Treat Love like a limited resource

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Strange things have happened since this day occurred, I can hear a cold whisper in my every word. It's telling me I'm dead.

My soul is so heavy that it draws me to the floor, I can hear these demons knocking at my door. They're laughing at the dead.

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This shit speaks

Love The Heartless-Jelly Roll

Look in my eyes do you believe

The man in the mirror is looking at me

Here is the monster I came to be

This is the circus they all came to see

I'm here falling down I know, I know

I'll know I'll fuck this up somehow

Won't you pray for me

Pray for me pray for me

I live in the darkness

I'm in love with the heartless oh yes I am

I still live in the darkness (I can't get away)

I'm in love with the heartless, I do all I can

I feel like it's all I know

Baby I can't let go

This monster I can't control

I hope the lord saves my soul (My soul)

I have struggling playing tug of war with a few of the demons I know

I have been shunned and drugged through the mud

I don't hold a grudge I been here before

There is still fight in me I can be anything I set my mind to be yes I can

The storm that's inside of me rages so violently

God shine your light on me, here I am

Won't you pray for me

Pray for me pray for me

I live in the darkness

I'm in love with the heartless oh yes I am

I still live in the darkness (I can't get away)

I'm in love with the heartless, I do all I can

I feel like it's all I know

Baby I can't let go

This monster I can't control

I hope the lord saves my soul (My soul)

I know I need you lord

Nothing that I need more

Keep my head in the clouds, keep my feet on the floor

Won't you pray for me, pray for me, pray for me

Won't you pray for me, pray for me, pray for me

I live in the darkness

I'm in love with the heartless oh yes I am

I still live in the darkness (I can't get away)

I'm in love with the heartless, I do all I can

I feel like it's all I know

Baby I can't let go

This monster I can't control

I hope the lord saves my soul (My soul)

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I knew that I couldn't survive without you by my side

But I'm alive

I thought that it was more than a tattoo

Try not to get caught in the classroom

Tomorrow morning while the galaxy is forming

I'ma find a box of stories

Buried in the garden underneath the pouring rain

Never seen the storm before it came

Find the strength to forgive my jinx

Swim the length of the kitchen sink

Freedom of speech don't mean what you think

Hold that thought I'm 'bout to close the ink

Y'all know I never gave a frozen shit

I'm just trying to keep my head above the hopelessness

They wanna blow some kisses at the showmanship

Until they poking at your legacy with broken sticks

Yeah, here we go

I'm tryna be peaceful, keep on clashing with your ego

No logic or reason when speaking

Get peace and disagreements

Tell me what you really thinking when you're drinking

Know when niggas either say that you don't mean that

I heard that before, I don't believe it

Listen to people

They tell you everything in how they treat you

View kindness as weakness, say you don't need me

Hard to let go but I'm leaving faceless right now, what is easy?

Give the very least, that's exactly what you'll receive

What you see's your reflection of what you think you perceive

Don't make a promise you can't keep

But keep what needs to be released

Repeat the things that you should change

Your hands and clank can't point the blame, no you can't stay

You can't just take, reciprocate, make an exchange

I'm lighting sage to cleanse a space

Getting that bad energy up off of me

Replaced with inner peace

Fools call you so expose enemies with false identities

You're no friend to me so don't pretend to be

Yeah, I think I'm going down

Don't know what to do, I'ma drown

With you

With you, yeah

Yeah, I think I'm going down

Don't know what to do, I'ma drown

With you

With you, yeah

I been let down before, laying against this wall

Ain't no use in crying

When I'm sober I drink, always up when I sink

In a coma, I'm blinking

And in my own mistakes

Lay in my bed and rest, ain't no use in trying

When I'm shocked I won't shoot

Don't know what, they're trying to hurt me

Love me then desert me

Don't give me your mercy

Feel like my flesh burning

So let's start a fire

Goes on every hour

They trying to drown me

Feel like I am falling

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[beardon1212]

Men are assholes and liars

Women are bitches and sluts

More to be said about both

Maybe just maybe people in general suck.

Undetermined by gender or race

People suck no matter race or gender most are self righteous, selfish pieces of their own gratifying shit.

I'm not a piece of shit because I have a penis I'm a piece of shit if I make myself a piece of shit and act like it.

Stop this gender bullshit. People are shit.

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Greasy Grimy Gopher Guts; Poolside; 0 for 1 and don't forget spoons twice

Lukewarm folgers; mold on his moonpie

Rooms in his home that dissipate into fruit flies

Suicide lane wide load ride looting in the wake of an amicable marooning

My duty go from moving in packs to sharing food with a cat. [To Moms:] "it's me, I accidentally sawed a woman in half."

She said "I'll keep you in my prayers, " I said "I need to hide a body, " she said "ok honey, talk to you on Friday."

Apparently we share a common plasma so the growing disconnection doesn't matter. according to the blood-and-water chapter. weird

Who wrote the blood-and-water chapter anyway? probably some surly dad; only child, 30 cats.

Looking for a way to reconnect with an averted past.

Except it doesn't always work like that

Today I pulled three baby snakes out of moss and dirt; where the wild strawberry vines toss and turn;

I told them "you will grow to be something inventive and electric; you are healthy, you are special, you are present." then I let them go

You were sitting at the gate awaiting spirits and provisions

I was privy to a headache over pirouetting innards

In the mirror sweating pictures; who's there: simian or lizard?

As it were there is a disappearing difference

In ambition and material;

Antiquated gentleman outlaws reduced to a ferris wheel of vitriol

Move as a godless heathen; black gums, tooth gone, bootleg 'Yukon Cornelius'

I'm a... that's better, here we here we go. disenchanted face printed on a zero-dollar bill

Got a little plot of land where authority isn't recognized, contraband keeping the core of his Hyde Jekyll-ized

Check! nevermind a misanthrope vying for affection to the wretched sound of mysticism dying

It is something he must handle on his own; the wind blown way, wanna win? don't play

Today I pulled three green frogs out of leaf and bark where the grape vines climb a convenient barn;

I told them "you will grow to be something tenacious and exalted; you are mighty, you are gracious, you are lauded." then I let them go

I have been completely unable to maintain any semblance of relationship on any level

I have been a bastard to the people who have actively attempted to deliver me from peril

I have been acutely undeserving of the ear that listen up and lip that kissed me on the temple

I have been accustomed to a stubborn disposition that admits it wish it's history disassembled

I have been a hypocrite in sermonizing tolerance while skimming for a ministry to pretzel

I have been unfairly resentful of those I wish that acted different when the bidding was essential

I have been a terrible communicator prone to isolation over sympathy for devils

I have been my own worst enemy since the very genesis of rebels

Today I pulled three ghost crabs out of rock and sand, where the low tide showcased a promised land.

I told them "you will grow to be something dynamic and impressive; you are patient you are gallant you are festive."

Then I let them go

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2:30 in the mornin, I slipped in my sheets It takes like 3 fuckin' hours before I fall asleep But not tonight, vycodone pills are gonna knock me out And after that, it ain't nothin' but sweet dreams and puppy clouds Time rolls by, it's 4:45 and finally I'm able to close my eyes But once I do, the nightmare began I saw my ex-girlfriend with a dick in her hand And Ooh Look at that, it just happens to be mine It looks fine, but the bitch has got wings comin' out her spine What the fuck, I started to get dizzy, I'm scared Her tongue is on fire, and she got snakes in her hair She's got a spell on my legs, so I can't run She started talkin' to my dick, and she's speakin' in tongue (Mmmh) Fuck it, she sucked it, and told me that she loved it with a mouth full of somethin' You see, if I go to sleep you dance around in my thoughts And if I stay awake, suicide might get me shot If I go to sleep, you infect my soul And even when I'm awake you won't (Leave me aloonnnnnee!) I saw you in my dreams last night Saw you in my dreams, and I don't wanna go to sleep But can, 'cause you'll just haunt me some more I see you in my dreams, and it's not what it seems I see you on your knees, please get rid of these Wicked thoughts, that keep me from reality I see you losin faith all because of what you need Hey girl why don't you see me to I'm the rappin' motherfucker standin right beside you But you keep on this sin, what have you been in No soul, inner rise the demon within She ran away from everyone, not knowin' what to do She had to fuck with everyone, not knowin' how to choose I got to do somethin', what have I got to lose I'm a murder all these fools, and keep it cool Maybe I am dreamin' this because I wanna see I don't know why she needed to be that way All I need is to wake up, grab the .38 C and load it up And I fire up a philly 'cause I'm goin' out all g'd up I don't wanna go to sleep again, wanna kill that demon And my heart stops, I guess I wasn't really dreamin' Need my head, and I pray for my soul to stay clean Close my eyes, and recognize the dream I saw you in my dream last night Saw you in my dreams, and I don't wanna go to sleep But can, 'cause you'll just haunt me some more

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I only miss you when I'm breathing

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what a wicked thing to do

To make me dream of you

What a wicked thing to say

To make me feel this way,

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I'm barely alive

Pathetic my life

Blinded by the light

Blood is on my hands

I don't understand

Trying but I can't

Love is just a curse

Addiction that hurts

Nothing could be worse

Living is a gift

Life don't equal shit

Existence is sick

Can't remember names

Poison is the rain

Evil is to live

Everything I did

Wasn't enough

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[beardon1212]

When I look back on it all you realize nobody really gives a shit about you

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This really fucking blows. Just got here now I'm leaving.