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[beastspity]

𝐆𝐎𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐀, 𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐏𝐈𝐓𝐘. by percival.

❝ this is a story of hope ...

saint graph. meta analysis. rules under readmore.

hi it's me percival (he/him, 32), i used to run in the typemoon fandom like a million years ago. now i just vibe in isolaradiale mostly, but fgo gave me what i have been waiting for... for basically since time temple and i would be a whole sham if i didn't have. this.

i am not affiliated with the typemoon fandom and i am mostly a friends only blog because i am BUSY. i'm here to have fun.

i used to be @/pitiedthem and before that @/arsalmdel but of course. i classically forgot the login info.

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[arsalmdel]

SECRETS OF THE LESSER KEY

↳ HUMANITY, RITSUKA, CHALDEA

HUMANITY / O FRAGILE CREATURES, FOR YOU I WEEP.

i mentioned goetia as a deity & how he honestly can’t grasp humans. yeah, that’s the issue. he watched them struggle & yeah that hurt him a lot. goetia doesn’t hate humans at all, hatred didn’t drive his actions, love did. as hard as that may be to believe, a quote from nietzche will sum that up — what is done out of love is beyond good & evil. goetia is a deity, he doesn’t think like human beings at all, so humans will usually see his actions as evil, while he believes instead that if humans suffer until they die, to end them is to save them from suffering longer. i understand that’s terribly flawed, because as solomon says, goetia couldn’t understand that human love could make the suffering less. as a deity, he may never truly understand this concept.

he is incredibly jaded, that is true, & there’s no way around saying that he is disappointed & saddened that humans have become disconnected from nature, but that doesn’t mean he hates them at all. goetia is the beast of PITY, not of hatred, so arguably it isn’t even in his nature to hate. hatred comes in special cases, he does hate humans who do nothing to try to alleviate the suffering of others ( solomon ), or humans who make it worse.

it’s important to note that he is incredibly complex in his approach to interacting with humans ; he does want them to find a way to escape the suffering, so not only does he put obstacles in their paths, he gives guidance in various forms, revealing the nature of others to help humans avoid deception by other humans ( jason in okeanos is forneus, m.edea transforms him into this, but the transformation to the pillar is more the work of goetia, otherwise he may have simply become some other monster ). he chose to bend the vessels of his pillars in the manner that he does to teach humanity, he knows humans need concepts like good & evil, even though he believes those concepts to be bogus. some of his pillars give hints as to what will come next, they act to cause great changes to push humanity toward a point where they will in fact face goetia. the path he makes humans travel is to awaken ars almadel salomonis, so they will come face to face with him, the god who has challenged them to change the future & do the impossible.

RITSUKA / YOU, O CHOSEN ONE

first off goetia has watched ritsuka from the moment they arrived at chaldea. i will write a separate post about the demon pillars as his familiars but that’s how he did it. at the beginning of their time at chaldea, ritsuka is said to be a third rate mage, but they are the only master left when lev betrays chaldea. this was absolutely deliberate. as skilled as the other masters may have been, da v.inc’s opinion of kirishtaria is incredibly high & the initial a - team was made up of skilled magi, but as we also see, olga marie is a top mage but an abysmal master. bloodline is everything in power, but not in potential & goetia knows that.

ritsuka has the most potential as a catalyst for the future of humanity, so goetia of course would want them to survive lev’s attack. he sees ritsuka as a chosen one worthy to stand against the will of gaia. however, to test this, ritsuka’s travels in the singularities are goetia’s tests. when ritsuka passes them, of course, goetia has watched them grow from the third - rate they were believed to be into a top - ranking master, despite power, they have potential beyond any other.

ritsuka is not the only person that goetia has ever seen as a chosen one, but is the only chosen one he sees worthy to face him. if goetia is truly gaia, ritsuka is the champion of alaya, the will of humanity.

CHALDEA / & YET STILL YOU STRUGGLE TOWARD THE END

oh man ok so this is delving into an entire meta that i haven’t written yet that has to do with the demon pillars but uh for simplicity’s sake, know that the pillars are goetia’s familiars. the bodies that they have are extensions of himself, he can see through the eyes of those people. chaldea is an organization based on protecting ‘ human order ’. lev lainur flauros is of course one of the pillars, he is also the person who designed the S.HEBA near - future observation lens in 1999. goetia knew a lot about chaldea from the start, not only as a primordial with the ability to see the future & multiple pathways, but through the individuals who were involved.

through lev, goetia watched the growth of chaldea, which for a while made him believe that humans would be able to change the future. this eventually fell apart & goetia deemed chaldea to be fruitless. thus, he decided to use his influence over lev to destroy it, which clearly didn’t work.

for the short time that he watched chaldea through lev, he saw the bond humans shared with each other, & knowing that roman was there, even if he said nothing, goetia was a little less lonely. chaldea showed him bonds with humans via a proxy, flauros, his familiar, but in the end, it wasn’t enough.

[arsalmdel]

“how to love a god: i. stay away from him. legends are never boys. gods were never people. gods do not love. ii. despise him. who does he think he is? the proud jaw, those seaborne arms, fleeting sparrow-feet planted on the earth as if the world belonged to him? iii. watch. the quick turn of mouth, the gold of his hair backlit against the sun shining like a halo. if you get too close he’ll burn you to ash. if you get too close he’ll destroy you. iv. watch him watch you. v. when he kisses you back hold your breath. do not breathe. you are only a small and foolish boy chasing the tail of a meteor destined for the heavens. if you breathe, you will burn. vi. making love to him feels like building a home, doesn’t it? here, the oars of his shoulders. here, the temple of his thighs. here, his mouth whispering your name in worship. vii. when the war comes watch his laughter grow cold and his hands tender themselves red. that is a statue in your bed. that is a man turned to stone from ten thousand stares. viii. you put on his clothes on to save him from himself. you put his clothes on to spend your last breath inside him again. ix. you know what will happen and you do it anyway. you burn because this is what it means to love. this is what it means to fly. x. recall the tale of Icarus. choose to be Icarus.”

—

Natalie Wee // Patroclus Dreaming 

(Achilles Dreaming)

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[arsalmdel]

SECRETS OF THE LESSER KEY

↳ ARS PAULINA, MORTALITY, LOVING SOLOMON.

ARS PAULINA / THIS, THE PRISON OF THE FIRST CALAMITY

goetia fights ritsuka in a.rs paulina, where you flat out can’t die.  you LITERALLY can’t die there, but fuck you can be imprisoned there. goetia’s goal was in fact to ‘ die ’ with ritsuka in ars paulina because then ritsuka would also be trapped. obviously, that didn’t work well. it ended up with goetia trapped in ars paulina which is then sealed off from the rest existence. however, goetia qualifies both as grand caster but also due to the fall of the age of gods where the primordials were fucked, the beast class. well here’s a thing about the beast class

independent manifestation is a capacity that permits the unrestricted projection & materialization of the soul permitting the skillholder to freely manifest within a time period & location of one’s choosing. being that the skillholder’s soul fundamentally exists in a place beyond the boundaries of life & death & the limits of the history of man, time travel may be enacted at will ; & the projected flesh is in essence an immortal puppet controlled by the skillholder’s consciousness. in the final singularity of f.ate / g.rand o.rder, c.hloe von e.inzbern implies that the independent manifestation exhibited by g.oetia’s demon god pillars is comparable to the use of the third magic.

theres no time that passes in ars paulina, even if he’s been stripped of immortality, he’s still eternal there’s no time, he won’t age, he won’t die. time heals all wounds ? there’s no time, he isn’t healing emotionally & isn’t healing physically. the good news is he’s FROZEN IN TIME BASICALLY SO IT CAN’T GET WORSE but it also can’t get better

g.oetia is trapped in a place beyond the boundaries of life & death & the limits of the history of man, because that is EXACTLY WHAT ARS PAULINA IS, a deathless place. due to this, to summon him even as grand caster is basically goetia’s forced projecting from this place that has been cut off from Literally Everything. independent manifestation is the only beast class skill goetia possesses as grand caster, but it serves really as like a skill so deep in his essence originating as a primordial.

MORTALITY OF THE FALSE BODY / THE DEATH OF THE MIND  

just so everyone knows one of the things that scares goetia the most is the fact that he is very, very mortal. not like human lifespan mortal, but consciously he relies on humanity for his ‘ life ’. as his initial self is the primordial gaea, much as tiamat is a primordial creator deity, that aspect of him will never fade. however, much like tiamat, his sense of self is in fact very influenced by humanity. idk why tiamat is always my comparison but as beast of regression, she sure got shafted. once again, goetia is beast of pity, but basically he is very, very sad. as something divine, he can’t really be diagnosed because his thought processes, everything he perceives is so vastly different from humans, that’s even said in canon, he never thought like a human until solomon stripped him of his immortality.

after being stripped of immortality, being beaten a second time as the demon god, goetia confronts ritsuka & his body really isn’t in a great shape. well, there’s a reason for this & it isn’t actually solomon fucked him up. as the primordial gaea, the essence had no set shape, nor did gaea feel a need for gender presentation, because gaea never expected things to go down. solomon calls this essence forth. gaea becomes goetia, a primordial who presents male because the first thing he was ‘ aware ’ of is solomon who is in fact also male. if goetia had been called by a female, then the essence of gaea very well may have presented feminine. primordial goetia takes the golden form, but he has two arms & the void isn’t there. after solomon’s death, the primordial goetia gets a few hundred years as a ‘ deity ’, in which he retains the same form as he had as ‘ primordial goetia ’. then, the age of gods ends. goetia becomes the beast of pity, like other primordials, they get shafted. shafted i guess means goetia can still bend the logic of the universe to his will so my one (1) fear is what was he able to do as the primordial, & beyond that what is gaea’s true power ( i’ll bet that sort of power really reaches a multidimensional scale in which gaea would be able to access ‘ the alternate ‘ self ’ ’ but i digress ). beast of pity goetia takes the demon tree form.

later, beast of pity goetia is considered the aggregate body of 72 demons. this form is the same demon tree form. after solomon wrecks him, goetia’s aggregate body falls into disarray, thus when he faces ritsuka for the last time, he is ‘ goetia king of humans ’ he’s lost an arm & the void keeps him modest. this form, however, is literally the shell of everything he used to be.

following this, while his true self is in ars paulina, the projected form ( manifesting as the shiny gold but broken form ) is susceptible to ‘ death ’ by humans. if humans forget about gods, they lose their powers. already, the power of human influence over his form can be seen because of the forms he’s taken, solomon’s not counting. now, the issue is his mindset. if humans choose to forget him as they did to other gods, he may end up losing his sense of self, becoming for a time like tiamat who really can’t be said to have a sense of self anymore, & then his projected body will vanish, he will be fully returned to ars paulina.

LOVING SOLOMON / I HAVE LOVED YOU FOR ALL THAT YOU COULD HAVE BE & ALL YOU HAVE BECOME

as awful as it is , goetia left the body of solomon when he was in ars paulina so solomon’s body is there doing the same thing arthur’s body is doing in avalon being eternal & not rotting bc goetia preserved it by being eternal. the body, since goetia had been inhabiting it for so long & shed it in ars paulina, is still warm & the tragedy is that goetia has convinced himself that solomon never left him. he has convinced himself through this that solomon didn’t choose humanity over him & so he just uh cries & sometimes talks to solomon’s body & just pretends he’s asleep.

the reason goetia can’t stop loving solomon regardless is because he initially fell in love with an IDEAL, if goetia is pity then solomon is wisdom. over time, he loved solomon as a person beyond the ideal, but since he started loving an ideal, that concept, just like pity, can’t be taken away especially since wisdom is not restricted to humans, as it’s implied that the ‘ seven calamities ’  like pride, regression, lust etc.

but he’ll lie & say he doesn’t love solomon, he loves the IDEA of solomon but he does love solomon so much & it hurts so badly & he can’t make it stop & he hates this a lot.

[beastspity]

hey it's me percy i'm back with goetia from fgo. i don't have a fancy promo, but my god was i fed.