins, surprising everyone
Neither of them have any idea what the hell they’re doing half the time
Honestly though? I could see them spending a lot of time denying their feelings for one another. Neither of them think they deserve the other which is utter bullshit in everyone’s opinion
They don’t actually confess? At least not at first. They express their appreciation for each other through little things (getting the other food when they know they haven’t eaten, letting the other rest against their shoulder, etc.)
Physical contact between the two of them is gradual
By this I mean that they’re both simultaneously touch starved but also shy away from contact with others.
It starts with sitting close enough together that you can practically feel their body, to gentle pats on the shoulder, to brushing hands, to lingering hugs and then….
Cassian is the one that initiates the hugging, surprising the hell out of both of them. He finds Bodhi tucked away in a corner, shaking and spends hours trying to coax him out. Eventually, Bodhi comes out and Cassian just wraps him up in a hug
No joke though the first time Bodhi made Cassian laugh he was mesmerized (it was at that point he admits to himself that he loves him)
he does nothing with this information
There’s a mission that Bodhi does that doesn’t involve Cassian (it’s a first in a long time for both of them). It’s supposed to be a routine mission, and Bodhi’s supposed to come back in a couple of days. Only it turns into a month and Cassian is lowkey freaking out. Unable to get the voice out of his head that whispers that all of this could’ve been avoided if he’d just stayed away.
Bodhi comes back a month later, extremely hurt and has to be immediately taken to the medbay. Cassian paces outside the door and finally admits to himself, during those hours where he didn’t know Bodhi’s condition, that he loves the man.
He whispers it to Bodhi’s unconscious form and then proceeds to limit contact with him.
Cue Bodhi being upset and deciding to ignore him back
Cassian eventually breaks when Bodhi is assigned another mission and quietly tells the other man why he started ignoring him, why seeing Bodhi unconscious on that hospital bed terrified him more than he can admit. Bodhi looks at him, takes Cassian’s hands in his own and whispers that he loves him. It takes Cassian a minute to reply but he breathes it out like a quiet prayer.
They stand there grinning at each other like fools for a solid minute.