Sep 28, 2020
i cant keep doing this to myself omg. its getting so bad where ill eat countless amounts of food only to throw it up right after. its starting to take a effect on my mental health why am i like this, when will i get better? i no longer want to suffer, im tired of binging, of purging, of being sick. i wonder when i will be better, or will i ever be better. im starting to think that this is how my life is gonna be. that im ruined. ill never be able to be around normal people because normal people eat and normal people dont throw it all up afterwards. ikeep thinking that no one will want someone who counts calories and what not. i didnt want it to be like this nothing like this. and theres nothing i can do to stop i want to but i cant.
