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wouldnt it be crazy if i was on here posting and it turned out i was someones full time dog.

#he/it tme 21 #general all around warning for this blog. if u dont want to see something have the Word Itself blocked #this blog is for whining and saying stuff im too shy to say on my main

this dream was crazy. sorry i don’t want to put it in the post so idk how i can introduce it. i guess i can put it under a cut

so okay let’s see. i was at my grandmas old house. there was some sort of game going on. i remember feferi, and i remember having to kill these… things, but not all of them so that she could lay her eggs. or something. i remember walking with my sister and his friend somewhere, and he died in a car wreck but he was fine. i met up with this guy i used to have a crush on. back at my grandmas house, different room, i wanted on the computer but my mom wouldn’t get off, so instead i made tea. usually it was bad but this time it was good because i added a lot of butter. we went to bed when i woke up (in my dream) it was cold and scary. my brothers were there and this was normal. i dont remember that part well. later we were at some sort of fair. i got on a train ride and had to contain someones cat who kept jumping off. it was okay it was cute. then i rode a horse which was funny for some reason. i had. like. a golden trinket from isaac. it made everyone like me. even though it was clearly a curved horn. there was one room where people were being picked to fuck and i got picked bc i was awesome. but we were just moved around, the sex never happened. i talked to a woman with me and we became friends. then i became. the lost. from isaac. i didnt have a holy mantle for some reason but i for sure was supposed to. i went home to get some sort of super dangerous helmet. uhh. the end

#there was a little more but eh

beatingadeaddog

im gonna start calling it my vanilla sex fetish because i want it irl about as much as i want to be eaten

beatingadeaddog

but but i think the fact i think of piv sex where i bottom when i think of sex for me (a gay man) is not. nothing

im gonna start calling it my vanilla sex fetish because i want it irl about as much as i want to be eaten

#im being a little silly here. most of this is probably more being trans than anything #of course i dont really like penetration im supposed to have a dick to wank off. but also shouldnt i like it #its like. idk. i should FEEL something nice going on and i dont. yknow. so its something. ive always blamed it on being autistic #i like rubbing my clit but i hate someone else doing it in the exact same way i do it. thats probably unrelated to being trans. but i do #think putting my dick in someone would do a lot for me. GOD i hate being trans. GRRR.

tarnishedbloopy

and it’s like not even inaccurate to link kinks to trauma bc wow yeah, our interests are informed by our life experience. but often times this is being framed as unique. as if vanilla sexual interests are *not* informed by trauma, and only deviations from “normal” sexual interests could possibly be the result of traumatic experiences.

when in reality, the cultural enforcement of vanilla sex is extremely brutal and traumatic! no one is born desiring the cultural construct of vanilla sex. desiring vanilla sex isn’t a genetically encoded baseline that trauma causes people to deviate from. it is just as learned as kink is.

morning nap dream.

#lets see. i was watching the baddiesmp videos so minecraft was in the background the whole time. i remember one of them was a woman who #textured everything purple and had animals in her inventory? and she had a boyfriend. he was like emo. she was too but in a different way.#this was all in minecraft but it didnt look like it. i remember being a cat and taking damage and i think the guy was doing something. but #liked it. bc. im a freak. then idk what happened. some cool minecraft build. then i was in a bathroom. a weird bathroom ofc. it had 3 doors #a big room and a smaller room. the smaller room was just a toilet but the bigger room had couches and a counter and also a toilet. and a #bathtub i think. i had a board game that had vague rules and there were 3. porn cards. they were like feral furry puppy porn and i was #desperate to see the cards. i saw two but they sucked ass and then people came in and i never could get my hands on the third really. i kep #trying. at some point danny gonzalez was there. probably bc the video is still playing. and im trying to get him to the play the game to se #the card. but then. i woke up. this was all so frustrating. i didnt even want to get off i JUST wanted to see!!!

can people be a little more careful liking posts. you know i do still get a notification on my phone right

#my sister will like and repost a video BEFORE WATCHING IT. CALM DOWN. youll still be able to like it when you finish!!!

hmm ive been vaguely interested in homestuck recently i wonder if i should— [erisol post] nvm

#shipping that in the big 2026. okay #i hate that fandom. im not usually like a fandom hater but good god

in middle school i was arguing with a friend about me being nonbinary and i was like “fine. dont talk to me or about me again” but before i could block him he was like “why would i talk about you.” unfortunately ate me up

#we never were friends again but hes cool now. hes gay and everything #i mean he was last time i checked.

people who dont make anything are not worth knowing. you gotta make something or it makes you yell at video games

#what do you mean you wont even try to draw. you have to do something. are u at least thinking of making something ever

my least favorite youtube joke is being like “a quick video about this background mario character” and its 2 hours long. like haha. no im not watching that. stop it

couldnt for the life of me figure out why my thighs hurt so bad until i remembered i did like 6 very deep squats to brag about how deep i can squat

#i hate that word. but anyway

beatingadeaddog

people make jokes but i feel like adult stepsibling incest isnt even incest. thats just like someone else. if my adult mom wants to date a guy and i want to date that guys son maybe its weird but like its definitely. not incest. the joke doesnt even work at that point

beatingadeaddog

if stepsibling incest is bad bc their parents are married does getting divorced change anything or is that whole family off the table now.

#guy who marries and divorces everyone in the city so his kid cant date anyone

beatingadeaddog

people make jokes but i feel like adult stepsibling incest isnt even incest. thats just like someone else. if my adult mom wants to date a guy and i want to date that guys son maybe its weird but like its definitely. not incest. the joke doesnt even work at that point

beatingadeaddog

chad chad is very funny but serving time? for dating a man who is unrelated to you and you met yesterday? no

people make jokes but i feel like adult stepsibling incest isnt even incest. thats just like someone else. if my adult mom wants to date a guy and i want to date that guys son maybe its weird but like its definitely. not incest. the joke doesnt even work at that point

someone on twitter asked if “that made bro pussy wet” was transphobic if said to a trans man but unfortunately they played themself bc it made me think about it for 5 seconds and come to the conclusion that the entire joke is that a) hes gay and b) hes so gay and unmanly he has a pussy. so. its actually transphobic. when said to anyone

#and now ill never hear it again :)#ppl love to defend this by saying you say it to people not comfortable in their masculinity but that just never tracks. so the joke is hes #gay and thats funny bc he doesn’t wanna be. wowwwe. hahahah. :|

beatingadeaddog

im trying so hard to not be like “and shes not even a lolicon” but like the amount of people who will see one post and assume so many things about her. like its so basic. its “you dont have to be gay to think gay rights are good” level basic. but like shes trans and she thinks about her beliefs instead of just having them bc theyre obviously true (obviously) so she must JERK OFF WANK IT RUB HER DICK PENIS (she has a penis btw) (probably) (bc shes trans) to loli porn

beatingadeaddog

i will defend the right to eat spaghetti even if its absolutely disgusting to see and hear and taste and this fact is obvious and comes naturally to me. this is because morals arent about what i like

#her example of the scat fetish is really good and shows the repulsiveness of being accused of something you find gross just bc you think #its alright to do. she does such a good job and makes the point so well i couldnt bear to repost it. bc it was gross

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