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I'm doing pretty well right now. I don't need to be brought down by anyone.

I need a break from life.

I need to get my priorities in check. I've been focusing and worrying about things that are outta of my control.

School.

Family.

Work.

Personal life.

Friends.

Maybe then the right things will fall into place because right now i have nothing going for me.

These past 2 years have been such a roller coaster for me. I never imagined going through so many failures. It hit me hard with this one. I wasn't planning on failing again. Nursing is hard but I really thought I could put all the bull shit that was tearing me down in the first place behind me and finish this out. I had one semester left. One. And failed by less than one point. It hurts. It hurts everyday. I should be a nurse right now. Instead I am sitting here crying and doubting all my abilities. But that needs to stop. I need to be stronger than this. I want to be successful whether that is in nursing or if I decide to go a different path. Everyday I hear it from my family what I am going to do. I know I'm their biggest disappointment. It hurts me. I never expected any of this to happen. And failing is just one of the many problems I am dealing with. I feel like I need to go to a shrink sometimes. I'm honestly afraid of what 2015 will bring for me. But I know this is all apart of life and will make me a stronger person. I'm going to get through this.