it’s time for a break
This post isn’t necessary but I still wanted to make it for my own sense of closure. I’ve had this blog since April of 2014 and a lot has happened since then. My music taste has expanded, I’ve met loads of awesome people, and I’ve experienced live music in a way I never imagined. My blog has never been very popular, but I still tried to keep it active because it was fun for me. I enjoyed looking at pictures of Olly (among other band members...) and internally screaming with entire fandoms. But since then I have also realized that fandoms can be toxic environments for some. It’s all about being the “best” fan, having the most merchandise, forming friendships with the coolest people...It doesn’t matter to me anymore. The reason why I’m here is because I love music. I’m not trying to sound stuck up or anything like that, but I personally feel like the whole fandom culture isn’t healthy. It’s why I procrastinate and it’s partially why I receded into depression. Fans want to say that the band, TV show, book, etc. is what kept them alive because it makes them sound like they have the most dedication. Idk, that’s just the mentality I gravitated towards. I have other priorities that deserve more attention than how a band member I don’t know personally looked at a festival. I’ve been through a ton of fandoms, and it’s time to move on. I need to become the person I’ve always wanted to be. I have to find that strength within myself, not an external force. This post was super long and I wrote it for myself more than anyone, but if there’s a small chance someone out there read all of this, I hope that it was helpful in some way.
tldr; I don’t know when I’ll use this blog again. But if everything goes well, I won’t need to. :) Thanks for the good times, tumblr.
