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“loving you was like going to war; i never came back the same.”

#fc #ft: daryl dixon

what if...what if i came back????

#OOC

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since this is the offical fifth anniversary of my blog and agnes’ actual 27th birthday, i felt the need to post this. this year has been so long i thought she had been 26 for the last two years. that’s how slow time went with you all, that’s a good thing. i would just like to thank you right now. when i made this blog i never thought that i would stick around this long. it’s crazy, honestly, because i usually lose my muse rather quickly. i came to tumblr in 2018 and had agnes on facebook for two years prior and i must say, changing to tumblr has been scary. i was so disoriented. i didn’t even know how to get out there, how to connect with people and honestly, anxiety didn’t make that easier for me. but then you came, my gorgeous mutuals and you reached out first, which i honestly can’t thank you enough for because it is so hard for me and i even grew a little bit more open towards people.

and here we are now, three years later ( on tumbls ) and it’s been a ride. i am so greatful for those people who have stuck with me. i still remember how underdeveloped agnes was in the beginning. she was a skeleton. i went through all these changes, faceclaims, god, i will never forget when i had mary elizabeth winstead as her faceclaim, wild times. but through the years, her story manifested, so much that my best friend who never watched the show constantly says she expects agnes to pop on tv when she watches the blacklist and honestly? this compliment is out of the world, and i know she means that and that’s what i love about all of you. even though oc’s aren’t really welcome here, it’s changed, i know but we know the prejudice against oc’s by some people, but to you, agnes feels so much more than that.

i’ve met so many amazing people here, and by god, i know i am not much of a talker and i apologize for that but you’re all making my days so much better. i got to know so many fandoms i’ve never even heard of. i got to talk to so many amazing people with some of the most softest personalities ( chaos, you ask, aren’t you overreacting? ) no, i am not. i am honestly grateful for every single one of you. i love every single one of you even if we’ve never spoken. i would die for each of you. you’re my friends, okay? and i love you, so, so much. and this is a huge thing for me to say because affection is something that scares me a lot. but you see, i’ve grown so comfortable around all of you, my anxiety just fades. and that’s beautiful. you’re beautiful. so thank you, all of you, for everything.

@nitebit @reddngton @beastingtm @womenstrcng @vitaeardenti @tempestweathered @hersais @hereisthelie @simcl @careol, @diegraced, @jokethur, @savagedottir, @wxrldkiller @stapcs @inkfated @pepperpxtts @trageadies @soulstcne @chaoswon @episkqy @fuckingvictus @shearise @ghostofaformerself @illfatedpartners @thebvsiness @simcl @sacrillege @timidstrcngth @hackeds @mindheist @thunderbringer @plqtinium @stmichael @vitaeardenti @pcnleft @swallowedblood @coltlead @hersais @tcpimpabutterfly @heteach @fairyblooms @maderesilient @spymade @velvetipped @griimreaping @bakcr @vhampire @vandbaerer @moonstilled @ledeuill @tinytaissa @jademight @viividpurity @malumalus @osbxrne @donsheir @maybcrry @bravery-sought @cosmicacy @almostchosen @etheareals @papilosomnia @theymakehistory @despairfelt @serenitysought @exigencism @sanguinibus @mxwells @daonacht @ghostofaformerself @becomedeviant @bakedcookies @soleiltm @supathos @waredsin @agtwarren @laufaes @penniesfortheferryman @singlethreads @ccilyoja @vanderking @bloodused @thomasincentkeen @waterfrd @cryofcrged @bluemoontm @angelsided @badgcut @madeliar @jcfulmess @brokenspy @strawpolls @voieur @outlawiism @mortuam @metalsuits @coltlead @velvetipped @feiry @stupiidgood @murkyhazed @absolveres @mikeyds @vyrulent @loyaltyworn @drklng @womenstrcng @vitaeardenti @tempestweathered @hersais @timidstrcngth @simcl @careol @diegraced @applesdrowned @mcrozovas @solarsought @zagubionywilk @deathtake @outlawiism @beastingtm @bakcr @artivexed @feardrawn @coptm @illfatedpartners @verdansks @horrorempathy @villainshe @hackeds @tenebrouswings @bowveger @fashionfangs @hellruins @ledeuill @shotbitch @tcpimpabutterfly @mxwells @theednygma @chxoticmuses @spymade @bcthgreene @experimcnts @metuant @cryoforged @defendsfreedom @impaladrove @envywar @osbxrne @tinytaissa @goldbuilt @loverslanetm @feardrawn @villeneuvetm @brvesouls

i am sure i forgot some of you but please feel loved nevertheless. i would also like to thank @hyruleshop / maruja for every theme she has done for me. i can’t explain how much my muse gets a blast whenever i look at it. she is such a beautiful, gorgeous and talented person and you should definitely check her out if you haven’t yet. especially in these times where everyone needs support the most.

#Congrats b! sorry this is so so late

Hiatus

Hi everyone, I’m in the process of moving and getting all settled in and getting internet and such. I’ll be gone for the next week or so!!

#ooc #psa

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hi. my names chaos and I would die for @margirfolk @bcthgreene & @timidstrcngth. :)

bcthgreene

I love this and youuuu 🥺👉🏼👈🏼

fybethandrip

I believe in the same thing.

#[ 𝕒𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕥𝕚𝕔 ] -- 𝕘𝕚𝕗𝕤

batswing·

A lump forms in the blonde’s throat as Dwight is dismissed, as much as she DISLIKES the savior -- she’d rather someone else around so she wasn’t alone with Negan. It feels like her heart is going to leap out of her chest as her gaze lands upon the leader, seated very still, it was very unlike him. Beth half expected him to be standing with Lucille resting on his shoulder, theatrically expressing what a TERRIBLE thing she had done. Him being still though? This was worse.

Boots shuffled toward the couch as he requested DEMANDED her to presence closer to him. The blonde took a seat on the opposite end of the couch from him, as if putting distance between them would keep her SAFE. She avoided his gaze, cheeks red in embarrassment and shame from what she had done. ❝There’s this little boy here, Connor, he’s got asthma -- his father couldn’t afford a new inhaler and I didn’t have enough points for it...❞ Beth began to say, but it wouldn’t forgive her actions -- she STOLE. ❝I hear him wheezin’ every night, I jus’, I couldn’t take it anymore.❞ Blue eyes on the verge of tears as she looked down to her folded hands in her lap.

#( v. the sanctuary )#batswing

coltlead·

@bcthgreene· – —— ——— > : cont. **

A surprised expression graces her features though she does her best to hide it. She’s relieved that Rick saw where she was coming from and didn’t just try to DISMISS her. The blonde offered him a nod as he mentioned a run with him and Daryl tomorrow, that would be the PERFECT time to prove what exactly she was capable of. She wasn’t dumb, she knew this was a test to see how she could handle herself outside of these walls. It’d be good for both of them to see how capable she was, it was Daryl afterall who had taught her so much.

❝Thank you.❞ She said, baby blue hues meeting his gaze. Beth sincerely meant that, it would have been so easy for Rick to feed her some BULLSHIT about needing her to take care of Judith. ❝You’ll see jus’ how far I've come.❞ She said, a small smile tugging on her lips. She yearned to make Rick proud, she didn’t know what it was but she wanted him to see the CHANGE in her.

#( v. i made it )#coltlead

queenstarksansa

He wouldn’t come in?

#( songbird ) -- gifs

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hands come down from behind her head, shoving the ginger strands off her shoulders. it was a gesture of distance, somehow. or at least, for the cogitation of it. beth’s words made her think. the answer was torn in two, unprecise. just like agnes had always found sentiments to turn out, just inbetween the stools, torn between good and evil, the angel and the devil. on the blurred line. or over it. at first, uncertaincy of whether words were meant ❝ funny thing is, rick asked me the same thing yesterday. ❞

what followed next was unusually sentimental for her, as one would say, completely out of character. but it was simply how agnes was able to rest in beth’s presence. there was no need to fight and agnes was aware of that. ❝ i’m here because i want to be here. everywhere i was before, i was needed. and here i just exist, you know? i am not good with that. not knowing what to do. that’s why i constantly switch. ❞ gazes flicker as they search for her opposite’s in something agnes didn’t even know she searched for, reassurance. ❝ in hopes that i get my own group. but we see how that ended. and now i’m here in your peaceful garden of eden, no offense. ❞ there is a chuckle that seemingly excuses words though there is barely the need to. ❝ i don’t know how you do it. letting them control you without the itch of violence. ❞

Beth wasn’t at all surprised Rick asked Agnes the same thing, she’d be a great asset to the community. Maybe all she needed was a gentle to push to stay, even if it was for SLIGHTLY selfish reasons on Beth’s part. Beth wanted a roommate and she had gotten along quite nicely with Agnes. One of the houses wouldn’t seem so large if she had a friend living with her. It was NICE to have Agnes around. It wouldn’t be easy to convince her to stay though, she knew the brunette was a nomad through and through. Maybe having a room of her own to come back to would be enough for her. Having a sense of PEACE in this chaotic world in four walls and a roof.

Baby blue hues flicker up to meet Agnes’ gaze as she SOFTENS up slightly. Seeing a soft side to her was rare and Beth wanted to make sure not to let this moment slip away. ❝I get it, we jus’ really like havin’ you here, even JUDITH asks where Aggie is when you’re gone.❞ The blonde said, a small smile creeping on her lips. ❝They don’t control me--they’re my family, I’ve been with ‘em since the beginning, they’ve saved my life more times than I care to count.❞ She admitted with a soft sigh. ❝’s nice to know that they’ll always have my back, and no matter where you are, I’ve ALWAYS got yours.❞ Beth said, wanting Agnes to know that she had someone in her corner.

#( v. i made it )#unsnare #I LOVE THIS DYNAMIC SO MUCH TOO

" i don’t understand why you’re acting this way . "

a list of don’t sentence starters // accepting

❝Because I’m not the same girl from back at the farm. I’ve been through hell and back, RICK!❞ She said, her voice raised due to frustration. The blonde was tired of being treated like a glorified babysitter, she was capable of doing more than just looking after Judith. Don’t get her wrong, she loved that little girl more than ANYTHING but she wanted additional responsibilities. Maggie was treated like an equal in the group, that’s what she wanted, she just wanted to be equal. She felt like she was in limbo between being a kid and being an adult and she was SICK of it.

Beth scrubbed a hand over her face as she did her best to CALM down, fingertips brushing over one of her scars reminding her how strong she really was. ❝I jus’ want you to treat me like an adult, I made it this far, that’s gotta count for somethin’ ❞

#( v. i made it )#coltlead

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The blonde had never STOLEN anything in her life, not even a tube of mascara before the world fell apart. She was desperate though, when she first arrived at the Sanctuary she had met a little boy, couldn’t be older than nine that struggled with ASTHMA. His father was in too deep with negative points as his job wasn’t paying enough and he couldn’t afford a new inhaler. Beth being new, she barely had enough points to cover food let alone a costly medical item. She used her new job as an assistant to the doctor to swipe an inhaler, it was wrong, she KNEW that, but she couldn’t stop thinking about the little boy, Connor struggling to breathe. What she wasn’t counting on was the doctor doing inventory and telling Dwight on her.

Now she was following closely behind Dwight being lead to Negan. The hallway seemed to stretch on FOREVER before finally landing on the last door on the left, Dwight shoving it open. ❝Caught Beth here stealing from the medical supplies.❞ Dwight said before grabbing her by the arm and pushing her forward and closer to Negan. Baby blue hues wide as they landed on the leather clad man, he was a whole lot SCARIER up close. ❝’m sorry, I swear it won’t happen again--❞ The blonde began to ramble, fidgeting with her hands, a nervous habit of hers.

#( v. the sanctuary )#batswing

wants: Sanctuary beth and soft beth, come plot with me *grabby hands*

#rp wants #wants #gimmie gimmie

ledanna

[insp.]

#[ songbird ] -- gifs

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The blonde was unsure exactly where she fit into Alexandria, when she arrived at the safe zone everyone seemed to be settled into their homes and had their sub groups and they were happy. Beth was currently crashing at Rick and Michonne’s but she felt out of place in their home. She slept in Judith’s room but didn’t yet have a room or home of her own. The problem was she didn’t want a big ol’ house to herself, she would feel a whole lot better having someone else to live with.

Baby blue hues flickered to Agnes who sat across the table from her, Agnes seemed to be a nomad--not setting down definitive roots anywhere and maybe she could be persuaded to set roots down in Alexandria. ❝You ever get tired of goin’ back and forth from place to place?❞ Beth asked her curiously.

#verse [ I made it -- alexandria ]#i hope this is ok??#lemme know I can give ya something different if you like :)#unsnare