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Using this account for music things 😁 i wanna create more meanings around my songs and explain whats in my head for more context when people listen to me <3
‘WHAT CAN I DO’ OUT NOW
This ep ‘what can i do’ is a collection of parts of myself that ive gathered within the past year.
This ep is a few of many songs that have been so amazing to create, i feel like ive learned lots about myself through each one. Since i started to make songs and progress within songrwiting, i feel that ive learned to listen to what god gives me, which mainly comes through when im in between being asleep and awake. Its gotten easier to let songs come out as they are and not what i want people to know me by. I dont feel limited anymore as an artist because i know that true expression extends beyond an image, even when the world may tell you otherwise.
This ep is one of my favourite projects of my life so far but i know even better is coming. This project was created because i had so many doubts in my mind about who i should be and what i am, i felt lost in my life and struggled to focus on what i wanted, even now i still dont know. Music is a comfort for me and its sonething ive relied on continuously to make something bad into something useful. I dont think there will necessarily ever be a resolution to how ive felt in the songs for a long time, simply because i have yet to experience more of life but i have definitley learned from it and thats all i can do.
[the sound of those objects] is a short interlude on the ep which was based on a dream i had in early 2026.
In the ep visual film i depicted how in my dream i was faced with objects that created sound when i touched them, with each of the sounds replicating what the object was. Once i woke up i could not get the dream out of my head and i felt an overwhelming wave of peace and being egoless within. The dream was set in a house that ive seen before with about a hundred rooms in it, with all different overstimulating themes and colours which i feel is a representation of my life materialised in my head. My family was there and i felt so at home. Even after i woke up i felt the lingering warmth of being in my own world and having a place where i naturally feel like melodies and ideas are being whispered to me, like theres always things leading me to be better.
The final track of the ep is named Hylas after the painting ‘Hylas and the Nymphs’
This song unintentionally and very strangely made the meaning for itself, i started off with the main melody in the chorus which dosent have any lyrics but i thought of the tune one day and immediatley got it recorded and stuck down. I decided it would be about the relationship i was in at the time which was very unstable and stressful but i confused it for passion. It talks about how we would fall out and come back together all very intensley which made it a sort of addiction to getting the good parts of him. For me this song started to look like how a siren lures and i associated the main melody with a sirens call. The title also came in a very meaningful way after i was taking a walk the day after a huge argument and i realised our relationship would never be fixed or returned to the way it was at the beginning, no matter how much i tried. On this walk a song came on with a picture of this painting i saw in manchester when we were first talking, that i sent it to him at the time saying this is how i felt about him. The painting depicts about 6 nymphs in a pond, admiring and surrounding ‘hylas’ leaning down to them. To see the painting again on my phone after a year and a half felt so full circle, like a closing of the whole thing that was making me so indecicive of whether i should stay or go. I love how it felt like the song was given to me bit by bit and how every part of it was sort of predicting and knowing what was going to happen between us.
Nature of a dream
Is a song i made in 2025 that was mix and mastered by IX. The idea for the song was about feeling shame about where i was in life at the time, like i wasnt doing enough like other people my age. i was unemployed and out of education, trying to fill my days in the ‘real’ world but having little money to do so. Im mainly talking about how the system makes it so that everyones competing against eachother to get on top, and its especially prevelant now with social media where we can compare exactly how much we are failing in out own lives. I also felt alone in my relationships with people too because no one around me was in my position, they were all in their own lives and i dont blame them. There are more parts and meanings to the song that i cant fully explain but when im writing, words just flow out in their own meaning and its up to interpretation. The main premis is feeling behind and panicing about it which only made it bigger in my head. I felt stuck in a box but i was still so ambitious, which made it more painful to go through in a way but since then ive learned how to deal with situations like this and i feel ive made so much progress since that song. The visuals include lots of clips from when i was travelling south america and now i feel i will always associate that song with the beauty of that trip.
Nature of a dream
Is a song i made in 2025 that was mix and mastered by IX. The idea for the song was about feeling shame about where i was in life at the time, like i wasnt doing enough like other people my age. i was unemployed and out of education, trying to fill my days in the ‘real’ world but having little money to do so. Im mainly talking about how the system makes it so that everyones competing against eachother to get on top, and its especially prevelant now with social media where we can compare exactly how much we are failing in out own lives. I also felt alone in my relationships with people too because no one around me was in my position, they were all in their own lives and i dont blame them. There are more parts and meanings to the song that i cant fully explain but when im writing, words just flow out in their own meaning and its up to interpretation. The main premis is feeling behind and panicing about it which only made it bigger in my head. I felt stuck in a box but i was still so ambitious, which made it more painful to go through in a way but since then ive learned how to deal with situations like this and i feel ive made so much progress since that song. The visuals include lots of clips from when i was travelling south america and now i feel i will always associate that song with the beauty of that trip.
Frnl
This is a track that i wrote after experiencing alot of death in my life in a short amount of time. It felt like my childhood was suddenly disappearing and i was scared for my future because the losses made me realise i was now fully responsible for it. The situation i was in with my relationships also made me feel more unstable and unsafe to handle my own life, i cant even describe the pit in my stomach i used to have thinking about it. The track started with chords that reminded me of the organ in a funeral, hence the name because i couldnt think of what else to call it. The repeating chords in the intro replicated exactly how i felt. When i first was playing this it was the dead of night in my bed and i couldnt stop crying listening to these empty chords because it was so accurate to the deep sadness i was in. It took me awhile to finish the structure and lyrics of this song, theres was even another verse that i decided to cut out because it just dragged a little. I dont like to make depressing music that much but i do feel drawn towards expressing a sadder aspect of myself even when i wouldnt listen to it regularly. Thankyou to IX again for mixing and mastering this track im very grateful to be able to give people insight to my world like this.
Frnl
This is a track that i wrote after experiencing alot of death in my life in a short amount of time. It felt like my childhood was suddenly disappearing and i was scared for my future because the losses made me realise i was now fully responsible for it. The situation i was in with my relationships also made me feel more unstable and unsafe to handle my own life, i cant even describe the pit in my stomach i used to have thinking about it. The track started with chords that reminded me of the organ in a funeral, hence the name because i couldnt think of what else to call it. The repeating chords in the intro replicated exactly how i felt. When i first was playing this it was the dead of night in my bed and i couldnt stop crying listening to these empty chords because it was so accurate to the deep sadness i was in. It took me awhile to finish the structure and lyrics of this song, theres was even another verse that i decided to cut out because it just dragged a little. I dont like to make depressing music that much but i do feel drawn towards expressing a sadder aspect of myself even when i wouldnt listen to it regularly. Thankyou to IX again for mixing and mastering this track im very grateful to be able to give people insight to my world like this.
Everyones kind messages from the listening party, so cute!!!!!
To desire is a track which to me has the structure and depth of a prayer.
This song, which features a lovely woman called Vee, is a track that came because my little cousin was playing around and recording on my midi keyboard and switched the arpreggio on, which i didnt know was a feature i could turn on lol. She actually made the extra little sounds on the outro of the song because it only felt appropreate to keep her part in. I dont even know how i began writing the song because all the melodies came so smoothly with what id already made. The song talks about how im looking for bigger things in my life but i get very easily distracted and cant always see the things that are stopping me from doing what i need to do. I ask for help from god dispite all of this because i know in my heart it will always work out for me. It describes how i do come and go from god and i needed to call out again because i was getting so wrapped up in problems that there was no point in having, i needed help to let go of fear and ego. Towards the end of the song i sing phrases that, to me, mean i know how situations in life usually go but i am careless with a purpose, which is to experience. I feel like god can see that and he understands.
Vee did her verse so beautifully and the harmonies on the bridge were just incredible. She did it so fast too and im so greatful to collab with someone that i know has just as much passion as me. Im also proud to say this song was mixed by myself :) (mastered by oscar!!)
The final track of the ep is named Hylas after the painting ‘Hylas and the Nymphs’
This song unintentionally and very strangely made the meaning for itself, i started off with the main melody in the chorus which dosent have any lyrics but i thought of the tune one day and immediatley got it recorded and stuck down. I decided it would be about the relationship i was in at the time which was very unstable and stressful but i confused it for passion. It talks about how we would fall out and come back together all very intensley which made it a sort of addiction to getting the good parts of him. For me this song started to look like how a siren lures and i associated the main melody with a sirens call. The title also came in a very meaningful way after i was taking a walk the day after a huge argument and i realised our relationship would never be fixed or returned to the way it was at the beginning, no matter how much i tried. On this walk a song came on with a picture of this painting i saw in manchester when we were first talking, that i sent it to him at the time saying this is how i felt about him. The painting depicts about 6 nymphs in a pond, admiring and surrounding ‘hylas’ leaning down to them. To see the painting again on my phone after a year and a half felt so full circle, like a closing of the whole thing that was making me so indecicive of whether i should stay or go. I love how it felt like the song was given to me bit by bit and how every part of it was sort of predicting and knowing what was going to happen between us.
The final track of the ep is named Hylas after the painting ‘Hylas and the Nymphs’
This song unintentionally and very strangely made the meaning for itself, i started off with the main melody in the chorus which dosent have any lyrics but i thought of the tune one day and immediatley got it recorded and stuck down. I decided it would be about the relationship i was in at the time which was very unstable and stressful but i confused it for passion. It talks about how we would fall out and come back together all very intensley which made it a sort of addiction to getting the good parts of him. For me this song started to look like how a siren lures and i associated the main melody with a sirens call. The title also came in a very meaningful way after i was taking a walk the day after a huge argument and i realised our relationship would never be fixed or returned to the way it was at the beginning, no matter how much i tried. On this walk a song came on with a picture of this painting i saw in manchester when we were first talking, that i sent it to him at the time saying this is how i felt about him. The painting depicts about 6 nymphs in a pond, admiring and surrounding ‘hylas’ leaning down to them. To see the painting again on my phone after a year and a half felt so full circle, like a closing of the whole thing that was making me so indecicive of whether i should stay or go. I love how it felt like the song was given to me bit by bit and how every part of it was sort of predicting and knowing what was going to happen between us.
[the sound of those objects] is a short interlude on the ep which was based on a dream i had in early 2026.
In the ep visual film i depicted how in my dream i was faced with objects that created sound when i touched them, with each of the sounds replicating what the object was. Once i woke up i could not get the dream out of my head and i felt an overwhelming wave of peace and being egoless within. The dream was set in a house that ive seen before with about a hundred rooms in it, with all different overstimulating themes and colours which i feel is a representation of my life materialised in my head. My family was there and i felt so at home. Even after i woke up i felt the lingering warmth of being in my own world and having a place where i naturally feel like melodies and ideas are being whispered to me, like theres always things leading me to be better.
‘WHAT CAN I DO’ OUT NOW
This ep ‘what can i do’ is a collection of parts of myself that ive gathered within the past year.
This ep is a few of many songs that have been so amazing to create, i feel like ive learned lots about myself through each one. Since i started to make songs and progress within songrwiting, i feel that ive learned to listen to what god gives me, which mainly comes through when im in between being asleep and awake. Its gotten easier to let songs come out as they are and not what i want people to know me by. I dont feel limited anymore as an artist because i know that true expression extends beyond an image, even when the world may tell you otherwise.
This ep is one of my favourite projects of my life so far but i know even better is coming. This project was created because i had so many doubts in my mind about who i should be and what i am, i felt lost in my life and struggled to focus on what i wanted, even now i still dont know. Music is a comfort for me and its sonething ive relied on continuously to make something bad into something useful. I dont think there will necessarily ever be a resolution to how ive felt in the songs for a long time, simply because i have yet to experience more of life but i have definitley learned from it and thats all i can do.
Angels and me humming in the backround :3
Dropping my ep this week!! Suggestions for promo ideas are welcome plz🙈 im so excited to get this done now and explain all the songs because i feel like so many people could align with it. The party is this week too omg! I finished the film to go along with the ep today too which is basically a complation of videos that i took with my digi cam 📹
LISTENING PARTYYY 16th july!!!!! My friend eshan and i made this poster and gonna put them all over brum😋😋😋 so excited 4 this and scared because i need to finish it all in time but gonna be so worth it 💋💋💋💋💋
You Stepped out of a Dream 2025
painting over music sheets
