Vanessa Anne-Marie

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I’ll Be Seeing You || Billie Holiday

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I am a married lady!

Being married to Ray has been such a joy and a blessing. It’s been almost a month now, and our honeymoon was the most special time of my whole life. Can’t wait to see what life will offer us! <3 

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I'M GETTING MARRIED IN 26 DAYS WOOHOO

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The next wedding is OURS!!!!!! 1 MONTH AND 2 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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My bridal shower was perfect and I can't wait to show you pictures of my very own 1950s prom. I love Ray so much. I'm marrying him in 41 days and I'm so happy. Nothing else matters.

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Feeling sad today, send me happy thoughts and prayer! I'll love you forever :)

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Went away for my bachelorette weekend and it was fun and peaceful :)

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Sometimes I get dressed up and bridesmaid and go to weddings and forget to post them.

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Learning:

1. There is a difference between expressing your feelings and telling someone that they did something to upset you in a mature way and railing on them and hurting them. If I take one thing away from my family and all of our stinky rotten relationships it is to make sure that when I am upset I speak with grace. 

2. I can love my family from afar. Family can break your heart more than anyone. So I should love them from afar. 

3. Getting away from family who hurts you and making better things for your life doesn’t necessarily make you feel any better at all. It feels a lot like an ending.

Lord, please be with me and heal me and help me to make sense of all of this.

Goodnight all.

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We are preparing our new home <3</p>

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Sage Paper Co | @sagepaperco

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It's okay. I am worthy. I belong here.

Words to myself

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We had a night of stressless weddingless joy

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We are real humans, real people and we are messy and mistake making and I don’t want to clean that up. I want every part of you; the part of you that is laughing and smiling and at peace and the part of you that is angry and afraid and unshaven and asleep on the couch and questioning. How could you even claim to know someone without these things? Pretty as a picture and hiding all their heart. I vow not to expect perfection, and to go to Christ to fill me so I can spill over into you. I know you’ll do the same. I will not empty you, I will not expect inhuman art like anything, but messy abstract--paintbrushes strewn on the table and splashes of water and first and fourth attempts crumpled up in a pile before we quit to watch netflix and hold each other. 

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You are a soldier. You have a God who loves you and is on your side. His grace makes life unfair in the best way. Be thankful for every little thing, for His showering over you. Thankfulness brings joy. Remembering Christ brings joy. Even in chaos you should grow roses, make art, make beautiful things out of this. Never forget the books and writing and God inspired lifelines that got you through all the times before. Magic.

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I want to live.

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WE GOT AN APARTMENT

We finalized today...God is so good. It is more than we ever ever ever dreamed. I could talk about it all day long. I move in before Ray does on September 1st (WHAT) to get it ready and prepare my heart.